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"Jack, are you sure you're okay?"

"I'm fine Henry."

Jack gave his friend a smile, but he knew Henry didn't buy it one bit. It had been another month, and Jack's shell was breaking. He no longer could fake a smile when it came to Henry anymore, the one person who knew him better than anyone. Jack knew his best friend had been trying to figure out what was wrong, but he also knew that this was one thing Henry wouldn't figure out on his own.

"You coming to practice?" Henry asked him so carefully that it wasn't hard for Jack to notice that Henry figured out it was something about Fridays...something about soccer.

"Nah, I have something to do. I'll text you later!"

As quick as he could without being suspicious, Jack walked away from Henry. It wasn't like he lied, he really did have something to do but he chose this time to do it on purpose.

Pulling out his phone, Jack sent a text to his Uncle Derek knowing they didn't have a case.

Can we talk? I have something to ask you. It's a hard topic. - Jack

He didn't have to wait long till Derek replied.

Sure. I can leave work now, my house? I can pick you up. - Derek

Don't worry about me, I'll take a taxi. -Jack

Not waiting for his reply, Jack quickly called a taxi before stuffing his phone back in his pocket.

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Jack felt his hands shaking as he sat on Derek's porch steps. Cursing himself, he stuffed them in his jacket pockets. Just as he did, Derek's car pulled up and he wasted no time in ushering Jack inside the house and on the couch.

"So what's up? I can see you're nervous." Derek said as he took a seat on the couch next to him.

"I'm just worried if this is an okay subject to talk about." Jack muttered, staring at the coffee table in front of him.

"Go on."

"What...would you do if someone you knew was being..sexually abused."

Feeling Derek's shocked gaze on him, Jack didn't dare look up to meet his eyes just in case he gave himself away.

"I'd try to help them. No one deserves to have that happen to them, and I'd certainly make sure the bastard doing it can't hurt anyone else. Jack...is this a legit question?"

"I'm just worried for a friend, that's all."

"You tell them to call me, got it?" Derek said so firmly Jack found himself nodding.

He knew Derek didn't completely believe him. Jack came to Derek to tell him everything, if anyone could understand it was his Uncle Derek. He cursed himself again for chickening out.

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It was later in the day when Jack was laying on the grass in the backyard, when he could feel someone walking over to him. Immediately, he tensed up.

"It's just me."

Jack looked over to see Henry settling himself on the grass next to Jack. Letting out a quiet breath, he felt his muscles loosen again but instead of looking at Henry, he turned to stare at the darkening sky above him.

"Keller was asking where you were." Jack held his breath, trying to ignore the feeling of disgust wash over him. "I told him your mom sick and you had to look after her."

"Thanks." Jack whispered, closing his eyes.

Another secret Jack kept, was the fact no one at school but Henry and the Principal knew that Beth wasn't his biological mom. Of course it wasn't really a secret, anyone could easily find out that his mom was killed by a serial killer when he was younger. But Jack found it better if no one knew, he didn't want the looks of pity they would throw his way.

"We need to talk, Jack." He still didn't open his eyes. "Look I know it has to deal with practices. You're my best friend, I just want you to be okay and I know you aren't! While your dad and the rest are so wrapped up in work, and Beth is wrapped up in her business, they don't notice all the changes in you but I do. You barely eat, you lost weight, I can tell you haven't been sleeping enough, you space out at random times, and I noticed that you've been carrying around Nathan's picture again."

"Dad, Beth and the others don't notice 'cause there's nothing to notice."

"Don't bullshit me Jack! Not only is it something about practice, but you're upset about Nathan again."

"Of course I'm upset about Nathan!" Jack quickly got off the ground, Henry following right behind him. "I have a damn good reason to be upset over him!"

"I miss him too Jack, but I learned not to upset myself over it or I'll go insane."

"He was my boyfriend!" Jack's voice cracked, he could feel the tears slowly building up.

"For only 4 months! Obviously it's going to hurt but you can't keep doing this to yourself."

Jack let out a choked sob, "It's my fault he's gone!"

Letting the tears fall, Jack felt his knees hit the grass and felt Henry's arms around him.

"No it's not. You said that you saw someone in the middle of the road, it's not your fault you had to swerve out of the way." Henry said softly.

"I shouldn't even had been driving the stupid car!" Jack was able to say through his sobs, "I should have known it would be a dumb thing to do, what 14 year old can actually drive?"

"Don't do this Jack." Henry whispered, "We don't even know the whole story."

Pushing himself out of Henry's hold, Jack roughly wiped away his tears. "What more is there to know! I was stupid enough to think I could drive the car and dragged you and Nathan with me, I thought I was someone in the middle of the road which I'm not even sure of anymore, I swerved out of the way and crashed into the trees, we were knocked unconscious and woke up to find Nathan gone! Then.." Jack trailed off, taking a deep breath.

"How about how Nathan got out of the car and was found nowhere even near where we crashed? If he got out to get help, he wouldn't have walked through the woods, he would have gone back to the road."

"Stop..just stop!" Jack shouted, feeling his chest tighten.

Jack turned away from Henry and headed back towards the house, as he felt Henry's eyes on his back, he realized that he completely avoided Henry's questioning about their soccer practices.

All he could think about was Nathan. No matter what Henry had told him, he knew that he was the one to kill Nathan. All because he thought he saw someone he wasn't even sure was there anymore.

Part of him knew there was more to it, but the guilt was too strong.

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Jack sighed and rested his forehead against his locker in the locker room. Luckily for him, JJ had decided to visit her mom over the weekend, so he was able to get away with not telling Henry anything. All through the school day he could feel Henry staring at him, waiting for the day to end so he could corner him.

Suddenly, Jack felt someone swing him around and push him against the lockers.

Gasping at the sudden pain shooting through his back, he let out a groan of both pain and annoyance when he opened his eyes to see Keller in front of him.

Keller never stayed at the school on Mondays, but it seems Jack's plan for Monday being the best day to come in here wasn't very smart.

"You've been avoiding me again Jack, and you know I don't like that." He growled, Jack winced as he felt Keller's hand tighten around his arm.

One of the main reasons he had decided to tell Derek before chickening out, was from the fact Keller was getting more aggressive. And it started to scare Jack more than Keller telling everyone that not only had Jack had a boyfriend, but that he had killed him.

"I had to take care of my mom." Jack threw back, squeezing his eyes shut as he felt Keller push against him and tighten his other hand that gripped his waist. He wouldn't be surprised if he had bruises the next day.

"Don't give me that, I know your mom wasn't sick." Keller spat out, anger filling his voice. "Now how about you be a good little bitch and give me what I want."

"No!" Jack shouted as Keller started unzipping his pants. Jack suddenly felt his head snap to the side, and his cheek stinging. But he still tried to move away. He had only been forced to do this once, and it was one thing he knew he'd never get use to. Jack would rather eat insects than have the taste of Keller in his mouth again.

"That pretty mouth of yours has such better use then you yelling."

As Keller went to shove Jack to his knees, a gasp filled the locker room.

Before Jack could even blink, the hold on him disappeared and Keller was gone. Realizing that the gasp came from one of the entrances to the locker room, Jack turned his head to see Henry standing there with his mouth open, his eyes wide with shock before he noticed anger soon replaced the shock.

With a sigh of relief at not seeing disgust directing at himself in Henry's eyes, Jack felt himself slowly slide down the lockers and onto the cold floor.

"This is what you've been keeping a secret." Henry whispered, suddenly beside him.

All Jack could do was nod his head slowly. He felt Henry's arm slip around his shoulders and that was all it took for Jack to break down in his hold again as Henry pulled Jack against him.

Closing his eyes, he listened to Henry whisper in his ear that he wouldn't let Keller touch him again. Part of Jack felt relief, but another part of him was still afraid. Now that Henry knew, there was no way the rest of the family wouldn't know by tomorrow.

It also meant Keller would tell everyone that Jack was not only gay, but about what really happened in the car crash.

But he also knew even when his family was told what he had done, Keller would get what he wanted.

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