Rhydian's POV

I walked silently to school in the cold, it was getting colder. I used to run to school with Mads but now I just couldn't be bothered, I couldn't really be bothered going to school at all but I don't think Maddy would be very pleased if I just became a useless piece of society. I could hear Tom and Shannon before I was even out of the woods and that's when I chose to remember that I was supposed to get Jana in the mornings. I heaved a sigh and just walked over to Tom, Shannon and Jana?

"I thought I was coming to walk with you this morning?" I asked a little confused.

"Well you were supposed to but you were taking forever" she joked with a smile before looking back to Shannon who was, crying? Oh no, what now? I almost whimpered.

"Shannon? What's up?" I asked, my voice laced with concern.

Her head shot round in my direction "They said she'd be in contact Rhydian! Where is she? How is she? She could be dead for all we know!" Shannon almost screamed before running off, Jana following her closely.

"It's Mads' birthday, mate" Tom said with a little pat on the shoulder. My heart plummited, how could I possibly forget that? What the hell is wrong with me? I hate myself, I've agreed with myself, I really do not like myself at the current moment. We headed off in search of Shannon and found both her and Jana in the darkroom.

"I'm sorry I snapped Rhydian... I just miss her so much" Shannon almost whispered, I couldn't help but notice Jana had her arm around Shannon trying to comfort her but it just didn't have the same affect as Maddy's did.

"We all miss her Shannon but you've got to remember you will always be a pack" Jana said gently echoing Maddy's words before looking up again "They might still be trying to get settled in Canada?" she offered.

"It doesn't this long Jana..." Shannon said sadly.

"Maybe they just don't want biiig phone bills" Tom tried to joke but Shannon just looked like she was going to kill him until the bell rang, lucky Tom.

I patted Shannon on the shoulder "Why don't we all go to Mads after school and give her a phone?" I offered which cheered Shan up a little, thankfully. I hate seeing any of my pack upset.

School passed relatively quickly but slowly at the same time, I walked home and dipped into the shops on the way home and bought one of those lanterns you let go into the sky, I know it probably wont make it past a tree but it's all we really can do.

I walked in from school and walked over to Mrs. Vaughan with a pleading look over my face.

"Hey, I know I need to take the boys out but I was wondering if I could have one night off? Please? It's really important"

"Hello, to you too. I think I'll be the judge of 'really' important, what is it?" she asked with a smile but I could tell she was annoyed if only a little.

"Well... It's Maddy's birthday and my friends are kinda upset and I-" she cut me short and I sighed as quietly as I could.

"Listen, Rhydian, Maddy isn't coming back, I'm sorry but there's nothing you can do about it. I'll let you go tonight but after that I think it's time for you to let her go"

I had to literally fight to keep the tears and wolf coming out and I just nodded "Thank you" with that I left, I didn't listen to her crap about dinner or anything else I just ran to Maddy's house.

I walked in the house and they were all waiting, I pulled out the lantern and handed it to Shan.

"I thought we could light it and let it go, maybe Mads will see it in Canada?" I offered and Shannon teared up happily.

"Rhydian, that's so sweet" She said gently and gave me a hug which I returned.

We lit the lantern and let it go, it actually worked and flew a long way away, maybe she would see it after all. After that we went it and Mum had made us hot chocolate or tried, it wasn't bad but a little odd? At least she was trying though, I was proud. We all sat in the living room and phoned Maddy from my phone, I put it on loud speaker and sat it on the table as it rang.

Maddy's POV

I woke up holding myself, I don't think I could be in much more pain as I looked around and found Dr. Whitewood sitting at a desk writing things down before looking at me.

"Welcome back to the living Madeline" she said to me before wheeling her chair closer to me, I backed away as much as I could on this hospital bed.

"Stay away from me" I said to her knowing it was stupid, she hardly was going to stay away now.

"Come on now, how are feeling?" she asked and looked at the various clinically inflicted wounds covering legs and arms.

"Horrible, thanks to you" I spat which seemed to strike a nerve and she looked up at me.

"Maddy... I wanted to test you, yes, not destroy you..." she said gently.

"Can't you give us some painkillers then?" I pleaded, I couldn't take much more of this constantly intensifying pain.

"I'm afraid not, they said it could have an effect on your blood" she breathed and wrote some things down.

"Who's them? Where am I?" I asked hoping she'd answer.

"Segolia, it's this large company who works with wolfblood in science".

"I think you mean wolfblood torture, look at us!" I cried, I couldn't help it anymore, I clutched my stomach and threw my head back against the bed.

"You'll be alright, they were only operations" she said trying to make me feel better.

"What people go through all this without morphine and other stuff?" I asked trying to stop the tears before widening my eyes "Mam, Dad where are they?" I asked.

"They're both safe, we just have to keep them locked up... They lost it when they seen the state of you" she admitted.

"Oh..." I trailed off staring at the ceiling, I was in so much pain and I was so, so sad. My ears perked at the sound of a phone ringing, my phone, Dr. Whitewood wheeled back over and picked it up.

"Hello? Who? I think you've got the wrong number, there's no Maddy here? Maddy Smith? Nope, sorry. Goodbye".

"How could you do that, they're me friends, I-" I just stopped, there was no point was there.

"They want your friends to think you've forgotten about them, so they wont come looking" she answered me anyway.

I just nodded and went silent, I couldn't do this anymore. I kept quiet the entire time, even as security came in and some woman called Victoria Sweeney snarled and growled in my face and lead me to secure room which was half den and half hospital bedroom. I was shoved inside the room, that's when I saw it, no wonder Mam and Dad had lost it. I wasn't even a fraction of my old self, I was chalk white and the wounds, scars, fresh cuts, bruises and everything else that covered my body was horrific, I was surprised I was still alive. I couldn't look anymore so I just climbed under the duvet which wasn't even a duvet, it was a sheet and curled up as tightly as I could and cried myself into a terrifying sleep.
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