Ok guys, craizypet here. here chappie two, and as i promised i am getting it up pretty fast... well, for me anyway. and just as a little reward/bribery thing, i will put up the next chappie, chapter 3 as well!!! yay!!!
hope you enjoy... here's a little insight to kakashi's thoughts...
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It shattered Kakashi to leave Sakura standing in the pavilion like he did, but he knew it was the best thing to do.
Especially since the destruction of Sakura's dreams, lead the wakening of Kakashi's.
His feelings for Sakura scared him, and excited him at the same time, and he wanted her… to be with her, to have her see him off at the gate when he left for a mission, for her heartfelt kisses and promises, and then, when he got back from the missions, for her to heal his wounds with her soothing green chakra, greeting him home, and waiting for him.
He did not know when he really began seeing Sakura like that, and wanting that type of life with her.
It might have been when they had done a mission together, and she had saved his life, and Obito's eye with her healing skills. It could have been when he saw her compassion as she tended to the young children's injuries and her fierce protectiveness of those very same children when a small village had been attacked by the sound village and their allies.
It might have been when he stared seeing her as a woman. When she wore that beautiful green dress to the formal ball between Suna and the other allies of Konoha. When she hit Kiba for trying to peek at her when she at the bar, or when he saw her being kissed by the brown haired chunnin, before she calmly and apologetically told him she was not interested.
Or maybe he felt something for her when she showed up at the memorial on Obito's birthday, holding a white poppy in her hand to lay on the ground with Kakashi's own offering.
Even though she had still been in love with Sasuke at those times, she had been a compassionate, selfless soul and a companion. She had still been there for him, whether she knew it or not, and had made an impression on Kakashi's cold blank slate of a soul. She had managed to warm the coldest, lighten the darkest, and smash the hardest walls around his soul.
Those walls that he had put up, to stop people from reaching him, to stop him from feeling the pain of losing those he loved and held dear.
Kakashi groaned, gulping down the last of his drink, before nodding at the Hyuuga man guarding the door. He walked out of the front door, out of the Hyuuga's estate and into the streets.
And the pouring rain.
'Nothing stops the rain from falling.' He thought absentmindedly as he walked to his favourite haunt, the memorial stone. 'And with the falling of the rain comes the cool numbness that I need… So let the rain fall down.'
He bent down, crouching near the muddy earth in front of the unmovable grey stone. He ran his fingers over the names and then began talking.
"I have always loved the rain, Obito. It was a constant reminder that everything has a weakness. My mother used to say that when it rained, it was the sky and the heavens crying."
"But to me, the rain was more a relief, rather than grief. Whenever I am hurting, or am tired of the world, I want it to rain. It numbs my body and mind. It helps me stay away from nightmares. When I was younger, I would fall asleep immediately, if it was raining. The noise of the rain kept my nightmares at bay, and only let my dreams accompany me in my sleep."
"I was right. The rain does bring my dreams. It did tonight. The rain fell down, and it woke my dreams, but it washed away my sanity, and I lost my voice of reason. I gave in to my desires, but I was too afraid to let my dreams take over, so I ran away."
Kakashi sighed, looking down at his feet and then up at the name on the stone.
Uchiha Obito
"I didn't know what to do, and I still don't know what to do."
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haha, cliffy... kinda... don't worry though, as i said, i'll be putting up the next chapter as well, so PLEASE DON'T KILL ME!!!
Sorry, this chappie was a bit short...