On with the show - right? Rated M for a reason, you have been warned before. But I will warn you again.

Again, I am not Stephenie Meyer. I just like to see her characters as sexual beings, none of that 'fade to black' shit here. I also don't own "Burn it to the Ground" by Nickelback.

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Jacob's POV –Letting Her Walk Away

So I stood there like a damn fool and watched her walk away from me. The pain in my chest flared to life as I watched her run. That was something I'd promised myself I would never do again. I would never let the girl I loved walk away from me…

Sure, the situation was completely fucked up being that I'd once been in love with my current love's mother… but such is life, right? At least, that's how it was in my life…

I couldn't let it happen again; I just couldn't let her go. Not over this… not unless she chose to let me go. So I did the only thing I could do - I took off after her.

I let my legs carry me as fast as they could until I could smell her faintly on the breeze. She was close by, close enough that I could feel her… my body began to relax a bit knowing I would get to her and she would be next to me again.

"Ness, please," I hollered. "I'm sorry!"

She didn't answer me, though I knew she was close enough to hear me. Physically, I could feel her so I knew she was close. My eyes searched for her as I inhaled deeply, my body relaxed a bit more as I inhaled her sweet scent into my lungs…

"Renesmee, I know you're around - I can feel you," I inhaled once again through my nose. "And I can smell you."

"Go away, Jacob," she sobbed. "I don't want to see you."

I was an asshole, and I felt completely selfish for not just telling her the truth. What could it hurt? I mean, other than her father getting pissed off. But he had to get over himself and see what was best for his daughter… and that was me.

"In your face, Eddie," I scoffed. "This time, I get the girl…" (Not bitter, though… Not one bit…)

"I know you're pissed at me, you have every right to be," I spoke loudly. "I'm a jerk, I know. But I am sorry, honey."

"You hurt me, Jake… I am supposed to be your best friend, and you're keeping something from me. Something important enough to distract you constantly and you get upset and push me away over it."

I sighed heavily and rubbed my hands roughly over my face. Yeah, this wasn't how I'd pictured telling Nessie about any of this, but it was now or never. She was truly upset, and I couldn't let her go, no matter how confused I was about the imprint and why it was the daughter of the girl I'd once loved.

Nessie was whom I wanted now, and it didn't matter to me that I had to spend the rest of my life around leeches to be with her, because she was worth it. I would make sure she knew that I loved her more than I had ever loved Bella… and that was the God's honest truth.

"Nessie… please come out and talk to me. I'm truly sorry for being an asshole, and I couldn't go on if you don't forgive me."

"Stop being so melodramatic, you'd be just fine if you didn't have me," she retorted, still not allowing me to see her. "You don't need me."

"That's what you think, and if this is how I have to do this, then fine… I love you, I truly, honest to God, love you. I want to marry you, and have a family with you… I'll even live in the leech house just to prove to you how much you truly mean to me if that's what it takes," I admitted. "That's how much I love you, I would give up everything. I would leave the reservation and live with your family, even though they smell bad. I would do all of that for you, because I do need you."

I had confessed everything, and now she knew… no one would ever love her as much as I do.

No answer.

"Nessie?"

Still no answer. Was she taking it all in? Was she going to run again and leave me alone to fend off her pissed off parents for breaking my promise to them about not telling her about the imprint? Fuck…

"Renesmee Carlie Cullen, answer me!" I hollered.

"Jacob," she whispered. "You - this is the secret you've been keeping from me?"

I nodded, not knowing if she could see me or not.

"How could you keep something like this from me? What am I supposed to say to all of this?" she asked quietly.

"You have a choice, Nessie… you don't have to be with me. No one expects you to just run into my arms and tell me that it's all you've ever dreamed of or anything," I sighed. "Though, you know, it wouldn't hurt."

She was quiet again and it was starting to irk me that she wouldn't come out into the open and just talk face to face. I had just laid it all out for her, and at any moment she could be gone from my life forever if she so chose. The least she could do is do it to my face.

"Ness, please come out."

She didn't answer again, and I was actually starting to get pissed off. I had never been angry with Nessie, not ever… but I guess there's a first time for everything. This day was just turning to complete shit and to top it all off, I now had to tell Nessie about the imprint. Just fucking perfect…

She jumped down from a tree in front of me, landing gracefully on the balls of her feet. She was looking straight at me, looking like a predator stalking her prey and I felt the palms of my hands start to sweat.

It was probably one of the hottest things I'd ever seen in my life to be honest, and I wasn't quite sure what she was doing. Did she think that she could stalk me, like really, and truly stalk me like some sort of animal?

"Jacob," she growled. "Tell me exactly what's going on…"

I swallowed thickly and stared at her openly. She was beautiful and wild looking, I'd never seen this side of her before.

"Everything?" I questioned.

"Yes," she nodded. "Everything."

I made a sort of noise in the back of my throat; I guess it was my way of acquiescing.

"I know that you might not understand it all right now; but the day you were born - something happened to me."

"What happened to you?" she gulped and stared at me intensely, not coming any closer.

"Well, it's a wolf thing; you know," I cleared my throat loudly before I continued. "The moment I saw you; my life changed forever. Nothing in my life would ever be the same again, not like I'd known before…"

"In a good way?"

"Depends on how you look at it, I suppose. I'm not going to lie to you, Ness… I didn't know this was going to happen. The day I saw you, I never imagined…" I laughed sarcastically. Of course, nothing in my life had ever come easily, so why would love be any different than anything else? "You see, when I saw you… I imprinted with you."

"Imprinted? I don't think I understand."

"Well, when a wolf sees the person that they're supposed to be with, it clicks in their mind. Picture strings on balloons, it's like everything in my life is a balloon and every string was tied, right?" She nodded at me, a puzzled look on her face. "Well, now… you're the only string there, holding it all together. I can't live without those strings, otherwise I'd just float away… you're all I have holding me to this world." I glanced at her again, hoping that she would understand, though I was pretty sure that she didn't get it.

"So… I'm a string tying you down?" she questioned.

"Not tying me down, Ness… I didn't mean it that way. Man," I rubbed my face again. "I love you, don't you understand? I can't live without you. I want you…"

She nodded gently as she bit on her lips roughly.

"Like you want me, want me?"

She was getting it.

"Yes, exactly."

"You mean, like mom and dad?" Her eyes bore into mine and I was starting to get more nervous. I walked toward her and reached my hand up.

"Yes, Nessie, just like that," I moved my hand against her face; feeling her skin under my hand was almost too much to take at this moment and the urge to kiss her… I wanted to feel her lips against mine so badly, to see what she tasted like. "Exactly like that."

"Why didn't you tell me before?"

"I'm… I wanted you to have a choice in all of it. I didn't want you to think that you had to be with me," I whispered.

"Mom and dad didn't want you to tell me, either, right? Because to them I'm still a little girl… and I couldn't possibly understand."

"They wanted you to have a chance at a normal life, they didn't… I want you to know that this doesn't have to change anything. I don't want you to think that it has to be different," I grabbed her hand in mine and she lifted her eyes to mine once again. Tears were swimming in their depths and I couldn't help but feel bad since she was shedding them because of me. She had to know I would be whatever she needed me to be for her and I didn't want to push her away. "We can just be Jacob and Nessie, nothing has to change."

I pulled her against me into a tight hug and sat down unceremoniously on the ground and adjusted her so she was wrapped around me in any way and every way possible, while still being appropriate.

"I'm so sorry, Nessie… I just wanted you to have a chance to choose. You have no idea how hard this has been, for me not to tell you. I love you…"

"I love you, too," she whispered hoarsely. "I'm so confused, not about the imprinting or anything. But why couldn't you just tell me?"

"I wanted to," I sighed heavily. "I just didn't know how. And your dad…"

"Yeah." She agreed.

"Are we okay?"

"Jake… I want to know one more thing before I answer that."

I nodded gently and I knew she felt it.

"What if… what if I want more?"

"More what, honey?" I asked softly.

"What if I want you, you know… like that."

I closed my eyes and held her tightly against me. This was what I wanted, right? So why did it feel strange to hear her say it?

I pulled back to look at her face.

"Nessie, just give it some thought before you decide anything. I'm always going to be right here…" I whispered and kissed her cheek. I lingered a bit longer than I should have, but I couldn't help it. Her skin was so soft and she was flushed from crying and I could taste the saltiness of her tears.

She climbed off my lap and sprawled herself out on the grass. I smiled gently and lay down next to her and gently folded my arms under my head. I opened my eyes and stared up at the clouds that passed overhead.

Would I always feel this nervousness around her now? I truly hoped that that wouldn't be the case. I started drifting off… remembering when things had started to change. I could see it as if it were happening again right now. I was at the Cullen's, of course; and it was Nessie's 18th birthday. The day she would become a woman…

"Thanks Uncle Emmett, I love it." She smiled brightly as she held the necklace up to her neck. The pendant was the Cullen crest, but it was small and dainty… just like my Nessie.

"No, not yours…" I reminded myself.

Now the whole family had one of those damned things. Even Bella wore one; hers was a bit more extravagant and bold, sort of like Blondie's monstrosity that she wore around her neck.

Bella had changed, in more ways than just the obvious; Alice had a lot to do with that though. She wasn't usually caught wearing jeans and a t-shirt anymore… Alice wouldn't hear of it.

My mind was constantly fighting with me about Nessie's and my relationship now, about when she would be mine. I had asked Edward about when I could tell Nessie about everything, he refused to even acknowledge that I spoke to him. He was angry with me, that much I knew, but it wasn't like he had any right to be upset… I hadn't done anything.

I looked up at her again and she stared into my eyes. My stomach twisted suddenly and I had to keep from choking on the punch I was drinking. Her eyes had something in them… something I'd never seen before. I was fighting with myself; the urge to touch her was almost uncontrollable.

Edward cleared his throat loudly and I knew he'd heard my thoughts.

"I wish you wouldn't do that. I'm sorry, okay?" I told him.

He nodded gently and looked back at Nessie. He was ever the proud father. He had raised a beautiful and intelligent daughter. She was everything I wanted and more… she was amazing.

"Here Ness, open this one next," Rosalie smiled at her.

"Ugh, the demon blonde."

Edward snickered and I shot him a glare. I really wish he had a shut off switch sometimes. My eyes refocused on Renesmee, she peeled the paper away and sighed.

"Aunt Rose, this is amazing. Thank you!" She smiled and I could see a book in her hands. Her 'baby' book that we had all made. The past 8 years of pictures and stories of her childhood. I longed so badly at that time that I had the nerve to tell her about the imprinting. Edward didn't want me to tell her yet. She was meant to be mine and he knew that. He got what he wanted; now it was my turn.

"Anything for you." The psycho was saying.

I rolled my eyes. I had learned to get along with Rosalie; that didn't mean I liked her. I tolerated her… for Nessie.

"Mine next," I smiled as I pulled a box out of my back pocket. "It's not much, but…"

"I'm sure I'll love it," she smiled back at me and took the box into her hands carefully. She acted like it was going to break. She was so cute. "I know I will." She said as she opened the box and pulled the bracelet out, holding it up into the light and staring at it.

I had made her a bracelet when she was a baby, but it was too small now. So - I had made her a new one. Different this time, but it still had the same meaning. It was her 'promise' bracelet, in her favorite colors. She ran a finger along the tiny wolf pendant that hung there and a tear slipped out of her eye.

"It's… beautiful," she sighed and grasped the bracelet into both of her hands and held them against her chest. "Thank you, Jacob."

"It's nothing Ness, I just wanted you to know that I love you."

"So much… much more than you know."

"I love you too, Jacob, thank you," she exclaimed as she ran to me and flung her arms around my neck. No one else had gotten a reaction like this, and they had spent a lot of money on their gifts. "It's perfect."

I smirked into her hair and inhaled deeply. Maybe I wouldn't need to tell her anything… maybe she would just come to me on her own.

My knees started getting weak as I inhaled again. That had never happened before. I shook it off and kissed the top of her head gently. She smelled so damn good. She moved her face next to mine and stopped next to my ear.

"It's my favorite," She whispered into my ear. "Just like you."

Was the room spinning before? Holy fuck… I wasn't sure I remembered anything before she had wrapped her arms around me. Damn, this feels so good… so right.

"Okay, Ness, there's more," Edward said suddenly. "Come open another one."

Leave it to Edward to ruin the moment… But then again, I was starting to sport some serious wood… Oh good, another reason for Edward to be an overbearing ass. I had to get myself under control. This wasn't supposed to happen. I felt like a complete idiot. What if someone saw? I rolled my eyes and pulled away from Nessie gently.

"Happy Birthday, kiddo." I smiled at her once more. I knew that she wasn't a kid anymore; my body was noticing it more and more. I couldn't think about her like this… not right now. She smiled back and walked over to Edward. He handed her another gift and she obediently opened it.

I sat there silently as I watched her finish up. She was truly beautiful… had I never noticed that until now? Had she really changed all that much in the past day? I didn't think so… but she seemed so different. So grown up… and so - I wasn't sure I had a word for it.

"Mine!"

Yeah, that summed it up. And it also got another glare from her father. Jesus, I really need to start coming up with ways to keep him out of my head.

"We're going 'til the world stops turning while we burn it to the ground tonight!"

He shook his head at me… well there; just sing and he won't be such a pain in the ass. I grinned widely and continued to sing in my head.

That was the first night I'd ever had sexual fantasies that included Nessie…

I shook my head as I pulled back from the memories. Nessie was still against my side; I could feel her body arched against mine. It set all my nerves on fire and I could feel her breath fanning across my neck as she breathed out.

"Nessie… is this going to change us?"

She lay there quietly for a moment, her breath still fanning across my skin. I chanced a glance at her and her eyes met mine.

"Yeah, Jacob," she whispered. "I think it is."