So, I had a day off college and this happened! Thank you so much for your lovely reviews and I don't know how to thank you enough for sticking with this, I know a trilogy is a lot to read and it could get boring! I just pray it doesn't :) thank you again, chow!xx
He wakes up to delicate fingers tracing over his tattoo, paying particular attention to the name inked on his chest and it may be slightly painful considering it hasn't been there for long but it makes Brendan smile because he knows those fingers belong to Steven – his Steven. "Morning." He drawls, turning his head to the side and looking into Steven's eyes and they are still that piercing blue, the kind of colour that captures you and takes your breath away and Brendan can't believe he's finally back; he's finally in his life again.
"Heya…" Steven leans over and kisses him, the staleness should be off-putting but it's not, it's not toothpaste of mint Brendan can taste; it's actually Steven and he smiles when the kiss begins to deepen, kissing with intent now and soon enough, Brendan is lying on top of Steven, the other man's legs wrapped around Brendan's waist as he scratches down his back.
Brendan leans over and grabs the lube off the bedside table, quickly slicking his fingers up again before pushing them in Steven's hole and he doesn't need to do this, Steven doesn't need stretching out again because last night had been enough but it's a courtesy act; it's giving Steven more pleasure because Brendan just wants him to feel good, has to make him feel good all the time because it's what he does, it's how it's always been and he loves it, loves hearing the noises that spill from Steven's mouth.
He pushes his fingers in deeper and finds Steven's prostate, in the years they have been apart, Brendan has learnt a thing or two when it comes to sex and he immediately batters against the sensitive spot in the other man, makes him arch his back and pant and cry out Brendan's name because of the relentless onslaught against his hole and prostate and Brendan looks up at Steven's face before swallowing his dick whole, feeling it hit the back of his throat as he swallows around it and Steven is crying in pleasure, the noises he is making showing Brendan he is about to come and he doesn't want that yet, he wants this to last so he pulls away, looking at Steven again but he's already there, he's going to come before Brendan has really got started so he quickly grabs Steven's dick. Squeezes the base of it as hard as he can and Steven is biting his lip as an almost painful groan rips through his throat, as an all body shudder wrestles through him, as he jerks against the orgasm Brendan is preventing.
Brendan watches him come down from it, smiles when Steven's eyes begin to focus and he looks at him with a confused expression, doesn't understand why Brendan didn't let him come but as soon as Brendan slicks his cock up and pushes inside, Steven's eyes instantly roll into the back of his head.
It's fast because Brendan wants it to e, right now he doesn't want to make love to Steven – they have the rest of their lives to do that – right now, he wants to fuck and he wants it to be hard. He pulls out for a second before sitting down, pulling Steven up and letting him sink on his dick, letting him ride him into oblivion. Steven begins circling his hips, his arse milking Brendan's cock as Brendan shoves a hand between them and grabs hold of Steven's dick, pumping it and leaning his head back so Steven can bite down hard on him and he does; he remembers the signs that Brendan puts out – the way he squeezes on Steven's thigh and cock, telling him he wants this to be rough and then he's biting into his neck, so hard he could almost draw blood and Brendan is dragging his nails down his chest, leaning forward to bite on Steven's nipples and neither can take it – can't take it–
They scream out their release as they both come, mere seconds between both of them exploding and it must be Steven's orgasm that pushes Brendan over the edge because soon enough they are holding each other close; kissing and laughing because them came so hard – almost harder than they ever have before.
…
"Brendan?" He and Steven are unpacking, putting Steven's cooking equipment into all the cupboards and Brendan hums to tell Steven's he's acknowledged him and he only looks up when he feels Steven's arms circling around his waist. "I know you might not want to talk about it, but, urm… when I left, how long was it before you started taking the drugs and that?" Brendan sighs because he hates talking about it and even though Steven's with him now, it's still hard remembering back to that time.
"About a month… I started drinking the day you left though, I couldn't carry on without you, you know? It was impossible for me to get through the day without a drink or something…" He turns in Steven's arms and looks down at him, smiling reassuringly before gently kissing his forehead and walking over to get another saucepan out of a box. "Anyway, talking about drugs… I have my NA meeting today."
"NA?"
"Narcotics Anonymous… you can stay here though if you want? I'll only be like, an hour." Steven nods at him, still looks upset by the fact Brendan was a drug addict but who wouldn't be? God knows Aidan and Malachy were, they stopped talking to him for years and even now, they refuse to give Brendan the time of day. He may have been a drug addicted prick but he needed his friends then, he may have stolen from them and committed petty crimes to pay for his addiction but Peter and Eileen stuck by him, they are still here and every day Brendan silently thanks them; those two and Cheryl, Anne and Warren were the ones who helped him through that time.
They finish unpacking soon enough – it only takes them about an hour and Steven's stuff is all in place, settled next to Brendan and right now they are lounging on the sofa, watching the Jeremy Kyle show as Brendan traces a fingertip up and down Steven's arm.
Brendan turns his head from the TV and looks down at Steven, imagining what it could have been like if Steven had actually spoken to him all those years ago when he came back and Brendan can't help but feel saddened by how they could have been together for years by now. "Steven" Steven turns his body in Brendan's arms and looks up at him, smiling and snuggling closer as he tries to get comfortable in the new position. "Why were you scared to speak to me when you came back the first time? Everything would be so different…"
Steven lays his head on Brendan's chest and puts a hand over his heart, slipping it under his shirt so they have skin-on-skin contact and finally, he closes his eyes before speaking. "I was scared that you wouldn't love me anymore… I know that sounds stupid but there was always that chance weren't there, and the first time I was so close to walking up to you but then I began to think. What if you had time to think and hated me for…" Steven swallows and tightens his hold on Brendan. "For what happened with your Nan… how I like, stole that time you had with her away from you because of what happened with… your dad and the second time, you looked so happy and if you hated me – I didn't want to make you upset, I love you too much to have done that…" Brendan looks down in disbelief, can't believe Steven would think he wouldn't love him anymore… it's, kinda unbelievable.
"Steven, you know I've always loved you, right? Ever since I first laid eyes on you… you've always been in here…" Brendan lifts his hand to Steven's, the one going over his heart and squeezes down on it, smiling when Steven looks up at him and grins.
Steven suddenly sits up and takes hold of his hand, taking hold of the remote and turning the TV to silent before looking at Brendan again. "Listen, you know I were with Doug?" Brendan nods. "Well, I was only with him for three months and I met him at college, when I was studying business and he was so clingy and he was like, my first proper relationship since you and I never loved him… you were always there with me and I couldn't take it anymore, that's why I came back for you…" Brendan smiles at him when he finishes talking and lifts his hand to kiss his knuckles, getting ready to tell him about Kevin because the other man could come back and cause problems, he's vindictive enough.
"I was kinda with someone… well, no actually, it was just sex but I have always loved you – always, okay? I've never forgotten you." Steven nods and Brendan decides now is a good time to let it out. "His name's Kevin and I thought I should tell you about him now because he might try and stir things up between us… I met him about a year ago when me and Anne hired him and we kinda started sleeping together straight away… he made me stop thinking about you because… you broke my heart, Steven." Brendan sighs and Steven looks away from him before mumbling "it broke my heart too." And they sit in silence for a while before Brendan speaks again. "Well, it doesn't matter now because we're together… do you wanna meet Anne today? And see Cheryl again?" Steven grins, nodding at him and kissing him before unmuting the TV and settling back to watch the rest of the show.
–OXO–
"My name's Brendan Brady and I'm addicted to Cocaine." He's stood in front of everyone, fucking hates these meetings because they stare, they may have the same problem but it doesn't stop judgement and he fucking hates people looking at him; it's embarrassing. And, apart from that, it's always the same thing, hearing everyone's stories, how they have been, how they are coping and most of all, how they are resisting that urge.
If Brendan's being honest, and even if he doesn't want to admit it to himself, he's finding it so hard to resist the urges. Cocaine was such a big part of his life and there's something he didn't tell Steven, he has had a relapse in that two years since he's been 'clean'. He doesn't want to tell Steven that because he doesn't want him to worry but Brendan knows, if anything happens then he could easily turn back to that drug; the thing that was his best friend for all those years.
Suddenly, the sound of high heels is clicking down the hall and Brendan smirks because he immediately knows it's Anne. They had met years ago at one of these meetings, that's why he appreciates them because Anne is the best friend he could ever have and when she walks through the door, Brendan instantly feels a smile creeping onto his face.
She walks into the room and drops her bag on the floor next to Brendan, he saved a seat for her because he knows she would be late, always is because she has to drop Phoenix home with Warren and the counsellor running the class nods at her, telling her she can talk now. "Hello, my name's Anne Fox and I'm addicted to Heroin.
–OXO–
"Ste!" He watches as Cheryl runs towards his boyfriend, crying as she finally wraps her arms around him and Brendan doesn't think he'll ever forget this sight; it's too surreal. The way both of them are clinging together is such a beautiful sight because they haven't seen each-other in ten years either, and, they became so close – almost like best friends and now, they have finally been reunited.
Anne is stood next to him smiling; it's a nice release because she always takes the meeting hard, the way she thinks people judge her when she says she has a son and Brendan knows they're not, they're just curious but it's just Anne, she gets scared easily. "You were right, he is beautiful." Anne whispers in his ear and Brendan feels his stomach flip, looking at the way Steven is smiling over to him, his eyes lighting up is just making his heart stop and he loves him, now more than ever.
"When have I ever lied to you, Anne?" She glares at him because he knows, he's lied to her plenty of times and when Steven walks over, she paints on her grin and pulls him into a hug.
"So, you're the one that is making this one happy then?" She asks and Steven nods, looking shyly at Brendan who of course, just smirks at him. "Well, I can see why. You look… bendy."
"Anne!" Brendan scolds her and Steven just laughs before linking his arm with Anne's and walking towards Cheryl, leaving Brendan to trailing after them as they begin gossiping.
–OXO–
"That him then?"
Brendan looks across at Steven, drunkenly dancing with Cheryl and Anne as Pete and Eileen sway beside them and he smiles before looking at Warren again. "Yeah that's him… you ever think you love someone so much it hurts?" He might be slightly – very – drunk himself.
"Yep, I love Anne don't I? And trust me, she is hard work sometimes." Warren smirks and Brendan nods in agreement, he has first-hand experience dealing with Anne when she's going off on one and he knows how much Warren loves his best friend, he can see it in his eyes.
He suddenly has a massive urge to be closer to Steven, something pulling him towards him and he quickly says bye to Warren before walking towards Steven and pushing him into the office. He instantly crowds in close and shoves his tongue down Steven's throat; hearing the other man whimper in surprise and it makes Brendan laugh slow in his throat before he shoves his hand down Steven's trousers and grabs his hardening shaft.
Steven groans and leans his head on Brendan's shoulder, panting as Brendan works his cock hard and fast and he bites down on Brendan's neck when he comes, licking across the teeth marks that he has made. "Bloody hell… if you get like that when you're drunk, then you should drink more often…" Steven pants and Brendan laughs before pulling his hand out and licking it clean.
"Yeah, yeah… ready to go home and have some more?" Steven nods enthusiastically and pulls Brendan out the door, waving bye to Cheryl and Anne but before they can leave, Warren has hold of his arm and there's someone stood next to him, someone who Brendan doesn't recognise at all. "Mate, this bloke here was looking for you…" Warren says before stalking off and wrapping his arms around Anne, leaving Brendan and Ste to eye the newcomer suspiciously.
The man only looks a few years older than Brendan and he puts his hand out, Brendan takes it, shaking it because he's polite and he's not going to offend, even if he doesn't know who this man is. "Was your father's name Seamus Brady?" The stranger asks and Brendan looks at Steven before nodding.
"Yeah, why?" He asks and the man looks around, looking slightly shifty before patting Brendan's arm.
"Urm, well, my name's Quinn O'Connell and I don't know how to say this… there's no way to put it without getting straight to the point but… but I'm your brother."