*Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Vampire Academy characters. ONLY Rachel Mead does . I really appreciate the last reviews. If you don't already know I have another story if you ever want to read that and I'm so happy that you guys liked my story! You would not believe how excited I get when I go to read my reviews…it's pretty funny. Well here's the next chapter and I really hope you enjoy it!*

I looked at Dimitri like he was insane. Who am I kidding he is insane. I busted out laughing at that last though startling Dimitri in the process. His startled expression soon transforming into anger...which of course just makes me laugh harder.

"You've …completely…lost it…hahahaha!" I said unable to contain my laughter. "You know…I didn't know you were this…funny."

I should've stopped laughing. I should've known it wasn't a joke from the look of utter fury and disbelief on his face. Instead I just kept going.

"You think this is funny?" He yelled at me.

I stopped laughing abruptly. I've never heard Dimitri yell before. Never in my life. Not even when I burned his favorite western book for firewood when I was eleven. Yet here he is yelling at me and I still don't believe a word he's saying. In fact I even get angry myself.

"You want to know how I could take this as a joke? How I could possibly think this is funny?" I shot at him angrily. "It's because I disobeyed him. I went to the party so he's trying to teach me a lesson and flip my shit by pulling this…this …. this STUNT!" I screamed at the end throwing my hands up and gesturing around.

I watched as his jaw clenched. His hands tightened on the steering wheel making the muscles in his arms bulge out. His face was now unreadable. I should stop yelling at him. I really should, but I'm too worked up to even think about stopping.

"I know what I'm talking about!" I shout at him. "He told me if anything_."

"Mama wanted life." He said blankly.

I stared at him and shook my head swearing I heard him wrong. The tension in the car shot up a couple notches. My heart began to speed up and my hands began to sweat at the one thing that keeps running through my head. What if I didn't hear him wrong? Swallowing the sudden lump that formed in my throat I picked up my courage and opened my mouth.

"What did you say?" I whispered softly.

Dimitri tensed even more. His grip on the steering wheel was so tight his knuckles were white. He paused for a minute and in that minute I silently begged. I begged for him to just tell me something else. I begged him to laugh and tell me it was a joke. I begged and I begged…

"Mama wanted life."

I felt my face drain of color. My stomach twisted into knots. My chest contracted in on itself as my heart and mind were filled with panic and fear. My eyes began to burn with tears. Then I could feel it. The oncoming memory of my past that I've clung to so I would always remember what those words meant.

"How would I know if anything happened to you." I cried to Mason. I tried to cling to his arm.

Mason sighed at me as he tried to pack his school bag with one hand. I flinched internally at it. I frustrated him again. Keeping my hold on his arm I climbed onto the bed and pulled on his sleeve. I knew he was irritated I just couldn't seem to make myself let go. What if I lost him like I lost mommy?

"I'm just going to school Rose." He said running his hand through his hair. I whimpered softly and pulled on his sleeve again only for him to yank his arm out of my hold. "You can't keep clinging to me like this! I can't get my homework done or concentrate on business without you getting in the way. I can't even take a piss without you sitting outside the door!" He yelled at me.

I looked down quickly hiding my face from him. I tried to will away my tears. He was silent as I struggled with my hurt feelings. I could hear the rustling of his clothes as he kneeled in front of me.

"I'm sorry Rose, it's just hard for me sometimes." He said gently. He pushed my hair out of my face. "Awwww Rose don't do that. Please don't cry." He brushed some tears that escaped accidentally.

"We should have a code phrase incase anything happens." He whispered to me playfully.

Looking up excitedly I smiled widely. I nodded my head. Mason stuck out his tongue and tapped his chin in mock thinking mode making me giggle.

"How about…Rat?" He said. I shook my head violently. "Alright what about table cloth?"

After about 5 minutes of suggestions and no's I finally through one out.

"What about Mama wanted life?" I said thoughtfully.

Mason grew very quiet. The room dropped in temperature just slightly. Worried I made him mad I looked into his eyes. It was terrorizing. The look in his eyes was one of pure hatred. Yet for some odd reason he smiled forcefully and nodded his head in agreement.

The memory ended leaving me even more panicked. I couldn't breathe. There was all this air around me yet not enough to put in my lungs. My vision was blurred with tears as wave after wave of anxiety crushed me.

"Rose breathe…breathe…breathe for me Roza." I could hear his voice drifting to me. Dimitri sounded so far away. I felt like he was miles away and not sitting next to me.

I opened my mouth try to draw in a breath only to fail. My lungs started to burn with the lack of oxygen and my chest felt like it was collapsing in on itself. I began to tremble from the feeling of it all when suddenly air rushed into my lungs. I felt like life was just punched back into my chest. I desperately gasped every drop of oxygen as if it would be my last. My senses began to become clearer.

Clear enough to feel Dimitri's hand stroking my hair gently. Warmth flooded my chest for a brief moment and my long time mental confessions of love rushed to the surface. It amazes me that just a small gesture from him could save me from…oh shit.

"You have to turn the car around!" I said frantically. I turned to face him and grabbed his hand before he could draw it back to the steering wheel.

His body tensed up to an uncanny amount and he clenched his jaw.

"No."

"What do you mean no!"

"I mean no."

"YOU HAVE TO TURN THE CAR AROUND! WE HAVE TO GO BACK FOR HIM! DIMITRI PLEASE?" I screamed shaking him roughly.

Being the last thing he expected me to do the car swerved violently going off of the road. With one hand already trapped in my own he hit the brakes roughly causing the car to jerk to a stop. Not waiting a second flung myself out my door and tried to make a run…only to be slammed against the car.

Yanking my fist back I swung forward and lifted my knee up. Two things went wrong here. One Dimitri knows me too well. Two I'm a fucking idiot for even trying to attack him. Blocking my knee with his leg he spread my legs apart and stepped in between them causing me to lift off the ground somewhat while simultaneously capturing my fist and other hand and trapping them above my head.

"Stop fighting me Rose." He snapped at me.

I wiggled against him trying to test his strength. My conclusion came out to where I just gave up. I felt my strength disappear rapidly causing me to droop against him. My anger and desperation turned into wave after wave of pure undiluted guilt. It was my fault my brother was captured.

As if sensing my surrender he dropped my hands and lifted me into his arms letting me wrap my legs around his waist and pressed me even more against the car for support as I cried.

"We have to go back. " I sobbed into his chest. "I have to save him. "

He stroked my hair gently and ran his lips over my forehead causing my heart to jump in my chest. I curled my fingers in his hair wishing for one brief moment that he would love me the way I love him. Wishing that he would just make me forget all the pain I'm going through right now. Instead his next words shattered me.

"I can't let you do that Rose. I promised him. I gave my word that under no circumstances would I take you back unless he gave me the word to do so." He sighed.

I felt like I had just been literally stabbed in my heart. Letting out a heartbreaking wail I buried my face into the crook of his neck. I wanted to go back for Mason. I will even try to go back. When Dimitri makes a promise that promise is never broken. My chances are nothing.

*Hey I know that's a really short chapter compared to the last one but I've had a hell of a week trying to work on my solo for my concert and studying for tests. I'm hoping that my next chapter will turn out right because we'll finally see some more connection romantically sorta between Rose and Dimitri! Give me your wonderful reviews and I'll update soon.*