Poof Kakashi disappeared and Naruto received a hit to the head.
"I thought I said no weapons" sighed Kakashi.
Naruto spun round "I thought you said no ninjutsu" pouted Naruto.
"Well if I didn't you would of hit me, were only sparing" Kakashi said sternly.
"Oh er yeah, sorry about that" chuckled Naruto nervously as he rubbed his head.
"It's not like you that, is something wrong?" puzzled Kakashi.
"Erm no I just got caught up in the moment that's all" grinned Naruto nervously.
"I see, well then I'll let you face a more aggressive partner" said Kakashi "Sakura it's your turn" shouted Kakashi. Naruto gulped nervously as Sakura grinned at him while she cracked her knuckles.
They spent the next couple of hours sparing each other, well I say sparing when Naruto was actually avoiding every hit that Sakura threw at him because he knew far to well that if she hit him then it would well and truly hurt.
"C'mon Naruto, it might be nice if you tried to throw a punch" sighed Sakura as another innocent tree was destroyed by her fist.
Naruto leaped at her with his fist clenched but got distracted by his depressed thoughts and missed Sakura completely. On the other hand, Sakura aimed a punch with her opposite hand and hit Naruto straight in his face and the pure power of the punch sent Naruto smashing through several trees and eventually landing in a pile.
"NARUTO!" Sakura shouted while he ran after him.
Kakashi sighed while still looking at his book and sitting in a tree.
Naruto was sat up rubbing the back of his head while breathing through gritted teeth "Argh" he winced "damn that hurt".
"I'm so sorry Naruto,I didn't mean to hit you that hard. I thought you were going to dodge it" apologised Sakura as she looked at Naruto who had a lovely back eye now that swelled and closed his eye shut.
"It's alright Sakura-chan, I suppose I deserved that for letting my guard down haha" grinned Naruto.
They walked back to meet Kakashi who was now leant against a tree as he looked up at his two students.
"I guess Sakura got you big time Naruto" chuckled Kakashi. "I suppose we should call it a day, the sun is beginning to set" smiled Kakashi as he saw the sky change to a burning orange and the night begin to set in.
"Hey Naruto, you want to get something to eat? I'm buying!" said Sakura sweetly.
"I'll catch up with you in a bit, I'm going to sort my eye out" smiled Naruto.
"I'll come with you Sakura since your buying" smiled Kakashi.
Sakura pouted at him "I knew you would take up he offer, cheap skate" she huffed.
They said their goodbyes as Sakura and Kakashi waved and disappeared into the restaurant district of Konoha. The night was drawing in, the streets were lit up by several hand made lanterns that had different patterns on. Konoha was buzzing with people and their families all smiling and cheering. Naruto walk through the streets with his hands in his pockets and he looked down at the ground as he walked home. He saw all the different families and friends all enjoying the celebration of the anniversary of the nine tails attack of when the 4th Hokage saved the village. Naruto felt alone amoung the joyful people. He heard a few comments about the attack and how people had lost dear family and friends, it was all just upsetting to him. He breathed a sigh of relief as he reach his home.
He placed a pack of ice over his injured eye which relieved the swelling. He could eventually open it again but when he looked in the mirror he saw the gruesome black and blue bruise surrounding his eye. He saw his younger self next to him in the mirror, crying while holding a hand over a black eye that he got from a villager and he remembered the comments he got "get away from here fox brat!" some would screech. "Whatever you do, don't go near THAT child!" mothers would order as she hurried her children away from him. "You demon, stay away from here! Why don't you just get out of the village?" others would say while usually beating him.
Naruto turned away from the mirror and held his head in his hands "it was never my fault, I never asked to be the Jinchuriki. I just want to be Hokage someday" Naruto mumbled to himself. He got off his bed, he felt alone and went to the place he found comforting.
He headed for the Hokage wall and sat on top of the 4th Hokage's head. He hugged his knees close to him and rested his chin on them and looked up into the night sky. Fireworks were set off from down below in the village and released beautiful colours that lit up the night sky. Naruto watched in admiration and lifted his spirits a little.
"I wish you could be here, I wish you could be here to celebrate my birthday and watch the fireworks with me" sighed Naruto as he pictured his parents faces that smiled back at him.
Kakashi and Sakura had been waiting for Naruto for over an hour and were beginning to get worried.
"You'd think he'd be here by now since I'm buying him a meal" sighed Sakura
"I'll go and see what he's up to" sighed Kakashi as he left.
Kakashi check Naruto's apartment and to his shock it was empty. He jumped across the roof tops to scan the area below for the blond haired ninja. He looked up at the Hokage wall and noticed a figure on top of the fourths head and betted it was Naruto.
He land silently on the 4th Hokage's rock face and noticed Naruto sitting there while hugging his knees and he went and crouched down next to him.
"Naruto? What are you doing up here?" Kakashi asked while cocking his head slightly.
"Every year I dread this day, it's been 16 years now" said Naruto who didn't move, he just continue to stare out into the night sky.
"It's your birthday, you should be enjoying yourself" smiled Kakakashi.
"I was born a monster and my birthday reminds me every year that I was born to live a life of hatred and suffering" said Naruto with a depressed tone.
"Your not a monster" said Kakashi as he sat down next to Naruto.
"The day I was born, the trouble began for the leaf village. I'm nothing but a burden"
Kakashi starred at his student, this was not like him at all. He looked at the boys eyes, they weren't the usually bright and happy blue, they were dull and lifeless.
"I know that I'm not the only person to grow up without parents like Iruka or Sasuke but they don't carry the beast that killed their parents inside of them" Naruto said as he sighed.
Kakashi was silent as he remembered his childhood, all alone with no parents and living alone without having the warmth or love of them.
"I remember how the villagers used to treat me, beating me, shouting at me and always shunning me away and staring at me when I was around. I know they aren't like that any more but they still exist, those faces, in my memories and nightmares. It reminds me that I am a beast." sighed Naruto as he moved his head further into his arms.
"If you are a beast then why are you protecting the ones you love? I thought you wanted to be Hokage one day?" said Kakashi gently.
"Hokage? Fuck that. I can't even bring Sasuke back, how can I be Hokage when I let my closest friend disappear from my life? Don't you understand how much that hurts?" Naruto snapped.
"I understand what it is like to lose a friend, I lost both of my closest friends" whispered Kakashi.
Naruto didn't flinch.
"Most shinobi's lose friends in their lives. It's just a part of the job" sighed Kakashi remembering Obito and Rin.
"My parents told me to look after the leaf village. I don't know if I can do that. The nine tails inside of me has caused so much trouble. The Akatsuki are after me and they have caused so much trouble in this world. I lost my sensei to the Akatsuki, if I wasn't the Jinchuriki of the nine tails then he might still be alive. The Akatsuki got Gaara too and killed him" tears began to form in his eyes and roll down his cheek but he still had the same emotionless look on his face "the village was destroyed because of me and many were killed, including you Kakashi-sensei"
Kakashi was shocked to hear the words come out of his students mouth. He was usually enthusiastic and optimistic with a keen determination. He was always the one to say positive things and cheer everyone up. Now he was emotionless and a lot looked like his soul and dreams were dying inside of him.
"Naruto" Kakashi began as he put his arm around Naruto "this isn't like you. Why are you looking at thing so negatively? Master Jiraiya did his duty as a shinobi just like you did and passed on his will of fire to you. You change lady Chiyo's heart which lead to Gaara being revived. For the village, you stopped all of the Pain's and it was you who convinced Nagato to have a change in his thoughts and made him revive the dead. Your parents would be proud" smiled Kakashi as he moved closer to Naruto to reassure him.
The tears became heavier in his eyes as he cried harder and sniffed before he answered "all these years I have suffered so much and more suffering is to come and it is all because I exist in this world. I don't know if I can take much more" Naruto began to clench his fists as his emotions over came him "I just want to be happy, why is it so had for me to have that when I did nothing wrong?" he buried his head in his knees and cried into them.
Kakashi listened the the muffled sniffs and gasps for air from Naruto. He knew he was suffering deeply, his heart was such a fragile one. He maybe a strong person on the outside but on the inside he was I so much pain. He held Naruto close to him.
"Well you've got me and Sakura. Iruka-sensei has looked after you and watched over you for along time, don't you remember him saying you are like his little brother?" Kakashi could feel Nartuo calming "you can be happy, you have many people who are your friends like Yamato, Sai, Shikamaru, Choji, Ino, Hinata, Shino, Kiba, Akamaru, Tenten, Lee and Neji" said Kakashi gently.
Naruto's head emerged and he looked out into the night once again. "Sometimes I come up here and wonder if I jumped from here, would it be high enough to kill me. That way the nine tails would be gone and get rid of a heck of a lot of trouble in this world and I'd finally be at peace and be with my parents I so long to see again".
Kakashi was horrified to hear the mentioning of suicide and remembered seeing his own father committing suicide in front of his eyes.
Kakashi grabbed Naruto by the shoulders and shook him "how can you think like that?! Where's the Naruto Uzumaki I know? The one who wants to be Hokage? The one who wants to protect everyone?The one who wants to be respected by everyone?" shouted Kakashi.
Naruto starred at Kakashi and anger came to his face and started pounding Kakashi with his fists "don't you get it? I've spent all these years suffering, I've lived alone all my life and it's all because of this darn nine tails and if I die then the fox dies as well so that means the Akatsuki can never finish their plans and the world would be saved" he began to cry again as he started to hit Kakashi again but much weaker "a stone face can't say welcome home or well done for completing a mission, I didn't have anyone there when I finished at the academy. I've been alone for so long and I lost Sasuke as well, I just want to be loved" he grabbed Kakashi's flak jacket and tugged at it while his face fell into and he sobbed.
Kakashi looked down at the heart broken boy and hugged him, he understood what it is like to not have any parents and he just wanted to comfort the boy. Over the years he has watched how people have treated him and seen him grow and get stronger day by day. He understood that Naruto was hurting on the inside and just needed to tell someone.
"Well if you died then you could never control the nine tails power like Minato wanted and how could we bring Sasuke back if you were gone? I know life has been hard for you and I can't begin to imagine how painful life has been. But we still need you, how do you think we'd feel if you were gone? Like Iruka, Sakura, Yamato, Sai and all of our comrades? You wouldn't want them to be upset that you died because of suicide" he could feel Naruto calming from his gentle words "besides you need to become Hokage, lady Tsunade isn't going to be there forever and I certainly don't want you to die so young".
Kakashi took out a present from his pouch and took his arms away from Naruto.
"I was told to give this to you when you were older but I think now would be the best time to give it you, I've held onto it for the past 16 years" said Kakashi as he gestured the present towards Naruto.
Naruto sat up and wiped his tears away and looked down at the package in his lap. It was wrapped in brown paper and tied up with string in a neat little package. Naruto opened it and what he saw made his eyes wide and his mouth drop.
Here you go a nice long chapter for a good read ^^! I am enjoying writing this little story and I started crying as I wrote it because I could picture Naruto's face :(
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