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A/N: So sorry that it took so long to update I have been busy lately so please don't kill me thanks. Please read and review.

Hikaru cried all the way home. His face was raw from wiping the tears away. Why does he care now? Hikaru thought as he entered the apartment complex. He was sure no one he knew had seen him return home, so he could be alone and stay alone. He walked into the elevator and pressed the floor. He leaned back against the wall and slid to the floor as his mind went back to the day of the funeral.

FLASHBACK

Hikaru sat at the funeral as the sympathetic words from the people around him went in one ear and out the other. He stared at the door hoping that Akira Toya would walk in and talk to him with a concerned look on his normally passive face. Hikaru was totally oblivious to the fact that his friends Waya and Isumi had sat down beside him.

"Hey Hikaru wanna play a game, it will make you feel better." Waya said as he tried to get Hikaru to look at them.

Hikaru didn't even look at them even when Isumi placed a comforting hand on Hikaru's shoulder. How would he know what would make me feel better? Hikaru thought bitterly. He noticed vaguely that some one turned on some music. He know the song even though it was English and he was lulled in to a state depression.

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

He stood up and walked to the door. He went out in the parking lot of the funeral home and looked up at the sky. He could still hear the music wallowing out of the old building behind him. Damn the person how played that song at a funeral, but it told him how he felt and he told him self that it was true.

Waya and Isumi come rushing out. "Oi Hikaru come inside it is getting cold." Isumi said draping a coat over Hikaru's shoulders.

"Ya idiot don't what you catching a cold now do we." Waya laughed. Hikaru glared at him then ripped the coat from its position on his shoulders.

"YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT IS LIKE TO LOSE SOME ONE IMPORTANT TO YOU AND YET YOU WHAT ME TO PLAY GO! THEN YOU COME OUT HERE AND TRY AND TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK TO DO! WHAT IF I DON'T WHAT TO GO BACK IN TO THERE WITH PEOPLE HOW ONLY CARE IF I PLAY GO OR NOT." Hikaru yelled.

"H-hiker, calm down that is not true." Isumi said trying to get Hikaru to cool down.

"NO I WILL NOT LISTEN TO WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY I DON'T CARE" Hikaru screamed and ran off down the street.

END OF FLASHBACK

The elevator doors opened and he stepped out and went to his door and unlocked it and walked in he whet in to his bed and lay down if only he could have the person he loved and he fell in to a dreamless sleep.

$$ SCENE CHANGE $$

Akira sat at the bar and looked down at the drink that Hikaru had ordered before he left. Damn it! Why did he flip like that? And why did he do that to himself? Akira picked up the drink and took a sip. Why was I so stupid I came here to talk to him see how he was doing. What did I do? Akira he took another sip. What was I suppose to do? Was I supposed to cry and say in sorry? Well I am for fuck sakes I don't know why I let him go. Akira was getting frustrated with his stupidity of not being able to read ahead and downed the rest of the beer. He order one more and downed that and paid the bill and went to hunt down he fine and possibly drunk blonde-banged friend.

A/N: hi thank you for reading this crap of a chapter so please review and no flames please (hides behind her brother just in case) and Akira plushies to all that read this crap thank you. (Bows and walks away)