Hey guys! Oh my goodness it has been 45 days since I updated, sorry! Honestly, I'm welllll into this fanfic. I planned on putting it all up at once, because I felt better about it that way. So I wrote fervently, sometimes doing three chapters at once. However, I found myself... not quite inspired. When I started this story, I thought of it about 10AM. I pondered over it, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I felt drained from writing so much... like it wasn't good- too rushed. So I stopped thinking about it, period. I thought about writing more, but life happened, then I found myself on vacation... blahblahblah. Then last night, as I'm going to bed, I think about my fanfic. That night, I kid you not, I dreamt I was on a date with Edward AND Jacob. It was pretty much amazing, cause I got to kiss Edward in my dream. :) But, I woke up and couldn't stop thinking about the dream either. I came back inspired and ready to write (lol how sappy) so yeah. Here it is. Chapter 3 will be up soon. :) :) :) Thanks for reading- please review if you have anything meaningful to say. (that includes critiques, I want to know how to make it better)

The following Saturday, I woke up early to head to La Push. Jacob called me around 8 and said he wanted to talk to me. So, wearing jeans, a long sleeved t-shirt, and my ever-present rain jacket, I drove to La Push in a light layer of rain. The rain made me feel safe, surprisingly. Having the rain ever-present rain made me feel protected- it was predictable and I felt safe near it. I pulled into Jake's driveway to find him waiting for me with an umbrella.

"Thanks, Jake." I said, running to underneath the rain's cover. He led me into his house and I began to take off my jacket.

"No, no, no. I want you to come outside with me."

I snorted. "Have you been outside, Jacob? It's raining like crazy."

"Please, Bella. There's a place we can stay out of the rain."

"Fine." I agreed, but quickly added my own fine print, "But if I get wet, we go inside."

"I won't get you wet." He gave me an umbrella then opened his back door for me. He led me gently with his hand on the small of my back, gently guiding me to his shed.

"Jake, I've been here a thousand times, you could have just told me that's where we were going."

He was silent. "Sit, sit." He encouraged.

"Jake, what's this about?"

"Bella, just let me talk right now."

"You know how Edward is a vampire?"

"Yeah, of course, but Jacob, please I know you don't like him. You don't have to say it." I crossed my arms over my chest, trying to disguise the way I held my heart together when his name was mentioned. It wasn't fair of Jacob to throw his name around like it was a part of my daily life- didn't he know how much it hurt?

He placed one finger on my lips. "That's not what this is about. But vampires aren't the limit to the supernatural. I'm… a werewolf."

"Pwhahah! Jacob, seriously."

"No, I really am. I'm serious. I can phase if you… want." The sides of my lip turned downward from their former smile. Suddenly, he walked to the opposite side of the shed, then back again. And again, and again. He was pacing; he was anxious, jumpy and very obviously troubled. He was serious.

"No, I … I mean…just, uh, go, on. I mean… Jake, I…" I counted to ten to make my thoughts coherent. "Go on."

He nodded slightly then continued, "Well, Sam's whole little 'group' turned out to be a pack of werewolves. Turns out the legends were true."

He looked down as if he was embarrassed by this fact. How was he supposed to know half-men, half-wolves were real? "Aw, Jake, if you think I'm not gonna like you anymore, you're so wrong. You'll always be my best friend."

"No, umm. It's not like that. There's more. We do this thing called imprinting. It's really just a bunch of crazy legends. It's like when you see a girl, you know she is the one for you. Automatically. You'll do absolutely anything in the world for that person. I talked to Sam; he imprinted on Emily. And, well, Bella, the way I feel about you is so… strong. Every fiber of my being wants to protect you, to hold you, to make you my own. Whenever I see you, I want to give you everything you desire."

I opened my mouth to interject logic, but he hushed me with his finger again.

"Let me finish." He said simply before continuing. "You are everything I'd ever wanted, and everything I didn't think existed until I saw you. I love you in a way that I didn't even think was real. I've imprinted on you, Bells. I don't know if I can ever leave you."

Slowly, during his speech, he gravitated towards me until he was inches from my face; he took my head tenderly in his hands and placed it on his chest. Something warm and wet touched my scalp; was he crying? Inside, my heart was breaking. I loved Edward, but I also loved Jacob. How much, though?

"I, uhh, Jacob…" I waited a moment, I didn't know how to tell him. "…Edward."

The simple word Edward was all the explanation he needed to know how I felt right then.

"I know, but Bella- I LOVE YOU. More than I love myself."

"Jacob, I can't do this to you. I'm in love with Edward. I've already loved and lost, been there done that. I'm no good for you. I've been too hurt; I can't love again. I'm sorry I did this to you."

I ran out of the shed into the now pouring rain and the tears starting falling hard. Jacob ran after me and put his brawny hand on my shoulder to stop me from going any farther.

"Bella, don't apologize! You did nothing. I wish you'd think about it. I can be good for you. Better than your bloodsucker ever was. I'm ten times more human than him."

"That's not what I need!" I screamed at him. How dare he open the Edward-file?! And to jeer at him, no less.

"Bella just hear me out. Remember yesterday, you fell asleep on my lap. Obviously, you like me too! Why don't you just give this a shot?"

My frantic breathing started to calm. But I wasn't going to be convinced that easily.

"Jacob- I love Edward. He was… is… my everything. He gave me life, he lit up my world and I can never love like that again. Ever."

But Jacob was persistent. "Just try, Bella. Imprinting isn't something you can turn off if the person doesn't want you back- I'm never going to be able to leave you alone. I need you like I need oxygen, if you aren't safe and happy, I can't be either."

The tears streamed even heavier; Jake noticed. "I'm not expecting you to love me today or tomorrow, or even next year. But I am in love with you, Bells. And I just want to be with you. Okay? Okay, Bells?"

I nodded through my tears. "Now there," he said, "you look beautiful."

Jacob pushed the hair out of my eyes and wiped my tears. He gently held my chin up to his face. I found myself standing tiptoe to see his face.

"I love you." He said.

"Jake, please don't."

"Of course."

His toothy grin appeared and I knew this was the only way. "One kiss, please Bella?"

I couldn't kiss him. "It's not that easy, Jacob."

"Please, Bella. All I've wanted since I first imprinted was to kiss you. Please grant my wish."

The next thing I knew, his rough scent was too close to me, his large hands wrapped protectively around my waist drawing me closer. He leaned in to kiss me, but I pushed him away as hard as I could. "I. Can't."

Jacob, finally, understood. Better late than never. "Okay."

"I think I need to go home."

"Fair enough, but call soon, okay?"

"Of course, Jake." That much I could do.

He walked me to my car and then hugged me in a bear hug with his gigantic arms. "I love you, Bells."

I didn't look up to meet his eyes; he couldn't see me cry this hard. He might never let me leave, and I needed time to think.

"Bye, Jacob."

The smile of my best friend Jacob emerged and I was able to accept that smile and drive away without being insane.