Can something so broken be healed?

by xoxShiningStarxox

Zanthea Storm, never knew that she could be loved till after a suicide attempt. Rosaile a lost and alone vampire finds her, and realises that Zanthea is the one. How will they react? Will Zanthea's past stop them from getting close (I suck at summaries close enough) come read (Rated M due to suicide, rape, self-harm are all involved)

2. Chapter 1

Dearest Diary,

Today is the day I was adopted by Mr and Mrs Whensworth, They don't seem very nice though they yelled when I dropped my dolly in the dirt and when I tripped over on their slippery polished floor I got hit really hard which made me cry which caused them to yell at me more.

But I guess they are not use to having a 8 year old child around them, the orphanage lady said Mrs Whensworth couldn't have children because of issues in her tummy. That made me feel sad for her but now they have me and soon enough they will love me lots.

Well Ms Whensworth is calling me to dinner buh-bye Diary.

Love Zanthea Kyleen Storm

I chuckled lightly reading over what I wrote 9 years ago, I was a naïve child back then but now I am 17 years old, the oldest of three adopted children. Thomes is 8 and Lyla is 4 and all I ever pray is that Mr Whensworth will never take their innocence away, I pray he doesn't teach Thomes that abusing women is okay, I hope he never lays a hand on small Lyla.

I only worry because he laid his hands on me for 9 long and scary years which has caused me to suffer with many mental problems from depression, anxiety, bipolar ect I also have attempted suicide on two occasions but I was too young to know how to successfully take my life which is why I am still here today but I won't be for much longer or well I hope.

Dear Diary,

Today my secrets come out and maybe just maybe someone will protect Lyla and Thomes from Benji and Katrina Whensworth, both adults abused me physically, mentally and sexually for 9 years since I was 8 years old, I am now 17 and done with this suffering so I will do three things to try and hopefully come to the true peace of death.

Step one: Leave with the note into the woods
Step two: Take many pills and self-harm(cutting)
Step three: Lay in the middle of the clearing and never be found

So my dearest friend this shall be goodbye

Love Zanthea Kyleen Storm

"Don't back out now Zanth." the voices whispered reassuringly in my mind as I climbed down the tree just outside my window finally feeling the tears fall down my face onto the already wet ground from the rain. As I began to look up I noticed Lyla at her window with tears streaming down her face, I should of made sure she was asleep but I did all I could do and wave whispering "Goodbye little one."

The walk to where I wanted to die was about 22 miles from my home and on foot took me over 6 hours to finally arrive, I was exhausted but I had to complete what I came here to do. I placed my bag on a fallen tree and took four different types of pills and took about 20 or so of each, after taking over 80 pills I was feeling woozy and struggled to keep my focus as I searched for my razor, after finally finding it I cut vertically on my arm along the veins which hurt a lot more than anyone could understand.

I began struggling to see straight let alone walk which caused me to collapse onto the wet soggy and muddy ground of the meadow like clearing as I went unconscious with my last thought because a beautiful voice that screamed "NO" as if she may have truly cared.