SUN AND SHADOW

Kurt was absolutely devastated when Blaine turned up in NY to tell him he'd cheated. It wasn't the Blaine he knew and fell in love with. But when he hears Blaine has left McKinley and nobody has heard from him, he gets suspicious, and worried. Canon up to 4x03.

Warnings: Mpreg.

Chapter 2

New Year's Eve 2012
Kurt's pov

'Are you sure this is a good idea? Rachel asked me as she drove us over to Sugar's house in her car. My days of car luxury were over of course, having had to sell it when I went to New York.

'What? We're going to a party,' I replied innocently.

'You know what I mean.'

'I just know that if Blaine had even the slightest inkling we might be going tonight he wouldn't show up.'

'But updating our facebook statuses to say we were on our way back to New York?'

I shrugged. 'Flights get cancelled don't they?'

Rachel just rolled her eyes at me. 'Why are you so keen to speak to him?'

'There's stuff I need to ask him and things I just don't understand... especially now his parents are lying to me on the phone.'

'Maybe they weren't lying... maybe he came home early from LA.'

'Brittany told me that Sam spent Christmas Eve at Blaine's... and two days after boxing day they met up for coffee.'

'Hmm... yeah that is odd. Maybe Blaine's just scared that you'll hit him again.'

Despite how tense and nervous I was, I couldn't help but laugh at that. 'Yeah that did feel good.'

'Well I hope you get whatever answers you're looking for.'

'Me too,' I replied quietly as my stomach continued to tie itself in knots. A few minutes later we parked up outside Sugar's house. Everyone from New Directions was going to be there, plus some other McKinley students past and present.

'Ready?' Rachel asked as we reached the front door. I nodded and rang the bell. Only seconds later it was flung open and Sugar's eyes bulged in shock.

'Oh my god... hi guys,' she exclaimed excitedly. 'What are you doing here?'

Rachel gave me a look before answering. 'Our flight has been delayed until tomorrow so we thought we'd drop by.'

'Come in, come in.'

We went in and then followed Sugar out to the back and into the garden where she said everyone was currently gathered, my nerves growing with every single step. As soon as we got outside my eyes immediately found Blaine, who was sat on a bench with Sam, a drink in his hand. There were no colourful pants or shirt and no cute little bow tie. He was in blue jeans which were clearly too big for him and his Dalton hoodie. It wasn't Blaine.

'Everyone, look who's here,' Sugar shouted and the noise quieted down as people turned to see. But I kept my gaze firmly on Blaine. He looked up, eyes widened as he met mine for just a moment, before dropping to his lap. Sam started whispering in his ear which got my back up a bit, I don't know why. I didn't want to give Blaine the chance to run away, so bypassing the crowd that had begun to form around us, I made my excuses and went straight over to him.

'Hi,' I said and Blaine hesitantly looked up to acknowledge me. My heart began racing as I stated into those eyes.

'Hey... I um... I heard you were back in New York.'

'Our flight was cancelled,' I replied, feeling smug that my plan had worked.

Sam stood up and stuffed his hands into his pockets, looking uncomfortable. 'Um... I'll just go say hi to Rachel.'

He walked off, leaving us alone together. I sat down on the bench and Blaine took a sip of his drink. 'I thought you and alcohol were a dangerous mix?' I teased.

Blaine laughed. 'It's just diet coke... I'm not staying over so I'll be driving home later.'

'I tried calling you the other day.'

'Oh... my phone's playing up.'

'I called your house too... apparently you were spending the holidays with Cooper?'

Blaine looked down to the ground for a moment, 'Um... yeah, I came back a couple of days early... Cooper's plans changed so...'

Obviously a lie. But there was really no use arguing about it right now. 'Look, Blaine... I'm glad we've bumped into each other... could we talk?'

'We are,' Blaine replied, looking at me curiously.

'You know what I mean.'

He broke the eye contact after a few seconds, staring into his cup. He licked his lips, which I'd always found adorable and then whispered, 'Ok.'

'Shall we go inside?' I asked. 'It's kinda crowded out here.'

'Sure.'

I followed Blaine into the house, saying hello to a few people along the way. We went into the kitchen which was empty and Blaine put his drink down beside the sink before turning to face me. For a few seconds we just looked at each other and then I broke the silence with a stupid question. 'Did you have a good Christmas?'

'Um... yeah. You?'

'Great. I got to spend a lot of time with my Dad which was nice.'

'Cool.'

I moved closer to Blaine and tried to articulate the words in my head but it was really hard. He was standing there all shy, adorable and gorgeous. Despite my best efforts over the past few weeks I'd failed miserably. Seeing him only reinforced that I was still head over heels in love with him and I don't think anything could ever change that. He was the first boy I kissed, my first boyfriend, my first Valentine, my first lover. He was my first everything.

'Blaine, I just wanted to ask-'

I didn't get to finish my sentence as Blaine lunged forwards and kissed me, grabbing onto my hips. I instinctively kissed back, my hands finding Blaine's neck. It felt so right.

When we broke apart, both gasping for air, Blaine began kissing my neck. What was happening? Oh yes, talking, closure... 'Um... I er... we... we need to talk,' I said lamely. My brain was completely gone and Blaine's next words, whispered straight into my ear took me right over the edge.

'Sex first... talk later.'

I groaned and my whole body shivered. Blaine giggled and then looked at me, the lust recognisable in his eyes. Well at least I knew he was still turned on by me. One of my theories had been that Blaine just wasn't interested anymore and was too scared to be honest so went looking for a hook up instead. I was even more intrigued about the weird behaviour now... but oh god yes, sex first.

'I don't have anything,' I whispered and Blaine bit down on his bottom lip for a moment, thinking.

'Me neither,' he replied, a hand leaving my hip and coming up to rest on my cheek. 'But I promise I'm clean... if you're ok with um…'

Unprotected sex? Oh my god. I'd had many fantasies about it. Blaine had always been so adamant about being responsible and using condoms and always carrying some in case of emergencies. Why the change of heart? Fuck, why was I even questioning it… 'Yes, ok.'

Blaine beamed at me and mumbled something about guest rooms before grabbing my hand. We rushed out of the kitchen and up the stairs.

#

I watched from under the duvet with a stupid grin on my face as Blaine pulled his jeans back on, then his socks and shoes. I glanced at my watch and was surprised to see it was 00:10. 'It's gone twelve.'

Blaine looked at me before checking his own watch. 'Oh yeah… Happy New Year.'

'Happy New Year Blaine.'

He came over and lifted my chin up and kissed me sweetly on the lips. 'So I'm just gonna go and use the bathroom... I'll be back in a minute.'

'Ok… and then we can talk,' I replied, running my hand through his disheveled hair.

'Of course.'

Blaine's pov

I closed the bedroom door behind me. For a moment I just stood there, delaying the inevitable disappearing act. I then made my way down the stairs quietly, not wanting to be noticed by anyone and headed to the front door and outside to my car.

What on earth was I thinking, throwing myself at Kurt like that? But I couldn't help myself. I've been so sexually frustrated recently and seeing Kurt in those really tight pants and... and just the thought of the lightest touch of his lips on mine had me hard in an instance.

It was thirty minutes of pure freedom, forgetting everything and just being with the person I love. I thought Kurt would refuse, push me off and tell me to fuck off. But the moment I kissed him I felt him melt into me, coming home.

I rested my head on the steering wheel and let out a huge sigh. I really didn't know if psychologically I'd made things a whole lot worse for myself. On the one hand I got to have sex with him one last time, but on the other hand my emotional state had gone back three months. And what about Kurt? I was just hurting him again… I mean of course he'd been a willing participant but he'd wanted to talk and I was just running away.

I sat up and started my car. As I drove away, the tears began to fall.

January 2013
Kurt's pov

'Mrs Anderson, I… I just don't understand… Blaine isn't on facebook anymore, his cell has been disconnected, his e-mail address bounces back and he's left McKinley. Now you won't even tell me what school he's going to?'

'I'm really sorry Kurt, but if Blaine has chosen to distance himself from McKinley students, that's his prerogative. We're just respecting his wishes.'

'But I'm not just another student from-'

I had to take a pause; I was getting so wound up. I could hear it in her voice, the lies, and the cover up. Did she really think I was that stupid? Well I wasn't going to give up until I found out what was going on.

'Look… I know Blaine and I aren't together anymore but… you know how much he means to me, I've had dinner with you, spent holidays at your house… I saw Blaine two weeks ago, I just want a way of contacting him and I don't think I'm being unreasonable here.'

'By all means write him a letter and we'll give it to him the next time he visits for the weekend. It'll be up to him if he wants to respond.'

'So he's boarding at this new school?'

'Um… yeah he is.'

'Right... well, thanks anyway.'

I hung up without giving her a chance to reply and threw my phone down onto my bed. Rachel appeared, looking concerned. 'I take it that didn't go too well?'

'He's boarding at a "new school"... apparently.'

'His Mom said that?' Rachel asked and I nodded. 'You think she's lying?'

'I know she's lying. She said to write him a letter... a letter. He's gone to all this trouble to cut himself off from everyone, as if a fucking letter will do any good... they probably won't even give it to him.'

Rachel sat down on the bed next to me. 'It's worth a try.'

'What if he's ill Rachel? What if there's something really... really wrong?'

'I don't know Kurt... I mean, something has obviously happened for him to want to disappear but your guess is as good as mine. Maybe he wants to protect you.'

'From what though? If you want to protect someone surely that means you don't want to hurt them… so what would upset me?'

'Maybe a new boyfriend?' Rachel said carefully.

'I don't think it can be that,' I replied. 'Unless he um… well unless he's already cheated on him.'

Rachel frowned. 'What?'

'New Year's Eve… Blaine and I… you know.'

I blushed and Rachel raised her eyebrows. She looked both shocked but amused. 'Kurt, you should have said something… no wonder your brain is exploding. Who made the first move?'

I buried myself in my pillow in embarrassment. 'He did.'

Rachel pulled me up, laughing. 'You dark horse… well I guess that pretty much rules out another guy.'

'He's sick isn't he?' I whispered, a lump forming in my throat.

I could see the worry in her yes, but Rachel smiled at me. 'Of course he's not. We only saw him a couple of weeks ago… he looked fine.'

'Yeah and my Dad looked fine before he had his heart attack… he even looked fine when he told me had cancer.'

'Was the Grease musical the last time you saw Blaine before New Year's?' Rachel asked and I nodded.

~flashback~

2 months earlier

I was standing by the entrance to the auditorium, chatting to Finn and Mr Schue when two people caught my eye coming up the hallway. It was Blaine and Sam. Now my heart was stuck in my throat and a chill went through me. I hadn't seen Blaine since he left New York, since he broke my heart. Yes we'd split up but that didn't mean I stopped loving him. They went past and Blaine didn't even glance my way.

'You ok Kurt?' Mr Schue asked.

I gave him my best smile. 'Yeah, fine.'

A couple of minutes later I excused myself to go to the bathroom. I locked myself into a cubical and sat down. I didn't know how I'd feel about coming face to face with Blaine for the first time after what happened in New York, but I certainly didn't expect that he wouldn't even be able to bring himself to look at me or say hello. It was as though I was the one that had cheated. I shouldn't have come here, I knew it would be a bad idea seeing-

My train of thought was halted as I heard the door open and someone coming in. Taps were turned on and the sound of washing hands before silence again. I heard a soft sigh and then the person's phone was ringing. My heart skipped a beat as it became apparent that it was Blaine.

'Hi Mom... Yeah it's just about to start, where are you?... Ok, I'll come and find you at the interval... Yes I'm fine... A little during the morning but it's worn off now thank god... Well it's bound to be into all things musical... Um, yeah I know, Artie told me before they-... Oh no, just briefly in passing... No I-... No really, I'm ok; it's only one song anyway... Thanks Mom... Bye.'

'Well, let's go and get this over with,' Blaine said quietly and then he left the bathroom.

~flashback end~

'Right,' Rachel said, clapping her hands together. 'Instead of boring ourselves with theories, let's get to action. I'll text all the glee gang; someone must know which school he's going to or have his new number. You contact anyone you know from Dalton, even that Sebastian creep.'

Dalton, why hadn't I thought of that? I took a deep breath. 'Ok.'

Rachel took my hand. 'Hey… there's probably a reasonable explanation. We'll get to the bottom of this.'

'Yeah I guess so,' I replied, feeling sick.

#

Later that evening Rachel and I had heard from everyone we'd contacted via text, email or facebook. Pretty much everyone had said they'd been unsuccessful in contacting him and had been told by Blaine's parents he's at a new school due to personal reasons. They were all concerned but didn't know what more they could do than wait for Blaine to get in touch and promised to let them know if he did.

But the response from Sam, Blaine's supposed best friend, was far too lacking in worry and came across very suspicious. He obviously knew something.

From: Sam
No not heard from him since the New Year's Eve party. He's probably just busy settling into his new school but I don't know which one sorry. Maybe try his folks for contact details?

February 2013
Blaine's pov

I held the ultrasound picture in my shaking fingers and looked at my perfect little child. I choked back a sob and cursed my stupid damn hormones for making me so emotional all the time. I'd even cried at a commercial about cheese the other day, what the fuck is that all about? A loud knock on my bedroom door made me jump.

'Jesus,' I muttered quietly.

'B are you in there?' Cooper's voice shouted through the wood.

'Y-yeah,' I shouted out.

'Oh god... you're not crying again are you?'

Well that was hardly supportive, but I didn't expect anything less from my big brother. 'Go away Cooper.'

He tried the handle and when he found it was locked, knocked even harder. 'Let me in.'

'No.'

'Let me in or I'll...'

I laughed as Cooper failed to come up with any kind of threat. I eventually took pity on him as I knew he wouldn't leave, and got out of my comfortable slumber beneath my duvet and unlocked the door to let him in. I sat myself down on the edge of the bed and Cooper stood looking at me.

'You shouldn't lock yourself away like this, it's unhealthy.'

'I like being on my own,' I shrugged.

'But you just end up getting upset and crying.'

'Can you blame me?' I snapped. 'I'm seventeen and in three months' time I'll have a little person to look after for the rest of my life.'

'You're regretting continuing this?' Cooper asked, pointing to my belly.

'No of course not,' I gasped. 'I'm just... I'm scared Coop.'

Cooper came and sat next to me. He took the photo out of my hands and looked at it with a smile on his face. 'You're gonna be a great parent B. Yeah I know it wasn't part of the big New York plan but sometimes fate takes a funny turn.'

'Fate is a bitch,' I spat and Cooper laughed.

'Seriously, this will be the best thing that ever happens to you Blaine.'

'You really think so?' I whispered.

'I know so.'

Cooper wrapped an arm around me and I leaned my head on his shoulder. I really didn't know what I'd do without him. He'd been so great when he found out at Christmas I was having a baby and I was shocked but ecstatic when he insisted I move to LA to be with him. This would have been so much harder if I'd stayed in Ohio. Luckily Mom and Dad were fully supportive of the move too.

'I'm gonna spoil my little nephew rotten when he gets here.'

'It might be a girl Coop.'

'Nah I can tell it's a boy.'

I rolled my eyes even though he couldn't see me doing it. 'Whatever you say.'

'You know... I really think you should tell Kurt.'

'Not this again,' I sighed.

'Just hear me out, I-'

'No,' I interrupted, standing up and looking down at Cooper with my best bitch glare.

'But surely he has a right to at least know he's-'

'Cooper please, I'm not telling Kurt. Not now... not ever.'

'Why? I just don't understand it B.'

'Because.'

'Because what?'

'Just because.'

'Please explain it to me then; I want to see it from your point of view. I'll defend you to the end of the earth, you know that. But it would be nice to know the reason behind it.'

I thought for a moment. 'Ok.'

To be continued!

Thank you so much for reading if you did, and please leave a review to let me know what you think :) Blaine explains to Cooper in the next chapter why he won't tell Kurt. And thanks for the opinions on how and when Kurt should find out about the baby, I loved reading them. It's unanimous that it should be prior to the birth but differing thoughts on who is going to spill the beans. I'd love to know if you think any differently after this chapter…? I can tell you that Kurt finds out about Blaine's whereabouts, that Blaine is pregnant, and that the baby is his from 3 different people… I'd love for you to all keep guessing…

Blaine's whereabouts is spilled by…?

The pregnancy is spilled by…?

Kurt being the father is spilled by…?

ETA: I've decided not to continue this story due to some feedback and the interest dropping significantly after the 2nd chapter but thanks to those who read the first 2 chapters anyway :)