A/N I've decided to add this chapter straight away, I hope you all like it, please remember to read and review, the story is inspired by the song 'You are not alone' By Michael Jackson.

Shooting Star

Chapter 1 ~ you are not alone

Rachel woke in a cold sweat, the tears falling freely as she curled herself up into a little ball, pulling the covers over her head; she had been having the same dream for the past few days. Sometimes it was exactly like it happened, and other times little bits changed, but the one thing that always remained the same was Sarah never coming home. If only it was a dream, she jumped out of bed, almost running to Billy's room, Maybe it was a dream she thought to herself as she swung the door open loudly, causing Billy to look over at her in concern.

"Rach ..." His voice soft as he moved from Sarah's side of the bed, over to his oldest daughter who almost instantly crumbled to the floor, her whole body shaking as she sobbed into her hands. Billy knelt down and pulled her into his arms, letting her cry as much as she needed, it was really beginning to worry him, every night she had been coming in like this, thinking her dream was just a nightmare, eager to see Sarah there and have her reassurance that none of the last few days were real. The noise easily waking Rebecca and Jake, who like the rest of their family, hadn't spent much of the nights sleeping. Both siblings quickly reaching Billy's room at the same time, as Jake glanced away from Rachel towards Rebecca the tears now falling as he saw his sister on the floor in their Dad's arms, Rebecca reached for Jake, scooping him up into her arms as she carried him towards the Kitchen to give Billy and Rachel some privacy.

Not wanting to upset Jake even more. She pressed a soft kiss upon his forehead as she set him down on the counter.

"You want some Hot Coco?" She asked him softly, Jake merely nodded, his little voice coming out in a whisper. "Can you make it just like Mommy did … with Marshmallows, it always helped me sleep." Becca had to fight hard to keep her own tears back, it wasn't meant to me like this. Jake was only 8, he was meant to have his Mom around to cuddle him when he couldn't sleep, or to reassure him that she loved him and would always be there, Anger quickly taking over Becca, but she just nodded. She didn't want to make Jake think she was angry with him. She was just angry with the world, and it killed her to see Rachel fall to pieces every night, it killed her to see the absolute devastation in Billy every time Sarah's name was mentioned, but mostly it killed her because she didn't want anyone to know how she was feeling, she had to be the strong one, they couldn't all fall apart in front of Jake, he needed to know that life still went on, even though right now her life had fallen apart.

Another day has gone; I'm still all alone,

How could this be, you're not here with me

You never said goodbye, someone tell me …

Why, did you have to go, and leave my world so cold.

Pulling away from Billy after the sobs had subsided, he helped Rachel up as they slowly made their way back to the Kitchen where Becca had made them all Hot Coco, "Just like Mommy used to make" Jake informed them sadly, as he blew on his steaming mug, Billy gave Becca the best 'Half smile' he could muster, to thank her for looking after Jake, as Rachel just collapsed in the seat next to her twin, and Billy took the other empty seat, all their eyes landing on the only chair that was vacant, a screaming reminder that Sarah was gone. Billy let out a tired sigh, urging Jake to finish his Hot Coco so they could all go back to bed, knowing none of them would even go back to sleep, but Jake couldn't keep staying up so late, and he was too young.

"Can we sleep with you, Daddy?" Jake's small voice, cutting into the think silence that had fallen onto the family, with each of their own thoughts drifting to Sarah and all the memories they shared with her. Billy nodded as he ruffled Jake's hair, carrying the mug to the sink.

"Sure son … Come on kids" He looked over to Rebecca and Rachel giving them a 'lets go' look as the four of them quietly shuffled into Billy and Sarah's room, though it was hard for them to be there, in same ways sleeping in the bed their Mother used to made her feel a little closer to them, as all four of them snuggled up together.

"I love you, Mom" Rachel whispered, as Jakes little hand grabbed her, and he nodded. "Me too, Mommy" causing a small smile from Rebecca as they all tried to fall asleep, knowing the next day was going to be the worst.