Now you're outside me you see all the beauty…

"Wow that was great you guys!" said Mr. Schue.

He told them how he really saw the emotion in their voices and all the other praise he gives people when they put all their embarrassing thoughts on the line through song.

Then Rachel and Finn did a duet and so on with the rest of the club. After the meeting had ended Blaine caught up with Kurt.

"Hey! Kurt, wait up!" Kurt looked, slightly confused.

"What? Hey! Don't give me that look, just because we broke up-"

"you dumped me" Kurt corrected.

"Ok, however you want to put it, I don't think that should mean we can't be friends."

Kurt sighed and shook his head, trying to clear his mind and to keep the sting in his eyes at bay. "Blaine, asking to be 'just friends'" Kurt made the air quotes

with his fingers. "after a relationship is kind of like saying 'hey your dog's dead but you can still keep the body'" Blaine retracted as if he'd been slapped. He

needed to make this work. He took a breath and chose his words carefully. "Kurt what we had and what we have will never die. But I might die if I can't be

around you like I used to. Just because I don't love you like that anymore… well it doesn't mean I don't love you!" Kurt was going to cry if he didn't leave

soon, he knew it. He needed to get rid of Blaine. "Blaine, you told me and I quote 'I don't know how to tell someone that I've stopped loving them' when you

broke up with me. That means that you don't love me." Blaine was desperate. He had been able to keep his longing for Kurt and his misery at bay for the

past couple of months but seeing Kurt's eyes, his smile brought back everything he felt for Kurt all over again. He needed Kurt, even if Kurt had moved on.

Even if Kurt was better without him, he just didn't care anymore. "Kurt, please. Just please give me a chance to your friend again. I have missed our coffee

d-meetings. I have missed our Disney marathons, I have missed having someone who truly gets me." I've missed having you in my arms, I miss our cuddle

sessions, I miss being able to kiss you and hold your hand and to know that you're mine. Blaine obviously didn't speak the last part to Kurt. Kurt hadn't seen

Blaine this honest and pure in a long time. He didn't know whether it was the way Blaine's liquid golden eyes beckoned him, or if it was just the fact that a

part, a big part of Kurt would always love Blaine and would do anything for him. But he knew he'd do anything to made that sad longing look go away in

Blaine's eyes. "Fine. I miss you too Blaine. Can we just go back to the way things were? Before the breakup, before the kiss?" before you loved me, not before

I loved you because I've loved you since that first moment in the Dalton staircase and I'll still love you till the day my heart stops beating. " Just friends." Kurt

smiled awkwardly, hoping that Blaine would believe that that's all Kurt wanted. Just to be friends. "Of course Kurt!" Blaine jumped and hugged Kurt, he then

kissed his cheek. It was an accident of course, but Kurt recoiled and with a look of anger and confusion. "Oh god Kurt I'm so sorry, its just whenever I used

to hug you, I'd kiss you and I kind of forgot. Oh god.." had he really done that? Thought Kurt. But when Blaine started apologizing any glimmer of hope Kurt

had disappeared. "Blaine its fine. I get it, its like neuromuscular facilitation or something. Just maybe try not to kiss me, last time I checked friends don't do

that" he winked. Kurt then abruptly left. What Blaine did not know was that once Kurt was out of Blaine's eyesight, he stroked his cheek, oh so gently and

smiled just the faintest smile of hope.

_a/n short chapter is short. This is the point in the story where its going to turn down a more angsty road. I'm putting trigger warnings here and the rating will go up to T. triggers that will eventually become: cutting (look at the title what did you think I was going to do?), anorexia (maybe) and possible but not likely drug/alcohol abuse. Oh and maybe Burt will die. Review for him to live! Just kidding. Kind of

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