BITCH

By Meredith Brooks

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

Have you ever got the feeling that the whole world is watching you and really…nobody is? When you find out that nobody is really watching you…you feel like a fool. You feel that nobody cares about you? It's a mixture of feelings.

The Clicking clacking of heels in the halls made everyone turn. She was back…the bitch was back. Or would it be McBitch? Anyway…she was back from LA. Miss Addison Montgomery. She walked down the hall in her slinky black fur coat. She was taking off her gloves as she walked down the hall. The interns' heads turned as she walked down. She knew where she was heading…she was heading to Chief Webber's office…to possible beg for her job back.

"Addison, you're back?" Chief Webber asked when he saw the woman at his door. She looked at him with the care she had for him. He knew how much she cared for him, but she ran away…got a new job, left him all alone.

"Richard…I feel so bad for just running away. It's just…" Richard stopped Addison with just his hand. He knew what had happen. Alex Karev told him everything and he knew that Addison was disappointed when she didn't get the job as chief, but then again…no one did. He was just frustrated with her.

"Addison, I know what you want. You want your job back. But I have to tell you…we received a lot of excellent candidates for the job and I think that I should see them too. You had your chance and you dropped it." Richard knew that in his heart he was lying. There was no one else. She was the only one. He wanted to be firm with her, want to put a boundary up for her.

"Are you sure you can't do anything? After all…I was your best student. Aw…come on Richard, there must be something?" Addison persisted with the begging. She wanted her job back really bad. She wanted to leave L.A. behind. She wanted to leave Peter and her friend Naomi all behind. She wanted nothing to do with them.

"Addison…I just wish that you can understand my position. There are other people who want this job." As he said that…Derek came in.

"Richard…I just want you to take a look at…" He stopped. He saw Addison. "Hello Addison, I see you're back. Uh…Richard, I need to talk to you private." Derek pulled Richard. Richard excused himself and went out.

"What is it, Derek?" Richard expected Derek to tell him something about a patient, but he was wrong.

"Richard, you have to ask Addison to take her job. I am tired of trying to take care of pregnant women and tell them to go somewhere else. PLEASE hire her back." Derek sounded almost in despair. Richard knew that he was right. He went back into the office and told Addison that she was hired. Addison smiled and smiled at Derek.

Addison went straight to work. She went to her regular office. It was empty. She knew that she needed to get everything back in order. Callie was walking by her door, reading something on a clipboard. She walked right past the door, but then backed-up.

"Addison, you're back? Oh my God, you back!" Callie went up to her best friend to embrace her. Addison returned her sign of affection.

"Yeah, LA wasn't for me. I just like Seattle. You know…the rain, the people. In LA, everything was so weird. It was always sunny, but it didn't feel right. Anyway, enough about me, what about you, how's George?" Addison asked with a quirky smile.

"Uh…we're thinking about getting a divorce. He had an affair with Izzie Stevens." Callie became upset. Addison tried to make her feel better. Addison tried to comfort her by tell her that maybe Mr. Right will come along. Callie told her no sweat.

"So, anything else while I was gone? Beside Burke running away and that whole Alex and Ava thing? I got your letters." Addison walked around the room. Callie shook her head. Addison chuckled. She knew that she had a lot to do in this old office. "I have some boxes in the trunk. Want to help me unload things?" Addison asked her best friend.

"I'm sorry, I have work to do, but I'll see you at lunch, right?" Callie asked. Addison nodded. She felt alone. She thought everyone would be thrilled to have her back. The true was that other than work related it, nobody really missed her. Meredith was thrilled she was gone. So were her friends. Nobody really did miss her, except for Callie. Callie and….