Howard's gone and Sheldon is being an ass... lets continue.

Raj comforted Bernadette in the back of the car while Leonard drove everyone back to his apartment, there was a palpable silence. You would have had trouble cutting it with a chainsaw let alone a knife.

"So what are you going to be doing on this 'anything can happen Thursday'?" Sheldon's pathetic attempt at a conversation starter was replied to by,

"Mourning over the death of my Howie! What else you fucking idiot!" Bernadette snapped, she had had just about enough of the paranoid germ freak and she just wanted to try and calm down without his dulcet tones in her ears.

"There's no need to be like that! I only asked... don't need to get snippy about it." Sheldon muttered, but Leonard heard him.

"Well you wouldn't understand this situation would you? Your just an emotionless robot man that only thinks about himself and you don't have the decency to think about others for once in your life!You are so self centred Sheldon!" Sheldon was a little taken aback by this outburst.

"Well you could have told me this a while ago, that way I could have made myself more 'Leonard friendly'. You're so picky." Sheldon shifted in his seat, there was still the chance that he could be made to walk home.

"Actually Sheldon... we all felt like that, you always got what you wanted regardless of what we wanted, and you always killed the fun by making sure everything was explained and safe, you never let any of us do anything we wanted because you wanted to do it then pussed out at the last minute." Raj stuck up for Leonard, because it was true, they all despised Sheldon.

"Oh, I never knew I was that bad. Sorry guys! Now what night is it? Thai or Chinese?" He went straight back to food.

"Do you not care about Howard you inconsiderate dick?" Bernadette was getting seriously pissed off.

"I did, when he was alive, but now he's dead my care has died with him." and he turned back to the front. Bernadette just stared at the back of his head, tears still pouring down her face. But she had the satisfaction of knowing that no woman would ever be able to love him.

A few minutes later Bernadette manages to say

"Can I go to Howard's place? Just one last time?" she had to stop there as she was beginning to hyperventilate.

"Sure, I think it would be nice for us to go to his house and pay our respects, and tell his mother if she doesn't already know." Leonard shot a dirty look in Sheldon's direction.

"Well it is the customary thing to do I suppose." Sheldon gave in, but not easily.

"Good, now be aware, Howard's mum can be unpredictable at the best of times..." Leonard shuddered at the thought of what they were about to do.

-They pull up outside-

"Right, we all know what to do, and Sheldon... try to be sympathetic. Or as close to sympathetic as you can be." Leonard would have to settle with what he could get. On that final thought he knocked on the door.

"Who's there! Are you a sex criminal?" Mrs Wolowitz's voice was easily recognised.

"No Mrs Wolowitz, it Leonard, Raj, Sheldon and Bernadette, can we come in?" Raj was still holding Bernadette close, he wanted this to last as long as possible.

"Well I'm busy! Can you come back another time?" She didn't sound busy...

"Get out the way, Howard gave me a spare key In case he ever left his in his room." Bernadette pushed through the boys and took out her spare key and unlocked the door. The entire group walked in and as soon as the door was shut Mrs Wolowitz kicked off.

"I thought I told you I was busy! All of you get the fuck out of my house! Howard isn't here so you have no business being here! I have no time to entertain guests! I have ironing to do and then I have to have Howard massage my varicose veins!" (They swell up and it looks really gross!) Sheldon just stared at the closed door that the voice was emanating from with mild surprise.

"Well that was unnecessary..." he turned around to face Bernadette,

"Lets get this over with, I'm hungry and it's Thai night. I can't eat after 7 or I don't sleep properly." He didn't seem to care at all about Howard, proves he's not a very good friend.

"Sheldon... Go outside and wait in the car... before I tear your mother fucking head off!" Bernadette was getting seriously pissed with Sheldon and she was about to snap.

"Language! There is no need for that!" Sheldon recoiled,

"There's every need for it now get out!" Bernadette was starting to go red in the face.

"Fine, if you don't want me here, then I suppose I'll go home... Leonard can you drive me home?" Sheldon looked awkwardly in his direction.

"What do you think dumbass? Go and sit in the bloody car..." Leonard turned away as a new wave of tears came over him, Sheldon slunk out the door and closed it behind him.

"Shall we go and see? Y'know, his room?" Raj pointed in the general direction of Howard's room.

"Yeah, lets go say goodbye." Bernadette hung her head and was lead to the room by Raj, who still wasn't crying...

As the trio entered the room and looked around, everything was as it was, nothing had changed. The porno magazines just visible under his bed and the lightsabers crossed on the wall. Like it was just waiting for him to come home and start up his laptop... his laptop. Leonard walked over to the desk and opened it up. Maybe there was some clue as to why he had caused an explosion.

"Guys... look at this..." Leonard pointed to a video that was still on screen. It was Howard.

"Guys, I know you're watching this... I just want to say what great friends you've been to me over the years, and I know Sheldon isn't with you at the minute, he wouldn't have made it into my room." He chucked before continuing

"Well I just wanna say that as you're watching this the experiment obviously didn't go to plan, I knew it was a risk but it was one that I was willing to take. It could have me and Bernadette so happy..." He bowed his head.

"Oh Howie..." Bernadette started crying again into Raj, he was finally realising what was going on.

"Anyway, to business, Raj, I know all the time I've been with Bernadette your desire for her has grown, and I just wanna say that now I'm gone... she's yours. Providing that she wants you of course... But Bernadette, I just want you to know... I love you, I love you more than anyone else in my life and I would never do anything to make you upset or do anything that you wouldn't like. You are my everything and I am so sorry that I had to leave you like this... I never wanted to hurt you, I never wanted this to happen but my time was obviously now... I'm sorry." And with that the video ended and the group stared at the blank screen.

"Wow, he really did care..." Leonard stood up and walked over to the bed, put a hand on the sheets and whispered,

"I'll miss you buddy, save a spot on the cool table for me." And he walked out the door, when he was just out of earshot he let go, tears poured down his face as he sobbed silently in the hall. He had always been the emotional one, he had just never shown it, he was too vulnerable as it is.

Back in Howard's room, Bernadette and Raj still stood in silence, they had gripped each other tightly as they had watched the video and through the whole thing Bernadette had been shaking like a leaf, but she had stopped for a few minutes after the message had ended. Raj turned his head and looked at the top of her head, she looked up into his eyes and whispered one thing,

"Do it..." And as their lips met they fell onto Howard's bed and were lost in their own thoughts and desires.

That's the end of the second chapter... hope you liked it and please review and tell me what you thought!