Chapter 2- Fireworks
After Edward left, my life had become nothing. I was a ghost. Everyone could see me, but I was not truly there. The feeling I felt day in and day out was a feeling I had never left before in my life. There was no purpose of living. Emptiness was all I felt for weeks. I was truly in hell.
After waking up screaming that night I didn't fall back asleep, but to me night time was the worst time. All I could hear was the silence, and for me silence was never good. It was a time to think, to remember, something I didn't want to do. Mornings were never good either. Waking up I felt like I was going to throw up, my stomach felt like it was in knots. Food was not a friend either. The smell made my stomach nauseous.
As I walked into the kitchen Charlie had this worried look. "I'm fine dad, just a little tired." He still kept his worried expression. "Alright Bells, just checking. Billy and I are going fishing today. You going to go over and see Jake?" I nodded. "Good. You and Jacob are getting really close. He has really helped you this past month." I nodded, I knew where this was going. He brought this up every so often. "Look I know that Jacob just your friend and all, but sometimes these things don't happened for a reason. What I am trying to say is, don't give up yet." I knew Charlie was just trying to help, but sometimes it made me more confused about how I felt toward Jacob. "I know dad, thanks. I'm headed out. I'll see you later."
As I walked out the house my thoughts were all over the place. Jacob was my best friend, someone who I felt completely safe with. He put me back together again after being catatonic for so long. He helped me take my mind off of everything that had happened. However, like Edward, Jacob also had a secret. He was a werewolf, but it didn't matter to me. He would always be Jacob to me. He hated Edward, for what he did to me. He said he would rip his head off if he ever came back and tired to hurt me. I liked how protective Jacob was to me. He made me feel safe. I knew our friendship meant more to Jacob, but how could I love him when I was so broke. I could never love Jacob the same way I loved Edward. I told Jacob that I didn't want to ruin our friendship and that I was too damaged, but that didn't stop Jacob from trying.
Driving to La Push, my head was spinning. The past couple of times Jacob and I hung out it was more intense. I could start to feel a connection, but I didn't want it. I was supposed to love Edward…... NOT Jacob…NOT my best friend. I had always loved Jacob just as my friend, but was that changing?
I pulled into Jacob's house and cut off my truck. As I hopped out of the truck Jacob was standing on the pouch waiting for me. He looked like he had just woken up wearing only shorts.
"Rough night?"
"The worst, but I am glad to see you." He smiled and gave me a hug.
"So Jake what are the plans for today?"
"Is it alright if we just watch a movie? I don't think I can work on the bikes or homework. My brain is fried." I nodded and he yawned like a lion and stretched. They must have been out running late last night. We walked into the house and sat down on the couch.
We snuggled next to each other as the movie started to play. It was nice to snuggle with Jacob, he was warm and my head fit perfectly between his head and shoulder. Throughout the movie Jacob kept squirming around. "You ok?" He nodded. He was acting really strange. I looked up at him then turned back to the movie when his hand cupped the side of my face and pulled me into a kiss. As his lips left mine he stared at me. He gave a little smirk and looked back at the TV.
DID THAT REALLY JUST HAPPEN? I JUST KISSED JACOB, MY BEST FIRNED!
As I looked back at the movies my eyes got wide. HOLY SHIT, I did just kiss Jacob. My heart was racing. No, this is not supposed to happen. I am not in love with Jacob. It is not in my DNA. I could not have these kind of feeling for Jacob. I must have looked like a freak because I had this stupid grin. Thank god he could not see my face. This was all wrong, I loved Edward, but Jacob was there for me in my darkest days. Maybe I could try and kiss him again, see if there were any fireworks. I looked up at him, as he started to lean in for the kiss my heart felt like it jumped out of my skin making me jump and sending me forward into Jacob kiss.
I melted into his lips. They were so soft and felt perfect against mine. Then after what seem like forever our lips unlocked. We stared at each other with a look of shock on both of our faces.
DAMN THOSE FIREWORKS!