Chapter 1:

It's been a few months since I tried to leave my room now, but my injuries of that night have long healed over. I was still puzzled as to how he cut my wrists with only his hands, but he probably used a couple of special kunai. About the only thing I could remember of that night was his face, how pissed he was at me, rage burning in his eyes. I shivered at the thought, then, there was a sudden knock on my door and I looked over to my clock to see if it was supper time already. It was only 2:46pm. I looked back at the doorway and saw my father standing there and I gave him a puzzled look, since he's never came to visit me.

"You're coming with me." Was the only answer I got as his eyes carefully watched me. I slowly got up off my bed and walked over to him. As I reached him at the door, he softly nudged me out of my room and into the hallway while softly closing my bedroom door behind us. He started pushing me down the hall toward the kitchen area.

He's going to hand me over to that Deidara person, isn't he? That man I pissed off so much that night months ago. I started to panic in my head, not wanting to be tortured to death by that man again. "I want to go back to my room father, I don't wish to leave my room!" I said to him and started to struggle against his arms as he continued pushing me toward the kitchen area. Once we reached the kitchen, I swiftly glanced around looking for Deidara, and to my relief, he was no where to be seen. There was only a woman there sitting in one of the chairs. Her hair was about shoulder length and blue, with a light blue paper flower in her hair. Her eyes were an amber like colour and had blue eye shadow on with a piercing under her bottom lip, she was also wearing the same clothing as my father, only her shoes were high heels.

"So, is this the girl you were speaking to me about?" She spoke, looking straight at me.

"Where are all of the men? I thought you only kept men in the base father." I spoke in a lower tone, in case she was really a he.

"Yes Konan, this is her. The men are all out doing missions right now, accept a selected few who are still around the base. Konan is the only female here, other then you, that lives with us in the base." So she was a girl after all. She stood up and started to walk over to us, she stood a bit over 5 feet. She reached me and my father and stopped in front of us to get a better look at me before walking off. I could already tell that she didn't like me at all. My father shooed me off toward the living room area, probably not even going to let me head back to my room for awhile. I walked into the living room and looked around, hoping that no one was in here. My luck was very slim, I spotted someone sitting on the couch. They had some sort of plant that looked like the mouth of a venus fly-trap coming from the cloak. He turned around and I could see his whole left side was white, while his whole right side was black with short, green hair and yellow eyes. He looked straight at me as soon as I entered the living room.

"And who might you be? A spy from a village I presume?" I hear him talking to me, "If you're a spy, you already know that I'll have to kill you for getting in, and you were very unlucky to have me be your murderer too." He continued speaking to me, looking straight into my visible eye, meaning every word he spoke.

"Calm down, I think she's one of Deidara's fans by the way she looks, maybe she's a new recruit." I hear a second voice and look around to find the face that went with that voice, but had no luck finding it.

"I highly doubt Pain would let someone like that in here, and he would have told us that he had someone new here."

"No, fath- I mean, Pain never let me out of my room until today." I spoke as he watched me carefully.

"Nice try kid, but I'm going to have to kill you now. Pain never told anyone about a new recruit, meaning, that you're a spy trying to mess with us." He got up off the chair in a swift manner and started to come at me, with full intention of attacking and killing me on the spot.

"She's right Zetsu, she's a new recruit as of today. Pain forgot to tell you, but she's been here for awhile, locked up in a room for years." I hear Konan say as she walked passed me in the living room and headed somewhere in the base.

"See? I told you, I have no reason to lie."

"Shut up." He walked back to the couch and sat down. I sat down in one of the nearest chairs and watched Zetsu for a little while before turning my attention to the floor. My hand softly bit into my arm and I cursed at it under my breath and took my hand away from my arm and went back to studying the spot on the floor again. I heard Zetsu arguing with someone and turned my attention to him, puzzled as to who he was talking to.

"Um, who are you talking to? I don't see anyone, but I hear someone else's voice." I asked him.

"I'm talking to…I guess you could say myself. I have two selves, my black side, and me, the white side."

"Oh…"

"So, what's your name?"

"Deiran." I spoke shyly.

"Wow, not only do you look like Deidara's twin, but your name is also similar to his." I shivered at the mentioning of his name.

"Too similar if you ask me." I hear the black side speak. Then they started talking and whispering between themselves. I continue to just listen to the hum they seemed to make, sometimes I could make out if they were arguing over something, or talking about something.

I listened to them go on for about an hour before I hear the door open and close. I wished to go look, but a couple factors prevented me from going. One, if Zetsu thought I was an intruder in the base, then everyone would probably think so. Two, I didn't want to go see in case it was Deidara back from whatever mission he just got done doing. I sat and listened in to see if I could possibly make out who's voices it was.

"No, art is eternal, now stop arguing with me and making us hold up Pain." I hear one of the voices speak, and by the subject, I could already guess who the other one was. I was glad I didn't go look at who just came in, or I might be pinned down to the floor trying to persuade Deidara to let me live.

"Sasori-danna, you should already know that art is only a moments beauty, yeah." I hear the voice I didn't want to hear. I heard them walking for the living room area and I decide to do a quick dash over to Zetsu to try and hide behind him.

"What are you trying to do? Climb into my fly-trap so I can eat you?" The black one spoke as I tried to hide myself behind him.

"No, I believe she's trying to hide from someone, more then likely she's trying to hide from Deidara." The white one informed his black side.

"What about me, un?" I hear his voice loud and clear, knowing that he was now in the living room. I forced myself still now, since if I probably move he would spot me and have to come see who I was. I prayed Zetsu didn't sell my presence out to him.

"We were talking to the new recruit that came today." His black side said.

"Her name's Deiran. Since her name is so close to your's, we thought that you might know her from somewhere. So, do you?" The white one added on and asked.

"Never heard of her name, hm."

"Really? She also looks quite similar to you, but female, and much longer hair too." The white side continued on with his description. If Deidara remembered what I looked like, he would have probably knew that it was me already, but he seemed not to.

"By the way you go on talking about her, I'd almost swear that all you did was study her while she sat down in the chair over there." His black side stated.

"Well, where is she, yeah. If she's new, I should meet her, hm." My heart dropped into my stomach.

"Deidara, stop wasting time. You can see her after we report back to Pain." I would thank him so much if he made Deidara leave with him.

"Okay, okay, yeah. I'll meet her later I guess then, un." I heard him walk off out of the living room and into the kitchen area and down the hallway. I sighed a sigh of relief and came out from hiding behind Zetsu.

"By the way you acted when you heard him coming, it's like you met Deidara in a dark alleyway on one of his bad days and almost got blown into pieces. Like that week a few months ago, he came out of his room with bandages over his right arm. He cursed at anyone and everyone, even blew a few things up too. He also attempted to blow Hidan's head off a few times in that week too. He never quite said what pissed him off either." White Zetsu trailed on, mumbling out loud.

"Did you forget? He mentioned that some female woman who snuck into the base pissed him off and bit his arm." Black Zetsu added on. "But, I'm pretty sure he would have scared anyone that week." I gulped softly to myself, already knowing what pissed him off. This answered one of the questions I had always wanted to ask. He was the one constantly blowing up stuff in the base. I guess I was lucky to have survived that night.

"How does he make his bombs?" I decided to ask.

"Maybe you should go ask him yourself, He could probably even give you a demonstration too if you really wanted him to." Black Zetsu told me. I gulped again. I didn't even want to go near Deidara, let alone ask him anything, he would probably use my body as a demonstration.

"Yeah, he would probably be happy to demonstrate, since he always seems to be proud of his…well, he calls it his 'art', and he loves to show off all the time." White Zetsu added.

"I'll think about it…" I replied with a knot in my stomach. I remembered that there was two people I would have to try to evade. The main one was Deidara, and the second one I had to watch out for was Hidan because they were the only two that would recognize me from months ago, and the moment Deidara sees me, I'm sure I won't exist on earth anymore. I snapped back into reality when Zetsu got up from the couch. He walked out of the living room, leaving me all alone. I let out a silent sigh to myself before opening my hands. I was greeted with my hands smiling at me, then soon after tongues that they stuck out at me all the time. I let out another sigh and just watched as my hands tried to lick the air. I had to evade Deidara at all costs, but that was going to be close to impossible as long as he was at the base.

"So, you're the one Zetsu was talking about earlier?" I hear an unfamiliar voice question me. I jumped, startled by the voice from being off guard. I closed my hands and look toward where the voice came from. He was standing in the doorway. He looked to be a teenager. He has short, red hair and brown eyes. Was he new to the Akatsuki? I've never heard his voice before.

"Uh, yeah I guess…" I answered.

"Zetsu was right, you do look too much like Deidara." He stated in an emotionless voice, "so, does this mean you also act a lot like him too?"

"No." I replied and just studied him. All he did was give me a cold stare back. "Who are you?" I decided to ask.

"My name is Sasori, now if you don't mind I'm leaving." He said and walked out the door.

Sasori? The huge guy Deidara was arguing with earlier? How was that him? I see no resemblance, nor a similarity in voice at all. Also, why does everyone in the Akatsuki seem to be so cold? Even the only female here seems to be the same way too. I sighed as I stared up at the ceiling with so many questions in my head. Maybe it was a lack of females for the males, or maybe Hidan was the one who pissed everyone off and made them so cold. A memory of Deidara's face popped into my mind and I shivered at it. I took in a deep breath through my nose and smelled the aroma of food. Someone was in the kitchen cooking, so that meant it was soon going to be supper. I felt someone sit next to me, and out of instinct, I looked over to see who it was. It was Zetsu, holding two plates in his hands. He set them both down, one in front of me.

"Are you not bored of sitting here by yourself? Just sitting doing nothing?"

"Not really, I'm used to doing this by now." I answered White Zetsu's question. Zetsu grabbed something off the table and clicked a button, and a TV screen flashed on. "I never knew fath- Pain had one of these out here in the living room…" I had to get used to using my father's name in front of the Akatsuki.

"Pain told me to bring you out food." That was his only reply before starting to eat his food. I let out a sigh and started eating my food. Soon after, another man walked into the room. This one was very tall, blue skinned with short, blue hair that was spiked up into what looked like a shark fin. He spotted me sitting beside Zetsu and smiled at me more like I was going to be his next meal then a friendly smile.

"So, this is Deidara's new twin huh? She really does look almost exactly like him, but with breasts." He spoke and I turned away from him as I blushed. There was really only two noticeable things about him, one was his height, the second was he seemed like a walking shark, his teeth even match a shark's. If he ever sat on me, he would probably crush me in an instant. He sat down on the chair I was previously sitting on with a plate full of food in his hands, and watched the TV screen. I sighed again and looked around and found a spot to stare at on the wall.

After awhile of staring at the spot on the wall, the TV turned off, and I heard Zetsu and the other man walk out of the room. I watched them as they left through the door, as they slowly left me alone in the dark living room. I let out a sigh and rested my arms on my head, making sure my hands were no where near anything, and just looked up at the blackness. I let out another sigh and just started playing with my hair, thinking on how I was going to sneak back to my room without being seen by Deidara, especially if he was sitting in the kitchen when I could go back to my room. I felt my hand mouths drooling on my hand, probably trying to lick at the air. I pulled my arms off my head and squeezed my hands shut, wet from the drool. I suddenly hear someone walk into the room and softly sit beside me. It was probably Zetsu again, probably wanting to be alone from the rest who seemed to be in the kitchen eating or something. I let out a quiet sigh to let him know that I was here in case he was going to talk to himself and not want to tell anything private, and to not accidentally sit on me or something. He starts to move around on the couch again, and to my surprise, is awfully quiet, he wasn't even whispering to himself or anything. I thought I felt him move closer to me on the couch.

"Uh…" Was all I managed to get past my lips before I was cut off by someone putting their finger against my lips. I felt the person move closer to me, and I felt hair brush against my cheek, and I swiftly move away from it. The person didn't seem phased by it that I moved away and just moved closer again. "Excuse me, but whoever you are, you're starting to scare me…" I said as they again, moved closer to me. I tried to move farther away, but I had reached the end of the couch. I felt him slowly touch his fingers against my cheek before placing his whole hand over my cheek. I felt the cold metal of a ring on one of his fingers, possibly his index finger. I pulled his hand away from my face and tried to push him away from me, but had no luck so I lifted my foot and kicked him in the side. I heard him whispering to himself, but couldn't make out what he was saying. I felt him get off the couch and just smiled to myself that I had won the fight. I heard their footsteps head out the door and head into the kitchen, and soon I heard a roar of laughter coming from in the kitchen. "Something must be terribly funny out there for them all to be laughing, unless it's cause the guy that was in here told them all that he got kicked by me." I said to myself. I laid down on the couch and looked up at the black ceiling again. Soon I hear some more footsteps heading my way and went straight to where I was sitting.

"Hey Deiran, think I could possibly ask you something?" I hear White Zetsu talk.

"Sure, what do you need?"

"Do we really have to do this?" His black side spoke, unamused by whatever the white side was going to ask.

"Well, I need to borrow your shoes for a few moments."

"Okay." I said and took both my shoes off and gave them over to Zetsu. He walked out after I gave him my shoes, and again, there was some laughter from in the kitchen.

Whatever they're doing, it must be really fun, I think they are all piled out there possibly playing some sort of joke game or something. I said in my head and wondered what they could possibly be doing that was so funny. I sighed and listened to the hum from them talking about something and soon after, someone else came into the room and walked in front of me.

"Is there something I can help you with, whoever you are?" I waited for a response, but I didn't get one. I sat up now and asked again, "is there something I can help you with?" All of a sudden, I felt warm breath against my cheek and the person kissed my cheek. I slapped the person in the face.

"You fucking bitch! How dare you fucking slap me!" I hear Hidan's voice yell at me before he walked off, but before he did, I hear the crowd in the kitchen burst out laughing as Hidan walked out of the living room door.

What are they doing out there, and why in hell did Hidan just come in and kiss me on the cheek? Hidan was really not the kind of guy to go around kissing people on the cheek. I hear the hum of the men again in the kitchen, talking to themselves again. I rolled my eyes and turned on my side, facing toward the open space, even though all I could see was black. I soon hear footsteps come in again, and again, they stop in front of me. "Is there something I can help you with, or are you going to be like everyone else and-" I was cut off by the person putting a hand over my mouth. I didn't bother doing anything, I was sick of being harassed by all the guys that were laughing as I hit someone. Whoever it was, just went and sat down on my waist, but not putting their full weight on me. I felt them lean forward against me, I could feel hair softly brushing against my cheek. They moved their hair out of the way with the hand they had over my mouth and leaned in more, and as they did, I started blushing. They stopped a few centimetres from my face, I could feel their warm breath breathing on my face. If he was supposed to kiss me, I would just let him win so the rest of them would leave me alone. His face got closer, until he pressed his lips against mine softly. I just kissed him back, wanting this torture to be over and done with so I could be left alone until I was allowed to go back to my room.

"I don't see how that was overall hard, hm." I froze up as he spoke. I just couldn't move anymore, not after knowing who he was now. He kissed my lips again, but this time I pushed him off of me, still sitting on my legs though. "Wow, Zetsu was right, yeah. You really do have some sort if issue with me, un. Tell me, what's your problem with me anyways, yeah." He started asking me, starting to slowly put his full weight on my legs.

"Do you mind? You're crushing my legs." I softly say to him as he continued to put more of his weight on my legs.

"Then tell me what problem you have with me, un." Now I had to change the subject. Maybe I should lie so I can get it over and done with.

"Uh…I guess it's because I like you…" I was mentally hitting myself in the head now, "but, I've never been close to guys at all…" Yes, I was now completely screwed, "and the boys seem to have been picking on me for the last hour…and I just want them to leave me alone." I was so going to beat myself to death if I ever get out of this alive.

"Seriously, un? What were you, kept as a prisoner on an all female island, yeah?"

"Well…I guess you could say prisoner, yes, but in a completely black room with no one to talk to." It was partially true, I felt like a prisoner in my room all the time, and the only interaction I got was the small amounts I got from my father when he came into my room. "And right now I just want to be in my room away from everyone…" More like away from Deidara, far, far away from him. "So, can you jus-" I was cut off by him putting his hand up against my mouth.

"You seem to talk too much, yeah. So, I'm just going to have a little fun with you before I head back out to the kitchen, hm." I felt his other hand slowly rub against my stomach. I started to panic, and I was starting to cry now. "Fine, fine, I'll leave you alone then, hm." He sounded half pissed off now as he got up and left the room. I sighed in my head and slowly laid myself back down. Now my only problem would be to try and evade Deidara when I go to my room. I guess the best thing I'll have to do is wait for him to head off to his room before even thinking about heading to my room. I let out a silent sigh and heard all the men in the kitchen talking to one another again.

"Lucky bastard, you win this time Deidara." I hear one of them talking, and the rest of them were saying something I couldn't seem to understand.

Great, so they were betting on who could kiss me on the lips I suppose. I wanted to go out there an hit them all on the head for betting on something like that, but I already knew they were all stronger then me, and if Deidara even seen who I was, would probably blow me up with his bombs. I thought about how he looked that night when I pissed him off, and then Zetsu telling me that the whole week after he had a fit over almost anything. I shivered and sat up, stretching my legs from Deidara's weight crushing my legs. I just hope he bought that excuse I used to get away from him. I looked over somewhere, but couldn't tell where because the whole room was black accept for where the light came in from the kitchen, where everyone was partying. I wondered if I could possibly dash by everyone and go lock myself in my room, that is, if my dad didn't lock me out of my room.

Why would he want me to all of a sudden talk to and be apart of the Akatsuki now? It seemed like he didn't want me to even exist in the Akatsuki until today. I shifted on the couch and rested my legs up on it. I started poking my left hand fingers against my right hand's mouth. I've been able to somewhat control the nerves on my hands, but I need more practice before I can fully do that. I wish I had someone who could try and tell me what I should feel for if I was doing it right, but I seemed to be the only one who even had this. I hear some of the crowd in the kitchen head for their rooms.

Good, I hope Deidara is one of them so I can go get into my room and lock myself away from him. I say in my head. I got up off the couch and cautiously walked over to see who left the table and who went to their rooms. I peered into the room and spotted that only Zetsu and the shark guy were at the table. I sighed in relief and walked out into the kitchen.

"Oh, Deidara's twin decided to come out of the living room finally." I hear the shark speak.

"Um, I never got your name, can you please tell me? I'm Deiran." I introduce myself.

"Kisame." He answered back before I ran off down the hall. I almost ran toward my room, but I managed to walk there. I took in a deep breath, hoping that my father didn't lock my door on me. I slowly turned the knob, and my door opened. I walked into my room and closed my door behind me. I planted a smile on my face, until I noticed my light was on, and that Deidara was standing right there in front of me. I looked with wide eyes, and he looked back at me with some rage in his eyes.

"So, you came back, hm? Good, I can get my revenge after all, yeah. I'll admit, I thought Pain killed you months ago, but looks like he kept you hidden away on me, yeah." I was now really fucked. I backed into the back of my door as he started walking over to me.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to! I was scared and I didn't want to die!" I half yelled at him. I started crying.

"I wondered why you were evading me, but now I know why, hm. It's because you were trying to evade me, and then you came up with a petty excuse so you could possibly get away, yeah." He was almost right in front of me, "but I guess you got caught anyways, now didn't you, hm?" He pinned me against the door, with both of his hands on either side of my head. "Have any last words before you die, yeah?"

"I'm sorry! I was scared and wanted to get away! I didn't wish to be killed the first night I got out of this fucking room!" I yelled at him with tears streaming down my face, looking into his visible eye. I couldn't tell what his facial expression was. I happened to look at his arm, and I spot the place where I bit him that night.

I wonder if he knows how I made that scar, or if he just doesn't care how I made it, and only wants me dead for doing it to him. I just kept my eye on his visible eye. He looked away and whispered something under his breath, pushed me out of the way, and left my room without saying anything. I watched as he closed the door behind him, and kind of wondered what he was thinking. I silently sighed to myself and headed over to my bed and looked at my room to see what he touched, if I could spot anything out of place.

After half an hour searching for anything out of place, I couldn't find anything different really. Just that my paints were scattered all over the place by him looking through my stuff. I cleaned it all up and reorganized it to the way it was and sat down on my bed, thinking about what happened not long ago. All I could picture was how cute he seemed to be, even thought he probably still wants to kill me with a passion for what I did. I shivered and covered up in my blankets, and slowly closed my eyes and drifted into a deep sleep.