So um... Hi. How are you all doing? Good? That's great to hear. So, you're wondering where I've kinda been considering I've been posting at ungodly times, and that I've been not able to do a daily upload thing.

So- here is the thing.

Last week was my Spring Break and my last Spring Break as a high Schooler. Yes, I'm a senior, I'm actually graduating in two months on June 12th.

But- that's not why I'm bringing it up.

I've been- I've been hyper since I started writing all of this fanfiction. In fact, the Child of Death story, which is basically Fire Emblem: The Binding Blade, was spawned from that as an original OC and Shanna, which then turned into OC and Fir.

And, um- the reason why I've been hyper is because I'm coping.

So, I know that in my bio, I've explained that I have depression, although, nobody usually reads bios, so I'll be explaining this by posting it in my stories. All- five or six of them now?

Currently, it is Thursday, April 12th, 2018. two weeks and two days ago, which if I'm counting right, is Tuesday, March 26th, 2018, I planned on asking someone to prom, because I would be going alone. So, I did it through one of the books I created- "Identitas Incognitum" Which, for if anyone wanting to know the story of the three books I made, Take the stories of Fire Emblem Fates: Revelation and Fire Emblem Awakening, put the characters all together, and completely destroy the plot but change the characters names, except for Kana and Sophie, the main characters children. Anyway, I did it, and I got turned out, because that person already had a date.

So what does that have to do with anything?

October of last year I broke up with my girlfriend for one of the last times, she didn't go to my school so I don't see her often, but- I realized why I was hyper, and why I was writing so much.

I was- escaping. I was escaping my depression, trying to wrap myself in fantasy, in my stories. I did it in October, birthing "Redemptio Sine Causa", "Identitas Incognitum", and "Dementiae Draconium". I'm doing it now. And, it's been affecting me. I've been cutting out on school work, I've been not paying attention in class, and hell, I've been outright just not telling any of the teachers I have what I'm doing.

It explains why I snapped at my classmates in the last block of that day, and why my chemistry teacher had to exempt me from a lab- I DIDN'T DO IT. In fact, I snapped at classmates the day before spring break started.

To put it this way, I wanted to cry the day prior, and then I wanted to cry all that day. I wanted to cry in front of other people, to prove that I was hurting. I did end up crying, at home, alone.

I've been using fantasy to try and get past these emotions, hence why I can't write. Because I'm skipping ahead, I'm planning to far in the future for my stories.

So, that brings me to now. What am I going to do, know that I have people who read my stories, and are waiting for the next chapters?

I have to go on hiatus. I need to battle my depression, because it's going back into it's monthly suicidal thought state, and the last one I had I'm still recovering from.

I don't need empathy, I don't need sympathy. I just- need some time.

Hopefully I can come back in May? I can't make any promises when I can come back, but, umm- When I do, I'll probably scrape these stories. I never got far into them, and I'll probably never will.

So, here's something. I'm going to make a separate document. But it's going to be a very confusing one as well. I'm going to explain where my stories were to go.

I'll explain what was suppose to happen to Jessica of an Unstable Conscious, of what is going to Happen to Reflet of the Mercenary Who Doesn't Care, of Alec of Sightbound, which is named the Gift of Sight.

In return, I'm going to make a fourth chapter of that, Where I will explain the concept of another story- if I can think of one. I want you guys to give me ideas of what I should do. Leave as many reviews as you can.

Um- thank you all, for being okay with this, though you probably aren't. you guys will probably worry about me, but I'll be fine, I promise.

So, um with that being said. Thank you, for actually liking my stories and reading them.

I guess this is Xepad, signing off for now?