It's Halloween, I'm so happy! I finally managed to pull up the work money I saved up to buy an actual costume because it's my favorite holiday! So now I'm a Dragon Geisha! I'm so happy, I passed both of my tests today and I thought I was going to do terrible since I didn't study!
Happy Birthday Lawliet! Hope you get lots and lots of sweets this Halloween. XD
I added a small Halloween story on top just to make this day unique! Reviews are on the bottom!
By the way: I hate fan fictions new upload thing - I'm so mentally slow with new things so It took me a year to post this. I finished uploading at 11:20 pm and its 11:40 pm now! Bah!
Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note.
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Sub Story (possible future): L's favorite day.
She had marking the days till it was finally Halloween knowing that Lawliet would go on a fiasco and also it was his birthday. Misa had gone to the shop and already bought two bags of candies, no three considering Mello lived underneath them. She had bought the perfect costume as well and already was slipping it on. She felt ridiculous but it was worth seeing L's face.
Misa left their room and waiting anxiously for her husband to return home from his detective work that he absolutely loved doing on this holiday. He said it was exciting with the sorts of stories people came up with. Misa just beamed a smile in his direction when she waved him off trying to be not suspicious. Then when she was sure he was gone she had dragged out the Halloween box she stashed away and went to work on the house.
L was excited to get back home because Misa always did something special. Last year she was dressed up as a nurse that made his day for the rest of the next two months. Christmas was always nice because it was Misa birthday but it's not every day he got to see her dressed like that. Yes, he was a pervert; he was not ashamed of it anymore. He accepted it as he was married to a model and he had every right to be perverted.
When he returned home he found the apartment door covered with a sign that said, BEWARE, which ne wasn't afraid. He opened the door with his keys and came inside to see Misa's masterpiece.
"Misa, I'm home!" He announced as he set his things down next to the entrance of the door and padded his was over to the kitchen. There he saw Misa spin out and hold the wall showing off her newest costume. She was dressed as a giant cake.
"Come eat me up L." Misa purred, and L mouth formed 'o' shaped. He really loved his wife. Halloween was the best time to have your birthday – without a doubt – his favorite day –hands down.
"Gladly." L replied with a smirk moving up to his wife and snaking a hand around her waist bringing her in for a kiss.
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Ch 2: Missing you
It was really good to see Sara again since the girl always seemed to have this glow about her that made her so unique. Sara was busy showing off her Winnie the Pooh stuffed animal collection. Her small bed was a giant shrine for the yellow bear.
"This brown one," Sara picked up the owl looking one and pushed it up to Misa's face to make sure she could see it. "His name is Owl." Misa silently chuckled, how original. "He's the smartest one and he, he reminds me of daddy. See he has the face too!" Misa took the owl from the girl's hands and examined it. It certainly looked wise having its wing raised up to his chin in deep thought and just like Sara said he did have the pose that matched L's.
Other children would scamper in and out; none really approached them they didn't want to interact with her. Sara told her to ignore them since they heard about the fight – word spreads out fast- and no one wanted to talk to someone that made L angry.
"Hey Sara you're a whammy right? So do you have any special talents?" Sara's eyes lit up at the question and she nodded excitingly.
"I have a strange six sense; I can tell when people are nearby. Rodger says that I'll be a good defective –"
"Detective," Misa corrected and Sara paused, blinked, and then nodded. "That really is a good skill to have." Misa said patting the girls head in a fashion Rem used to go with her. Sara wore a sour expression as she didn't like it and pulled Misa's hands away.
"I'm not a baby anymore!" Sara pouted and stomped her foot when Misa started giggling at her reaction. "Mommy - !! Do you have any special talents?" Misa thought about it and she raised her index finger.
"Well I have these eyes – called Shinigami eyes and they let me see the names of real people." Sara's eyes grew slightly frightened but at the same time curious.
"R-really? I never knew my real name…Can you tell me?" Sara whispered fiddling her fingers and Misa nodded using her eyes to peer into the girl's soul. 'Saria Momoto it read with a healthy blood line numbers under above it.'
"Your real name is Sa-"
"That's enough Amane-san." Misa froze at the voice. She turned to see L glaring at her with a look of malice in his eyes. "Sara return to your studies - now." L commanded and the girl bowed to Misa and then ran off. Misa raised up alarmed, she had never seen L act like this before. When the little girl was gone he grabbed Misa by the arm tightly making her wince in pain. L pulled her out of the room and dragged her back to the entrance of the whammy building. "Sometimes things are best left unsaid, Amane." L gritted out dangerously.
Misa was terrified; L never raised his voice to her, never. What was the harm in telling Sara her name?
"I can't believe I was fooled by your lies. To think for a second I might have wanted to try to remember you. "Misa didn't understand what he was getting at, why was he acting like this?
"W-what-"
"Don't play innocent Amane, I never told you my real name did I? You just used your eye powers didn't you? I really didn't know why you think it's funny to play with people's emotions. Models are all the same aren't they Amane-san?" He told her showing her to the door, and Misa gaped, he thought she wasn't serious?
"Lawliet you're wrong – It's not like that at all!" Misa yelled, trying to get him to look at her so he did but it was a hard cold stare that met her confused ones.
"Am I really Amane? I am not usually wrong when it comes to assumptions." This was a fact; her L was usually right about things but playing with his emotions? She would never dream of…
"The truth is that you didn't tell me your name and yes I found it out by the eyes but-"
"I think you've outstayed your welcome Amane-san." L cut her off, releasing one arm on her to open the door and show her to get out. Kids peeked around the corners but stayed hidden and Misa frowned at L, he was telling her to leave?
"L-Lawliet you don't understand let me –"
"No – you've done enough damage so just leave, okay?" His voice sounded strained and she knew some part of him was not liking his decision.
"But-"
"Goodbye Amane." Misa sighed, let her hand slip out of his and walked out onto the doorstep, the door slammed behind her making her jump. She could hear him on the other side take a deep breath then walk off.
Misa bit her lip, she felt like she wanted to cry but kept it bottled inside as she knew no one would come to the door if she knocked again – because no one would face L's wrath. Misa couldn't just leave either though not without him so Misa sat down outside despite the cold air and would wait. He would have to come out of that place at some point.
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Two hours had passed and L was trying to type up his latest report on a case he had been working on. He sat in his regular position with his legs hugged to his chest and a thumb close to his mouth. He had been staring at a blank document as well; his mind wouldn't get off the subject of that girl. He felt anger boil inside of him, she didn't love him. She had already lied about something like how she found out his name. Shinigami eyes, what a joke. There's no such thing as a Shinigami. Then again during the Kira case he investigated not too long ago there was a book that could kill people. Such nonsense existed so maybe it was possible? L shook his head, he had work to do. The girl was gone, but why did he have this feeling of knots inside him? Why did he want to go run out and find her – it didn't make sense.
"I don't know her." L said out loud trying to get it drilled into his mind.
I can't let my emotions get in the way. L felt cold at the sound of his voice echoing in his mind.
Do you think I'm an idiot Ryuzaki?! A girl he couldn't identify appeared in his mind hovering over his broken self. I'm not going to leave my friend alone when you're hurting like this. His other self seemed to wince at the word friends.
Are we really just friends? She looked surprised and took a step back holding her heart. Her lips parted as she looked at the wall with a sad expression.
I-I don't know. I'm sorry Ryuzaki…I just don't know. The girl sighed, and he too sighed as well. How depressing.
L's snapped out of his daze when he heard Rodger enter with a platter of tea. There were two cups and it irked him because one of the cups was filled with coffee and Rodger never drank coffee before.
"You drink coffee?" L asked with a bit of humor in his tone and Rodger snapped his head up and shook his head no.
"I was going to give that young girl outside one." L groaned, had she come back already? Why wouldn't she just leave him alone?
"Just send her home." L replied, taking his cup and sipping it. Rodger frowned, his brows furrowed.
"I've tried, but she won't move from that spot. I mean…She's never left, that woman's been sitting out in the cold ever since you kicked her out. She won't leave L." L placed his cup down, his insides stirring into knots again. "She might fall ill if she stays out there for long, can I at least let her in for a few minutes?" Rodger begged, he was a manager of the whammy house and it pained him to see a young girl sit out there waiting for L. He approached her, and she stared up at him with a frown.
"Is Lawliet coming yet?" She asked with a bit of hope tingling in her words. He had to tell her no, and then close the door on her to leave her to her thoughts.
L knew that Rodger would not leave him alone about this subject so he had no choice but to go talk to her besides he wasn't that cruel of a person. He wasn't about to let this girl waste away outside even if she did lie to him. L took the tray out of Rodger's hands and told him to leave everything to him. L padded down the hall where he saw young Sara staring out the window concerned. She immediately sensed his presence and spun to look at him with pleading sparkles in her eyes.
"Daddy please let mommy back inside."
"Sara – call me L and she is not your mommy her name is Misa." Sara's eyes downcast to the ground. L sighed; he went over and ruffle the girl's hair. She gave him a sad smile.
"Don't worry; I'll let her back in Sara." He turned to open the door but she reached out and tugged his jeans.
"Don't be mean to M-Misa, she loves you a lot! You shouldn't be mean to someone who cares about you because I know you cared too! I remember when you introduced her to me! You lifted her into the air and you were smiling! You hardly smile anymore L!" Sara yelled with tears streaming down her eyes. She shook her head. "You're not the same anymore…I hate you like this!" Sara than ran off leaving L gapping at her.
None of his whammies ever yelled at him much less than a little girl. Her words were like small daggers and L took a deep breath as he let his hands touch the knob. He wanted to run after the little girl but he knew she wanted to be left alone.
You're not the same anymore… She was right because L never raised his voice before and he had done it to this woman he barely knew. Something inside of him ached as he said those words as If something wanted to be woken up.
What's wrong with me?? L wondered while trying to keep the platter steady.
Ryuzaki...there's a good chance you'll lose me today. That girl returned this time she sounded really scared. I might forget you, I might turn on you and I might even kill you! Unwanted tears rolled down her cheeks, plopping to the ground. If I show signs of betrayal promise me that you'll convict me! Promise me that you'll stop me! If I try to kill you, kill me too!
Don't ask that of me. L replied, lugging his laptop onto his left arm and reached over to pat her shoulder. Besides I don't like losing so what makes you think I'll lose you to Light again" The girl raised her head and chewed on her lip.
I don't want to lose you either.
L continued to rub his head, who was this woman? He didn't remember meeting a woman when he was on the Kira case. There was no one with Light. Or was there? L shook away the thoughts and finally turned the handle opening the door letting the cold air blow in from the outside. He found Misa sitting leaned against the fence. Her eyes slid over in his direction and lit up when she saw it was him a smile forming on her lips with a giggle. L tried his best not to blush; she looked so pretty when she did that.
"Why are you still here?" He asked brining the tray over where she sat and offered her the cup.
"W-well you didn't l-let me ex-ex-explain." He watched as she reached up for the cup, her entire body shook as she did so and teeth lightly chattering. She took it, gratefully muttering small thanks before drinking it. "You're shivering." L pointed out and Misa rolled her eyes in response.
"R-really, I hadn't no-no-noticed." Misa said sarcastically before sipping the tea again, making an 'ah' sound because it was so good and so warm. He put the platter down and sat down next to her, strangely when he did he felt a sharp sting throughout his body. Misa seemed to notice this right away because she set her glass down and grabbed him asking if he was alright. It seemed to fade when she grabbed his shoulder but L didn't want this. He quickly took her hands away from him. He did not want her to be so close to him. Misa sighed, picking up her cup of coffee and took a small sip.
"Why won't you go home Amane?" He asked, curious as to why she wished to get sick. Why she was doing this to herself just to play a trick on him? Was risking your health really worth making someone else miserable. Misa scrunched her nose when he called her Amane, he knew she didn't like it but he wasn't going to call her by her first name. After all he hardly knew her. He watched as she lifted her cup of coffee and stared at the steam with a small smile.
"It's not home without you…" Misa breathed out and giggled. She tilted her head, closing her eyes, and smiled widely at him. "It's not home without you." She repeated before opening her eyes and finishing the rest of her coffee. Tears threatened to fall as she tapped the side of her cup. "It's really not." L lips formed a line, his heart tugging against his chest. Misa laughed bitterly, "I miss being with you."
L clenched his fists, wanting to slam it into the ground. She was making him feel terrible, because he wanted to just say okay – but the other part of him kept whispering that she was probably just lying. The thing was she didn't sound like she was lying so it hurt knowing if she was right then he forgot someone very important to him. People don't just forget things. No one ever told him he had an accident or amnesia before. So she had to be lying as much as he hated to admit it.
It was frustrating that she continued to laugh and smile like there was nothing wrong with the way they sat. She smiled when he knew, he felt it, which he didn't know why but he knew, she was in pain and she was covering it.
"Will you stop that?" He asked reaching over taking the cup out of her hands. Misa shook her head knowing he meant stop trying to make him remember.
"No I won't, because I love you." She confessed for maybe four times today Misa didn't keep count like L used to. All she wanted was him to accept her and let her help him remember her but he kept pushing her away like he was afraid of commitment. Or afraid of her in general. Misa felt a snicker escape from her lips. L took it as if she was joking and it only made him fume.
"No you don't, stop lying." He snapped, and Misa was shocked. He thought she was lying?
"I'm not." She gritted back, feeling her own anger boil inside her.
"Look – 'L finally took her words into consideration. 'If you do love me, I can't love you back. I have work to get done and your just distracting me. I can't fall in love.' Misa couldn't take it anymore. She had been holding back but this guy just finally made her snap as well. She stood up and pulled L up by his collar.
"No you look- just because you have a job doesn't mean you can't fall in love Lawliet and guess what?! Like it or not -You do love me and somewhere inside of you is my Lawliet! I will not stop until I have him back – got it?!" Misa snapped, and poor L looked stunned. "Got it?!" She yelled again shaking him and L slowly nod. She dropped him, growling angrily. This was like their first official yelling fight as well. This Lawliet knew how to get under her skin. Misa pumped her first into the air, feeling as if tears gild down her cheeks in an anime fashion. Lawliet just remember me already! Before I kill you!!
L straightened his plain white t-shirt out she had made ripples in it and that made him annoyed but at the same time he was glad for her outburst because if she really was angry than maybe he was wrong about her being a liar. He would give her a chance, but that was all.
"I saw that you quit your modeling job on TV." L started the conversation because she was too fighting with herself or it seemed like she was because she was pacing around the walkway. Misa didn't reply too tuned out, cursing the Shinigami for making her life hell and even Light for not dying faster. "For love?" That made her stop, she caught that much. 'For me?" He asked curious and Misa nodded.
"Yes, for you Lawliet. I needed to find you and help you remember me."
"I don't want to quit my job for love. I love my job." L spoke and she laughed, oh boy, did he really think she was going to force him to quit his detective work just to make him love her. She wasn't one of those psycho ex-girlfriends that ruin their ex's lifestyle for their own pleasure.
"I never said I was going to make you quit. I only quit because being a model is so much different from being a detective okay? People follow me around wherever I go and there is seriously no privacy. I'd have to wear shades or a lot of baggy clothing or people would notice me. I'm envious of you L; it's so quiet the silence really is nice change of pace." Misa said, and plopped down back next to him waiting to see what he would say. L lifted his right thumb and nibbled it.
"Sometimes silence is louder than you think." He told her softly and Misa tilted her head trying to get a good look at L as he seemed distant. She reached over and placed a hand on his thigh.
"Well cheer up because no you have me to make that silence go away." Misa replied grinning and L felt his lips twitch into a smile.
"Thank you."
The words made her heart soar especially seeing his smile. Oh, it was like seeing her old L again. Well he was still L but just seeing that made her life suddenly not feel so terrible anymore.
"No, thank you Lawliet…"
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End Chapter 2 – Alright! L's decided that he's going to let her in now! He's going to give her a chance! Cha Cha Cha dance time again! I'm so glad to see I have new reviewers – Makes me inspired to write even more for you! Happy Face!
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Reviewers:
TheJoker13: I'm glad you love this story, I hope you even like the little sub story – LOL I'm such a perv. Oh man I'm sorry. Ignore me, I'm not really writing anything here. Thank you for your reviews!
Midnight Hikari: He will – eventually! Oh and Happy Halloween to you to! I went trick or treating to like two houses ha-ha – cause I like to stay home and give out candy but still was very very fun!
Tavana: Yeah they are going to be a bit rushed because I wanted this down before the day was over so woo 11:13 pm I got to post this quickly!
Tashio: It's February right now, I'd say a week after Misa gave away the notebook so Valentine's Day is coming up. Woohoo! What a perfect day for Misa to get him to remember.
I'm glad you tell me this about the task force because I really didn't want to add them into the story. I just think they are slow, bland characters. I mean Matsu is great, so is Aizawa but in my story L thinks he's already finished the Kira case so the task force is no more. They did their jobs and Lawliet's back to solo again with some help from co so yeah - I hope that helps!
Blue-Candle: There are always obstacles that a relationship has to face. Misa's just learning a taste of it but don't worry L will remember and more happiness will be me that day!
Everyday-Snow Angel: I don't know if you'll ever get to read this since you just started a Change of Pace but when you do here's my first official Thank you –I'll PM you too but Thank you for liking my first series – and who's your friend? Do I know them?? Happy Face!
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P. S : I don't know but maybe after I'm done with this story I'll create one more – LOL - I don't know it could be about the married life of L and Misa but I don't want to go too far with this. If I put too many sequels you guys might KILL me so…Maybe I'll just end writing Misa x L after this but – let me know because I'm excited about it and I update fast so SO Let me know! I know I fail. Happy Face!
-Takiasmuse.