I had a lapse in judgment. I was stupid enough to let him sleep with me.

How was I going to tell him this? We were both smarter than this. He and I both had plans for life. This baby would ruin hus. I could arrange mine around the baby. He wanted to be a doctor. He had to go through years and years of school. I could not ruin that for him.

But then again I know what its like to grow up with out a father. It sucks big time. So maybe I could tell him and if he did not want to be involved then so be it.

I would tell him. Wait, this could screw things over for Tanya and him. I heard things were going fairly well. I think she will be the one to tie him down. Believe it or not I used to be one of those girls that was begging for his attention.

I got it and now after how I lost my virginity I can't imagine sex as something you do out of love. I lost it in the back seat of his Volvo.

How romantic? He told me he loved me and I believed him. How dumb could I be?

Oh, kill me now. He is just so promiscuous how could he be a responsible father? I screwed up big time. I should have been on birth control. But then again he should have brought a condom.

Well he probably assumed that I was on birth control like all of his other sluts. You mustn't assume though.

I got pregnant at a horrible time. School was about to start. I'd start to show sooner or later and I'd have to hide the evidence underneath my sweater.

God must hate me.

I'm on my way to Edwards. What do I say?

"Remember that time in the back of the car? Well yeah, now I'm pregnant.

Or simply- "You knocked me up."

Gosh he'll probably think I planned this because his parents are on the wealthy side.

I can't believe I'm doing this.

The doorbell chimed. I feel like I'm going to vomit.

NO! I am going to vomit. Right as the door was opening I threw up right there on their beautiful porch.

"Ummm, excuse me Bella?" Of course the worst person possible opened the door.

"Edward, can we talk? This is very, I mean very important." I stuttered out.

"Can't it wait? I'm with Tanya at the moment." Out of every excuse I would not imagine I would have to share the news with her too. I want a long conversation where we can mull this all over.

"Clean this up." He said shutting the door in my face.

Oh hell no.

Well I guess this will have to go the hard way. "Edward Cullen you open this door right now. I said I wanted to talk so grow some fucking balls and talk to me!" I screamed.

This could have been easy, but he chose the hard way.

Dumb bastard.

I heard a loud thump and then saw a very angry Edward in front of me. "Come walk with me I'd rather not have an audience for this. He sighed and walked out of the door and over the vomit. After we walked a little ways he finally asked.

"What did you have to drag me all the way out here for?" This was probably going to be one of the hardest things I'd ever have to do in my life.

"I'm pregnant Edward." I said while he looked stunned into silence.

"What?" He choked out.

"I'm pregnant with your child." I said slowly. He looked pissed beyond belief. It looked as if he were going to punch something. His fists were slowly clenching and un-clenching. I heard his teeth gnash together. "Say something please" I urged.

"You are such a fucking liar Bella! Why would you lie about something this severe?! You are just another fucking gold-digger!" His words came crashing down on me like a ton of bricks and I didn't move a muscle. It was my turn to be shocked into silence. Eventually what could have been hours a violent sob rode through me. He just walked away.

And I knew that was something I would soon get used to.

A/N- New chapter bitches!

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