Sorry
A/N: Consider this version 2.0 of "Promise" from my Tokka Week collection. This is what happened before Toph had the bPod and was training, and before Sokka found her. Before those two chapters. Oh, and its Sokka's side again. And also, the song I used is not the lullaby Sokka is humming, Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade is. (There will be a Tokka story like this with that song.) Anyway, I thought you guys might like this. I couldn't sleep, this song was in my head... It's the Jonas Brothers' new song from their cd A Little Bit Longer, called Sorry. Anyway, this is dedicated to anyone who tried saying sorry a little too late. Because it's never too late.
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Sokka tossed and turned in his sleep, his mind only wrapped around one thing. One being… one person… one girl.
Toph.
But she wasn't the girl he had gone on countless adventures again. No, the last time he saw Toph she was up to his shoulders, thick muscled, and had matured into a gorgeous woman any man would be lucky to have.
He had been lucky once.
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Broken hearts and last goodbyes
Restless nights but lullabies
Helps make this pain go away
I realize I let you down
Told you that I'd be around
Building up the strength just to say…
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Sokka hummed the tune that was their song. The song that played during their first kiss… during their wedding… it was the song that never left Sokka's mind, playing every time he imagined her face. The lullaby seemed to be the only thing that could calm him; that could erase the pain from so many regrets and remorseful nights.
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"You cheated on me?!"
"Toph, I…"
"Shut up Sokka. Just get out of my way."
"What?"
"I'm leaving."
"Toph. I could never love anyone else. You have to understand."
"Yah Sokka. I understand. I understand that you don't love me as much as you claim. 'I'll always be faithful to you.' What load of crap was that?! NOW MOVE!"
"You'll always be in my heart Toph. Always. And I'll never leave yours. You will remember me…and I will remember you."
And without an apology, without another try to win back her heart, without the attempt to hold her in his arms and never let go to try and stop her from going, he watched her leave.
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I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep.
If only..
This time is the last time that I will ever beg you to stay.
But your already on your way.
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Sokka curled up in his sheets, his facial expression full of pain. Everything he had ever done to hurt her always came back as fast as his boomerang did, with twice the ache as the original attack. The warrior tried to hold back his tears as he continued humming their lullaby.
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Filled with sorrow, filled with pain
Knowing that I am to blame
For leaving your heart out in the rain
And I know your gonna walk away
And leave me with the price to pay
But before you go I wanted to say
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His tears fell as he remembered everything he had done. All the times he had hurt her, and every single time he couldn't say those two words. How badly did he want to say them now…
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"Toph, if you would just listen to me."
"I'm tired of listening Sokka. So now it's your turn to listen to me. How many times have I heard what you have to say, how many times have I forgive you, and how many times do you go back and do it all over again?! We both know it's too many times to count. And not once, NOT ONCE did you say you were sorry Sokka. So back off, quit sending Hawky after me, and get out of my life!"
"But I love you Toph. Doesn't that mean something? Please, just stay with me. I promised that I would always love you. I never stopped Toph. I will NEVER break that promise."
She sighed. "You've broken too many already Sokka. And you've broken my heart."
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Yeah!
That I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
If only..
This time is the last time that I will ever beg you to stay.
But you're already on your way.
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Sokka groaned in pain, knowing how wrong he was. How sorry he was. He had broken so many promises, broken her heart so many times, and no matter how much he tried to mend it, he always ended up breaking it into even more pieces than before. But he had kept one promise; he did still love her. And he would never love again without her.
His jumpy spirit, the spark in his eyes, and his jokes… All gone without her. It so hard to breathe without her, so hard to live. There was never a smile on his face, and all too often tears in his eyes. And it wasn't because of her. No, he had done that too himself. He deserved it; the pain. He had caused so much for her… the little he endured was nothing compared to what she must have had to deal with.
But the least she could do was stop haunting him. As much as he tried, he could never break the promise to forget her. He would never forget her. She was always on his mind, in his dream. Her smile, her laugh, her punches and jabs…
More tears fell.
"Please Toph, please come home. Come back to me."
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Can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go, then please girl
Just leave me alone.
Cause I don't want to see you and me going our separate ways.
I'm begging you to stay
If it isn't too late
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Sokka got up to his bed and crossed his room to his desk. He unrolled some paper and dipped his brush with ink, and wrote.
"Toph, please. You need to know how much I love you. I've never stopped, and I never can. You part of me, and I know that somewhere deep down, I'm part of you. And that you still love me. You have to know how I feel about you. I see it in your eyes… I KNOW you still love me. Isn't that what stops you from killing me each time I find you? Just please, I can't beg enough. I want you back in my life. I can't live or breathe without you. Toph, I LOVE YOU. Please… I'm sorry. So, so sorry.
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I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep.
If only..
This time is the last time that I will ever beg you to stay.
But your already on your way.
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Sokka rolled up the scroll and gave it to Hawky.
"Don't come back until she finds someone to read this to her. Peck at people if you have to. Just find her."
Sokka pushed the messenger hawk out the window and turned before he could even see his pet take flight. If he had looked down, he would have noticed the figure at his doorstep, holding Hawky at the arm. Apparently the hawk didn't have a long way to go.
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But your already on your way...