Satin/Silk: Hey everyone. Welcome to Chapter One and I want to apologize or explain. I am a little rusty on my twilight facts so I am going to be easing into the Twilight World slowly. As well they are three...possibly four main povs and I will be playing with those a lot. I hope you enjoy.

As well as I do not own any of the characters presented or implied in this chapter! They all belong to The CW, Stephanie Meyers or LJ Smith. Though there will be some OOCness due to the interpretation that I have to how they would react in this unlikely circumstance.

Also all the chapter names are based off the lyrics of the Song "I Need You" by Saving Abel and I do not own those lyrics. They are out of order to fit the chapter but you should listen to the song, it's an amazing song.

Summary: They all wanted something from her. The Swans wanted to befriend her, The Cullens wanted her dead, The Bennetts wanted her safe in Mystic Falls and He just wanted her back in his arms.

The Saga of Her Twilight Diary
Chapter One – Love me Not

Elena was dead. There was no way Bonnie could pretend it wasn't true. She saw the body. And she remembered the way Elena had sounded when she died. It tore Stefan apart. Mr. Saltzman had to sedate him with vervain. Katherine died laughing, mocking Stefan every last second she could draw breath. Caroline buried her head into Tyler's chest and Jeremy just stood there. His cousin who he had loved as his sister was gone. Bonnie could only imagine what he'd do now. She still remembered that dark period he went through. They all did.

Damon's hand found a way to hers and it was more reassurance than she could ever need. And when he pulled her close, she couldn't hold back her tears and she heard him. His thoughts had been so clear in her mind as if he had spoken it aloud. He wouldn't let that happen to her. He would turn her the first chance he got. She couldn't let him do it. There was so much that she wanted to take back but her humanity was all she had left.

It was one in the morning when she drove past the sign that read 'Welcome to Forks'. She was so happy that she took a moment to put the car in park. The pain hit her and she felt as if her spine was penetrating through her skin. The pain demanded she go back but she couldn't. She just had to push through it. It was easier thought than done. The Grimoire, Bonnie thought. It was her only chance but she couldn't move.

Her body was twisting and turning in ways that she couldn't think possible. Tears burned at the corner of her eyes. She was screaming out to no one. Please, she begged. If you'd ever care, make it stop, please make it stop.

"Where are you Bonnie?" His voice whispered against her mind.

"Damon, please." She whimpered.

"Just tell where you are Bon-Bon," For a second, it felt like he was in the car.

She was curled up in the driver's seat. Tear running down her cheeks, her body shivering and his hand was gently stroking her hair. He pulled her into his lap.

"Bon Bon,"

It was crazy, absolutely insane but she could smell his cologne. It wafted around her, her body shook, and she heard herself moan. How and why does he have this power over her? She had to look away from him but she realizes that was what he wanted. Just one small clue to where she was. He wasn't there; he was stuck in Mystic Falls. He didn't know where she was and he had no power over her.

"Leave me alone, Damon,"

"I can't do that Bon-Bon," His fingers felt so good. "But I can make you feel good again, just tell me where you are."

His voice was so soft and it made her melt. He wasn't there and her body knew it. She still twitched with pain and he could make it stop. No, she told herself. She left and she had a very good reason for it. Beside She was already in…She stopped herself. Not only because of where her thought process almost went to but because of the knock on the glass.

This looked bad, Bonnie thought to herself. Forks with the exception of a witch seemed like a normal town. There she was inside of her Prius, wiggling around. The pain was subsiding. She knew it, that bastard knew how to manipulate the bond. Another reason, she shouldn't go back. He would use their bond to try to make her go back. He better be lucky that she didn't know how to fuck with his mind. If she ever figured that out, that son of bitch wouldn't know what happen to him.

There was another knock on the window. She forced herself up but she couldn't stop the shakes. This looks so bad, she thought. She rolled down the window, trying to calm herself enough to interact. God, this was horrible. How long was she going to have to deal with this? It couldn't be good for…

She looked up at the officer or maybe the Sheriff. He kind of looked like Sheriff Forbes or dressed like her. His badge said Swan and his eyes met with his. God, times like this she wished she had compulsion. It would make moments like this, so much easier.

"License and registration, please. Is there something wrong miss?"

Bonnie took a deep breath. She reached into her glove department for her registration and she also pulled out her Virginia license. Her hands were still shaking and he looked at her weird. She had to lie. He took the paper from her and looked at her quizzically. She was so glad; she had turned eighteen last month. Damon had made a big deal of it. She smiled despite herself.

"You miss me don't you Bon-Bon. Just come home," He whispered it so softly that Bonnie jumped.

"Is there a problem, miss?" Officer or Sheriff Swan said more surprisingly.

"My ex homicidal vampire boyfriend is harassing via my mind and is trying to make me come home even though I ran across the country to get away from him. This isn't easy because we have some kind of freaky bond that tortures us when we are apart. And what you just saw was our crazy bond at work and that jerk trying to make me come home. But no there is no problem," Bonnie wanted to say but it was obvious that she would have to lie.

"Nice adjectives there, Bon-Bon," She ignored him.

"You're a long way from home Ms. Bennett and are you sure that you are okay?"

"No," Her voice startled them both. "I'm tired, I haven't eaten in hours and I wanted to get here before it got dark so I could get to my cousin house early. And I think my baby might have just kicked but I am so tired and hungry that I am not sure. I just want to get some sleep and get something to eat," Her tears took Charlie by surprise.

He had a hard time with his daughter and now here he had this pregnant teen. The Police Academy really didn't cover this sort of things. Charlie wasn't at all sure what to do but it wasn't good enough. He let a deep breath, could Forks get any weirder?

"Uh Ms. Bennett, your cousin wouldn't be Lucy, would it?"

Bonnie sniffed a little and turned to look at Charlie. She nodded her head. Thank God for friends like Caroline, she knew how to cry on spot and taught it to Bonnie. Bonnie felt better or at least a little bit. She just wanted to get to Lucy's house. She wouldn't turn her out or so Bonnie hoped.

Hoped what, Damon growled, he tossed his glass of bourbon across the room. Where was that witch? He had no clue and it was driving him crazy. The boarding House was getting a little to brooding and big wrinkle foreheady. He would leave Mystic Falls behind after all there wasn't any reason for him to stay. But now she was gone, no matter how boring life was he needed her. He couldn't make plans to leave without her.

He hate it, he felt like Saint Stefan with all his loser emotions. The poor gloomy teen had locked himself in his room. Damon sighed, this was crazy, first Elena and now Bonnie. Damon hated to admit it but he missed the way that life had been a few weeks ago. When their biggest problem had been trying to kill Klaus. He remembered that day so well.

They had a plan of attack but then Stefan came in with a bleeding Elena. She was in bad shape and things were getting worse with every second. So Stefan did what any vampire would do in his position. Damon stopped. Stefan did what any vampire would have done in his position.

"Shit," Bonnie would have to wait, they had a bigger problem.

Sheriff Charlie Swan was not as bad as Bonnie had originally thought although she had never thought anything bad about him in the beginning. He took her to a late night diner and they talked. She told him about Mystic Falls and the recent family tragedies that she had. She made it clear that Lucy was the only family that she had left. He seemed to be very empathic to her situation. It made Bonnie feel a little more comfortable. Charlie told her about his daughter and her boyfriend. They sounded amazing. Then Charlie told her about the town and how it was a great place to raise a family. It made her smile. He was goofy, loving and he reminded her of her own dad.

She tried not to think of that but just laugh at his goofy comments and jokes. It was maybe one hour or two later when she was pulling her car up to what she hoped to be Lucy's house. She waited until Charlie gives her the signal. She grabs her Marc Jacobs bag and walked to the door. She smiles weakly at Lucy who looks less than pleased.

"Well you ladies have a good night," Charlie tipped his hat and left. Lucy waved good bye to the Sheriff and watched him leave. Bonnie entered the house. This wasn't going to go well. Lucy closed the door behind her and locked it.

"What are you doing here? I told you, you were needed in Mystic Falls."

"I need your help," Bonnie pleaded desperately. "I need help finding a spell. I don't have anyone else to turn to. We're the only Bennetts left and if I can't find this spell, Mystic Falls will never be safe for me." She was crying again.

Lucy sighed, she had come to Forks for the same reason that Bonnie ran. The town was small, and the last place any one would look for a Bennett witch. It was safe. Lucy couldn't turn Bonnie away but Lucy refused to be her crutch.

"Fine," Bonnie smiled. "But once you find the spell, you have to go back."

"Okay and…" Bonnie started.

Lucy who had started to walk away turned to back to Bonnie. Bonnie bit her lip. "I'm pregnant."

The words rung so loud and clear through Alice's head. The witch was in Forks. Jasper was sound asleep in the bed beside her. She hadn't told him or anyone else. She could hear the music of Edward's piano from down the hall. She couldn't do it alone. She pushed herself away from the bed and started down the hall. She felt bad but she couldn't do this alone. She had no other choice, the witch couldn't live.