"Where is she?" Christina demands.
"She's in one of the secure rooms at the hospital." Cara says so lightly it's almost a whisper.
I'm still standing there, frozen when Christina grabs my arm and drags me toward the hospital. I walk in her footsteps, her eager to get to Tris's side, while I don't want to face the truth. We walk through smudges that resemble hallways and I hear noises even though my ears feel like they are stuffed with cotton balls.
She lies in a bed her head in a bandage, and another on her arm. She has a mountain of pillows beneath her head and a blanket over her body. She looks so peaceful like she is asleep, but when I gently touch her arm she doesn't wake up and I don't see her bright eyes or her beautiful smile and she doesn't press her mouth to mine for a kiss. She just lies there looking still and peaceful while she's connected to machines that make beeping noises.
I can't stand it any longer, so I walk out that place, the place where my Tris is unconscious because of David. Christina reaches out for me, but knows better and returns to watching Tris.
I walk around the compound without any sense of direction passing people with blurs in place of their faces. I don't hear anything but a ringing in my ears. I was there when she went to spy on Kang, give herself up to Jeanine, to find the abnegation information, but this time I trusted her. I trusted her to make the right decision, but I should have known Caleb would not be the one to enter the weapons lab. When I finally stop walking the cuffs of my sleeves, used to dry my cheeks, are damp, and my jaw aches.