When Ed woke he was blinded by a white light, he groaned. He sat up reaching over to the bedside table for a glass of water but when he looked over, he saw Roy asleep in the chair. Ed frowned he had no idea why Roy was here. Then it came to him, Roy had saved him but why did he stay?. A nurse walked in and smiled at him, " Mr Elric, good to see your finally awake".
When his response was a confused look, she giggled " you have been asleep for two weeks, and this one.." she pointed to Roy "never left your side, others came too, made an awful lot of noise they did". Ed's eyes went wide " TWO WEEKS!" The nurse nodded and smiled at him "I'll go get the doctor" she then left the room without another word.
Ed looked back at Roy who had not moved a muscle. Ed grabbed a pillow from behind him and threw it at the older man. "wake up sleeping beauty" Roy groaned and looked over at Ed " oh your awake". He smirked and then through the pillow back at Ed. " you gave everyone quite a scare". Ed pouted in a sarcastic way. " aw would Mustang miss me". Roy shook his head, " of course who else is short enough to entertain me". Ed's face went bright red, Roy could tell that in a matter of seconds he would be facing a mini rant from the blonde.
" WHO ARE YOU CALLING SO SHORT THAT THEY CANNOT BE SEEN THROUGH A MICROSCOPE" Ed's breath was now heavy, as he glared at Roy.
" I didn't say that Edward" Roy chuckled. He soon became serious as the doctor walked in.
He gave Ed the normal check up, informing him of the injuries that he had sustained. " you had internal bleeding we operated as soon as we could, you also have two broken and three fractured ribs" Ed nodded as he listened " we also noticed all the old scars on your body and the not so old"
Ed froze he didn't want explain about what happened while on the other side of the gate, he didn't even want to explain that he had been cutting. The doctor was clearly waiting for an explanation, so Ed decided to make something up. " They were other injuries I retained while Bradley was in power, he got angry at me from time to time... I guess it was my fault I destroyed a lot of things"
He looked over at Roy who's eyes were wide... Ed smiled slightly. The doctor turned to Roy " your not really buying this are you, he is lying anyone can see that". It was Ed's turn to be the one wide eyed, only this time his jaw dropped. "h-how did yo-you know"
The doctor smirked at him " please I'm not an idiot, I know some of those wounds were inflicted by yourself"
Roy was just staring at Ed, Ed shifted awkwardly, this was the one thing he had been trying to avoid, he didn't want people to stare or to be looked at different.
" show me" Ed's jaw dropped even further.
" no, why in the world would I show you, pervert"
Roy went red in the face, " EDWARD ELRIC, IM YOUR COMMANDING OFFICER AND A FRIEND NOW SHOW ME NOW"
Ed blushed at the use of his name, at the same time he pulled as arm out of his shirt and showed Roy his scars.
Roy just stared at the his face went from red to really white. " why, why did you do this Ed, I mean what the hell were you thinking" he was shaking his head. " do you want to die, is that why, you were in that fight, do you want to die Edward"
Ed just stared at him wide eyed and that annoyed Mustang... A lot. He shook Edward "TELl ME EDWARD, TELL ME"... When Edward didn't say anything he shook him again. " GOD DAMN IT TELL ME...TELL ME PLEASE". Mustang stared at him in shock when Ed didn't say anything. " why do you want to leave us, you just came back" Ed was looking right into Roy's eyes and he could see the sadness in them, but he still couldn't look away.
" it wasn't to kill myself, I just can't handle the pain it hurts, then the memories of... Never mind" Roy though back to his journal, was he about to be told, he ignored it.
"What hurts Mr Elric" it was the doctor
Ed looked at the doctor " che-chest pain". The doctor stared at the young alchemist for a moment. Ed looked at him staring at his eyes " it hurts" The doctor nodded " that was where the internal bleeding was, we were suspicious of other things but wanted to wait until you were awake to test them"
" Ed why did you not tell anyone" Roy moved closer to Ed .
" it's my burden to bare" Roy just shook his head in anger at the young alchemist
" don't spin that shit, you don't have to do everything alone"
Ed sighed " who can I go to huh?... I can't go to Al he has been through so much already I cant bother him anymore"
Roy just stared at him in shock, Ed really believe he could only go to Al, that he was alone. Roy didn't know what to say to convince Ed that he would be there. The doctor coughed, disrupting Roy from his thoughts. " General if you would leave me and Mr Elric alone for a moment, while I conduct some test, you might want to call his brother, before he has a fit also".
Roy nodded before leaving. Ed stare at the doctor " Al is still here". The doctor nodded
" him and his girlfriend were here everyday, though the girl had to drag him away to get some rest" Ed nodded at least Al had Winry with him, he wasn't alone. The doctor got put a needle and that's when Ed flipped it.
"NO, NO, NO, NO THAT IS NOT COMING NEAR ME, I'LL TAKE ME CHANCES WITH DEATH!". The doctor chuckled but continued to advance on Ed with the needle.
" now, now Mr Elric, its only a pinch, it last seconds"
Ed tried to get out of the bed but found his legs had been restrained he looked up worried at the doctor, who just once again chuckled at him. " we told your brother about what the test were, he told us to do this"
Edward tried to struggle "WAIT UNTIL I GET MY HANDS ON THAT TRAITOR" The doctor pinned Edwards arms above his head with one hand. He lifted Ed's shirt above his stomach. Ed was still trying to struggle, when the doctor slowly inserted the needle into Ed's stomach. Once he got what he wanted he drew out another needle and drew some blood from Ed's arm.
"Was that so bad" Ed was acting like he had been attacked by a ghost with the way he was acting. The doctor left as Ed drifted back to sleep.
Ed woke and moved his legs, the were no longer restrained, Ed smiled to himself " no more needles, that god". He look around the dark room, he was alone.
Ed's breathing became heavy and tears started to run down his cheeks as he went back to another time that he had lived. He was once again chained but this time to a bed,he had been alone in the dark for sometime. At first Ed thought it was a time he was safe, a time he could relax... But he was wrong.
A man came in and walked toward Ed. He pushed Ed onto his back while he joined Ed on the bed hovering on top of him. All that could be heard was breathing, Ed's was raspy with panic while the other man was full of excitement. Then all of a sudden the other man brought his lips to Ed's.
Ed tried to break free but the man just put his full weight on him, crushing Ed to the bed. Ed screamed for someone to help him, even though he knew no one would,they were trying to break him. This went on for hours, when the man left, Ed was lying on the bed naked and crying. When Ed woke from the nightmare, he was still just as freaked.
He was screaming, he got out of the bed, he jumped out of bed, but instead of trying to make a run for it. He ran into the bathroom and turned the water. He stop screaming but he stripped and was in the shower fast, he started scrubbing. He was in the shower for hours and not once did he stop scrubbing. When he finally got out, his skin was red, skin was removed in places and it hurt a lot. Ed almost didn't want to put clothes back on, as he slid his clothes on slowly he skin stung.
He slowly walked to the his door, where the light switch was, flicked it on before making his way back to bed, and falling back to sleep.
When Ed woke again it was because an argument had broken between Roy and Winry, it was about where Ed would be staying when he was allowed out of the hospital.
" he is coming back with me and Al" Roy shook his head
" that's the last thing he needs, is to feel all alone with you two being all lovey dovey all the time"
Ed moved to show them that he was awake, and as soon as they realized, he wished they hadn't because know they wanted to know what he wanted.
He blushed lightly " Roy's right, you and all need time alone... But there is no ay in HELL that I am stay with the bastard"
They stared at him in shock, Winry had expected that he would have chosen to refurb home with her and Al. Al walked over to Ed ... " I know you don't want to intrude but you wouldn't be"
Ed shook his head "yes I would be, even when you say it isn't, I know that you know it is"
Al gave Ed a sad look, " then stay with General, please brother, I don't want you to be alone" Ed hated when Al did that, the sad look... Ed has never been able to resist Al's puppy dog face. He crossed his arms and pouted "fine, I'll stay with Mustang"
Alphonse smiled, Ed looked over at Roy who showed no emotion " If it's okay with, you that is" Roy gave him a smirk " it's the doctors orders" Ed went red in the face and he glared at Roy. "WHAT KIND OF ANSWER IS THAT?" Al and Winry exchanged a 'here they go again' look. "well Edward the doctor said, you couldn't go home alone, you need help Edward... And I guess I'm willing to help".
This was when Winry butted in " See Al this is why he should come home with us, he guesses he can help"
Roy held his hands up in a defense " I was teasing, of course I'll help, whether he wants me here I'm here to help"
Al smiled and turned to Winry " see everything's fine, and you know Ed he is stubborn, he would have never come home".
The doctor came back on to do another check up on Ed, this was when the red raw skin was noticed. When the doctor said something everyone came and had a look. Ed's arms, leg chest were all red raw, Ed had to fight back whimpers when the doctor touched it gently. " what did you do Edward"
Ed turned away from everyone, " I had to get the mess off, it wouldn't come off" tears started form and fall down his cheeks. Roy came and put his hand on Ed's shoulder, and moved away slightly away from the sudden contact. " what happened Ed?"
He looked at Roy tears still streaming down his face " I-I couldn't s-stop h-him..."
Then Roy realized this must be about the rape that Ed had endured while on the other side of the gate.
He moved Ed's bangs out of his hair "shh it's okay Ed, he can't get you here, he is gone, we are here to protect, I'm here to help you"
Then Ed shocked everyone he just nodded and settle down again , he looked at the doctor " so can I leave with Mustang today?"
The doctor thought about it for a moment then nodded " you still need to rest, no missions" Ed nodded " yes, yes, can I please go now I hate hospitals"
Ed and Roy said goodbye to Al and Winry as the got on the train after promising to call at least once a week. When they finally reached Roy's house, Ed was shocked to see that it was just an ordinary house and not some huge house. " wow Mustang, with the way you act I thought you lived in a castle"
Roy chuckled " nah castles are over rated, and please call me Roy"
"okay Roy" he nodded liking the way he said it. Roy just smirked and helped Ed out of the car.
Roy showed Ed around the house, when Ed was shown the guest room he started to blush and seemed like he wanted to ask something, Roy waited and waited but the blonde never said anything. He didn't even say anything as they were eating dinner, the were eating Chinese food, Roy tried to make small talk but Ed would just avoid talking as much as I could.
Roy noticed that Ed didn't eat much, Roy knew from experience that Ed at a lot so this worried him. " you barely touched your food fullemetal" Ed glared at Roy.
" Ed and I'm not hungry, I had a needle" Roy nodded and continued to eat his food, while pretending not to be watching Ed play with his food.
Ed suddenly got up from the table and walked away, Roy waited, he put the dishes in the dishwasher then walked up the stairs and followed Ed. Ed was in the guest room that consisted with one single bed and a bookshelf full of books. Ed was curled in the corner rocking back and forth in a panic.
Roy rushed over to his side. Wrapped his arm around Ed, this time he moved into his touch instead or moving away. "shhh Ed it's okay, what's wrong"
Ed looked up at Roy and say the concern in his eyes and smiled weakly " I don't want to be alone, the dark it..." Roy interrupted him
" your not alone Ed I'm here, I'll always be here".
Roy sat Ed on his lap, rubbing his back in gentle movements. He pulled away to have his face to face with Edward. " what happened while you were on the other side of the gate"
Ed looked away " why do you care, why does it matter"
Roy pulled Ed to look at him " I care because you are important to me, and it matters because I want to help you, and to do so, you have to let me in"
Ed stared at Roy and then he whispered " I was captured after the invasion, they weren't happy that I helped the wrong side" Roy squeezed him tighter, " they wanted to know about this side, alchemy and other stuff, they... They did horrible things to me" Ed had started to cry at this point, Roy rocked him back and forth " shh its okay, you don't have to tell me everything tonight, tell me when your ready"
Ed nodded and cried into Roy's shoulder until he fell asleep, Roy took Edward over to the bed, he lifted the blanket over him, tucking him in. When he went to walk however a hand grabbed him. " don't leave me" it was just a whisper but Roy still heard him. He lent over the boy, " what's wrong Ed". Ed blushed lightly as he spoke. " I don't like being alone"
"I'm only in the next room, Ed your not alone" Edwards eyes showed that he was desperate. " just for tonight" he picked up Ed and walked into his room tucking him in, then laying next to him. Roy fell asleep but was soon woken again by Ed's tossing and turning. Roy turned to face him, wrapping his arms around the blond, letting them both fall to a peaceful sleep.