A/N: Hey guys, so some of you guys didn't enjoy my one shot "Is This Just Not Working Anymore" because it ended in sort of a sad way. I said that it was just a one-shot but I feel like I owe it to the readers to fix it and end on a happy note. I cannot decide if this is going to be just a few chapters or a whole story. It all depends on the response. I will ensure that they will end up together and happy though. Also fair warning: Im not too confident in this chapter so let me know
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10:47pm
Jay couldn't help but let the tears escape his eyes on his drive home. Well technically he wasn't going home, he was coming from home. His home was the place Erin basically just kicked him out of when she broke up with him. Well she didn't kick him out exactly but it would definitely be awkward if he stayed at a place that he clearly wasn't wanted. Erin didn't want him. The realization hit him and he felt more tears burn his eyes as he stopped at a red light. He pounded the steering wheel out of angry. Or sadness. Or frustration. Whatever emotion that would encapsulate the feeling of the absolute love of his life breaking his heart would do just fine.
He wiped his eyes as the light turned green and continued on his trek to his brother's house since he didn't have anywhere else to stay for the night. Jay put the car in park and reached for his bag that was sitting in the passengers seat. He took a moment to gather himself because number one: Will didn't know that he was about to show up at his door and number two: if Will saw him crying over some girl he would never hear the end of it.
Jay walked up to Will's apartment door and knocked while thinking of his explanation for showing up at his apartment without notice.
"Brother! Hey, whats up?" Will greeted Jay when his attention was drawn to the bag that was slung over Jay's shoulder. He instantly noticed something was wrong with Jay when he didn't even smile. Also that glimmer that was usually in Jay's eyes was no longer there. It was almost if it he was made of stone unable to move.
Jay didn't show his brother much emotion but adjusted the bag over his shoulder.
"Hey um- do you think I could stay here tonight?"
Will was confused at his demeanor but shook it off and opened the door farther to allow him entry.
"Yeah sure thing" He wasn't sure if he should ask what had happened with Erin. He could only assume that it had something to do with Erin . Will knew how head over heels he was for her even thought Jay didn't talk about his emotion with his brother alot. But Will knew. Oh he knew big time. His smile when ever he brought up the idea of Erin told him all he needed to know. The smile gave him away.
"Thanks" Jay muttered as he stepped into the apartment, dropped his bag, and made a bee line for the fridge to grab a beer. Anything to dull the pain he didn't even know was possible to feel.
Will slowly walked up behind Jay in the kitchen as he chugged the beer faster than he ever had before.
He was hesitant to ask but he did anyway "Erin?" Will simply asked.
"Not tonight" Jay whispered as he swiftly walked by Will out of the kitchen while keeping his eyes glued to the floor. But then Jay stopped, his back facing Will. Something changed his mind and he felt he owed Will an explantation, an answer even, of why it was necessary he stayed there. He kept his eyes glued to the floor as he tried to keep the tears inside his eyes.
"She broke up with me" He said as he started to walk over to the couch where he was planning to sleep for the night.
With that, Will decided to leave it alone until the morning and silently went back to his room after throwing Jay a pillow and blanket from his closet.
Jay took off his jacket and lied on his brother's couch and tried to get some sleep. After all, he did have work tomorrow. Ugh work. That meant he would have to face Erin and he wasn't sure he could do that right now.
He reached for his phone in the jacket he had taken off and put it on the floor next to him. Maybe Erin texted him? Maybe she regretted the break up? That small hope made him reach for his phone even faster but as soon as the hope came to him it was gone when he saw the blank screen. Who was he kidding? He wasn't getting any sleep tonight. He was putting his phone back down on the floor when he saw the picture he had taken from Erin's apartment. The Polaroid of them on their first date. It must have fallen out of his jacket pocket when he took it off a few minutes ago. It left him wondering if there was anything more he could have done. Her words she shot at him earlier that night were running through his mind. Some couples have an expiration date. I think we are past ours. What was that even supposed to mean? That was her way of giving up. Anytime something got a little hard she ran for the hills. It was what she had been doing her whole life. Jay didn't really blame her for the habits she had made for herself. It was something she had to do to survive. Run. Leave. Not trust anyone.
He knew one thing and that was if he was going to he begin to think about getting over Erin (if that was possible) he had to get rid of that picture. He pulled himself off of the couch, picture still in hand and walked to the kitchen to toss it. He lifted the top of the can and threw away the picture. When he let go of it it landed back side up. The phrase that he had written on the back of the picture the day it was taken was staring up at him.
To our one day
He picked it back up and for good measure or maybe it was out of angry, he ripped it into two and tossed it back into the can and shut the top.
He spent the rest of the night lying on an uncomfortable couch thinking of all the reasons why Erin might not want him anymore, all the reasons she thinks they had expired.
Will woke up fairly early the next morning because he had an early shift. He quietly walked out of his bedroom since Jay was still sleeping. He felt bad for his brother he really did. He wasn't sure what he should for him. Will walked into the kitchen to grab a water out of his fridge before he left his apartment. He chugged it faster than expected and went to toss it in the trash. He lifted the lid but noticed two pieces of a picture sitting on the top of the trash before he was able to throw his bottle in. It was the picture Jay had ripped and thrown in the trash the night before. Something tugged on Will's heartstrings because he decided to take the two pieces of the picture out and tape them together. Man this girl really did a number on him he thought as he taped up the picture and put it in his room before he headed to work. He'll thank me the day he marries her Will thought to himself.
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Erin woke up the next morning not wanting to go to work, which is unlike her. She loved work. Even the tough parts about it. But she was going to have to face Jay. He was her partner and she had broken up with him. And Voight. they were going to have to tell Voight they broke up. They couldn't ask for a partner switch because that means Voight would win, he would be right. He tried to tell them at the beginning that they shouldn't mix work and pleasure but Jay and Erin were adamant that they weren't going to let it affect the job when they were dating but now they were broken up and it was a whole new ball game. They could make this work right? She was just going to have to talk to Jay and make it clear she was going to continue working with him as if they had never dated because thats what being professional means.
Erin pulled herself out of bed before her alarm even went off so she could get a head start on getting ready. Maybe she could even squeeze in breakfast this morning. She took a quick shower and threw on her basic t-shirt and jeans and headed to the kitchen to grab some cereal. While she sat on the counter and ate her breakfast she tried to convince herself even harder that it would be fine. They were Jay and Erin after all. They were the most solid partnership in the unit. Plus she still wanted to be friends with Jay. She thought they could go back to how they were before. I mean not exactly how they were before. They wouldn't hang out alone on Friday nights but they could still have small talk in the break room in the morning, and talk sports while they were out on a sting, and they would still be awesome partners.
As she finished her cereal and walked out the door, Erin was filled with a new sense of confidence that her and Jay could do this, that nothing had to change. She grabbed her keys out of the bowl on the kitchen table and noticed something was missing. She stopped and studied her surroundings for a moment. What was missing? Was it a picture maybe? Must be nothing she thought as she walked out the door to head for work.
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Jay slowly walked up the steps to the bullpen that morning. He was more than dreading seeing Erin. He was frustrated and angry and hurt and sad and embarrassed. Unlike Erin, he knew he had to get a partner change. It didn't matter if Voight was right or not. In fact right now he could care less about Voight. He just knew he couldn't face Erin everyday.
He walked passed her desk to get to his and let out a breathe when he realized she hadn't arrived yet. Perfect. He had time to talk to Voight about a partner change before she would even know that he was doing it. But first he needed coffee.
He walked into the break room grabbing a mug from the shelf as he waited for the coffee to brew (apparently his co-workers were to lazy to get the coffee started).
As it finished brewing and he was pouring himself a cup, he heard someone walk through the doorway of the break room.
Crap. Erin.
"Hey" She said to him in a timid whisper like she was going to scare him if she spoke any louder.
Jay bit his lip unsure of what she was about to say.
"Hey" he leaned against the counter slowly sipping his coffee.
"Listen-" Erin started.
"I want to change partners" Jay quickly interrupted her.
Erin walked closer to him and sounded suprised "You what?"
"You heard me" He spat out.
"But why?"
Why was Erin playing dumb? Why did she think they could continue being partners? He knew she couldn't truly be this naive.
"Er, what to you want from me?" Jay pleaded in a quiet voice so the rest of the unit couldn't hear their conversation.
Erin strutted not knowing how to answer the question "I..um.. I.."
Jay continued "Because I don't know how you expect me to go on like I didn't just lose the love of my life. I can't be with you everyday and pretend like I'm not thinking about the future that slipped through my fingers tips and no matter what I did I couldn't seem to get it back in my grasp".
Erin was getting angry. He didn't even want to be partners with her anymore?
"I thought we could at least be friends" Erin whispered to him.
Jay scoffed "Friends? You think we can be friends? Er, I cannot go back to just being your friend. Do you not understand me? I want the whole thing with you or I want nothing with you. Being friends with you and seeing what I lost everyday is a lot worse than just cutting my loses and not seeing you at all. Out of sight out of mind, right?"
Erin didn't even have a response for him. She was livid. She just crossed her arms and rolled her eyes as Jay pushed passed her to go back to his desk.
She poured her coffee and walked back to her desk, noticing Jay was in Voight's office talking to him with the door shut. She then made eye contact with Voight through his office window as Jay was talking to him. A few minutes later both men walked out of his office as Voight announced that Jay was partnered with Atwater and Erin was partnered with Olinsky.
Erin spent the rest of the day keeping her head down in paper work and holding back the tears that threatened to escape her eyes at the sudden realization that her and Jay may never be partners again, nevertheless friends.
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