She got a call that morning; Ryan told her that she needed to head to the studio in the afternoon to record her solo for the Nationals episode. It's been a week since the party happened and she still couldn't forget what happened that night, it was a mistake but that didn't mean it was bad, in fact it was really really good. She haven't spoken to Dianna ever since, all she heard about was that Dianna spent the weekend with Lexy, typical.
She gathers her things and head out the door to her car, this is not a time to be distracted by those things. She is about to record one of her favorite songs from Celine Dion and if she is honest to herself, her insides are a little giddy and she is feeling like Rachel Berry herself. After driving for what seemed like hours because of the stupid traffic, she arrives at the studio and is met with the person she last expected to be there. Dianna. She does her best to cover up her surprise and be polite when greeting her.
"Good afternoon, Dianna." She says with a nod of her head, Dianna looks up from the magazine she is reading on the couch, folding it and placing beside her. She looks at Lea and can't help the flutter on her stomach, she looks beautiful like always and her hair is wavy and curly on the ends just the way Dianna likes the best.
"Hello, Lea. I didn't know you'd be here today…" She trails off, when she got the call this morning, she forgot to ask who else would be on the studio that day. She just figured that it would be Amber or Naya to record their number for the episode.
"The same goes for you. I suppose you're here to record Edge Of Glory?" Lea takes the seat on the armchair on Dianna's opposite side, taking off her scarf and placing it on top of her purse. She pulls her phone out to make a quick tweet. 'Just arrived at the studio to record a Rachel Berry solo! DiannaAgron is keeping me company' As soon as she hit tweet, Dianna's phone beeped on her lap warning that she had been mentioned on a tweet. She reads it and smiles at Lea.
"Yes, I am and if I read correctly you're here to record your solo. I think you'll do wonderfully, that song seems to fit your voice really well." Dianna resumes her reading, she doesn't want to seem rude by taking her attention off Lea, it's just too hard to have the person you love standing in front of you and not be able to do anything about it. She already did enough damage that night and she blames herself for that because she didn't have the right to spend the night with Lea when she was the one who left.
Before any of them could say anything else, Lea heard her name being called. She started doing her warm ups, she looks over to Dianna. "Di, can you help me with that?" Lea always likes to sing a bit of a song with someone else to warm up her vocal chords and hit the notes properly, so Dianna folds the magazine again clearing her throat before singing.
"Lead the way, lady…" Her eyes widen in surprise when she notices what she called Lea, they haven't called each other like that since their break up but it's a habit hard to break. Lea's only response is a small smile. She opens her mouth and starts singing softly to 'Fly Me To The Moon', Dianna harmonizes with her for some time before they are interrupted again by the sound engineer. Lea gets up and heads to the room in front of them. Placing the headphones over her ears, she sees Dianna getting up and making her way to stand beside the engineer, grabbing a headphone herself to hear Lea singing.
After the sign, Lea starts singing and she mentally slaps herself for forgetting that Dianna couldn't stay there during that song! But now it's already too late and she has to sing or she'll miss her cue. "There were nights when the wind was so cold that my body froze in bed if I just listened to it right outside the window. There were days when the sun was so cruel, that all the tears turned to dust and I just knew my eyes were drying up forever." She closed her eyes, her mind travelling back to the days after Dianna broke up with her, how hard were the nights when she had to curl up in a ball in the middle of the bed to keep from breaking apart. "I finished crying in the instant that you left and I can't remember where or when or how and I banished every memory you and I have ever made." At that moment Lea fluttered her eyes open to look at Dianna, for so many months she refused to think of the time when they were together, she pushed all the thoughts aside and buried them deep down and now looking straight to Dianna's eyes she wanted her to understand the mess she left behind. "But when you touch me like this and you hold me like that, I just have to admit that's all coming back to me. When I touch you like this and you hold me like that, it's so hard to believe but it's all coming back to me now."She remembered every single detail of their night together on the previous week. As soon as they arrived at the alley it only took a look and they crashed their lips together, they didn't know how much they've missed each other until they were together again. Dianna pinned Lea against the wall and slipped her tongue inside her mouth, their kiss was deep, passionate and bruising and their hands couldn't stay on only one place, they were grabbing and caressing every inch of skin they could. When Dianna sucked on her neck, Lea lost all control she once had and moaned loudly as Dianna pulled away slightly and looked around to see if there was anyone around, deciding it was better if they left, she grabbed Lea's hand and dragged her to her car. Dianna drove faster than ever that night and as soon as they stepped out the elevator clothes were already ripped apart before even reaching the door, once inside they kept kissing and stumbling to get to the room as fast as they could. "There were moments of gold and there were flashes of light, there were things I'd never do again but then they always seemed right. There were nights of endless pleasure, it was more than any laws allow." As she finished that line, without breaking eye contact with Dianna, she wondered if Dianna's new lovers were better than her. It wasn't about ego or anything, she just wondered if they made her feel like Lea knew how to, if they could make Di's legs weak from a simple kiss.
Dianna was motionless as she listened to the song. The way Lea was looking at her was opening the wounds that she so carefully tried to heal but now they were split open and she could almost feel the blood running down inside her body. She wanted to run away from that studio, run away from everything that reminded her of their relationship but she couldn't. She still had to record her song and her feet felt too heavy at that moment so she just kept looking deep into Lea's eyes and hoped that the tears prickling behind her eyes wouldn't fall.
"If I kiss you like this and if you whisper like that… It was lost long ago but it's all coming back to me." As she stared at Dianna, the images wouldn't get out of her head. The way Dianna took her on the bed they used to make love almost daily, the things Dianna whispered in her ear that made her forget her own name. The moans and screams filled the room as perfect, slender, pale fingers worked inside her. "If you want me like this and if you need me like that, it was dead long ago but it's all coming back to me now. It's so hard to resist and it's all coming back to me, I can't barely recall but it's all coming back to me now." But the truth was, they could recall every single moment between them as if it happened only yesterday. Lea's eyes filled with tears and a few rolled down her cheeks, she didn't care if there were people around them, she just cared for the woman on the other side of the glass window. When she saw a tear rolling down Dianna's cheek, she couldn't help the sob that broke from her chest but she didn't stop singing, she had to finish this song and hope that Dianna understood everything she was trying to say. On this part she let the anger she felt towards the blonde make itself known even though it wasn't Dianna's fault their situation. "But you were history with the slamming of the door and I made myself so strong again somehow, and I never wasted any of my time on you since then! When you see me like thisand when I see you like thatthen we see what we want to seeall coming back to me. The flesh and the fantasiesall coming back to me, I can barely recallbut it's all coming back to me now" Her voice softened and her eyes were pleading as she sang the next words and she hoped, God she hoped more than anything that everything would be alright. "If you forgive me all this, if I forgive you all that, we forgive and forget and it's all coming back to me. And when you kiss me like this and when you touch me like that… It's all coming back to me now. And if…" She finished the song taking deep breaths and waited for whatever reaction Dianna could have. Dianna wipped the tears away from her cheeks and her heart was aching so bad that she was afraid of moving because if she did, everything would fall apart. So they just stared at each other through the glass and hoped that someday they would be together, that all this craziness from the TV world would let them live the way they dreamed of and hopefully by then they would still be waiting for each other.