Chapter 2
"Oh Shit"

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Tamaki sat out back watching Sophia, Kane, and Lilly play. It was nice just sitting here to watch them. Summer was fading fast and just basking in it to enjoy the sight, sound and smell was enjoyable. While he enjoyed the snow in the winter he hated being inside when he couldn't take the cold anymore. He wanted to enjoy it all while he could. At least he stopped worrying about René as much, they e-mailed each other often and where he was staying was safe. It was hard to believe though that his little boy was in college. When he started dating he nearly cried over it. Time seemed to be going by so quickly. Plus, the older he got the more he pushed René to try not to make the same mistakes he did at that age. While he would stand by him if something came up he didn't want him to face the same hardships. Just watching him with his girlfriends he knew René was careful, but maybe to careful. He wanted René to live a little and enjoy life just not to get carried away the way he did with Kyouya back then. A few times he saw René with whoever he would be dating and he was careful to make sure things never got too involved. He wasn't even sure he had his first kiss yet. He should allow himself to enjoy these years. He would have to talk to him about loosening up the next time he called.

Kyouya came out of the house to sit next to Tamaki. It was nice to see him back to normal now that he stopped worrying so much. For the first two weeks all he did was worry that he wasn't eating or was going to get hurt if he went to other side of the city. During that time he partially hoped that René would decide that he hated school and came home. Since Tamaki had calmed down he was happy to hear that so far he loved school. He was really over doing it since he was in the medical field and a minor in business. He told René that he should focus on just the medical half since he personally was finally back in a hospital and wasn't leaving, but, René being his child was going to do both and be on top for both so he could stand on top of his cousins.

René woke up to his alarm to hear Michael groaning across the room.
"René turn it off."
This was how it was every morning that he needed the alarm. It would never be on long just for a few seconds while he reached over to turn it off. Thankfully he wasn't like his dad who wasn't a morning person. If he was then school would be extremely difficult. Today was Wednesday so that meant he had classes from eight to eight. Michael also wanted to go drinking tonight with the guys. They were trying to get him to join them and play baseball still. The more they talked to him the more he wanted to. If he scheduled right he could balance the three and if his grades slipped the then he could quit to focus more. His parents would be happy to hear that he was playing; they were surprised to find out that he didn't plan on it before. Being in France was fun and he enjoyed the freedom but knowing so much was at stake he couldn't be as free as his friends. It also wasn't helping that he had this feeling he couldn't shake and was too scared to explore it further. He needed to talk to his father, he could probably help him. Even his dad could if he asked. He loved his dad and was close to both his parents but he was closer to his father, both is parents felt it as well. From living with only his father for the first nine years of his life he grew closer to him. His dad he respected, looked up to and admired but his younger siblings would probably be more attached to Kyouya then he ever would be. At certain points in his life it seemed or felt as if Kyouya was the step father and he was his step son. Once when he was young, about a year after Sophia was born he asked Kyouya about it. He didn't get mad over hearing him say it in fact he completely understood and told him not to worry about it. If he didn't feel comfortable going to him for certain advice he didn't have to. His parents were the best for understanding; other parents would have probably gotten upset knowing their son didn't feel like their child at times. Starting to miss them he stopped thinking about them and finished getting ready for the day. Maybe he would call them before he went out tonight. So far he never called them drunk, not that he usually was. Once, the first time he went out with the guys he had more then he could handle, he wasn't sure of his limit and woke up with a nasty hangover but that was it, he refused to get that bad ever again.

Tamaki laid in bed catching his breath.
"Wow."
"My thoughts exactly."
"I like not giving in to you all the time. When this always the outcome." Kyouya rolled over to pull Tamaki into his chest so they could fall asleep. That was a great way to end the night. Kyouya rolled to face the other side of the bed grumbling over some loud noise going off on Tamaki's side of the bed. It was too early for that to be his alarm and if it was then did he sleep through his. Tamaki sat up at the sound of the phone. Who could be calling at this hour? René that's who, he would be the only one to not realize the time here.
"Hello?" Sitting up he heard René's voice but something sounded wrong. "Kyouya, Kyouya get up. Slow down René I can't understand you speaking so fast." Elbowing Kyouya's back he tried to get him up.
"Tamaki what? Why are you waking me up? Do you have any idea what time it is?"
"It's René; he sounds worried I think something is going on." Hearing it was René he sat up and moved closer to listen.
"Now René calm down and tell me what's going on."
"I'm sorry; I'm so sorry father for disgracing you and dad. I messed up father, I messed up big time and now I don't know what to do." Both looked at each other confused, what could he have possibly done?
"What did you do that is so bad René?"
"I woke up with someone in bed with me. I slept with someone last night."
"That's not so bad, are you two dating?"
"NO! We're not! I never even met her before!"
"Then how did you two end up together?" Kyouya just rolled his eyes at how blind Tamaki was.
"I, I became drunk last night with Michael and a bunch of his friends. I didn't plan to, I never get carried away. Father what am I going to do now?"
"Well where are you and where is she?"
"I sort of locked myself in the bathroom and when I got up she was still asleep. Father I can't remember much of last night."
"Just relax René your worrying about nothing. I am going to put your dad on I'm sure what you want to hear he will most likely be able to tell you better." Knowing what René was getting at Kyouya motioned for Tamaki to pass the phone over.
"René? I know you are worrying but relax. You told your father that you don't remember much but do you remember if you used protection?"
"No I don't and there isn't a way I will know is there?"
"Well, only if you can find evidence of it but something tells me you didn't. If you were as wasted as you say then that probably wasn't on your mind."
"Dad what am I going to do? What if she gets pregnant because of me? Or something else happens?"
"Just relax; there are a few things you have to do right now. But you need to leave the bathroom and talk to the girl okay?"
"Okay."

Kyouya handed Tamaki the phone while leaning his back on the back board.
"He is your son you know that right? He worries about things as much as you do."
"Oh ha-ha but does he feel a little better at least?"
"He won't feel better for a while Tamaki. Our son had sex for the very first time, to a girl he doesn't know and to top it off he was drunk. René is upset with himself, we both know how hard he is on himself and how he normally wouldn't allow himself to do that."
"I hope everything turns out okay so he can forget about it. I never would have guessed Michael was a party person."
"Maybe we should go see him soon. I bet your dying to now."
"Could we?"
"Sure, pick a week and we'll see if it's good for René if it is then we'll go."
"You're the best Kyouya I hope you know that." Kissing Kyouya's lips he lifted the covers over them.

René sat in class trying to focus. Talking to his parents this morning was the best thing he could have done. He followed his dad's advice exactly and the girl he was with was willing to work with him as well. He learned from Michael that her name was Amber and she went up to him last night to dance. He didn't know how he allowed himself to become wasted still but knowing a little more about last night helped. At their break for lunch Michael ran up to him so they could hang out. When he woke up he could tell René was a mess over last night's events, he was surprised he was talking to him since the idea to go out was his.
"Hear anything yet bro?"
"No not yet but I won't hear anything until tomorrow at the earliest."
"Sorry that everything got screwed up last night."
"It's not your fault. I just can't believe I let myself give in. Kind of sucks though, I go all the way and I didn't even enjoy it." Hitting his head on the table he grumbled. "I sound like a girl."
"No, you sound like a guy who has been dying to get laid, finally did and it wasn't even good."
"I don't remember if it was or not."
"Then just say it was alright. That way you and Amber aren't embarrassed."
"I wish I could just forget about it."
"Maybe if you let go every once in a while this wouldn't have happened."
"It's because I let go it happened."
"Don't get mad at me, I'm just saying but you getting upset over the fact that you had sex isn't going to help your mood."
"You're right. Let's hit the cage later."
"Sounds good bro."

Hearing that his family was picking a week to come visit him put him in a better mood. A part of him was worried though, would they be disappointed in him for going against their wishes. At least everything was okay she wasn't pregnant, he was clean, she was becoming a good friend. Life seemed to be returning to normal. School was going well, he just passed a major test with higher marks then he thought he would get and in two days he would see his family. It was just in time for his dad's birthday; it would be great to spend the day with him. He knew Sophia was excited; it was obvious that she missed him. When they were growing up he was there for her no matter what making them grow close. Closer then he was with Lilly and Kane but there was a thirteen year difference between them, though thinking about it there was an eleven year difference between him and Sophia.

"What do you mean you're not speaking to dad?"
"He is an ass."
"Umm okay, are you guys still coming?"
"Of course we are I'm mad at him not you."
"Can I talk to dad at least?"
"Sure, Sophia go get your dad for me."
"Really father?"
"I'm kidding, Kyouya! René wants to talk to you!"
"Wow."
With the final plans made René couldn't wait for his parents to get here. He still needed to talk to his father about something. He wanted to forget the thought though that was hard since Amber was hoping they could date. They had but something didn't seem right, it was as if they were only dating because of their night together.

Standing at the terminal René waited for his family to show up. He hit traffic but somehow managed to still get here before they did.
"René!" He didn't see her but he heard her first. Sophia came running around the other passengers. "René! I missed you."
"I messed you too." Picking her up with an arm he met the rest of her family halfway. Tamaki tried to hug René only to have it fall apart with Sophia there.
"So father still not talking to dad?"
"Yep."
"What happened anyway?"
"I told you before I was sorry Tamaki, how was I supposed to know?"
"Come on René let's get our bags to the house so we can get lunch." Blowing Kyouya off completely he led René, Kane, and Lilly to their luggage. Sophia was still clinging to René making her easy to find at least. Both knew Tamaki wasn't really pissed off since anything directed at Kyouya was still light so this would probably pass soon.

After getting their bags to their summer home they picked a place for lunch. It was nice to be close to his family again, he had really missed them. It was a little strange to see his father acting grumpy whenever his dad was near.
"Father I haven't seen you act this way towards dad in years. If I recall it was when you found out about Kane and Lilly." René stopped his thought as a new one took over. "Is that it father? Are you going to have another baby?"
Tamaki fixed himself in his seat. "He is your son Kyouya you know that right? But yes René I am. Apparently your dad doesn't understand the words 'I'm done.'"
"I heard you and I followed your decision. How was I supposed to know that the con."
"Stop right there. Please. Both of you. I don't want to hear the rest of that." Realizing that they were getting a little too personal they changed the conversation to something lighter.

René walked out of Sophia's room for the night. Knowing his parents were staying at their summer home while they were here he decided to stay too. It seemed stupid to stay at his dorm each night when he had a bed here. This worked now since he could talk to his father face to face and ask him what he wanted to for weeks. Not seeing him in the usual places he checked out back. He was right he was out on the deck; he did the same thing at home as well. Tamaki turned to see him as he heard the door open.
"Hey René. Everything okay?"
"Yea fine. Father, can I talk to you?"
"Sure what's up?"
"How do you know when you're in love?"
"What?" René sat next to him to wait for his answer. He was slightly lost by his question. How did you explain love in an exact way to someone? "You feel it throughout your entire being. That person is always on your mind, your heart beats faster, you can smile around them, laugh more. It's hard to explain how you know but you just do."
"Did you date anyone before you met dad? Is that how you knew you loved him?"
Again he stopped; this question was hard to answer as well. Where was René thinking of these?
"Technically no, I never dated anyone before him. I knew I loved him when I knew I could trust him and I knew him well. We spent a lot of time together and from that, love grew."
"Did you ever feel closer to someone other than dad?"
"Um, yes actually I did, in high school. Before I had you I was close to one girl, you remember Haruhi, her. I may have gone out with her if I hadn't fallen for your dad."
"Did you feel something other than friendship for her?"
"I'm not sure, I considered her to be like family but I'm not sure if that would have changed. René I don't mind the questions but what is really bothering you?"
"It's Amber, ever since I slept with her we've been hanging out more but I don't feel anything special with her."
"And you may never. René I can't tell you much about love but I do know it can't be forced."
"Okay father, thanks. I just have one more question. How did you and dad tell your families that you were in love?"
"Well, hmm, I can't answer that, not the way you want. Remember I left before we told them that we were together. Your dad might be able to tell you. He had been in the kitchen when I came out here if you want to look for him."
"Okay, thanks again father." Getting up he walked back inside. That didn't really help but he also didn't really ask what he wanted.

Tamaki watched René get up and walk inside. That was a strange conversation, he never saw René so nervous to ask him something before. What could he have been getting at? Looking out at their yard his head snapped back towards the door. Had René been trying to tell him that he thought he could be gay? Not that it would change his thoughts on his son but that would explain the odd questions. How they had been worded was a good sign, by asking and saying it in directly he was trying to get it out. But why was he scared to just say it, they wouldn't care. He would have to talk to Kyouya later to find his thoughts on how they should talk to him about it.

René walked down the hall looking for his dad. Since his father couldn't answer his question his dad probably could. Still he figured he couldn't say what he wanted. He still wasn't sure if he was or not so then what would he say; father, dad, I think I might be gay but I don't know yet I'll have to tell you at another time. Walking to the kitchen he saw Kyouya getting ready to leave it.
"Dad, can we talk or is now a bad time?" Kyouya saw René walk in the room, he seemed nervous.
"Now is fine son let's sit. What seems to be on your mind?" René sat across from Kyouya hoping this went better then talking to his father.
"Dad, I was talking to father but he couldn't answer something for me so he told me to talk to you."
"Okay and what was the question?" Carefully he tried to analyze René, he couldn't figure out why he got a feeling this wasn't going to be a simple question.
"How did you tell grandfather that you were in love with father?"
*Huh?* Well he was half right, the question was simple but having no idea where it came from made it hard.
"Can you give me a little more detail?"
"Umm, when you were younger how did you tell your family that you were in love and that person was dad?"
He couldn't look at Kyouya knowing he knew exactly what he was getting at. This was one of the reasons he wanted to talk to father first, he wouldn't get it right away.
"Technically I never told my family until I introduced you to my father. Your grandfather on your father's side knew of our relationship the day he left if not a few days prior. I'm sorry I can't give you a better answer then that. Our families would never have approved of our relationship back then. Knowing that we had made a plan to save up in case we were thrown out when we decided to tell them. Sadly we will never know if we would have been okay or not since your father left before we could." He could tell René was even more unsure now then he was before. It couldn't be easy for him to sit here to ask how he could tell them he was gay.
"René is something on your mind?"
"What? No not really dad I was just trying to figure something out. It was a conversation I had with Michael the other day."

René crashed on the bed in his room to stare at the ceiling. He wasn't any further ahead than before but now he knew he could be in serious trouble if he was and his grandfather found out.
"Shit. Now what?"

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Sorry for the delay in updating. I am learning that it is hard for me to write in my dorm since I can't move around as much. Hope you enjoyed this chapter, please review.
~Femalefighter~