Oh my God, I am SO SORRY for taking so long. Luckily, I am stuck in my house due to the blizzard here in Chicago, so I was able to finish this chapter tonight, and probably work on the next chapter tomorrow. I can't thank you enough for all the kind reviews…you guys are WAY too kind. SO SO SO nice! I hope I didn't disappoint…I fee like this chapter might not be as funny or entertaining. I guess they call this…writers block? However, I made it long to compensate for taking so long. Thanks again for everything!
"Where do you want to go first, the apartments or the condos?" Rachel asked Finn as they got outside to hail a cab.
"Condos. I think we should buy. We made a lot of money the last few years and saved mostly all of it, and we can put a lot down. I know you're not working right now, but I know that will change soon" Finn said to her assuming she'll go find another role on Broadway.
"I don't know Finn…we talked about trying for another baby this summer, which is almost here. If we do that, that's another year, if not two, where I won't be working" she said shrugging as a cab pulls up.
"Ok, let's go to the apartments first then, and we'll discuss it as we go along today" he said to her holding the door open for her to get in. Rachel tells the driver where to, because she's the one who has everything mapped out, and Finn's basically just along for the ride.
"So, I know we talked about another kid right away, and I'm all for that" he said motioning his hand towards her. "But, what is your plan then?" Finn asks her what HER plan is, because he's not sure they're on the same page. He also knows that it's always been Rachel's plan from the beginning, and he just goes along with everything she says or does. He doesn't mind, but that's why he looks for ways to retaliate, like buying the Cadillac of fish tanks or going to a bar during the week and not telling her. He sometimes feels like that's the only control he has, so he does these little things to feel like he has some power.
"Well, it's OUR plan" Rachel says rolling her eyes at him for not thinking he's included. "But, since you asked, MY plan was to have at least 2 children right away, and then go back to Broadway. I want to make sure they go to good schools or daycare before I go back to work though. It's sort of hard with you working the 11 o'clock news too. I wish you can switch to mornings, and then this way one of us would always be home with the kids…and we wouldn't have to worry about daycare" she said squeezing his hand.
"Well, I get paid more at the evening news, but I can ask for a transfer if that's what you would like. I feel like I would never see you if I switch to mornings, especially if you were to find another role on Broadway" he said frowning.
"Well if you're off on weekends, we'll have those afternoons together" she said, not understanding why he would be sad. "Besides, wouldn't you rather be the one to watch the children in the day, instead of some stranger at some shady daycare in the city?" she asked him rolling her eyes.
"Rach…I make good money, and if you go back to Broadway, you would also be making good money…we can afford a really good pre-school and daycare for them. And really, we're only talking about ONE kid now, because you're not even pregnant yet" he said as the cab pulls over in front of their first destination. Finn pays the cab driver, and he turns around to give them a look of "good luck" after hearing their conversation.
"Well, I don't want to get pregnant until after the Tonys, which is in a little over 2 months…so we can try that night" she said raising an eyebrow holding on to his hand while entering the apartment building.
"Do you have anything that's not planned?" he asked her as they entered the building.
After a few hours, they're both exhausted of looking at different places. On their way to a restaurant, Rachel rests her head on Finn's head and sighs.
"Okay, baby?" Finn asks her while he strokes her hair with his hand.
"Yeah, I just have so much going on in my head" she says, while rubbing his thigh with her hand.
"This is all good Rachel. All, what seems to be problems, is all good things happening to us" Finn says trying to relax her as he continues to rub his hand through her hair. "We have a beautiful baby boy, I have a great job, and you are a rising Broadway star who is nominated 3 years in a row for a Tony" he says smiling.
"You're right" Rachel says as she pops her head up, because she realized she hasn't called Nick yet to find out how everything is going.
"What's wrong now" Finn says in her response to popping her head up so abruptly.
"I don't want to sound dramatic, but I realized that I have forgotten about Zachary all this time. I'm such a bad mother" she says dialing Nick on her cell phone.
"Rach" Finn starts to chuckle a bit, "You're not a bad mother, it means you needed a little break. This is actually the first time we have gone out together, alone, since he was born" he says putting his hand on her shoulder to try and calm her down.
"He's not answering the phone Finn!" she says turning to look at him in the eyes. Finn just looks at her waiting to see what her next response will be.
"Make a right here, and head back to 47th please" Rachel yells out to the cab driver.
"Rachel" Finn yells back.
"Finn…please" she says putting her hand up to stop him from saying any more. "I know this sounds crazy, but I have to make sure Zack is ok before we go to dinner" she says slowing down her voice. Finn just rolls his eyes and allows Rachel to freak out, so she can then try and calm down once she realizes everything is fine.
"Ok" he sighs, trying to comfort Rachel. "Look, why don't we just go home early and order in?" he says to her smiling.
"Thank you" she whispers back.
"You can thank me later tonight when we realize that Zachary is fine" he winks at her.
As soon as the cab pulls up, Finn hurries up to pay the cab driver, so they can run upstairs to put Rachel at peace that Zachary is ok with Nick. Rachel darts up the stairs, as Finn follows a few steps behind. As soon as she swings the door open, her eyes widen at the sight on the couch. Nick and Stephanie are making out, while Zachary is sleeping on the bouncy chair next to them. Rachel is relieved and shocked at the same time. She's relieved that Zachary is ok, but shocked at how fast Pukey and Smurf got reconnected.
"Oh my God!" Finn yells out as he walks in a few seconds after Rachel.
Rachel turns to try and calm Finn down, but she sees him running towards the living room. Rachel is expecting a brawl, where Nick will be punched out for the 4th time (of course, once was by Rachel), but she's shocked to see him run towards the floor by the fish tank. Chad is flopping around on the ground, and Finn hurries up and grabs him and throws him back in the tank. The 3 of them are all in shock at both events going on at the same time. The first being Nick and Stephanie making out, and the second being Chad flopping around on the ground. Of course, what was thought to be the biggest worry, is not a worry at all, which is Zachary. He's fine sleeping while all of this is going on.
"Finn!" Rachel yells out wondering what she should focus her attention on first. Then looks back at the two of them on the couch.
"Rachel, you're home early" Nick says trying to straighten himself up.
"You didn't answer your phone so we came home" she said looking at both of them.
"It was on vibrate. After Zack fell asleep, I turned the ringer off" he said trying to relax her.
"Oh that's what that was" Stephanie said looking at him seductively.
"Ew, ok!" Rachel says motioning her arm towards both of them on the couch. "I'm glad Zack is sleeping, and thanks for turning your cell off…"Rachel stops in mid-sentence looking at Finn, hoping to intervene.
"I can't believe you did this!" Finn yells at Nick. "I mean, it's not a very adult thing to do" he says putting both his hands on his hips.
"We're sorry Finn" Nick said, answering for Stephanie as well. "Stephanie came back to bring dinner for me, and well one thing lead to another…"
"Well you're not being very responsible here! I mean, Chad almost DIED!" Finn said turning his head back to Chad's tank.
"Uhhh, oh you mean THAT?" Nick said looking at Finn ridiculously.
"What do you think I mean?" Finn asks him.
"I thought you meant the making out on your couch part" Nick said as Stephanie slowly starts to get up and walk towards Finn.
"Fish don't die from people making out. Fish die from people leaving the top of their house open!" he starts to yell.
"House?" Nicks asks.
"Finn!" Rachel shoots him a look. "Quiet, Zack is sleeping, please" she quiets her own voice.
"Sorry Fud. It's my fault, I guess I distracted him" She says putting her hand on Finn's shoulder, while shooting a look back at Nick. "I better go. You guys come see me at the bar soon ok" she says giving Finn a quick kiss on the cheek before heading out. "Good night Nick" she says at the very end before closing the door.
"So, you make out with my friend, and you almost kill Chad?" Finn asks looking at Nick.
"I guess I was looking for just ONE more reason for you to hate me" Nick tries to joke back.
"Finn" Rachel says walking over to Finn. "I know you love the fish, but put this in perspective please. Our SON is fine…you know? The other HUMAN that lives with us. And you are married to ME, not Stephanie, so you shouldn't care about him making out with her" she says puzzled that Finn would be mad over these trivial things.
"Ok…first of all, that's not very VEGAN of you to not care about a fish. According to vegans, you guys treat animals BETTER than humans" he argues. "And yeah…you're right, you are married to me. But, I sorta got used to YOU making out with THAT GUY every night for 3 years" he said pointing to Nick. "And now he's making out with my other friend…who is a girl, but I don't have romantic feelings for, but she's the other girl in my life so he has to go and steal every vagina that crosses my path!" he says as he walks through the hallway to their bedroom and slams the door.
"Well" Rachel said turning around and clapping her hands together. "Just another normal night in the Hudson family, dysfunctional household" she said looking at Nick and smiling awkwardly.
"Are you mad?" Nick asks Rachel as he watched Finn walk away. Nick sort of got used to Finn's incoherent and ridiculous rants for the last 3 years that it barely fazed him.
"No, of course not" she walking over towards Zachary in his bouncy chair. "You're an adult, and you came over on a Saturday night, last minute to watch my son." She said sighing. "And he seems ok and happy to me" she says as she kisses her son on the cheek.
"He's all fed, burped and changed." Nick says proudly. "About the Stephanie thing…"
"It's fine" she interrupts him. "I mean, making out on a couch while babysitting is a little high school girlish, circa 1992…but you're an adult. As long as Zack is fine, that's all I care about. Now the fish on the other hand…that's all Finn. You'll have to answer to him on that one, but to be honest, he killed MY fish, so I think he's got it coming to him" she says laughing.
"I guess I forgot to close the top of the tank" he says sighing, and giggling a bit as well.
"Well, he's right, it's not very vegan of me" she says putting air quotes on the word 'vegan'. "But, I would take much sadistic satisfaction if something horrible happened to that stupid fish" she said raising her eyebrows.
"Do you want me to off him right now?" he asked pointing towards the tank.
"No!" she abruptly shouts stopping him of any terrible ideas. "As long as you didn't forget to feed my SON, that's all I care about" she says walking him towards the door. "Thanks Nick for watching him. Next time, we'll tell you about our 'no girl' policy" she says slapping the back of his shoulder.
"'Night Rach" he says smiling back.
Later on that night, Rachel had fallen asleep on the couch after she got done giving Zachary a bath. Finn put him in his crib for the night, and decided that he was going to unplug the fish tank and bring it in their bedroom. It was on wheels, so he quietly wheeled it in their bedroom, and moved it between their bed and the crib. He had gotten a power strip chord so he can plug the tank in, because it had all these fancy lights along with 2 filters. He figured the noise would also be soothing for Zachary, and would also serve as white noise that would drown out any noises that he and Rachel would make while having sex. Haha, I'm a genius, he thought to himself. Also, I can monitor Chad tonight since he suffered a traumatic event due to douche bag pukey.
Finn went back out to the living room to pick up Rachel and carry her to bed. She barely responded, other than throwing her arm around his shoulder and digging her head in his chest.
"Mmmmm" she happily moaned as he placed her on the bed, while she just rolled over under the covers and went back to sleep.
Finn moved over to his side and slid under the covers, moving closer to Rachel. He started poking her to test to see just how tired she was, but she didn't even respond. He even took his pillow and lightly hit the top of her head to try and rattle her, but again no response. He then got up and took a rattle out of Zack's toy box and shook it in front of her face.
"Finn" she says sternly while grabbing the rattle from his hand without her even looking or moving her head. "You touch me one more time and you die" she says without cracking her voice.
Finn doesn't say anything, because she just scared the crap out of him. He rolled over and went to bed instead.
A few hours later, Rachel wakes up to go to the bathroom. She sees the lights from the fish tank and thinks she's still might be in the living room. She moves her body to get off the couch, but ends up falling off the bed because they are different sizes. Ow, she thinks. She's still a bit discombobulated and turns to walk away from the fish tank, and ends up walking straight into the crib.
"Shit!" she yells out startling herself. As soon as she hit the crib and yelled out, Zachary started to cry.
Finn throws himself up and sees Rachel trying to figure out what's going on, all at the same time to try and calm Zachary down.
"Rach" he says getting out of bed carefully, not to hit the fish tank. "I got him, it's ok" he said putting his hand on her shoulder.
"Finn, why is the giant fish tank in our bedroom?" she angrily asked him. "I woke up and saw it and got confused. I thought I was in the living room on the couch" she said.
"I thought it would solve all our problems" he said not understanding why she's mad.
"What problems?" she said as she put Zachary's pacifier back in his mouth to get him to stop crying. "Last I checked, our ONE problem was space, and you seemed to make it worse by moving in your fish with his giant real estate" she said quietly yelling as she starts to walk towards the bathroom.
"I wasn't going to leave Chad out there alone tonight, and then I figured the noise of the filter and water would be calming for Zack. I read somewhere that the noise of water makes babies feel more at home or something" he said to her following her to the bathroom.
"Then you should have bought a CD with ocean sounds" she said rolling her eyes as she sits on the toilet to pee. "You don't bring in that giant fish tank to make our space issues worse" she yells as she flushes the toilet. "Now, there's a few too MANY 'fins' in our bedroom!" she says as Finn just puts his head down in defeat.
"That's it Rachel. We have to make a decision on where we're going to live then. You have all these plans, and I think the first thing we need to do is buy a condo" he says putting his foot down.
"Fine" she says shutting her eyes for a second. "You're right, I need to let you be the man and make some decisions. I have been stifling your ideas for awhile now…"
"Since we met" he said interrupting. Rachel just shoots him a look, but she can't be that angry, because she knows he's right.
"You're right" she said walking up to him putting her hand on his waist. "You really liked that condo we saw in Tribeca…I-I-I'm just scared because it's expensive to live there" she said hugging him.
"I know, but it's a perfect place to live. And we can afford it, even if you don't work for another few years. I make plenty of money, and you made us save all those years, so we'll be good for a few years anyway" he said trying to calm her down.
"Ok, let's go back and look at it again and put in a bid" she said nodding her head and smiling.
"That's my girl" he said kissing her head. "See? It wasn't too hard to let me make a decision right?" he said half smiling.
"No, I might try and get used to you making all the decisions" she said starting to walk with him to bed.
"Great, let's start now" he said smiling seductively. "Rachel! Take your shirt off" he demands pointing to her.
Rachel just ignores him and goes to bed, as she rolls over to the opposite side.
"That's fine…I was going to tell you to go to bed right after you take your shirt off. I changed my mind, I think you should just ignore me and go to bed, so...thanks for listening to me" he said throwing the sheets over his head and going to bed.
2 ½ months later…
"Finn!" Rachel yells out from their bedroom. "Have you seen my nail file?" she says looking all over her dresser as she starts to knock things over.
"Rachel" Finn says walking in their bedroom holding Zack. "You have to stop asking me if I know where any of your beauty stuff is" he says rolling his eyes.
"I know, but now we have way too much room, and I tend to lose things in this place more" she says referring to their new place.
They had bought a nice 2 bedroom condo with a loft a few weeks back, and they finally got everything unpacked earlier this week. Finn also had to adjust with his new hours the last two weeks. Rachel has been pressuring him to change to the morning news, because she can't handle his late hours. She thinks it would be easier for him to be home in the day and evenings for the kids. Of course, she's not pregnant yet, but she plans on changing that tonight. They, or really Rachel, is the one who has planned to try for another baby the night of the Tony Awards. Tonight, they are both hoping it will be a nice show and party afterwards, due to it being stressful from the move.
A few weeks ago…
"Finn!" Rachel yells from their closet. "Where are all my sweaters? Did you pack them?" she asks him puzzled where all half of her clothes are.
"They're with Chad's stuff" he said hesitantly. "I didn't think you would notice actually, since it's almost Summer" he said looking around.
"Ok, I'm going to try and understand this before I yell at you" she said throwing her arm up. "WHY are my sweaters with Chad's STUFF?" she asked him calmly.
"Well since he's been sleeping with us every night…"
"And I thank you for those last few glorious weeks" she interrupts him and then lets him continue.
"You would complain about the light…" he said.
"And the big ass fish tank in the middle of our bedroom, which also gave little space for our son and his crib" she interrupts him again, and then lets him go on.
"…but I didn't want to turn it off because I didn't want Chad to be uncomfortable. So I would always use one of your sweaters to cover up the tank remember?" Finn asked her.
"Yes, and I would yell at you, but you always did it when I was too tired to get up and move it" she said sighing. "And then you would remind me that was the only solution of covering up the light because your shirts were too big and could possibly fall in the tank and kill Chad" she said rolling her eyes.
"Right, so anyway…I think he got used to the smell of you" he said smiling. "So, I wrapped his stuff with a few of your sweaters so when we move to the new place, he's reminded of your scent" he said looking down at the carpet.
"God, I want that fish dead" she mumbles as she walks passed him.
"What?" he asked her watching her walk away.
Back to tonight…
"I know you're nervous about the Award show tonight, you have to relax" he said walking over to her and kissing her cheek, while still holding on to Zack.
"Thanks baby" she said kissing Finn and then placing a kiss on their son. "I feel like this can be my last chance to win for awhile, especially if we have another kid" she said smiling.
"Are you changing your mind?" he asked tilting his head looking down at her.
"No…no…I-I-I mean, I know we just bought this place, and I want to make sure we'll be ok" she said putting her earrings on.
"Rach..we went over this a million times. I make enough money for you to stay home for the rest of your life…"
"Ok, let's not get me more nervous than I already am Finn" she said thinking of the idea if she was to never go back to the stage.
"You're right" he said starting to laugh.
"That must be Stephanie" Finn said hearing the buzzer ring to their condo.
Finn and Rachel had no one to ask to watch Zack for the Tony Awards tonight because everyone Rachel knows works in Broadway. All of Finn's friends work at the station, so the only person they can think of was Stephanie.
"Smurf!" he yells out kissing her on the cheek as he answered the door.
"How's my favorite little man?" she said picking up Zack from Finn's arms and kissing him.
"Hi Stephanie" Rachel says as she walks to their foyer area. "Zack's bottles are in the fridge, and he only needs to be fed before bed, and that's really it. Finn already gave him a bath" she said smiling putting her coat on.
"Well that's easy" she said sitting down at their kitchen.
"I would tell you no boys, but he'll be with me on stage tonight to present an award" Rachel says trying to make Stephanie jealous.
"Very funny" she said smiling at Rachel. Stephanie never saw Nick again since the night they made out on their couch, but Finn and Rachel still like to make fun of her for that.
"Honestly though, thank you very much for babysitting tonight. I hope you brought extra clothes in case you want to spend the night because we might be home late" she said grabbing their keys.
"Oh no that's ok, I'm used to staying up late. I work at a bar, remember? In fact, if it's not too late, I may have to go back there. We have been short bartenders" she said sighing. "Have fun guys, nothing to worry about here" she said pushing them out the door.
"Don't feed Chad, because I already took care of it, and don't…"
Stephanie slams the door before Finn can finish his sentence. She is familiar with how insane and protective Finn is over Chad.
Later that night…
Rachel and Finn walk through the door of their condo quietly not to wake anyone up. It's 2:00am, and they spot Stephanie sleeping on the couch.
"Should we wake her?" Finn asked Rachel.
"Well we can't leave her to sleep on the couch all night. We can tell her to go to the extra bedroom in the loft" she said.
Rachel went over to the couch to wake up Stephanie. "Sorry you lost Rachel" Stephanie said as Rachel moves her hand on her shoulder.
"Thanks, I guess it wasn't meant to be. Clearly they voted for age instead of talent. A much older actress won over me, and I'm sure it's because they know she's gonna die soon", Rachel sighs in bitterness.
"Yeah, I know how that goes, but I usually lose to younger chicks" Stephanie says as she laughs. "Well, good night guys" she says waiving to both of them. "I better go check on the bar before I go home anyway" she says as she throws her shoes on.
"Thanks again Steph" Finn says as he walks her out the door and closes it.
Finn takes a deep sigh and walks over to Rachel and gives her a soft, but long hug.
"What's this for?" she asked him as he broke his embrace to look at her.
"I just love you" he said smiling down at her. "Want to go and make that baby now?" he asked her.
"Sure" she said smiling, as she watches him turn around to turn off the lights in the kitchen and say good night to Chad.
What Rachel DIDN'T plan was to lose her Tony for the 3rd time in a row. What she HAD planned was to spend her next pregnancy polishing her Tony award and telling her kids the great story of how she won in an epic breakthrough musical that she was a part of. And she figured her Tony would also give her leverage to gain another part in a year or so after she has another kid. Now she's worried to take a break, because she has nothing to show for it.
I can't get pregnant now, she starts to think as she heads towards their bedroom. Finn catches up to her and starts to kiss the back of her neck and tries to unzip her dress before they even got to their bed.
"Finn" she said squirming away. "Wait" she said very serious. Suddenly she spots a look of confusion on his face, and she's starting to think he's catching on that she's now hesitating. "Umm…uhh, I have to wash my face first, give me one second ok?" she fakes a smile and kisses him passionately on the mouth.
"Ok, I'll go check on Zack and meet you back here" he said raising his eyebrows and slapping her butt.
Rachel goes into the bathroom and pulls out her birth control. She already talked to her doctor about how fast she can get pregnant, and her doctor said depending on when she ovulates, it can be as little as a day when she stops taking the pill. She took a deep breath and stared at her birth control pills. I feel like I'm lying and cheating on Finn if I don't tell him I'm not ready, she thinks to herself. Especially after we bought this bigger place, she starts to feel bad as she takes the pill in her mouth and swallows it with a glass of water.
"Ok, just let this go tonight, and then find time to talk with him this week that I want to go back to work right away" she said quietly to herself in the mirror.
She walks out of their bathroom and sees Finn lying there with a karma sutra book, handcuffs, and a bottle of wine.
"Oh baby, I don't want any more wine tonight" she said shaking her head walking towards their bed.
"Wow, funny…I figured you would say something about the book or the handcuffs" he said laughing.
"Please, I had you pleading for mercy in those handcuffs a few weeks ago" she said poking his side.
"Ow!" he said as he jumps on top of her and pins her down.
"Finn!" she said laughing. "You're the only guy I know who LITERALLY wants to wrestle in bed" she says rolling her eyes.
"I like it rough" he says kissing her neck and down towards her chest, moving her tank top up, almost ripping it.
"Let's have fun making this baby" he said continuing to kiss down to her waist band of her pajama pants and pulling them down.
"Something else needs to be down there if you want a baby" she said pulling his head up. God Rachel, you are a fucking fantastic actress, how come you didn't win this Tony? She asks herself as she's sadly proud of how she is lying to Finn about her wanting a baby right now.
They continue to make love into the small hours of the morning. Rachel had never felt so satisfied before, and she can't understand why. She kept wondering if they would have made a baby if she had not taken the birth control, and that's why she's going to have to tell him. She won't be able to live with this guilt.
A few weeks go by…
"Rachel!" Finn says as he walks through the door of their condo. He just got home from work, and he has some news for her.
"Hi darling" she said as she's folding their laundry on the couch.
"I have some bad news, and I'm just going to come out and say it" he said to he threw his shoes off and walked towards her.
"What?' she asked him not having a clue what it could be.
"I lost my job today" he said throwing his body down on the couch and messing up the clothes.
"What?" Rachel said almost numb to the news like it's not happening.
"We dropped down to number 3 in the market, and they got rid of the newest guy there" he said putting his hand on his forehead.
"But you're NOT the newest guy there Finn!" she said trying to rationalize this.
"But I am….I am the newest MORNING guy, and that's the ratings that dropped. They don't need me to do sports, and can't afford me with the salary that I was making" he said.
"So if you would have stayed on nights, then you would have never lost your job?" she asked him afraid of the answer.
Finn just nods his head, but starts to think of their new, expensive condo, their baby, and their possible new baby on the way.
"But it's ok Rachel…I pushed us buying this condo" he said standing up to comfort her and she began to cry. "I'll find a way to afford all of this, maybe they'll give me a job in the editing room" he said trying to think of anything he can do for now.
"But it's my fault because I made you transfer to the mornings so you can stay home and take care of our children" she said. The children that I insisted on having, then changing my mind, but then not telling you I changed my mind, then staying on birth control without telling you, and now knowing all this, you didn't need to change to mornings in the first place because you didn't need to stay home for the child that we weren't going to have right now, she thinks all this to herself while holding on to Finn tight.
"Oh, and don't worry Rachel, if you're pregnant…"
"No!" she interrupts. "I-I-I… got my period today, so I'm not. Which means, we should back off on trying for another" she said closing her eyes.
"Oh Rachel, I'm sorry, I feel like this is all my fault. I know you wanted me to switch to mornings, but I didn't have to insist on buying such an expensive place in an expensive neighborhood. You were the one who wanted to rent…and now I can't give you another child" he said starting to cry.
Rachel just hugs him and holds on to him tight. I feel like the biggest asshole right now, she thinks to herself. I can't let him feel guilty about this if I don't really want another kid right now anyway.
"It's ok Finn…we'll both start looking for work first thing tomorrow" she said.
"Ok, but we have enough to live off of for at least 6 months. I want to be the one to look for work first, so you can stay home and raise our kid. This way, if I find something, then we can start trying again real soon. I promise Rachel, I will fix this" he said.
END OF CHAPTER 2