Title: Midnight Sun
Author: MSKBSwedish
Rating: Mature
Summery: Set after season 6 episode "Smashed" - After Buffy and Spike have sex in the abandoned building. Buffy thinks the reason she slept with Spike was because of something mystical. What if the slayer is right? There is a prophecy that she is destined to fulfill - with the help of the blond vampire. Set as M for heavy adult themes at times.
Note: I own nothing of the Buffyverse.

Chapter Two – Communicate

Waiting until night fall, Buffy rushed over to Giles' house. She needed to see him after the evening before she had with Spike. Her mind raced with such force that she thought the organ would burst in her chest. They were in the midst of fighting and it quickly turned to sex. She didn't understand it. She hated Spike with every fiber of her being. Of course she was more than happy that he helped watch over Dawn while she was dead but, she still hated the vampire. He stood for the very evil she needed to destroy. But why couldn't she kill him and how did she let the previous night happen the way it had? If there was one person who had the answer it'd be Giles.

Without knocking, Buffy walked right into the watcher's home. "Giles!" She called out as she let the door close behind her. Buffy looked around the house until she noticed Giles standing in the kitchen making what she guessed was tea.

"Buffy? Is everything alright?" Giles asked. He came out from the kitchen and walked over to the slayer.

"No. Nothing is okay." Buffy whimpered.

Giles could see the blond physically shaking and the look on her face alarmed him.

"Come, sit down." Giles put his hand on Buffy's shoulder and lead her over to the couch to sit. Once sitting, Giles let out a deep breath. "What's wrong, Buffy?" Giles asked softly.

"I..." Buffy paused to try and catch her breath. It wasn't working. "I don't know what happened. I was out patrolling last night and Spike and I ran into each other. His chip, it's not working. We got into a fight and somehow in the midst of the fight we ended up kissing and one thing led to another and we had sex." Buffy blurted out quickly. Her chest was rising and falling quickly showing just how this was making her anxiety rise.

"You what?" Giles asked in shock.

"We had sex, Giles. The ignorant, self-centered, full-of-himself-vampire and I had sex. God I wanted to kill him this morning! I mean how could he think that was okay? Just taking advantage of me like that!" Buffy exclaimed.

Giles put his hand on Buffy's shoulder again. "Buffy, calm down." Giles looked into the young woman's eyes. "Take a deep breath."

Without fighting, Buffy nodded and took a very much needed deep breath.

"I want him dead, Giles. I want to dust his ass right now." Buffy said calmly but bitterly.

Giles removed his glasses and pinched the bridge of his nose with his fingers. "That's not the answer. Whatever happened between you and Spike last night was probably just pent up emotions." He tried to rationalize why Buffy would sleep with Spike.

Shaking her head, "No Giles. I don't know what it was but I am not happy about this. He didn't stop me! He didn't even protest!" Buffy cried.

Giles stood up. He cleaned his glasses quickly before placing them back on his head where they belonged. "Buffy if you regret having slept with Spike, that is no reason to stake him. As much as I'd love for you to rid the world of all vampires, Spike has been more of a help to us than you know. Especially while you were..." Giles stopped, not wanting to mention Buffy being dead and coming back to life. It was still the elephant in the room at times.

"I get it, Giles. I do. But last night was unacceptable. It had to be a trick or a spell or something. Even if it was just pent up feelings. Why? Why Spike?" Buffy pleaded with her once watcher.

The look on Buffy's face was one of confusion, hurt and anger. Giles wanted more than anything to help her but he didn't feel as though this was his place of expertise.

"If it makes you feel more at ease, I will look through my books for something that would maybe entice a slayer to engage in a sexual encounter with a vampire or something. There are many spells that have been used through the centuries for a vampire or demon to entice humans and slayers alike but there would have to be a reason that someone would want you two to get intimate." Giles explained.

"Yeah! Him!" Buffy huffed in anger.

"I can't believe I'm saying this but... Maybe you have to give Spike the benefit of the doubt for once. Maybe he is just an innocent as you, Buffy." Giles grabbed Buffy's hand and pulled her from the couch. He placed both hands on her arms and looked into her eyes. "But to make you feel a little more at ease, I will do my research. If you'd like I will even get in touch with some of my contacts to see if there is something coming for you or Spike or whatever it may be. For now, you are distraught and upset. You need to go home and lay down. Clear your head and rest up. It will do you more good than finding Spike and killing him." Giles tried to keep the young slayer from freaking out again.

"To you maybe but I think I'd like a second opinion about that last bit." Buffy growled. Giles looked at her, his eyes full of warning. "Alright. Alright. Just call me as soon as you find something out."

Giles smiled and pulled her in for a close hug. "Just relax."

Buffy sighed and hugged him back. She only wished it were so easy.

When Buffy returned home, Willow was sitting on the couch helping Dawn with her homework. The sound of the door shutting caused the red head and the brunette look over at Buffy.

"Hey, Buffy. Where have you been?" Dawn asked her big sister curiously.

Buffy sighed and ran a hand through her hair. "Dawn could you go upstairs for a minute? I need to talk to Willow for a moment." Buffy asked.

Dawn sighed, holding back the need to roll her eyes. She hated how secretive her sister could be at times. "Sure." Dawn simply replied before leaving the room as her sister asked.

Buffy walked over and sat down on the couch beside her best friend. "Is everything alright, Buffy?" Willow questioned the slayer.

"Willow do you know of any spells that could cause a vampire to attract a slayer?" Buffy didn't look up from staring down at her eyes. She couldn't look into Willow's eyes and show her the shame that was embedded in her eyes.

"Sure. There are plenty but it depends on what exactly what you want from that attraction. They'd have to know if it's just sex, to lure a slayer, an obsession spell, just to name a few." Willow paused when she noticed her best friend avoided eye contact with her. "Buffy? What's this about?" Willow pressed further.

Buffy still didn't look at Willow. "I just... I need to know."

"Well I need more details honestly. Is everything okay?" Willow asked, laying a hand on Buffy's hand. "If there is something you want to talk to me about, you know you can tell me anything." Willow ensured with a small smile.

Finally Buffy looked up into Willow's eyes. "I'm so confused, Willow." Buffy whispered with tears glittering her eyes.

"Buffy, what's wrong?" Willow asked with pure worry in her voice.

"I... I can't." Buffy shook her head. She looked back down at Willow's hands on her own. She was so scared. The fact that she had slept with the one vampire she despised and that she liked it scared her to death.

At first it felt silly. It was just sex. The more Buffy thought about it, however, she felt something that pulled her further toward Spike. She remembered the previous night when Spike seemed ready to stop. Ready to let their night of passion end and she begged him not to. She begged him to keep going. There was something there. It wasn't just once that she and Spike had sex last night but multiple times. Ever since she died and came back, she had these confusing and aching feelings that were causing her to mess up, it seemed. In her opinion she came back so wrong. She killed demons and vampires and here she begged a vampire not to stop.

"Buffy, you can't keep something in like this. It will only make you feel worse." Willow wrapped an arm around Buffy's shoulders and pulling her best friend in to hug her close.

"I just... I disappointed myself, Willow. I did something I promised I would never do ever again after Angel." Buffy whimpered as she tried to hold her tears back with such force. She bit the inside of her lip and gritted her teeth behind her lips. "I slept with Spike." Buffy whispered even quieter than before.

"What?" Willow asked, unable to hear what Buffy had said.

"I slept... with Spike." Buffy said slowly. She didn't look up at Willow but she felt Willow tense.

"That's... that's... o-okay." Willow was a little taken aback by the statement. Unfortunately she lost her will to speak for a moment.

The best friends sat there for quite a few moments in silence. Buffy feeling ashamed and Willow trying to wrap her head around the news. It wasn't the first time Buffy had slept with a vampire and so that wasn't the shock. The real shock was the fact that it was Spike of all people. She knew Buffy well enough to know that Spike wasn't really her "type". Especially when it came to vampires.

Willow was the first to break the silence. "Buffy, can I be frank for a minute?" The red head asked. Buffy nodded and finally looked over to Willow. "Buffy I know you've never been fond of Spike. I know you have always found him annoying and repulsive even but..." Willow paused and connected her gaze with Buffy's. "Spike loves you. He loves Dawn too. While you were gone, Buffy, Spike helped me with Dawn all of the time. He never once put Dawn in danger. He never put us in danger. He took care of us. As much as I want to take full credit for taking care of Dawn, I can't. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to give Spike a chance." Willow suggested with a slight shrug of her shoulders.

Standing up, Buffy shook her head. "No. I am not giving Spike a chance! I appreciate that he was there for you guys but I don't love Spike! I don't think of him like that!" Buffy argued. "He's vile. H-He's rude. He-He lies! How, Willow? How could I ever love a thing like that?" Buffy growled.

"You think these things because he is a vampire. You never believed those things about Angel and he is exactly what Spike is, soul or no soul." Willow was suddenly defending the blond vampire. "At least he doesn't need a soul to love you." Willow bit her lip. She went too far and she knew it.

Buffy was shocked but her face was full of anger. "I'm not listening to this." Buffy grabbed her jacket.

"Come on, Buffy. I'm sorry! Where are you-" Willow tried to protest but the door slammed behind Buffy the instant she stormed out of the house.

Willow sighed and ran a hand through her hair knowing she had stuck her foot in her mouth.

...TBC...