Thor couldn't go down to visit Loki and even if you understood his hesitation you were a bit angry at him. You almost arrived at the dungeons when the ground shook under your feet. Something was wrong. You ran to the cells and saw chaos. Prisoners fought against guards and the Warrior Three minus Hogun. A giant beast walked slowly in your direction but stopped at Loki's cell. You didn't know what that creature wanted from Loki but you had to stop it so you ran to it and jumped on it's back. Loki seemed more paler than ever before and tried to get out of his cell breaking the table on the energy wall.

'(Y/n)! What the Hel are you doing?!' he shouted frightened.

'Saving your ass!' you shouted back and stabbed your dagger in the creature's neck with no effect. 'Really?' you sighed but as you pulled the dagger out the creature grabbed you by your dress' collar and slammed you into a wall. Your leg and arm broke in the process but Thor appeared soon and the creature ran away. 'Better be afraid of my big brother, you ugly… thing…' you cried after it.

'Are you insane?! That creature could have killed you, (Y/n)!' shouted Loki crouching down as close as he could in his cell to you.

'You know, not only Thor's duty is to save Asgard' you smiled up at him. Those emerald green eyes never held so much concern and worry as he looked at you. Thor quickly came for your help and brought you to the healers. He ran off to Frigga knowing Jane was with her.

You sensed that something went wrong and you couldn't feel Frigga's soul anymore as you lied on the table. A tear rolled down on your face because you loved her even if she never held such feelings for you. She was the closest to a mother in your life. You wanted to get up but the healers tried to get you back to the bed.

'Let me go, now!' you hissed with venom and pushed past them with your half healed leg and arm. You arrived at her chambers and saw her lying on the floor. Thor and Odin stood there mourn on their faces.

The guards took the queen's body and the preparation started. You tried to ease Thor's pain as much as you could as well as your father's but it wasn't enough. You went back to your chambers to change into something formal than the bloodied armor you wore. Your handmaid helped you dress up in the gown you chose and did your hair. You asked for a really Asgardian hair style to show you how much you loved her. She was your mother no matter the blood.

The night fell down and the celebration started. You walked on Odin's side as Thor did. You saw so many funeral before but this was something different maybe because it was the first you mourned a sibling. Everything was quiet as you retrieved to your chambers. You wanted to go tell Loki yourself about Frigga's death but Odin refused it.

The next day was busy. They started rebuilding the palace while you, Odin, Volstagg and Fandral tried to form a plan if the dark elves come back. You were tired from just the thought you had to fight again and Odin seemed inconvincible about this. Suddenly Thor boomed through the hall frightening you a bit.

'So now she is your prisoner?' you sighed as you heard him say this. You dismissed the others and pretended you left with them but you hid behind a pillar instead. As you listened to them you shut your eyes and you only heard the last things they said.

'We will fight till the last Asgardian!' shouted Odin.

'This makes you the same as Malekith' said Thor.

'Maybe… but I will win' answered determined the All-Father. It was best if you let them alone doing what they wanted to do. You slipped through the side doors and disappeared on the corridors to your room. You packed some clothes, you put on your armor and sword and some food in your backpack you made from leather. You wanted to go to Alfheim to find your mother. At least you would be a bit distracted from the things that happened in Asgard.

'You did not tell me you wanted to go somewhere' commented your father and you froze. You shut the backpack and turned to him. 'My daughter is the finest warrior in Asgard. Even better than Thor and she leaves her home at the worst times.'

'I am going to find… someone' you said quietly but determined.

'Who?' he asked surprised.

'My mother…' you answered pain in your voice. You knew it would pain to no end the old king but you couldn't lie to him either and he would find out anyway.

'Oh… you are way smarter than I ever imagined it, min datter' sat down the white haired old god.

'Mother told me when I enraged her some days ago… that I am the pledge of your disloyalty towards her' you said with tears in your eyes. 'Do you know where is my birth mother?'

'No, child… I do not know anymore' he shook his head. 'But before you leave let me tell you the truth.'

You just nodded wanting to know the truth.

'A long time ago in Alfheim there were two elven clans. Each leader wanted the throne of Alfheim. Your mother was one of them. Soora was a powerful sorcerer. I loved her as a lover but after that night happened I redretted it immediately. That is how you conceived but I never regretted your presence my child. When you were born I brought you here because you would've been in danger with her. I never told Frigga what happened truly and I never intended to let you know the truth. I would like you to not go to Alfheim searching for her. She is nothing like a mother anymore.'

'Let me go father…' you stood up hope in your eyes and you knew Odin was already tired and worn so he let you go on your way with a nod. That was your last day for a while in Asgard.

Time skip~

You wandered around the elven realm searching for Soora but without result. You were there for a month now not hearing anything about Asgard or the other realms. Everyone freaked out when you mentioned her name and seemed like they didn't know but didn't want to know either of her.

You sat on the ground at your campfire in the forest and tried to stay warm. You remembered the times you thought Frigga was your mother and your family was just as normal as every other. You were proud where you lived and how you lived and it was all just a lie. Tears rolled down on your cheeks and your body shook when two arms snaked around your waist hugging you tight to a warm chest. Mint and pine leaves.

'I searched for you through the nine realms…' Loki whispered in your ear heating your cheeks up. You turned around to see his handsome features yourself before hugging his neck and pulling him closer to your body.

'Loki' you buried your face in the crook of his neck. 'How did you…? What happened?'

'We won' he said a smile on his thin lips but it wasn't just proud… it was sad.

'You mean, you and Thor? Together? Like in the past?' your eyes widened and happiness flared up in your chest.

'Yes… like a long time ago…' he sighed and his face grew sadder. You furrowed your eyebrows.

'What is wrong?' you asked placing your hand over his cheek concerned.

'I escaped' he said.

'Oh' you managed quietly. You knew it meant something more but you didn't want to push it though. You were happy you saw Loki again outside of his cell. You held so much more love towards him than a sister should toward her brother but you weren't exactly his sister. Not blood related. 'How is Thor faring?'

'He left Asgard for Jane Foster' answered the Trickster. 'I can understand him… I mean he loves her. I would want to do the same.' Silence sat between you and him as you sat there at the campfire. Loki took every little detail in about you as good as he could because he knew he will need to leave you at least for now. Until he can be himself on Asgard's throne. Suddenly something caught his eyes. Your ears were slightly pointed like a half-elven's would be. He couldn't help but touch it making you jump a little in surprise.

'Do not frighten me, Loki! My heart almost jumped out of my chest!' you scolded making him grin.

'Your ears' he gazed at your ears with his emerald green eyes.

'Did father not tell you?' you asked growing a bit cold at the mention of the truth.

'What?' he asked back confused. You sighed and with a sad smile on your face you started to tell him what he left out.

Flashback~

Thor came back with Loki from Midgard. You stood with Frigga in the throne room next to the throne where Odin sat looking furious. You knew your father was angry with Loki but you talked to him into this. If you didn't he would execute your beloved brother and you would lose the only person who really cared about you in the palace.

Everytime you got lessons with Loki and Thor by Frigga you felt stiffness in her eyes as she looked at you. This was a common thing from the day you realized the world around you. She was your mother. Why did she love Thor and Loki more than you? Did you do something wrong? You always did your best at her lessons, always was successful with everything. You were good in what Thor and Loki as well. Your features weren't similar to hers but Loki's wasn't as Odin's so it didn't matter.

You pleaded with your father to not execute Loki and after two hours of reasoning you won. Odin always loved you more than even Thor. It was obvious but you were his daughter and fathers always act differently with their daughters than their sons.

You watched Loki talk to the All-Father but it soon ended when the Trickster pissed Odin off. You wanted to go after your father to calm him down but Frigga stopped you when you shouted at each other too.

'Come here at once, (Y/n)!' her tone was demanding. She never really used it only those times when she needed to seem the strongest and fearful queen in the nine realms. You walked with her to her chambers but the argument continued now with her. You were too furious now.

'Mother, you know well enough that Loki is not the monster everyone thinks he is! I know him!' you shouted. 'Father is too strict with him! He acts like he hates him truly! A king is nothing like that!'

'DO NOT DOUBT YOUR FATHER'S JUDGEMENT, BASTARD!' shouted back Frigga. You stopped dead mouth gaped in surprise and horror. What? Bastard?

'What?' you asked shocked and whispering. You saw that the queen regretted what she said and dead panned turning away from you and leaning on the table she had in the room.

'Nothing… I just… it was just a figure of speech… I'm sorry' she mumbled but you knew better than that. It was HOW she said it. The tone Frigga used showed you the truth.

'It was not… am I not Odin or your blood?' you asked tears in your eyes. Frigga looked miserable but you wanted to know. Had to know it. 'TELL ME THE TRUTH!'

'You are your father's blood… but not mine…' she added weakly. Your eyes widened. Now you knew why she looked at you with cold emptiness and hatred in her eyes. Now you knew why she ignored you as much as she could. Now you knew why Odin tried to make everything so perfect for you.

'What?' you only could manage this.

'Odin brought back a child from a battle… It was the battle of two elven clan in Alfheim… I do not know who is your birth mother… but I do not want to know' the queen turned back to you now coldly staring at you. 'It is time for you to leave, (Y/n).'

And with that you flew off of her chambers and never went back. You closed your chambers' doors on yourself not wanting to get involved with anyone especially not with Odin or Thor. You loved them and yet the only one you wanted to love you, hated you because you existed. You were pledge of the All-Father's disloyalty towards Frigga.

Days passed, Thor tried to make peace through the nine realms with the Warrior Three and Sif. Loki was in his room where Odin locked him up until they prepared a cell for him. You couldn't go in or even teleport inside because of the spell your father cast on his room.

You felt so lonely and slowly grew cold and counting towards the ones you didn't know. Everyone started to fear you as they did towards Loki but you just kept acting like that. You couldn't show Odin you knew about the secret he held.

End of flashback~

Loki's PoV.

I just listened to (Y/n) wide eyed. I never thought Odin would do something as terrible as cheating on the kindest and most caring person the nine realms knew about. Elves were known as the most beautiful creatures. Some of them played with others' hearts.

As I watched those beautiful features going sad my heart clenched. I knew she only saw me as her brother but I fell in love with her a long time ago and now I couldn't deny it. I loved her. I had to figure out something to get her back with me to the palace. I could always lie to her about little things, it didn't make me feel guilty. I can pretend Odin let me have my way in the palace after hearing how Thor and I fought side by side and make her believe that the All-Father is just too busy talking to her and then I can be him for a while. It wasn't a bad plan. I smiled to myself but quickly wiped it away.

'Would you come back with me to Asgard?' I asked while pulling her closer to me. I couldn't take anymore the missing feeling of her.

'Why would it be a good idea?' she asked leaning into me. My heart pounded in my chest joyously. The urge to kiss her became unbearable.

'You searched for your mother for too long. It is time for you to rest. I promise I will help you find her once you are ready for the journey.' I replied trying to reason with her. (Y/n) looked up at me and my heart stopped for a moment. She smiled at me as she placed a hand on my chest.

'There is something I need to tell you, Loki' she sighed looking away again.

'What is it?' I asked nervously. Did she find someone here? Did she fell in love with an elf? If it is than I will make sure that damn elf will suffer for taking what is supposed to be mine. It took an eternity while she spoke again.

'I have loved you since we were children… More than a sister should love her brother… and I thought it was inappropriate of me… I thought I was guilty for loving you… but I can understand it if you do not want me as a lover, Lo-' but she couldn't finish her sentence. I cupped her chin and placed a soft, wanting kiss on her soft lips.

Your PoV.

Loki's lips found yours and your heart flattered happily in your chest. You kissed him back snaking your arms around his neck and pulling him closer to your body. His long fingers and large hands hugged you closer and when you pulled apart for air you smiled so brightly you never imagine you could.

'I should have tell you earlier' he sighed and kissed down on your neck earning a moan from you which made you blush hard and your pointed ears had a bright red color now.

'What?' you asked light headed.

'That I love you just as much as you love me if not more… that you are my moon and my sun on the sky… that I never layed eyes on any other women matching your beauty… that you are everything I could have wished for and wish for' he said pressing his forehead to yours.

'Would you like me to go back with you to Asgard?' you asked still not too convinced about it. How much the people would hate you for being the way you were? How much they would despise you for "incest" – even if it wasn't truly incest.

'Yes, my love' breathed out the raven haired prince. You sighed but nodded and let him help you up from your sitting position while extinguish the campfire. He pulled you with him through the forest to a cave at the mountain's leg. You knew Loki know all of the secret ways through the nine realms so you let him pull you towards the cave's wall which seemed thick. You closed your eyes as you followed him but felt the salty breeze on your skin suddenly and the ocean's smell. You opened your eyes and you were in the library you and Loki read and played when you were children. Suddenly maids came for your things to place it in your room while Loki walked you with him to his own room.

'Father will want to know where I was and if I succeed tomorrow. Would you join me, Loki?' you asked a bit worried how would Odin react when he would see you.

'I am afraid I cannot, (Y/n)… The All-Father entrusted me with a task about the new protection of Asgard' turned to you the Trickster sadly. You sighed and nodded a bit disappointed. You hoped Odin would still see you as his daughter and not something terrifying like the elves thought your mother was.

To be continued…