First person view for this chapter. Hope it doesn't screw you up. I've just been reading a lot of first person Fics today so that's all I can write. Sorry.

Chapter 1

I wanted everything to be just a horrible dream. I wanted to wake up and just laugh at myself for having such silly thoughts or sigh in relief, but it didn't happen. I woke up and I knew. I knew that it was all real. I knew that Edward Cullen was most definitely a vampire and that I was most certainly screwed.

-knock knock-

I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself. I need to hide my fear for this to work. I opened the door.

"Hello Edward."

Edward smiled his crooked smile and I tried hard not to wince. Such a stupid girl that I had been. Was it just yesterday that his smile was one of the highlights of my day?

"Bella. Are you ready?"

I nodded and forced a weak smile.

"Yeah, let's go."

Edward was a pure gentleman. He opened the car door for me and made sure I was strapped in before shutting it. In a blur he was in the driver's seat and I jumped. He chuckled at me.

"Sorry. I'm not used to that yet." I tried to laugh it off; personally I thought I failed, but Edward seemed to buy it. He smiled again and leaned over to brush my hair behind my ear.

"It's fine, my love."

My love? Were we at that stage yet? Well not me, but him? He couldn't be. This had to be simple infatuation on his side or maybe I was just a toy, a little human doll for his amusement. That sounded just about right. I was just a toy, a talking, moving, living doll. Every kids or in this case vampire's dream.

Time to play house Bella or the spider will get you.

The ride to the school was nearly silent except for our breathing. It was kind of bizarre actually. Why did he need to breathe? Was it for my peace of mind? I already knew what he was. He didn't have to hide what he was from me.

I just needed to hide myself from him.

We pulled up to the school and I paled when I saw all of the people stop and stare. The whispers started but I couldn't hear them in the car. I didn't need to. I already knew what they were saying.

'Look at them!'

'Is that Bella?'

'Slut.'

'They are such a cute couple.'

But they had it wrong like I did. I didn't want this. I wanted to get away. I wanted to scream out to them. I wanted to ask for help. I wanted to tell them to get away. To run from forks. To run from Edward Cullen and his non-human family.

It was too late for me, but not for them.

Edward opened my door for me and helped me out of the car. I looked at the people nervously and he gave me an encouraging smile. Did he think I was nervous? About them?

Oh no, he had if all wrong. I was nervous for them. These stupid, jealous people. Couldn't they sense the predator in him, in them?

Run.

Edward grabbed my hand and we walked into the school. He dropped me off at my class with a kiss on the cheek.

"I can't wait to see you in biology, my love."

"I can't wait to see you too, Edward." Lies. All lies, I wasn't very good at lying. My palms would sweat and I could never look someone in the face when I'm lying, but Edward didn't know that. He didn't know me. So he took my words as truth.

I walked into class with my head down. I sat at my desk and whispers broke out around me. God, what I wouldn't give to be one of those ignorant people. They didn't know. They didn't know what I knew. They didn't know the truth.

Jesus. How was I going to get through this? My thoughts spun around in circles. Always Edward, vampires, running. God, I needed to get my mind straight. I needed to get my mind straight if I was going to survive this. If I was going to survive him.

Half my mind was on the class lesson and the other half was on what I needed to do to survive.

The first thing I needed to do was learn how to lie. Edward wanted a human girlfriend so I would give him one. I needed to learn how to lie with my words, my body, and my actions, but never my heart. I couldn't make myself believe what he did. I couldn't fall too deep if I did there would be no going back.

The second thing I needed to do was learn what he wanted from me. What he wanted from Bella, his love. What drew him to me? What caused him to share his horrible secret?

I wasn't very pretty. That was for darn sure. I've seen prettier girls in Forks so it wasn't my beauty. Was it my habits? What has he seen me do before? Trip, read, be interested in him? Is that enough to get his attention? Jesus, did he want someone that boring?

But that reminded me about my lie this morning. Edward didn't know me. Not really. I liked to read? So what? I was clumsy? Big whoop. I had more depth than that, but I couldn't show him that. I needed to be someone else for him. I needed to be that boring 'Bella'. It would be hard, but I would do it to live and for Charlie.

It was better this way anyways. What if Edward didn't really like the real me? What if he decides to kill me because of it? I couldn't take the chance that he would just leave me alone. The odds were stacked against me.

Thankfully, I didn't talk to people here. Not because I didn't want to, but because I was too wrapped up in Edward to pay them any attention. It was too late now, but it was for their own good.

I don't think Edward would like it if someone took my attention from him.

I shuddered at the thoughts of what he would do to sweet little Angela who just wanted a sleepover or flirty Mike who wanted a date with a happy ending.

I bit my bottom lip as I thought frantically and drew a blank. Was that all I could do to ensure my survival?

God I was so fucked.

Before I knew it class was over and I had to face my new 'boyfriend'. I couldn't wait. Oh wait, yeah I actually can.

I walked out of the classroom door and gasped and bumped into the person behind me.

"S-sorry." I stuttered. They pushed past me in annoyance. Normally I would call the person out on their rudeness, but my full attention was on the delusional vampire in front of me. Ya know, like it's supposed to be. I gave Edward a fake shy smile and he took my hand in his. I stiffened slightly at the ice cold hand and took my hand out of his. At his confused look I quickly realized my mistake and brushed my hair behind my ears as a cover-up. Reluctantly I returned my hand to his and he held it tightly. He smiled at me again.

"Would you like to sit with my family and I at lunch today, Bella?"

Like I could refuse.

"Sure. Are you sure they will like me? Maybe I shouldn't." Bella wasn't sure if she could handle more than one vampire. One of them would surely be able to tell that her romantic feelings were practically nonexistent. A spike of fear shot up her back.

"Trust me. They will love you."

Edward walked me to my next class much to my annoyance. It was right around the corner and his was all the way on the other side of the school. It's not that I cared if he was late or not it was just stupid. Didn't he think that I could use my two wonderful feet to walk to the room by myself? Apparently not, but I couldn't complain about it. Would you argue with a vampire? Yeah, I thought not.

I smiled at Edward and walked to my next class. The time seemed to flyby and for the first time in years I dreaded going to lunch. The bell rang and my heart skyrocketed. My fear and panic going out of control.

I swallowed loudly and shook my head.

"Get a hold of yourself Bella or the jig is up!"

It was an absolute bitch to calm myself, but two minutes after the bell rang I was semi calm. Thank god for Renee and that meditation class. I don't think I could've done it otherwise.

I looked up and saw Edward standing by the door waiting for me. I stood up hurriedly

"Sorry. Did I keep you waiting?"

"Not long. I walked here." As opposed to running or vampire speed?

He took my hand in his once again and it made me worry. Was Edward always so handsy? Would he expect me to fall into bed with him soon? God I hope not.

I think a cock that cold would sting. Kisses and hand holding I can do. Sex on the other hand...well let's just say I never planned on giving my cherry to a vampire. I cringed internally and turned my thoughts to another direction. The present.

The moment we entered the cafeteria every eye turned to us and the whispers started again. My eyes landed on Edwards's table. His family was smiling politely and waiting for us.

The moment of reckoning had come.

Fuck.

AN: so this story will encompass twilight and part of new moon. I need to cover a lot of stuff so it will be slowgoing. I hope you guys like the chapter. Please review. :)