Disclaimer: I am not Stephenie Meyer. I do not own any of these characters and I did not write the original Twilight or New Moon, however, it'd be amazing if I did :)

Chapter One

How close were you?

I was having dinner with Charlie. I couldn't wait for me to go up to my room and spend some more time with Edward. Charlie thought Edward had left around eight which was when my visiting hours were over, but what he never knew was that by nine there Edward would return to me and we would be together where Charlie couldn't supervise.

Charlie was watching me very carefully since he found out about the motorcycles. He wanted to blame Edward, but he couldn't because that was the time, the most painful part of my life, the time Edward had left me. Even though he'd promised he never would leave me again, every moment I had with him, I was sure to celebrate because I was almost sure it'd be our last.

I kept calling Jake, which would make Edward jealous. I wasn't sure how much he knew about how close me and Jake had gotten while he was away, but none of that mattered now, because he was back. Surely he knew that he was the only one I'd ever truly love. I did love Jake, but it wasn't anything compared to the love I held for Edward and all the while we were close, Jake and I were both very aware of the feelings I could never truly have for him.

"Jake called you today."

I looked up at Charlie.

"When did he call!?" I could hear the desperation in my voice. How could he just now tell me this? He knew I was desperately trying to get a hold of him. He knew that me and Jacob hadn't been the same since the Cullens came back.

"He called around noon. Bells this is getting ridiculous, I don't know what happened between you two, but I know you both care about each other." He looked at me with pleading eyes. I knew what he wanted to happen; he wanted me to leave Edward for Jake. I knew that's what Jake wanted too. I knew I couldn't leave Edward. Even if while he was away there was a small part of me that wanted to, I knew I couldn't do it now, I wouldn't do it now.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

"I forgot all about it. Why don't you tell me what happened?!"

"Dad, it's complicated and I don't feel like getting into it. Things between Jake and I are none of your concern. It'll get fixed again I promise." After I said the words I knew it was true. I would make things right with him, if it was the last thing I ever did. I shoved the rest of my lasagna down my throat and scampered upstairs to see Edward. I hoped he hadn't heard Charlie.

There he was looking completely beautiful lying on my bed. I looked at his expression and I could tell he was trying to hide the hurt. He had heard Charlie and me. I went to lie next to him and he pulled me into a tight embrace. I could feel his cold body against mine and I could smell his heavenly scent.

"What are you thinking?" I asked him. I wanted him to know that he had no reason to be jealous.

"Just things. Bella, while I was away…well…" He didn't know what to say. He looked more human than I'd ever seen him look. I was scared of what he would say. Would he ask how close Jake and I truly was? How would I answer that? The truth was what exactly… we were so close to happening and maybe we would have, but it didn't matter, all that time Edward was away didn't mean a thing to me now. All that mattered was the fact that Edward was here with me in my room.

"While I was away did you and…" before he could finish his newly found words I went up to his face and placed my warm lips to his cold ones. I started to overreact like always and he didn't push me back. He kissed me hard, but soft. When we were done we were both out of breath. The only time he ever kissed me like that was when we wouldn't have anymore time together.

"Don't leave me." I looked at him and if he had been able to cry I'm sure he would have.

"Bella I told you, I will never leave you again, unless you want to get rid of me. I love you way too much to even consider leaving you." He whispered almost too low for my human ears to hear. "Why would I leave you?" He looked down at me with wide and pained eyes.

"You only kiss me like that when you leave me." I was too scared to look at him and I couldn't hide the chagrin in my voice. I was sure he was going to ask the question that I couldn't answer.

"But why would I want to leave you? Bella while I was gone exactly how close were you and Jake? Charlie thinks you two were pretty close and I just want to know exactly how close you were."

I didn't know what I was supposed to say. I didn't know what the truth was to tell him exactly. There was no way I could get out of answering this question.

"Edward, you are the only one for me, I will never, nor have I ever loved someone the way I love you."

"That doesn't answer my question."

"That's the only answer I can give you. I never loved Jake the way I love you and I never will, you are my everything, isn't that enough?"

"No." His face turned hard. I wasn't telling him what he needed to hear. He needed to hear that while he was away I only wanted him, which was true to an extent. When I didn't think he was coming back, I had opened my eyes to Jake. I couldn't tell him I didn't love Jake because I did, just not anywhere close to the way I loved Edward.

"I need my human moment." I got up and grabbed my bag of toiletries and rushed into the bathroom.

When I returned from my shower he was gone.