The day was an exhausting one for everyone. After the dinner everyone quickly went to bed. Levi had to write a report on everything that happened that day. It was a tiresome day and he hated the fact that he will have to stay up late. Hanji was energetic as ever. ' is she a human being' Levi thought. She was already thinking about the next experiments.
Everyone was asleep except for Eren. He was sitting on his bed looking out his window.
It was a failure. 'Eren cant get hard' according to Jean. Eren was so worried now. He wanted to help humanity. But now this. He was thinking all this and then he decided to go to sleep. They will have to find a new way.
Eren pulled his covers on him top of him. He tried to sleep but could not help but think about today. The events of the day. How Mikasa was worried about him all day, asking if he was okay to continue with the experiments. Everyone was talking about him today, thought that he would be able to save the humanity. He was the last hope. But now...he felt like that hope was lost. But the worse part was he disappointed his captain.
Captain Levi.
He had shown his disappointment clearly. Even though Hanji tried to make Eren feel better saying that Levi only wanted to encourage him. But Eren knew better ( at least that's what Eren thought. ) Mikasa was pretty mad about it. But Eren understood his captain. And he felt like shit. Eren wanted to make his captain proud. But up until now he has never done anything like that.
Eren remembers the first time he met his captain. ' short' was the first thought Eren had in his mind. But soon he learned, heights doesn't matter. At first he thought that the man was emotionless. And had a peculiar habit of Cleaning. To be honest Eren was a little upset. It was nothing like he thought the titan killing hero would be. But soon Eren got to know his captain better.
When levi squad died Eren was sad and felt useless. But what what surprised him was his captain's reaction. He still remembered that on his way passing his captain's room he saw Levi holding patches of cloths and putting it in a box. Te box was full of cloths of the same colored cloths. The wings of freedom patch. The way all the patches were kept spoke in volumes for the man's feelings. At that moment Eren felt as if this man was tired, tired of seeing numerous deaths. Again and again. Only seeing others die, while you live...it must be terrible. This man was trying, he was trying hard. To keep all there deaths meaningful ' there deaths will not go in vain, it only will give us more strength to kill the titans'. He was not giving up. That's when Eren decided that he will not feel down anymore. He felt encouraged and the next day he started training hard. The captain had always inspired Eren when he felt down. And that's why he wanted to make his captain proud. So that, if the time comes his captain will...also feel encouraged by him.
Eren blushed at the thought. Yes he wanted to become someone who the captain will be able to depend on. All this time captain was the only one who took care of him. When ever he was kidnapped, when others thought he was a threat, when he was feeling down, when he was confused all those time, the captain was there to protect him, save him. Eren felt save with his captain. As long as captain was there nothing could harm him he was happy. Yes, Eren liked his captain very much, no he loved his captain...wait! What?
Eren sat on his bed. All of a sudden he was feeling wired .His body was tingling all over. This is wired. Eren was confused. What was happening. He pulled his covers of him and readjusted is sleeping form on bed. He just ignored these feelings and tried to think of something else. His mind wondered to captain again. He remembered his face, that was emotionless as usual but he saw the worries in his deep steel blue eyes. His face, his chin his nose so relaxed yet ready to strike. His hair is body, his muscles, his hands, so small but firm. Eren wondered how dud he look without a shirt...but the startled himself. what the hell was he thinking? Whats wrong with him today. He groaned but now his body became too much bothersome. The more he thought about caption the more he was getting wired. As if something was piling up inside him and he needed to realize it.
Eren tossed and turned the entire night but the feeling was not going away. What was going on. He needed to get his sleep but he was getting nothing. And if this continued then tomorrow will be a trouble for him. He needed his sleep. But no matter what he tried he could not sleep. Suddenly his hands brushed his lower region and Eren moaned. His face red looked around saw that no one was awake to hear him. 'Shit! What was that?'
Then all of a sudden it clicked. He was...horny. Now Eren was no uneducated fool. He was aware of sex and related stuffs. He and Armin once read one of his fathers during their training, many boys hit their puberty. So obviously he knew. But this was his first time he felt like this. And there was only one thing that can be done to stop this nuisance.( his face is tomato red by now).
And Eren did not like it. But for the sake of his sleep. Well one must do what one must.