Thank you for the reviews and for adding this to your alerts and favourites, I hope people like this story. I have just written chapter five and I must say it is quite draining to write, I much much prefer writing happy Emily and Naomi, it will come in this story but slowly so stick with it.
Anyway here is the next chapter and we get a little insight into what might have happened to Emily but the full story won't come just yet but it won't be too long until we find out what happened to her. Also a little more Naomi in this chapter...
Chapter Two
Emily
Everything was black as I huddled myself in my most recent doorway. I was so tired and could feel my eyes closing my body finally giving in. The sounds of people's feet scuttling by slowly drifted out as I fell asleep using my small rucksack with a tiny amount of clothes in as a pillow. Suddenly I was woken up by someone tugging at the bag beneath my head, I felt the tears forming in my eyes scared of what could be about to happen. I lifted my head and my voice croaked "Just take it and then leave me alone."
He laughed and it instantly hit me how evil it sounded, his voice was gruff as he spoke "That would be too easy anyway people like you get what they deserve."
Tears began rolling down my cheeks as I felt his foot against my stomach and then my ribs. I tried to curl up to stop him but I just didn't have the strength. I felt the pain throughout my body even when he stopped kicking. I thought he would take my bag and go now but I was wrong as I felt his hot breath on my face and his fingers trace a line down my cheek "Please don't" I begged knowing what was about to happen but he just laughed once again "But you're such a pretty young thing."
My tears were streaming down my cheeks now as he pushed his body further against mine, I was in so much pain from the beating I didn't have any strength to try and fight…
I woke up bolt upright in bed screaming. It was only when the door burst open and Gina enveloped me in her arms that I remembered where I was. She held me tightly whispering "It's ok Emily, you're ok, and you're safe now."
I slowly let my body relax against hers when a groggy looking Naomi appeared in the doorway "What the fuck is going on?"
Gina didn't release her hold on me as she looked up at Naomi "Go back to bed love, Emily just had a nightmare."
I could feel Naomi looking at me but I refused to meet her eyes, I felt so guilty she didn't want me here in the first place and now I was disturbing her sleep. I mumbled into Gina's chest "I'm sorry."
I heard Naomi's door close again and Gina spoke softly "Don't worry about her she's not as moody as she makes herself out to be, she can actually be nice when she wants to be."
I lifted my head and smiled slightly "I'm sorry for disturbing you too I just felt like I was back there again, it all felt so real."
She continued to hold me close "What happened to you Emily, you can trust me I promise."
I felt safe with Gina I really did and I played with the idea of opening up to her until suddenly all my barriers came crashing back up and I completely shut down "I'm not ready, I can't."
She stopped me whispering "It's ok Emily I'm not going to push but just remember you know where I am when you are ready."
I nodded "Thanks Gina."
She refused to leave me and just held me close to her until eventually I gave in to sleep again.
When I woke up in the morning I was alone I had finally managed to get a couple of hours sleep, it wasn't enough but it was a start, I know I am safe here but I also knew that wouldn't stop the nightmares and the thoughts that were always at the forefront of my mind. I took a deep breath and went to get out of bed when there was a light knock on the door "It's Gina love."
I smiled to myself "Come in."
The door opened slowly and she came in balancing a tray on one arm "I've made you some breakfast love, I thought you might be hungry."
I smiled "Starving."
She laughed and set the tray down in front of me before sitting down on the bed, I quickly began eating as I wasn't lying when I said I was starving and fuck it tasted so good, I don't think I had tasted food this good ever. Gina just sat with me and it was comforting, she really seemed to care and that was something I hadn't felt for a long time even before I found myself on the streets. Once I had finished Gina took the tray and put it by the door before she came back to sit with me, she didn't try to hold me, I knew she was aware of my vulnerability and I know I let her hold me last night but that was completely different I needed to feel safe in that moment. "Emily how do you feel about going out in a while to do that shopping we talked about yesterday."
Suddenly my body froze and I know I had agreed to it last night but after my nightmares I don't think I could face going out, being outside made it all too real. My breathing was shallow as I felt the panic in my stomach "I, I don't, don't think I can. The thought of going out there again terrifies me. I know I would be safe with you but it's too soon, I'm, I'm just not ready."
I could see the sadness in her eyes as she watched the tears falling from my eyes "It's ok Emily, it's ok. I know it's not ideal but I will go and get you some bits, I just hope I come back with something decent."
I laughed a little "You're being kind enough to buy me some stuff I will like whatever you get."
She smiled "Well you make yourself at home whilst I am gone and don't take any shit from that daughter of mine."
I smiled "I will probably just stay up here I don't want to get in her way."
Gina stood up to leave the room "You can be wherever you like I want you to think of this as your home. I just want you to be comfortable Emily."
I smiled slightly "Thanks Gina, I'll try."
A few minutes later I could hear her talking to Naomi "I'm going out for a while love."
Naomi bit back "Yeah whatever."
I could tell Gina ignored the tone of Naomi's voice "I want you to stay here, Emily is not feeling up to going out and I don't want her to be alone, she is scared and vulnerable and we need to make her feel safe."
I could hear the annoyance in Naomi's tone "Fine whatever, you do what you like. I will stay here with her but I won't be talking to her, she's your project not mine."
Gina sounded cross "She is nobody's project Naomi, she is a young, scared, vulnerable girl who has been through something terrible and I want to help her. If I am completely honest Naomi I am disappointed with you, this is not how I raised you."
I heard the door close a moment later and Gina's footsteps down the stairs. I felt a sadness creep in, I didn't want Gina and Naomi fighting because of me, I quickly made the decision to stay in my room out of their way to reduce the tension between them.
Naomi
A while after mum left I went down to the kitchen to make a coffee. As I waited for the kettle to boil mums words echoed around my head 'she is a young, scared, vulnerable girl who has been through something terrible.' If that was me I would want someone to help me I just didn't want to get myself involved, I should be happy she has my mum though if anyone can help her she can.
The kettle whistled before clicking letting me know the water was hot enough. I made two cups of coffee before making my way upstairs. I put one on the carpet outside Emily's room and tapped lightly before quickly running into my room not wanting to have to talk to her, I would let mum do the caring.
I heard Emily open the door and soon after heard it close again. I waited a few minutes and quietly opened my door a crack to see if she had taken the coffee. I couldn't help but smile seeing that she had. I quietly closed my door again and went back to the music I was listening to.
A couple of hours later I heard the front door and knew mum was home, I decided to stay in my room as I knew she would still be mad with me, that was my plan anyway but that all changed when I heard her shouting my name from the bottom of the stairs. I emerged reluctantly hoping she wasn't going to have another go at me "What is it mum?"
She smiled softly "Can you just come and help me with something down here?"
I knew better than to argue "I'll be down in a minute." I went to turn my music off and made my way downstairs."
Mum was in the lounge surrounded by shopping bags "Now love please don't be mad but I've bought Emily some clothes, she didn't have anything and she can't keep borrowing from you."
I rolled my eyes "I'm not mad mum everyone needs clothes but what do you need my help with?"
She smiled "Well as you know fashion isn't my strongest point so I just want you to tell me what you think before I take them up for her."
I laughed "Ok."
She hugged me "Thanks for trying Naomi. How has she been whilst I've been out?"
I decided to keep quiet about the coffee I didn't want her thinking I had gone soft "She's not come out of her room."
She looked a little sad "I thought you might say that, I'll give her time."
I smiled "Yeah, now come on let's see these clothes."
To be honest mum hadn't done a bad job with the clothes I could tell she had been to the shops she knows I go to. She was looking at me with hope, hope that I was going to be positive "They're great mum, I'm sure she will be happy with anything but she will like them, I know I would."
I knew I had said the right thing as mums face lit up "Thanks love I'll just go up and give her them."
She hurried out the room to make her way upstairs, I heard the knock on the door and heard Emily answer, I also heard mum gasp I'm guessing as she saw Emily "Emily love you're crying, what is it?"
I heard a few footsteps and assumed they had gone into the room, I know I kept telling mum I didn't want anything to do with Emily but something now was making me want to hear what was going on, to see if the young girl opened up about anything. I crept up the stairs a little way and sat where I knew I would be able to hear especially as mum had not fully shut the door. Mums voice was soft as she asked once again "What is it Emily love?"
Emily replied quietly between sobs "It's nothing; I was just being stupid and got upset."
Even I knew she was lying so mums next words were no surprise "Emily love both you and I know that is not true, I know something has happened to you and I hope you know that you can talk to me." She paused "You can trust me Emily."
Emily was still sobbing quietly "It's not that I don't trust you Gina, you have done nothing but help me and I want to tell you my story but I can't bring myself to talk about it, there are so many emotions I keep feeling about everything and I don't know how to process any of it."
It was upsetting me listening to her she really sounds like she has been through so much but I was still determined I wasn't getting involved with anything, I knew she had mum. Mum spoke softly again "Why don't we start with the emotions you're feeling, maybe opening up about some things will help you process others."
Emily's voice was weak from crying but I could still make out her words "One minute I'm angry the next I'm upset, I can't help but think it is all my fault in the first place. I don't want to think about any of it I just want to forget what happened but I can't get it out of my head, I feel ashamed, embarrassed, so alone and I really feel like I can't trust anyone except you and I guess Naomi a little. I know she doesn't like me or want me here but I am thankful to her that she agreed anyway."
I could tell this was all upsetting mum, she hates seeing people in pain be it emotionally or physically "Oh Emily love I can't even begin to imagine what you have been through but I will be here when you feel up to talking, I don't want you bottling things up." She paused before continuing speaking "And don't you worry about Naomi she comes across as being a prickly little madam with a heart of stone but she can also be a lovely young girl when she wants to be so give her some time."
It was now I wish I could see Emily's reaction but I could only hear the words as she spoke softly "Ok." She paused "Thanks Gina, you know for everything."
I heard mum stand up and walk towards the door "You're very welcome love, now why don't you get some rest you look exhausted. I will leave these bags of clothes here for you to look through later."
I knew I couldn't sit here any longer not unless I wanted mum to know I had been listening so I quickly moved into the lounge. I had only sat on the sofa a matter of seconds when mum walked through, I looked up from the magazine I was pretending to read "Did she like them then?"
Mum rolled her eyes "Naomi love you can't fool me I know you have just heard that whole conversation, I heard you come running back in here."
I put the magazine down again "I guess that's me busted then." I paused as mum smiled slightly "Mum what do you think happened to her she sounded pretty upset."
She sat down next to me "I don't know love but it sounds like it was pretty horrible."
I nodded in agreement before mum spoke again "I just hope she opens up soon it will do her no good bottling everything up."
I rested my hand on mum's knee "She will open up eventually and when she does she will have the best person to help her."
Mum nodded "Yeah I will be here when she's ready." She turned to look at me "Anyway what have you done with my daughter, you know the moody one who doesn't care."
I rolled my eyes "Haha very fucking funny."
Mum smiled "Oh there she is panic over."
I couldn't help but smile slightly before standing up "I'm going to my room, don't stress about Emily too much."
I walked out the room leaving my mum deep in thought about Emily, if I am completely honest she is all I can think about at the moment after hearing that conversation but I didn't want mum to pick up on the fact I cared even if it was just a little bit.
