Lucy never understood what was going on lately, it was hard for her to even understand what she herself was thinking of feeling. Everyday she'd get up and make sure she looked her best but for what? She wasn't sure. She went to the guild with anticipation, her heart beating so fast she was sure everyone could hear it, or at least the dragon slayers could. Then, when she saw him, her heart would flutter, her breathing would become shallow, and her mouth would run dry. It was such a sudden and drastic change in her everyday life that, it came as a shock to Lucy, why now, why would this happen? Every glance he gave her, every conversation that they had, or interaction that they shared, it was all so special to her that it was almost profound. Natsu was her partner, her guild mate, and most importantly, her best friend so, why should she feel like this when she saw him? She'd go on dates with other men that she'd meet but, they'd never feel right and, besides, every time she went on a date Natsu would seem to be upset so, how could she bring herself to have a good time knowing he was at home troubled? Everything felt so complicated, she didn't know if this was something bad. Mira often assured her that it was nothing to fret over, it was something special but why did she feel so nervous? She'd lie in bed at night and, more often than not, Natsu's face would flash through her mind. On some occasions, Natsu would show up at her apartment in the evening, this sent her spirits soaring. It was exhilarating letting him in through the window even though she protested and scolded him for showing up like that. It always made her happy to spend time with him, and Happy too of course. Yet, the 'whys' still kept popping into her mind. Why would she get jealous if another girl gave Natsu attention, why was she disappointed when he and Happy went on a solo mission without her, why did she plaster on a goofy grin each time she met him in the guild hall? Her mind had been racing for weeks, months, maybe even years, she had lost track of how long she had been feeling like this, and she felt as though she was going crazy. The more thought she put into it the more she concluded that the whole ordeal was just simply- complicated. Mira would say that it is not at all hard to understand what was going on and Levy would sigh and shake her head slightly, telling her that she was being silly and just to open her eyes. Maybe deep down, Lucy knew what was really happening but, she couldn't bring herself to admit it, she didn't want to make this difficult between her and Natsu and she wasn't sure if he too felt complicated but so, she left it be and continued to feel these emotions that wracked her brain. It would remain a mystery until it wasn't one anymore, it was a simple as that.