Chapter 2

"So are you married?" asked Beck as we both sat down and he positioned himself very close to me. For some odd reason this made me really nervous. It made me think of all the times Beck and I would go to the beach. I loved that feeling of being with him then, and well as bad as this sounds because I'm married I loved feeling him so close to me.

"Yea," I said waving my wedding ring in his face.

"Look at you Suzy housewife," he said sarcastically.

"Ugh shut up," I said tossing sand at him.

Then he looked at me and asked me, "Are you happy?"

Before today my answer would have been yes with no hesitation, but seeing Beck again brought back feelings I thought I had buried long ago.

Beck saw I was hesitating and leaned in and whispered to me, "I've missed you a lot."

"Why now, I was perfectly fine and now this," I told myself.

"Me too," I blurted out. Realizing what had left my mouth I quickly said, "I mean, I am happy. Keith is a great dad and husband."

We were interrupted when Mayah came and said, "I'm hungry mommy."

I broke eye contact with Beck and proceeded to make lunch. For sure I thought Beck would get bored entertaining my kids and leave, but to my surprise he was still here playing with Nate. I turned my back on them and finished up making sandwiches.

"Need help?" Beck asked, as he grabbed my waist.

I jumped, "N..n..no," I stuttered.

"Relax, I wasn't going to try anything," Beck said, as he winked at me. Damn, that wink I hate to admit it, but it drove me crazy.

Beck was amazing in high school and well this wasn't high school anymore, so I just had to forget about all those good times. "I just have to stay strong and burry my feelings, after all I'm Jade West I'm good at that," I told myself as I handed my kids their food.

Then my phone rang it was Keith.

"Hey babe, what you guys up to," he said.

"Hi Hun," I said.

"It's daddy," Nate yelled taking the phone from me.

"We're at the beach with mommy's friend," Nate said before I yanked the phone out of his hand.

"What?" Keith asked.

"Yeah, I ran in to an old friend of mine at the beach," I said nonchalantly.

"Oh, ok. I'll be home later, see you guys then. Love ya," he said.

"Love you too see you at home," I said as I hung up.

Twenty minutes later I decided it was time to head back home.

"So it was nice seeing you, but we have to get going. Keith is going to be home soon and I need to start dinner," I said packing up all of our stuff.

"Ok, and if it helps you don't have to pretend around me," he said with a smile.

"Pretend!" I yelled, scaring Mayah and Khloe.

"You know what I'm talking about," he added helping me carry all the stuff back to my car.

Of course he would know, Beck knew, well apparently knows me very well. He could always tell when I wasn't being completely honest. I tried to play it cool, epic fail!

"That was the past, I love Keith and no one can change that," I said sternly.

"Then why do you keep giving me that stare I love so much?" he questioned.

Damn it, I didn't even realize I was doing it, but I'm married now and I can't let these feelings come out, not now. I have my kids to worry about.

"Whatever," I said. "I'll catch you later."

"Oh, you will," Beck answered. "Here's my number, I know you'll call." he handed me a piece of paper and pulled me into a tight hug. "Oh his hugs how I've missed them. I've missed his scent, his grip, Oh, I've missed him so much," I thought to myself as we hugged.

"Mom, hurry," said Nate, as he bang on the window.

"Shit, I'm coming," I yelled letting Beck go.

Beck gave me a peck on the cheek and he was off.

On the way home I just couldn't get Beck out of my mind. The kids were asleep and we were stuck in traffic. I was starting to fall asleep, so I decided to call someone to keep me awake. Keith was still at work so I couldn't call him, and well Cat was on vacation god knows where, I really didn't want to call Beck, but before I knew it the phone was in my hand and I had dialed. Talk about giving in so quickly.

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