The pounding on the inside of her skull beat her awake. Jade looked around, eyes still blurry from sleep. She silently groaned. How did I get in the RV?, she wonders. Then she remembers Beck taking her there after school. She looks for the clock. It's 2:57 in the morning. How long have I been sleeping?

She looks to the left of her. Beck laid there with his head resting on the back of the couch. He was fast asleep, snoring softly. His arm still rested on her shoulder.

Jade let out a sigh. She loved that boy. He was the only one brave enough to be with her. He was the only one that would be so sweet to someone so vicious.

Jade slipped out from underneath his arm, careful as not to wake him. She lifted her fingers up to his hair and brushed her fingers softly over it. Oh, how she loved that soft beautiful hair of his. She lightly kissed his cheek. He started to stir a bit, reaching as if to pull Jade closer. Jade watched as her sleeping boyfriend frowned when there was nothing to reach for. He flung his head to the side and sighed. For a moment Jade thought he was waking up, but soon he settled down, continuing his slumber.

Jade quietly moved to the tiny bathroom in the RV. After shutting the door and clicking the light on she looked in the mirror. She looked like crap and she knew it. Her hair was a mess. So was her makeup. Her eyes looked tired. She looked tired. Probably because she was. She was so tired of just about everything lately.

Her head ached, making her quickly shut off the light to reduce the pain it caused. She felt tired and weak, although she just woke up from a lengthy sleep.

Her stomached gurgled beneath her shirt. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. She knew the pain all too well. Hunger. Hunger that she'd been successfully ignoring for four days now. She didn't need to eat. She didn't need the calories. She didn't the stress. The stress of juggling schoolwork, her family, Beck and the trouble of exercising to avoid the weight gain. It was so much easy to skip meals and deal with the pain.

Eating was for special occasions. Holidays, parties, dates. Even then it never stayed inside her for long. A quick trip to the restroom would fix her.

She stared at her stomach in the mirror. Fat. She pinched the skin on her stomach. There shouldn't be anything to pinch. Maybe if she kept this up she'd finally be thin.

Thin. Thin like Tori freaking Vega or Cat. They were skinny. They were pretty. As far as the outside went, they were perfection. And Jade wanted some of that.

Jade must have been in the bathroom for a while, because when she stepped out the little clock read 6:16 a.m. She didn't want to talk the risk of waking Beck, so she decided to crawl into his bed instead of snuggling close to him.

That was another thing that stuck on her mind. Beck. She knew that he knew. He always knew when she was tired or sick or miserable. And she knew that he knew something wasn't right. She also knew that if she didn't really watch herself he would know more than she wanted him to.

As much as she loved Beck this wasn't something she could let him find out. She'd been slipping. She let herself act in a strange way. She couldn't let the pain and fatigue get in the way of this secret. He couldn't know that his girlfriend, who was perfect for him, was so completely imperfect. Yes, he knew she was a bitch and hard to handle. But this? This was on a totally different level. This was her secret. And she wasn't about to blow it.

She would act herself again. She would ignore the aches in her body. She would not fall asleep early, no matter how tired she was. She would hide this better. She would strut down the hallway, coffee in hand, barking at everyone in her way like she had always done before. She would go on living and everything would be just peachy.

She heard Beck stir. Beck's eyes fluttered open. The first thing he noticed was that Jade was no longer at his side. He looked around and his eyes fell on Jade laying in bed. From what he could tell, she was sleeping.

He called to her anyway. "Jade?" He asked groggily.

"Hmm?" She responded.

"You're awake?"

"Cleary." She said, sounding more like herself than she had in days. Beck smiled a bit at the sound of her voice…the voice he was so used to. The way her voice should be. Bratty and rude and he loved it.

"What are you doing over there?" He asked her, stretching his arms over his head.

"Woke up. I was cold. So I wanted to cover up."

"Oh. Alright. How you feeling?" He asked her cautiously.

"Fine? Don't ask stupid questions. You know I hate that." She was sounding a lot better than she had in the past few days.

Beck smiled. He hopped off the couch and joined his girlfriend on the bed, giving her a kiss on the lips.

"Say you love me." She demanded as she leaned her head over and onto his chest.

"Magic word?" He asked.

"Please." She responded, glancing up at his deep brown eyes.

"I love you." He told her. It was enough to bring a tiny smile to her face. Jade West did not smile. And this was the closest thing to a smile she could bring herself to.

"How about I take the most beautiful girl in the world out for a nice Saturday morning breakfast?" He smiled to her.

"No. I just got my period. I'm feeling really bloated. Plus, I already ate a granola bar a little while ago…I was hungry." Jade responded, quickly, spitting the little lie out of her mouth like it was nothing. Anyway to avoid a bad situation was the way she'd take. However, she couldn't help but feel a little guilty.

"Can we tomorrow?" She asked.

Beck nodded. "Yeah, that's cool with me."

Jade buried her head deep into his chest and let out a sigh. She knew she'd have to face eating eventually. But for now she could put it off one more day. One more day. She'd cross one bridge at a time.

Beck rubbed her hair gently, taking in the moment. He breathed in the scent of her hair, which he'd always found soothing to him. Jade always smelled like a mix between peppermint and vanilla, a soft smell it was.

He moved his hand down to her back and gently massages her with one hand. He lived for the moments like this. He loved to just be with the girl he loved. No one needed to speak much. Just being in the moment itself was enough for him. What made it even better to him was thinking that his girlfriend was feeling better than she had been. He had no idea how wrong he really was. Maybe Jade herself, didn't know either.

Jade has all the answers doesn't she? Isn't she clever? Leave me a nice little review and we will find out.