A/N: I just wanted to take a minute to thank you for all of follows and favorites and reviews. It truly makes me feel so happy and blessed to know that people are liking the things i write.

Now, onto the business. This chapter is honestly the longest chapter i have EVER written. I just had to get all of the not fun stuff out of the way so that's why this chapter is kind of weird. It gets better, promise!

Enjoy!

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After getting the diagnosis that Kate would not be able to conceive a child the traditional way, the couple went over the options they had. They finally settled on trying a cycle of Invitro fertilization.

IVF involves Kate having to take drugs that would stimulate her ovaries into producing eggs which the doctors would take out of her body to be fertilized outside of her womb. After the fertilized egg had time to grow, they would be put back into her uterus. They, Rick, Kate and the doctors; would wait and hope for a month before actually knowing whether or not Kate was pregnant.

They chose Dr. Alan Michaels as Kate's fertility specialist. He is very well respected and has had many success stories in his practice. Rick and Kate researched many doctors, even meeting with some of them, finally setting on Dr. Michaels because he seemed like the only one who listened to their concerns and worries. He was able to put them at ease and answer the multitude of questions Kate had come to the meeting with.

The drugs were expensive and had very strong adverse effects on Kate's body. Their first cycle, Kate's ovaries were over stimulated which resulted in Kate being admitted into the hospital. The couple waited two months before trying again, the first time having scared Kate more than she would like anyone to know.

"Second times the charm," Rick said as they sat in the office for a second time. It worked, but unfortunately Kate miscarried a month into the pregnancy.

"Rick I can't do this anymore," Kate explained her eyes and nose red from crying for two days straight

"Kate-"He started.

"No, listen to me. I can't do this. I won't let this happen to me-"

"What are you talking about?" he asked generally confused at his wife's reticence to try again to get pregnant.

"My mom. She miscarried three times before she got pregnant with me. I'm not going to put myself and - and you through this. I don't want to start a family the same way my parents did. I want ours to be different."

"And we will. Kate when I promised we would get through this any way possible, I meant it. But I think you should think this over, don't let your emotions get the better of you. Take some time, I don't care how long, but take it. Think this through. Don't jump to any decisions."

Kate nodded and rolled back into the cocoon she had created during her two days in bed after hearing the news of her miscarriage.

A solid month went by and no talk of babies or fertility drugs was shared between the couple. That is, until one night in early May.

"I-I think I'm ready to try again," Kate said slowly.

Rick looked at her shocked. He held her gaze for a moment just to be sure she wasn't lying or telling him thing just to make him feel better.

"Are you sure? Because if you're not, it's ok," he told her taking her hand.

"I'm sure. I'm ready to try again. I can't let my fears get the best of me. I need to try one more time before striking out."

Rick just stared at her slack jawed and wide eyed. He had only seen her this dead set on something a handful of times. He knew there was no changing her mind; he just had to strap in, hang on and wait for something to happen-wrong or right.

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The next week they were in the fertility specialist's office. He put Kate through the usual battery of tests. Rick and Kate were then re-taught how to give the drugs through injection: how much of the medicine to give and where they should inject it.

The needles were painful and the injection stung as it went into her body, but Kate stuck with it. She was determined not to give up.

"Ok ready?" Rick asked her, ready to give one of the last shots. Kate nodded slowly scrunching up her eyes and face. "Alright, here we go. One, two, three," Rick counted then stuck the needle in. Kate gripped at his shoulder and dug her finger nails into his skin. She yelped in pain. "I know, I know. Ok it's over," Rick said putting the cap back on the needle and getting up to throw it away.

"God I hate this," he said sitting back down on the bed, where Kate had curled up into a ball. "I hate how these shots make you feel and I don't like seeing you in pain." Kate had uncurled herself and scotched up against Rick's side seeking all of the comfort he could provide for her. He wrapped his arm around her stomach rubbing little circles with his thumb.

"I hate it too, but it's almost over. Three more days of pain and then we will hopefully be able to make a baby," she smiled even though he couldn't see.

Five days later the Castle's were once again in Dr. Michaels' office. Kate had gotten an ultrasound which determined she had six follicles ready to be retrieved.

"That's a good thing right?" Castle asked after the doctor had explained Kate's situation.

"Yes, it's a good thing," The doctor said laughing as Kate rolled her eyes. They scheduled the retrieval for the following Monday and Rick and Kate headed for home, making a stop at Remy's for a burger and a shake first.

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Monday dawned bright and sunny. Rick took the good weather as a sign from the powers that be that today's procedure was going to go well.

They checked into the hospital and Kate was brought back to change and do the prep work for her surgery. Rick wasn't able to be with her during all of this because he was off giving his part in the baby making process.

"How did it go?" Kate asked when he met her back in the waiting room she was in.

"It was sexy," Rick said sarcastically making Kate laugh.

"Well I'm sorry I wasn't there to-you know set the mood," She said he voice dropping a couple of octaves. Rick smiled and kissed her on the lips.

A nurse knocked on the door and stepped in the room. "I'm sorry, was I interrupting something?" she asked.

"No not at all," Kate said trying not to laugh at the looks Rick was giving her.

"Ok. Well it's almost time for you to go back, so I'm going to give you something to help your mind relax a little bit," the nurse said sticking the needle into Kate's IV port. Kate nodded and let out the breath she didn't realize she had been holding.

She instantly felt her head spin as the drugs took ahold of her senses. Naturally, Rick tried to take advantage of the state of mind Kate was in.

"Kate can we get a puppy?" he asked.

"Yes sure. Puppy's is nice," she said not aware anymore of what she was saying. The nurse laughed and just shrugged her shoulders.

"You heard that right?" Rick asked her.

"I am not responsible for anything patients say under the influence of those drugs. If you say something that gets you into trouble with your wife, that's on you, not me," she said smiling. "I'll be back in a few minutes to take her back," The nurse turned and left the room. Rick was left alone with a drugged up Kate and his racing mind. He told himself not to get all worked up, that everything is going to be fine, but the murder novelist in him kept thinking of the worst possible scenarios of things that could happen to Kate. He was so wrapped up in his thoughts that he didn't hear the doctor and nurse come back into the room.

"Mr. Castle?" the doctor asked touching Rick's shoulder and pulling him out of his thoughts.

Rick looked up and smiled at the doctor.

"We're ready for her," Dr. Michael's said smiling. Rick nodded and stood up from his seat next to Kate.

He followed his wife until he couldn't go any further. He kissed Kate's cheek and watched them go through the doors and out of sight.

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"They should have been done half an hour ago, Lanie. I'm starting to get worried," Rick said into his phone. He had ben pacing the waiting room since they had taken Kate back, too antsy to even get a cup of coffee.

"Castle relax. Everything is going to be fine." Lanie replied trying in vain to calm her friend down

"Yea but what if it's not? What if something went wrong? I should have said something. I shouldn't have let her do this; it's too much of a risk."

"If you go on with the 'what if's' any more I will personally come down there and smack you. Kate is fine. Everything is fine and when all of this is over you are going to have a beautiful Castle baby."

"Yea you're right."

"Of course I am."

The Doctor rounded the corner and entered the waiting room. "Lanie I gotta go," Rick said quickly before ending the call. He rushed up to Dr. Michaels to get information; anything good or bad. "How did it go? Is she alright?" he asked.

"It went beautifully. We got them all. They are being fertilized as we speak. Kate is in the recovery room, if you want to see her."

Rick nodded and collected his and Kate's belonging before following the doctor back to where Kate lay still asleep.

He found a chair and sat quietly waiting for her to wake up.

"Hey, Castle," Kate whispered her voice still full of sleep. Rick stood up and stood by her head, taking hold of her hand.

"Hey," he said smiling.

"Did I miss the party?" she asked

"I'm afraid so. It was so fun," he said taking her drug induced thought a bit further.

"Damn. I promise I won't miss the next one," she said.

"I know you won't," he said brushing her hair out of her face. A nurse, different than the one they had in pre-op pulled the curtain back to look at them.

"Well glad to see you awake," she said to Kate. "How are you feeling?"

"I'm ok. A little sore, but ok," Kate said. The nurse nodded and left but came back a minute later. She quickly gave Kate more pain killers directly into her IV.

A couple hours later, Kate had gotten the all clear to head home. They scheduled an appointment to get the embryos implanted the next week. A nurse came by with a wheelchair to get Kate outside to the car.

"I can walk," she protested when the nurse put her hand under Kate's arm to help her up

"We have to, it's hospital policy. Every post-op discharge must be taken to their cars in a wheelchair," the nurse explained.

Kate groaned but allowed the nurse to help her up and into the chair to be taken outside to her waiting car.

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A week went by and Kate was growing antsy. She had returned to work and was working double time to avoid all the questions that Ryan, Esposito and Lanie were giving her; they were just as antsy as she was. They were all glad when Friday rolled around. Kate got out of work for 'personal reasons' and said she would keep her friends in the loop. Everyone knew and told Kate they would pray for her and Castle.

It was dead silent in the procedure room in Dr. Michaels' office, quiet enough to hear a pin drop. Rick stood by his wife's head, holding onto her hand. One of the ultrasound monitors was turned so that the couple could watch.

"Ok I'm going to get the syringe from Cara and then we'll get started," the doctor said turning to one of the three nurses in the room. "Alright everyone ready?" he asked looking up at Kate. She nodded and squeezed Rick's has.

Please god, please, just let this work, please. She prayed, squeezing her eyes shut, too scared to look.

"Alright, I'm going to get the nurses to see if we got it all, and then we are done," Dr. Michaels' said smiling.

Rick and Kate both let out the breaths they were holding. She looked up at him hopping to hear him say something to make her feel better. All he could muster was a half-smile. They were both optimistic, but still knew not to get their hopes up just in case something happened.

"I want you on bed rest for the weekend. Keep your pelvis elevated for twenty four hours and no sexual activity for a week," The doctor said as he led the couple out of the office. Castle groaned under his breath, taking Kate's hand. "We will see you in ten days to see if we have a baby," Dr. Michaels' said smiling.

The couple nodded and let the door shut behind them. They walked down the hall towards the elevators and Castle pulled his phone out of his pocket and turned it on. He was forbidden to have it on during the procedure so he had to check all of his beloved social media sites, among other things.

"Hey I missed like five text messages from Lanie and the boys," Castle said as the got into the waiting elevator car. "'How did it go?' 'What's happening?' 'You should be glad you're not here. Gates is on one of her rampages.' God that must have sucked," Castle remarked after going through the messages he had gotten.

"I better call them, you know make sure they're not dead or something," Beckett said pulling out her own cell phone. "Hey Ryan, how's it going?" she asked her partner after a moment.

"Oh everything is fine now." Ryan replied

"Why what happened?" Kate asked, slightly scared to know.

"Well we were supposed to be doing paper work because we finished that case the other day. And we were taking a break and Gates comes out of her office and starts yelling at us because we weren't working. God I hate her sometimes," Ryan said a slight whine to his voice. "Enough about me; how was your thing?"

"It went good. Now it's just a waiting game. I'm trying not to get my hopes up," she said.

"Don't worry, everything is going to be fine," Ryan said smiling.

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"Castle I am so bored!" Kate was whining. Being on bed rest for two days was starting to get to her. She couldn't work out or go outside. All she could do was sit on the couch or in bed. She thought Castle, the nine-year-old-on-a-sugar-rush-man-child in him, would break the rules and get her outside; but no. the one and only time Richard Castle stuck to the rules given to him was the weekend Kate had to stay in bed.

"Maybe this will help," Rick said coming into their bedroom holding his ipad. He set in on the bed next to her, an open game of 'Words with Friends' on the screen. Kate looked up at him her brow furrowed and eyes asking fifty different questions. "Just play, I promise it will make you feel better," Rick said turning and leaving the room, closing the door behind him.

Kate picked up the game and watched as her mystery opponent played their word. She looked at the board and the letters she was given before playing her word. A second later she felt her phone buzz. She unlocked it to find a new text message.

"Purple? Really Becks, really?" Kate's face lit up when she realized that the mystery person she was playing the game with was none other than her best friend from high school, Madison.

"Maddi! Thank god it's you. I am SO bored," she replied before playing another word.

"That's what I heard. Don't worry I am here to keep you company and keep your sanity intact"

"This sucks. I hate it so much."

"I know but it's almost over."

Their conversation went on for over two hours, the game long forgotten. As Rick watched from the door of his study, he was so thankful that someone was able to pull Kate from her funk. She hated being stuck at home all day, especially when she had nothing to do.

Later that night the couple curled up in bed, Rick's arms wrapped around Kate's stomach.

"Thank you, for what you did today. I needed that," Kate said. Rick didn't say anything, just kissed the crown of her head and fell back into the calm, relaxed silence.

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The week seemed to drag by; even the case they were working on, a member of an Irish mob who was found swimming in the Hudson, wasn't enough to keep Rick Castle and Kate Becket's minds from wandering to what was going to happen at their next OB appointment.

But finally the day arrived and as Kate sat on the same exam table she had been on when she got her diagnosis of PCOS almost half a year ago, she thought how remarkable her life was and how blessed she was to have people in her life who believe beyond reason that things would work out in the end and that bad things happen for a reason.

Kate's OB/GYN, Erin Lee, came into the room holding Kate's chart. She sat down and turned the file to a newer page. The room was so quiet you could hear a pin drop.

"I'm sorry to say-"Dr. Lee began to say and Kate gripped Rick's hand. "That there might be another Richard Castle running free in Ney York City," she said as Rick's jaw fell to the floor and Kate started to cry. "Congratulations Kate. You're pregnant."

They didn't know what to say or do. Rick's first instinct was to kiss his wife, but he knew she didn't like public displays of affection, so he just let his smile and eyes do all the talking.

"Are you sure I'm going to be alright? I mean given my history and all." Kate asked stopping the celebration dead in its tracks.

"We will monitor your pregnancy very carefully. If anything were to go wrong, you would be in good hands," Dr. Lee said reassuring Kate.

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"Should we tell your dad first?" Rick asked on the drive home from their appointment.

"I don't think we should tell anyone until after my first trimester, just in case something happens." Kate said. She wanted so much to be happy about being pregnant, it was what she was hoping would happen, but something in the pit of her stomach told her not too. She was scared. She didn't want to get her hopes up and have then crushed like a cookie the big kids took from her on the playground at school when she was six.

"If it's what you want, then we will wait," Rick said kissing the back of her hand. And just like that, the subject was dropped.

A/N: So, what did you think? And also i want to congragulate Nathan Fillion and the who team at Castle for their 2 PCA's :) i am SO happy for you guys.