I'm not even halfway through the sliding glass doors that lead to the Control Room when Christina opens her mouth.

"Did you cry?" She asks, her back toward me.

"What?" I ask.

She spins her chair around so her back is to the monitor she was working on and faces me," When you got lost in Erudite, did you cry?"

"I wasn't lost… at least not for long…" I mumble as I fall onto the chair in front of the monitor that I know Tobias normally works on," A nice Erudite boy helped me."

"Yeah, right after she kicked his ass," Zeke chimes in as he walks through the double doors.

"Come on, Zeke. Tris would never do that," Christina insists," She probably just broke his glasses and threatened to rip up his notebook."

The two of them erupt into a fit of laughter and I just mindlessly spin in Tobias' chair.

Christina clears her throat once she's calmed down," We are clearly avoiding the important question here. The Erudite boy… was he cute?"

I scrunch my face and give her a look, to which she just holds up both hands in surrender.

"What are we talking about?" Tobias asks as he enters through the glass doors, holding a rather large box labeled Spare Cameras.

"Tris talking to nice Erudite boys," Christina responds simply.

Tobias raises his eyebrows at me but I just smile in return.

"Oh, speaking of nice Erudite boys, your brother was pretty cool today, Tris," Zeke chimes in.

I shrug," Yeah, I guess. Honestly, it was weird seeing him. He's changed so much."

Tobias sets the large box on the desk beside his monitor," Well, you've changed a lot, too, you know."

I just shrug again before spinning around in the chair, not really wanting to talk about the strange boy that seems to have replaced by brother anymore.

"Speaking of change, have you decided if you're going to help train initiates, Tris?" Christina asks as she turns back to her monitor.

I stop spinning and glance up at Tobias, who is looking down at me with questioning eyes.

I nod a little, not breaking the eye contact," I'm gonna talk to Max about it when I stop by my office later. I don't think he'll have a problem with it, seeing as that would mean he would see more of Erik and less of me."

"And Four would see a lot more of you," Zeke wiggles his eyebrows suggestively.

Tobias winks at me and I feel the blood rushing to my face

" We should probably head to lunch soon…" I change the subject.

Zeke's jumps up and is out of the doors before anyone can even respond. Christina shuts down her monitor and turn to me," I know we had planned to eat together but Will got back from the fence this morning so…"

I shake my head," Don't worry about it. Enjoy your time with Will. And tell him that I expect a visit before he heads out again."

She smiles thankfully at me before turning and rushing out of the room.

I feel fingers wiggle their way between mine and look up to see Tobias beaming down at me. I open my mouth to ask him why he's staring but he pulls me out of the Control Room before I can even speak. We walk in comfortable silence until we pass the Dining hall without a hint of hesitation.

"Where the hell are we going?" I finally ask.

"My place," he responds casually, but I can see his muscles tense in anticipation of my reaction.

I glance back down the hall longingly," but im hungry."

"I snatched some cake from the hall earlier," he says simply.

"Is there a reason we can't eat in the dining hall?"

He stops in front of a door and I watch as he fumbles with the door knob for a second before finally shoving open the metal frame and revealing his apartment. He motions for me to enter first and I scan the messy room until I hear the door close and feel two arms snake around my waist.

Hot air tickles my ear and I hear his deep, husky voice," We can't eat in the dining hall because if we did I wouldn't be able to do this."

He unwraps his arms and whips me around so im facing him while keeping me in the circle of his arms. He leans his forehead against mine and lets his unusual blue eyes peer into my blue-grey ones.

I wrack my brain for something witty to say, but words seem so out of place now, so instead I just grab the back of his neck and press his lips to mine.

We stay like that for what feels like years, lips moving in sync, bodies touching, hands roaming hungrily in an attempt to get our fill of each other before we have to face the real world again.

I begin thinking that I could live in this moment forever, that I could live in Tobias forever, when the pressure of his lips disappears and his hands follow suit. I almost hiss at the loss of contact.

When I open my eyes, I see that he is locking the heavy metal door.

"Expecting a Visitor?" I ask.

He shakes his head," Not really. But it's not every day that I get you all to myself like this. And I'm not risking anybody interrupting."

I turn and make my way to this bed, hoping he doesn't notice the small blush creeping across my face.

He starts talking the second I flop on the bed," So you're really going to train initiates?"

I watch him grab two pre-made plates of Dauntless cake from his black fridge and I wonder if he planned to bring me back here all along, but I decide that it doesn't really matter because I want to be here as much as he wants me here," Yeah, I figure they'll need someone nice around if they're gonna have you as an instructor. Plus, the less interaction they have with Erik, the better."

He hands me one of the plates along with a shiny fork before shoveling a large piece of cake into his mouth," And you think you're nice?"

"Well, nicer than Four at least," I answer just before I scarfing down some of my own cake.

"Yeah, that dudes a real dick, isn't he?"

"You have no idea," I playfully nudge him in the shoulder and he lets out a boyish chuckle.

"I just hope he keeps his hands to himself. I would hate to have to open a can of whop ass on him for putting the moves on my girl."

I laugh. I mean I really laugh in that free, weightless way that only Tobias can make me laugh. And for a few seconds, while sitting on the bed, laughing with Tobias, I forget all about Erik, and the Erudite Serum, and even about Initiation.

I feel eyes on me and glance over to see blue eyes trained on me. I try to read his expression, but it's one I've never seen on him before, so I ask," What?"

"I have something I need to tell you."

The urgency worries me and I move to place my plate with my half-eaten cake on the night stand before giving him my undivided attention.

"I might be in love with you," He says without a hint of hesitation.

The world around me stops. Im fairly positive you could hear a pin drop in the silence that follows his words, but he doesn't seem to notice. He just lowers his voice and leans a little closer," I'm waiting until im sure to tell you, though."

"That sensible of you," I hear myself say, but I can't remember thinking the words," We should find some paper so you can make a list or a chart or something."

He chuckles, deep and sexy, and I feel the bed shift as he leans over to set his plate on the nightstand next to mine and settles a little closer to me," Maybe I'm already sure, and I just don't want to frighten you."

"Then you should know better," more words escape my mouth without permission and I feel the smooth skin of his cheek as my fingertips brush it lightly, an action I don't remember deciding on.

"Fine," he says," Then I love you."

Red flags shoot up all around me and everything inside of me is suddenly craving to leave. To get up and run away and never look back.

You don't deserve this. You don't deserve him, my mind is shouting at me. He's gonna find someone prettier some day and leave you in the dust. Get out while you can. Get out now.

But I don't wanna get out. I don't wanna leave.

I just want to stay right here and let him love me.

I pull his lips to mine and feel relief as they press together hungrily. His hands slide up and down my waist and the continuance of his touch chases the bad thoughts away. Chases the insecurity away. Chases the fear away.

Words bubble inside my mouth as our lips move, as we move, but saying them now seems a moot point and im not sure they'll sound right coming off my tongue, so instead I just kiss him and let my actions speak for me.

Okay yeah this chapter was a little fluffy and cute but not everything will be so dont expect it! oh and dont expect me to update this often either. I just already had this part finished and I know that I look to see if stories have more than one chapter before I read them and idk I was bored and decided to post this but I think my normal post days will probably be Tuesday or Wednesday at least for a while but they might change when school starts again.

So keep the reviews coming PLEASE and I will see you lovely people on Tuesday when you get to hear all about choosing day yay.