Previously:"Bella please speak to us"

"He should've said no" was what I told them before I drove off.

(Bella POV)

I think it's safe to say I'm pretty much over Edward. Since our break-up I've been working on a song well songs and I've just finished one called 'Smile'. School is hell. Every Cullen is trying to get me to talk to them, they said Eddie had broken up with Tanya and that he loved me. I stayed silent.

When you first left me I was wanting moreBut you were fucking that girl next door, what cha do that for (what cha do that for)When you first left me I didn't know what to sayI never been on my own that way, just sat by myself all day

When I got home after I left the Cullens I went home and sat, numb, on my bed. My mind reeling, going over the day. No tears fell or filled my eyes; I had cried them all out.

I was so lost back thenBut with a little help from my friendsI found a light in the tunnel at the end

I hat told Jacob and the pack at a bonfire that me and Edward had broken up. Jake kept an eye on me, probably to make sure I didn't go back into depression. Paul offered to beat him up for me, me and him had gotten somewhat close. I reminded Paul of the treaty, he grumbled for the rest of the bonfire, that is until the booze came out.

Now you're calling me up on the phoneSo you can have a little whine and a moanAnd it's only because you're feeling alone

Edward called, I let it go to voicemail, he told me he loved me and wanted to meet up with me. I sent him a text Not fucking likely.

At first when I see you cry,yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smileAt worst I feel bad for a while,but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

I look back on the day I confronted him, the thought brought a smile on my face. I admit I felt bad for him for a while then I remind myself of what he had done I let myself go and smile. I did it during lunch once, people edged away from me

"Finally lost it" I heard Lauren mutter. Fuck you bitch.

Whenever you see me you say that you want me backAnd I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack

I couldn't stop laughing, no I just couldn't help myselfSee you messed up my mental health I was quite unwell

Edward got that depressed he gave everyone a message to tell me what he had been telling me all fucking week. I got home and I laughed, I laughed until tears ran down my face and my stomach hurt. I guess Lauren was right.

I was so lost back thenBut with a little help from my friendsI found a light in the tunnel at the endNow you're calling me up on the phoneSo you can have a little whine and a moanAnd it's only because you're feeling alone

After we broke-up I had a couple days off school, I didn't know what to do then I went to the bonfire that I told you about. Everyone cheered me up, now every time they see him they think inappropriate things, I'm not ashamed to say I encouraged them. Emily, Kim and even Leah dressed me up and we went to a club called Midnight (I made that up). Edward called again during that time and I still giggle at the memory. We and Paul were dancing to Jay Sean's 'Down' I knew with his vampire hearing he could hear everything so I pushed back against Paul, making him growl, I know it was only for a joke but growling turned me on and I reacted more. I slid myself up and down his body my hand trailing down his chest, all the while talking to Eddie listening to him whine and growl. I moaned when Paul turned me round and grinded my hips into his. I could hear Eddie growling over the music. His growling did nothing to me, Paul's turned me on. And I knew he knew it because he had a smirk on his face, that or he could smell my arousal. Probably both.

At first when I see you cry,yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smileAt worst I feel bad for a while,but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

The following night I saw Eddie at the bottom of my yard, sobbing. I felt a little pull on my heart strings but visions of him and Tanya wavered in and out of my mind. I shut the window and the curtains. I fell asleep soundly.

lalalaAt first when I see you cry,yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smileAt worst I feel bad for a while,but then I just smile I go ahead and

I think Rosalie was done trying to reason with me because when I was walking to the store she stopped me

"Do you honestly not care or feel anything knowing my brother is hurting?" she asked me.

"Yes, I feel mad for a while, but then I just smile" to prove it I grinned at her, showing all my teeth and carried on, leaving her shocked.

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Kathryn