Bakugo Katsuki was an enigma. He never let himself be understood completely. Always pushing against others… keeping himself miles away from me.
Midoriya Izuku was always sure that he was the reason Katsuki always avoided the common room. He knew Katsuki despised being around him as much as he wanted to be the number one hero. He wanted to show Deku that he would always be beneath him but Izuku knew that this wasn't possible anymore. Izuku was seeking a dream that he shared with Katsuki. He would reach it. He would become the best hero no matter the challenge, the foe or the friend that got in his way.
Katsuki had been avoiding him for a while now. It had started to become much more noticeable now that he hung around Kirishima more often. Kirishima had been the type to always start class events in the dorms. He would ask everyone if they wanted to sleep over in the common room and watch movies all night or he'd drag others into playing soccer. Sometimes around the beginning of the month when everyone got their allowance he'd drag everyone to go shopping. But now that he hung out with Katsuki more often it was easier to see that there was less interaction between the whole class.
It was easy to see what he was up to. There were random encounters in the dorms as he traveled between Todoroki and his room. These few times he would run into Katsuki and Kirishima. He could see why they were rapidly becoming close friends. They were so perfectly matched. And each time he ran into them he would smile and try to start a conversation but that usually resulted in a fowl tempered Katsuki.
He was sure that maybe if he didn't pay it much attention the pit in his stomach would disappear eventually. He really hated the feeling and he knew that it was an irrational feeling. But why couldn't Kaachan enjoy being around him like he did before, like he did now with Kirishima?
The feeling was hard to ignore when he was in his dorm. So, to fill up the space that was growing inside his stomach and to distract himself he would invite Todoroki over.
Shouto was amazing. His dual quirk was powerful and easily one of the strongest he's seen. Along with his amazing quirk he was also quite intelligent. He was easy to talk to. Todoroki was always listening and even put in his own thoughts when he knew it was needed. But there was always something missing. Izuku could never pinpoint the feeling. It felt like a deep longing for something. Everytime he felt it he would push it aside in favor of laughing or making a new observation of Todoroki.
Maybe he couldn't have Kaachan but he didn't mind staying with Todoroki. He was honest, understandable, and warm.
….
"If them seeds never blossom, let me sow again
Like, I can reckon we could glow again
But you're just sayin' no again"
All Time Low- Jon Bellion
A/N:
I had a random burst of inspiration after I listened to this song. I really don't know what to think about this story. Bakudeku is such a confusing ship and then adding Kiribaku and Tododeku. There are a lot of dynamics to take into account. But I feel like Bakudeku is sort of meant to be just friendship in the end.