Wishing On A Supernova
Chapter One Kagome's Wish
By Inuyashas Youkai
*I do not own Inuyasha nor the song Most Uncommon Thing By Five Times Augest*
The sun made it's decent over the horizons in Sengoku Judai ,fading it's light descending into nightfall. The moon trading places to softly give it's dim pale presence emerging ,a soft whisper of announcement ,and lit across the darkened sky. Stars began to dot the blackened clouds,symbolizing the cycle from the day into night, has commenced.
Feeling only the warmth of the fire,blazing in it's chosen spot, while the group of the Inutaichi sat memorized in the flames dance ,and engrossed in their own thoughts. Through many travels they had finally had come to the point in time that each one of them dreamed about :Collecting nearly all the shards called for to put it back to it's original luster ,to send it out of time's existance , and with it removing the evil presence that sought its power for his own greed.
Thus now it was time to meet their tormentor, to remove the remaining needed shards from it's taint,and to destroy it's demented game from continuing . All of them felt that the time for them was coming to an end whether they survived or not they could free those affected and still within his hold. In their search realizing with the exception of the few that Kagome had now possessed ,Naraku had gathered and hoarded the remaining part of the jewel . The hesitant feelings of the unknown fate awaiting them was gripping their being into silence, and the thoughts of what could be were suffocating them with a tightened grip. The result in this forbidden path of thought was fillling their hearts with the following emotions ,eating them whole:
Sorrow and Regret
The acquiring of such to achieve what vile ,cruel intentions he had set out when the completed orb permeating with poisoned malevolence was in his possession. So it was only a matter of time before the looming darkness overhead came for them, but with it the consequences of the unvoidable meeting that the beast now ranked of ,and very soon will collide with them.
Overlooking the days begining from the start, each one began to think of better times to prevent the inpending truth of what may,and to continue to live for the moment given to them once more. During that time someone spoke to break the silence , and to everyone surprise who it had been ,it was the small now matured fox kit.
" When do you think Naraku will come for us?"Shippo hesitantly asked
"Don't worry about it Shippo ,you will be safe ?" Kagome soothingly whispered
Miroku had soon predicted that by tomorrow ,the madness that sought the jewel would soon be upon them, and with stillness within the area ,his audience silently agreed. Tonight, they had deemed would be their last night together ,as a group . At least in the way how they now knew it and unlike the prevailing the possibility of any one or all could falter .Hence leaving this life behind them ,and saying their silent farewells to their following dreams they'd miss ,and otherwise taking if they would've lived. The life they once had in the present would no longer matter because they would no longer be.
Everyone knew they were strong enough together ,with all that has answered to the defying cries of the darkened malice created within the jewel ,and signifying it's feared end. Though they also knew that their purpose in their fight came with a loss, and nothing was left to chance, as the upcoming destruction lingering left no exception to the life it may take. This abandoned all other hopes and promises that a life outside the one all of them lived to achieve past this great moment of triumph.
Each one carried unique reason and definite causes for them not to fail,and at least of the time of the beast's annihilation, but with reality constantly putting them in check that was unheard of. Anything past that was left to the unknown possibility that now seemed to stand high above and out of their reach. For tomorrow , as they would stand united against the evil that taunted their very core of their soul, and would carry a different aspect to the world they would exist in :Either in spirit or to remain whole. For after tonight they might not return to the life they claimed ,after this.
Silently standing, Kagome silently walked passed the small group surrounding the campfire,and stopping just beyond outside the shielding embankment of trees. Taking a seat away from the scorching embers ,to feel the cold creeping chill travel up her spine,and while alone she absorbed to take everything in . In her spot on the grassy hill,lifting her legs to embrace them ,and gently rocking herself, as she rose her eyes toward the night sky.
The stars twinkled brightly,almost like if silently without noise invited her to take the comfort they provided. Regardless of how silly it sounded or appeared ,it would seem as her inner child was begging her out of desperation ,and at a loss of what to do to help the situation:To make a wish on one unsuspecting star. While the girl sat in her own little world being completely absent of any sound, and foolishly taking some time in the childish task of picking just the right star.
The girl desperately chose this action knowing it wouldn't work but only served to comfort her, where comfort could be found ,to soothe the rising painful devastation and relieve the disgusting bile within her. Closing her eyes,Kagome thought of the perfect wish to cast on her carefully picked and just perfect star. Once she had opened her soft orbs of chocolate,she progressed to relocate the chosen star and then whispered her wish.
"I wish that we will make it out of this tomorrow, and if it's not too much trouble for me to ask can you just grant me some time to let Inuyasha know how I feel before this all ends."
Kagome said in truth knowing that the idea was far fetch in asking a star to grant her a miracle so like the others she said a little prayer too. She also new after everything if they did survive all of this : Kagome would no longer have any more reason to stay .or remaining purpose in this time, and thus would be asked to return to her own time. Never being able to see her family from Sengoku Judai again,and only taking with her the memories Kagome cherished with her, once she took the last leap into the mystical well.
Nevertheless that she could live with ,knowing that they were able to live ,only to do so without her, as opposed to the alternative. Almost all of them anyway, unsure of what actions the hanyou wish to take afterwards: If he still intended to leave to join Kikyo in hell or would he choose to live with his friends that remained with him after her leave. Although deep down she knew with time that it was his decision in the end ,and only his .Kagome's part in it would to support him until she departed from this time
Defeatedly after the wish was made,Kagome lifted herself to stand on exhausted wobbly limbs, as she took the time to set herself right again on her toes. Kagome left her place of short solitude to return to the enticing warmth of the campfire and good friends. The comforting knowledge of the friendly atmosphere awaiting her seemed to calm her frayed disposition ,and away from the destructive thoughts lingering within her brain desiring to destroy her peace.
This was only to find Inuyasha coming in short behind, to now stand in her path with a indescribable look in his eye, and waiting patiently for her. At this point,Kagome grew close within a few steps from him ,and then paused. Not at all expecting the strangely surprising ,and out of character motions that followed from the usually violently gruff hanyou she'd grown to love ,even if it lessened some overtime it was still evident coming from him. The unexpected sudden movement came out of nowhere,when shockingly Kagome had been snagged up by the hand and pulled to collide softly to a firm chest ,and then snuggled into a embrace.
Slowly recovering from the slowly passing feelings inflicted from the possible illusions teetering on the borderline of crazed obsessive insanity, and filling the rather hopeful girl with doubt. Kagome wrapped her arms hesitantly around his waist , feeling rather awkward of how easily she was pulled into her imagined fantasy, and how dangerous it would be if Naraku had found this information :making this a trap.
Soon realizing with the gruffly made grunts for her attention that it wasn't a illusion but a real event, it relaxed her some that she wasn't crazy ,or Naraku wasn't involved ,but grew nervous with what that meant to her. Brought out of her musings to notice the rather intimate way they held one another, as Inuyasha had replaced his hands around the small of her back to give easier access to each other. Moments had passed before the young miko while in deep thought, pleasantly feeling frustrated out of her wits ,and rather curious as to his sudden change of demeanor at the same time. Until something dawned on her that registered a sense of reality to the situation .Inuyasha was trying to offer the comfort that he thought she needed as his friend.
Kagome had tried to removed herself thinking that maybe he like all of them needed the support of a friend, and she didn't want to confuse him into something different with the rash actions that sometimes followed in urgent times. Kagome didn't want to be that girl, already hating that she still felt the remaining fragments of the feelings that she once had occupied .The fact remained as far as Kagome was concerned that he still longed for the look alike counterpart of her soul and until proven otherwise she wouldn't be drawn to false hopes.
Regardless her actions to remove herself from the comfort of being in his arms ,for the feelings it brought forth ,and in the end failed,resulting her to try to deal with ignoring them painfully. It was only to find herself secured more in a tighter hold to keep her there in his arms. Confusion flooded her being as to what could be ailing her hanyou friend. Although at the moment Inuyasha gave no appearance to attempt to give her questioning eyes the information she seeked.
" Inuyasha?" Kagome hesitantly whispered on deaf ears only to overhear the muffled cries from the man who held her tightly against him.
Without the ability to answer with any comprehend-able words at the time,Inuyasha had slowly shook his head, and buried his nose deeper into to crook of her neck . It was in this action ,that he wanted imprint her scent in his memory:to memorize every detail, etch her exact image within his brain,and found himself wanting more. Tears continued to flow down his face for reasons unknown to his friend, only that of what everyone had on their minds but unbeknownst to her there was more, and it had to do with her.
The miko in his embrace soon realized that Inuyasha needed a moment to calm his nerves, to try to get over whatever it was that had somewhat upset him. In result without words Kagome gave it to him,and only left her silent presence to comfort him. It was this comfort from her ,that soon Kagome found Inuyasha had obliviously needed and wanted from her at the time.
Kagome found she unwillingly once again let herself become drawn deeper within the embrace for the comfort it seemed to have brought him,fighting against the painful reminders of the love lost for her within the simple touch the loss corrupted ,and all the while he seemed to be elsewhere in his own thoughts .In the back of there minds a soft melody played entwining with their thoughts, reminding them of what they would soon be leaving behind with the other knowing to be hidden forever in the forgotten strands of time:
~Most Uncommon Thing~
So I have wished what seems could be 1,000 years too deep
And I have dreamed of things I need without the help of sleep
And everything you do is the reason that I do this
It's only fair that I should owe you all my time
Cause you are a most uncommon thing
You are a most uncommon thing I'm savoring
So we will dance as if it seems that no one's watching
And you will be the one to lead and I'll be following
And every step will be an anniversary
I can't believe that I will have you all this time
Cause you are a most uncommon thing
You are a most uncommon thing I'm savoring
So take me as you please, I want you
And say you'll be my ease
And promise the same things I promise you
Just that will do
Cause you are a most uncommon thing
You are a most uncommon thing I'm savoring
I'm savoring
I'm savoring you
Excluding the occasional stroking of each each others back,as to console the mysteries holding them in silence,and then soon finding a comfortable quiet looming above them. There were no words exchanged between the two ;as the tears slowly tapered off to the overwhelming frustration that grew into it's place within Inuyasha's being. It was then that without his knowledge his thoughts flowed into the open, carried by the soft wind into the most peculiar, gentle, but pained whisper tinkling into her ears.
"Why does everything have to be so hard ,Kagome? Why can't I just tell you?"
"What is it you want to say Inuyasha? Just come out and say it ."
At this time ,the hanyou smirked at his own mistake : In not realizing that he had started to speak of his thoughts aloud in order to stop the inevitable words from flowing outward, thus beginning to regret his carelessness in allowing this mishap ,and that was until Inuyasha thought he heard Kagome respond to his believed unspoken question. Once his theories were proven by the hushed sounds of her unmistakable voice ,and the words encouragingly pushing him to speak.
A fringe of pink emerged on his checks as the realizations hit home for Inuyasha ,as Kagome desired to hear what he felt he couldn't easily say to her. To believe what she suggested were true was painstakingly hard , increasing with torn reluctance to voice what he needed to say ,and what he wanted her to hanyou ,stood frozen, riddled with worry about her reaction ,fear was an understatement ,and easier said than done when he was standing face to face with it.
It was strange and slightly stupid,even to himself:One could give him a battle with a threat any day but stick him in a conversation dealing with mush, Inuyasha wanted to give in,and admit defeat . To say the Kami intended another pointless joke ,although not funny at least to him, and to force his hand to do it's will to destroy him once more with the loss of another one he loved ,was absurd, but one Inuyasha still feared. Though to point out for the sake of argument, so was the situations that he immediately seemed to be getting himself into within the realm of his cursed life,and in the end always forced him to left alone once again.
Inuyasha took a cleansing breath ,releasing the gust of air in a airy chuckle. Making a sly look to see the girl standing next to him,and in a effort to test out the waters before he spoke. Inuyasha slowly began to gain a small amount of confidence to speak the words he longed to for so long, as in truth it may be his last chance to do so. At first his voice was quiet ;almost a faint whisper, and while trying slowly to gain the courage to find the words.
" Sit down with me ,Kagome?"
"Yea, of course Inuyasha."
Together they reluctantly stepped out of the comfortable spot they held within each others arms and drew back to sit next to each other in a nearby patch of soil. To pass some time, the lone couple sat in silence , nervously looking about their surroundings, as if the ground held the answers to their questions beneath it. With a sigh ,Inuyasha spoke to break the slight newly developing uncomfortable moment of silence ,that had the conversation had led too.
"It's not that easy for me,Kagome."
" What's not ,it can't be that bad Inuyasha. It's not like you ,normally you don't have a problem speaking your mind."
"Your right ,but not about this. You know it's rather comically sad to admit to the one whom he is supposed to protect of his flawed weakness . Give me anything ,Kagome to talk about and I will gladly tell you without any reserve to the regards of whom it would offend. On the other hand ,this subject, only gives me the instinctive notion to run away like Kouga with my figurative tail between my legs. It's crazy but it's true, even the master of Tessaiga has it's weakness. I am sorry to disappoint."
" No , not Inuyasha ,it can't be ! I am rather shocked!" Kagome mocked, sending the said dog ready to pounce for her teasing,and before running around in circles while he began to give chase.
"Why you! Come back here ! I wasn't done yet" Inuyasha pretended to give his best at a mock pout after she jumped up ,flinching back a little ,and to only just miss his claws from the attack of tickle barrage ;as they now called it .
Kagome returned to her sitting spot shortly after guessing now by his reaction, and from his actions told her that whatever he had to say held some importance. It was true in fact they have over the years became closer in friendship ,and only slightly touching the border to be crossed into becoming more ,within the last couple months. Though nothing between them had ever been spoken aloud to confirm whether or not the decision to continue was the same for the two. It didn't help but couldn't be helped at the time for their sake for Inuyasha to continue his fa-cod of holding out onto the act that he was in fact still making his visits with Kikyo.
It seemed to have appeared that those visits with his long lost love had been in the same way that the hanyou had in the past. Leaving without remorse against Kagome's wishes that eventually broke her heart, and forcing her to forget of that possibility. Only that wasn't his intention in the end only to not give away the feelings toward Kagome that he forced himself to keep hidden, and so he could fulfill his word to Kikyo. Inuyasha guessed that gave the reason for her to back off. True ,yes he still saw her but their wasn't the longing anymore that he once had for Kikyo.
Now that Inuyasha might have another chance to tell her as planned, after everything was settled and Kikyo was put to rest , but the choice to tell her before was because on the off chance one or both didn't survive through this. The hanyou felt he owed Kagome that much ,and even thought she may not hold the same for him any longer. This he could understand considering the pain she must've felt in her sacrificial ways of herself to make others happy.
Inuyasha had truly hoped that his chance to have those feeling returned ,after she leaned of his love and devotion for her. If only for one night so be it, but if it turned out otherwise with Kagome carelessly mocking his words by throwing to the wind ,and in the end rejecting him, alas that 's what concerned him. Taking another deep breath he decided if tonight was indeed the last point in time he could have her ,then he would at least tell her ,and regardless of what she would say afterwards.
"It's just .. I just wish we had more time ,Kagome. Though if tonight is the last night we have .In this I have to say I am sorry ,this is cruel I know ,but..." Inuyasha paused to look at her ,seeing her eyes as they had newly drawn tears ,flowing down her cheeks.
"Kagome what's wrong , please don't cry .You know I hate it when you cry"Inuyasha spoke while pulling her in his side holding her ,brushing his lips across her forehead.
"Your going with Kikyo.?" Kagome hesitantly spoke ,unsure of her desire to know the answer.
" Let me finish ,please .This is very hard for me ,okay .. You'll see soon that you have absolutely nothing to cry about. "Inuyasha confided and giving her a quick squeeze,and recieving her nod for him to continue.
"Okay as I was saying ,Kagome I' am sorry that we don't have much time, and I know of the cruel implications with it but I need you to know before if we go that I ...I..."Inuyasha stopped to pause for a moment before he lost control over his emotions to join her in her tears
I love you Kagome" Inuyasha painfully forced through his lips,filled with so much emotion,opening himself bare to her ,and making him raw from the gasp that escaped her lips.
Kagome was lost to the sound of his voice,only to be distracted by the words the voice carried ,but happily shocked by their meaning.
"I am so sorry , that I chose now of all times to tell you the truth .I know it's cruel of me but I can't leave you tommorrow knowing that if I let you go without telling you before Naraku ,than I could also leave you without ever knowing and that I can't live with you not knowing how I truely felt about you. Inuyasha rambled.
Knowing just what he was trying to say in Inuyasha's rambling's, Kagome knew she had to do something to ease his fears. Kagome had eased out of his embrace to further unnerve the hanyou thinking he was being rejected,and the proof of that shown as tears fell from his eyes. Before he could leave she placed her hand against his face to rest agaist his tear stained face ,and then softly grazing his cheeks with her fingertips.
"And I you Inuyasha, I have loved you for along time ...I will love you always .I just felt If I loved you, like I do ..I love you enough to let you go to Kikyo where you want to be for your own happiness. I never thought.. "Kagome comforted
"Please , Don't. Don't ever let me go Kagome ,I love you. "Inuyasha took the next few moments to pulled Kagome into his arms while on his knees stealing her lips with his.
When the need for air became evident, both parted only to grasp each others hands within their own and hold each other close. Together they stood just gazing into one another's eyes, and at the same time without words ,telling the unknown secret of to their love held within their hearts.
"Thankyou ,Kagome and I promise you if you'll stay with me I will do my best to make you happy if you will let me? Will you stay with me?"Inuyasha shly asked
"Yes, I promise to stay with you as I always have been "Kagome confided
" No, I don't want it to be like before ! I want you as my mate ,if you will have me Kagome?"Inuyasha clarified
"I know ! Yes I will .I was only teasing you before. .Haha! "Kagome teased before taking off back towards camp
"Kagome !" Inuyasha yelled to come back to him
"Gotta catch me Inuyasha! Come on let's head back before Miroku gets his idea's to our departure." Kagome called back continuing her light jog.
"That I wouldn't mind some much if it were true" (wink ,wink) Inuyasha pervertedly teased suggestively
"I am more concerned if Sango kills Miroku before tomorrow comes." Inuyasha smirked in response to Kagome's accusing gasp ,and to the thundering smack proving the punishment Sango, was unleashing on the hentai monk for his perverted ways. It was what the monk loved to refer as his cursed hand .
"Inuyasha I can't believe you You are turning hentai! !" Kagome accused.
"With you Kagome, I can't promise you anything ,but you never can tell..." Inuyasha chuckled darkly as he threatened.
"Yea that would be disastrous wouldn't it ? I'm surprised he hasn't gotten brain damage from whacks on the head " Kagome fondly remarked as they walked now hand in hand back to their friends.
"Hey that reminds me , you wouldn't punish me like that if I wanted to touch you?Would you?"Inuyasha said while wiggling his eyes in a provocatively at Kagome.
" I love you but your hopeless, but you if you like can hold me tonight as we sleep ,but tonight sleep we need."
"Only for you,Kagome .Your right time for bed! Inuyasha jumped up pulling her on his back on raced back to hurriedly quickly get into the sack with her..to sleep.
"Awe ,does that mean you'll sleep with me ?" Kagome asked
"I thought you would never ask! And I wouldn't have it any other way." Inuyasha confirmed.
Hours later ,finally finding themselves tucked in together in the sleeping bag, gaining the insinuative ,and suggestive looks from the rest of the group .Inuyasha ,for the first time didn't care .The only thing the hanyou knew ,was that for the first time in a long time he was happy ,with finally recieving something that he wanted and loved, as well as having it reciprocated by that someone . It was something he never felt before,but cherished it all the same as he did her and the little time they had left to be had with each other.
To be able to share what could be his last bit of time of his life cuddled tightly in a combined loving embrace with the love of his life and his son Shippo. Well at best it would have been,if they all lived because it was planned and Inuyasha would've made her his lifemate,if that would be proven to be so.. In the end Inuyasha, had finally decided not to long ago that he would live alongside Kagome instead of following Kikyo, and after their mission was complete, if not for the new power of Naraku that may prove to destroy them when consuming what he had of the blasted cursed thing.
To increase his happiness across the way, his happiness and good fortune was mirrored in Miroku and Sango's situation as well ,and to his unsurprised reaction to what he already knew from Kagome .Miroku and Sango had a thing for another and like them it had been kept secret ,unbeknownst to the couple laid in a similar position that they were,snuggled together across from them. Both couple's had escaped into their own little world where only the two could freely be ,within the depths staring back into their eyes by the other ,and they were for a short time allowed to show their love for one another.
Unfortunately little did they know how right they were ,in fact they were sharing their last night, basked in the love they only just discovered ,and then to have it taken away in a instant ,just because of a wish . A wish made on a star that was too old to be able brunt the weight of it. It was true that they would lose each other just not how they would expect to. For in the distance ,a vow made to correct the mistake made ,and that called for the supernova to form . Thus within the supernova ,creating a force powerful enough when exploding, to punch and tear a hole in time.
To correct the anomaly, the Kami decided to replace those affected by the wish made in this life, and place them in the future with new lives . Sadly they couldn't know who the other was to prevent further damage,and until the time-line repaired itself those that once knew each other would be forced to forget. Realistically though,as Midoriko predicted ,the time it would take for the damage to heal itself would be longer than many life times ,and therefore confirmed that their new placement within the flow of time would be permanent.. Though it a sad situation it couldn't be helped and this way they would live .Whether they found each other again was anyone's guess, only time will tell. For now ,the Kami would let them enjoy their bliss and only interfere once Naraku is eradicated. Afterward their plan will be set in motion.
To Be Continued...