At first he'd hated helping 2D learn to live without his eye sight. He had been annoyed easily with him, but he'd done his best to keep calm. It didn't help that Paula refused to do a damned thing other than ignore her blind boyfriend completely and put all of her disgusting focus on Murdoc. It had been nearly a year until 2D finally got the hold of things, the cane helped him get around without tripping or bumping into things...Sometimes, the man wasn't naturally built for balance. If he wasn't tripping over his own feet then he was tripping up with those lanky long legs of his. Even two years later he still needed help with some things and Russel and Noodle were willing to help the best that they could, but mostly he wanted Murdoc. Russel commented every once and awhile that he couldn't understand why 2D wanted to spend so much time with the drunken Satanist. Not like Murdoc understood it himself; maybe it was because they'd known each other longer? He told himself it had to be that, because he was an ass and he insulted 2D and lost his temper with him over the dumbest shit. He didn't like how willing the singer was to take blame for things that weren't his fault, he couldn't get that sometimes Murdoc was just an asshole. If he was in the right mood he might snap and yell at him, he had to admit it was cute as Hell when 2D would get frustrated then angry and tell him off. It didn't happen often, only in a couple of interviews that the singer had really wanted to do, but Murdoc had insisted on acting like an ass the entire time until 2D finally just told him to shut the fuck up. Russel told him he had a really bad influence on the blue haired man and also that he really needed to stop trying to teach Noodle how to say curse words in English.

It was strange how things sort of fell into place; he hadn't expected this in a million years. He hadn't expected for 2D to even come out of his coma let alone live, hadn't expected him to want to be friends with him or join a band with him, and he hadn't expected them to go anywhere at all. He knew what Hell told him; that he'd become famous and all of that, but after at least five failed bands he really hadn't expected much from it. He tried not to think too hard about the deal, he didn't know as many details about it as maybe he should. He didn't know just when it would end and in a lame attempt to hold it off he made other small contracts with other lesser demons. He partially did it to save his own ass and because he honestly did enjoy playing around with black magic and learning to gain control over it. Russel hated it and would lecture him on the dangers of it and about the spirit world and other things that Murdoc didn't hear a single word of, because he tended to not listen when the drummer was talking to him. 2D thought it was cool, occasionally he'd do less dangerous ones around the blue haired man, explain things to him the best that he could. They spent a lot of time together; he was grateful for that in a bit of a way, after what had happened with Paula there had been a period where the younger man hadn't wanted much at all to do with him. He'd felt like shit about it, he would tread around that topic the best that he could even though asinine interviewers loved to bring it up at every opportunity. They had gotten past that though and they were close again, even if he didn't exactly understand why the lanky singer wanted to be around him so often.

Right now Murdoc was in 2D's room sitting on the edge of his bed playing bass while the younger man listened. He told him he liked listening to him play, about as much as Murdoc liked to listen to him sing. Arms wrapped loosely around his waist, he felt warm breath against the side of his face and could feel himself tensing at having the other man this close to him.

"You okay?"

"Huh, yeah no I'm fine."

He made himself relax, it wasn't that he minded 2D being close to him just he wasn't sure how to handle it or incorporate it sometimes. He wasn't sure if the younger man even noticed him tense when he touched him or how he just hit the wrong chord.

"You've been kind of quiet today, you're never quiet."

"You know I don't have to ramble on all the time like a complete idiot unlike you."

2D pulled away and laughed, Murdoc kind of hated that he was no longer wrapped around him. He sat his bass on the floor and turned so he could properly face his friend.

"Yeah right, like you ever shut up. You don't even make sense half of the time."

"Nah mate that's just you, too slow to get a damned word I'm saying. People rather hear me talk anyway, I've got a far more appealing voice; you just sound whiny like a teenage girl or something like that."

"You sound like an obscene phone call or the bass in a porn movie, kind of creepy if you ask me."

"You can be easily replaced you know that right?" Murdoc asked smirking

2D smiled and leaned forward, "You'd be bored out of your sodding mind if I wasn't here."

"Like you'd be any better off, we'd both be fucking bored."

The singer reached out placing a hand on Murdoc's cheek, his smile was fainter now as his index finger traced along the older man's jawline then along his lower lip before pulling away. He wished that he hadn't pulled away. He liked when 2D wanted to see his face.

"You're really beautiful, you know that?"

"I think you might be a bit off with that one mate."

"No way I'm never off, I've seen your face enough times to know whether you're attractive or not. Anyways you always tell people how sexy you are."

"Just because I say it doesn't mean I feel it."

The younger man placed a hand on his leg, he liked 2D touching him, but he didn't. He liked the way it felt and how gentle he was, but it freaked him out. He couldn't explain it, not even to himself let alone to anyone else. He felt something in the room change, it made his heart beat faster.

"Hey Muds, why do you always tense up when I touch you?"

"Just a reflex from when I was a kid."

Not completely a lie; he wasn't great with physical contact. Nobody in his family had hugged or shown signs of affection, he wasn't entirely used to being around someone like 2D who wanted to hug him and touch him. There was something else to it, something about the singer touching him that made him nervous and excited sort of like in that parking lot after the second accident when 2D had stood there staring at him, through him.

"Sorry, I kind of forgot about that. I'll ask next time if that makes you feel better." 2D said pulling his hand away, Murdoc wanted to tell him he could touch him all that he wanted to.

He wasn't sure there was a way to say that without sounding weird or desperate though. He opted for getting up off of the bed and going to the door, 2D furrowed his brow in confusion.

"I should um, get back to...I should go, I'll see you tomorrow."

He left closing the door behind him, he went back to his Winnebago where he closed and locked the door just on the off chance that 2D would follow him wanting to ask why he was acting so weird around him. He hadn't always acted that way; yeah maybe when he first saw him he'd felt some weird attraction, maybe he had felt a bit jealous and annoyed when 2D told him that he had a girlfriend who he wanted to be in their band, and possibly he felt like a complete dick for shagging said girlfriend. He had tried to tell 2D that she wasn't good for him, but he hadn't listened, and at the time it had seemed like a decent plan. That was over though, they were past that, and the singer hadn't had a girlfriend for awhile. Murdoc generally ended up stealing them away from him or chasing them off, it pissed 2D off each time, but he'd quickly get over it like he normally did. He was grateful the singer didn't have too much of an attention span, hopefully right now he was forgetting about Murdoc acting weird then just rushing out on him like that. He didn't know what the hell it was; he wasn't sure half of the time whether the blue haired man was just annoyingly affectionate with him or if he had a crush on him. He didn't want to deal with that; he didn't feel he was really worth having a crush on, even if he hated seeing said singer with other people...It was a complicated situation.

Murdoc had no problems coming onto women and men he hardly knew, but this was different. This was somebody he knew and hurt a lot and it could cost him a friendship and his band, he really didn't want to lose the band.

He grabbed the unopened bottle of whiskey off of the counter then went back to his bed. Drink to forget. It wasn't a good habit, but it was better than acting like a complete moron every time 2D touched him or told him he was beautiful. How dull was he that he could think Murdoc was attractive? He needed to stop putting so much trust into the older man. Russel had brought it up before how mind boggling it is that 2D is so close to the bassist. Everybody even complete strangers thought it was strange that he was so interested in a man who treated him like crap. It wasn't that often per say, a lot of times it was just during interviews or if he was having a really shit day or couldn't handle something. Other than that they were juts fine, he got annoyed by how optimistic and trusting Stu could be, but in a dumb way it was sweet. In a really, really dumb way it managed to be sweet. It just wasn't good that he was so innocently trusting when it came to Murdoc and always so ready to forgive him from the coma to causing him to go blind to having sex with Paula. He just wanted for once the other man to blame him and realize he wasn't somebody to trust this much.