Toms POV
When Mark stares it's just too cute. I cant wait for school to end everyday so I can see him for longer than the five minute walk to class. I just wanna hug and kiss him til I'm sore. Band practice with Mark is just heaven. Sometimes I think about ringing Scott up and telling him that practice is cancelled just so me and Mark can spend so time alone. I love to watch him play his bass. Just the way he stands, and jumps around like a happy little chipmunk. Mark is four years older than me so for now it seems we can never be. I will probably never tell how I feel because I know how important the band is Mark. Blink is his life, ya know? Music means everything me. I love Mark enough to hid my feelings to make him happy.
Mark came skateboarding with me today! It was amazing! He isn't the best skateboarder but he tries and I love him for that. I'm fucking awesome by the way! You should see the epic videos I have of my skateboarding tricks! I was flipping and doing all sorts of tricks while Mark sat and watched for a while, cos he hurt himself. I almost cried when he hit the pavement. I'm being completely serious. I never was see him cry. Oh God, I just love him so much. I wish he'd love me back. I wonder if he does… No probably not, Marks, like, almost eighteen, he would never go for a 14 year old GUY, when all the girls at school are throwing themselves are him cos "he's in a band."
Well, I got expelled today, great! I drank like a mouthful of beer at a school basketball, I didn't even wanna go to and they fucking expelled me! Well, jokes on them, I'm gonna be fucking famous. Me, Mark and Scott are gonna be BLINK! We are gonna be the worlds biggest fucking punk band ever! Fuck that piece of shit school. My parents are pissed though, so Mark said I can crash at his til it blows over (hah blows!). I get to stay in Marks room! BEST. DAY. EVER. Mark ditched school for the rest of day, to "comfort" me. In true Mark fashion, we rang up the school and I got to scream at them. My exact words were, "FUCKERS! YOU'LL REGRET KICKING ME OUT OF YOUR PIECE OF SHIT SCHOOL! I'M GONNA BE THE BIGGEST FUCKING PUNK ROCK STAR THIS WORLD HAS EVER SEEN. YOU MOTHER FUCKERS! JUST YOU FUCKING WAIT! Also Miss Butler's having sex with the janitor in the maintenance closet every lunch."
Yeah, I fucking did it. Afterwards, I was so hyped up on adrenaline that I kissed Mark in celebration. Best kiss ever. His lips are so soft and moist. You cant just peck them you HAVE to go in for more. I sat on his bed with my hands to his face, lightly kissing his lips, slowly speeding up until it was a full make out session. The best part was that he didn't even pull away. He was kissing me back! That lasted for ten minutes before I ripped his shirt off and started slowly licking his neck. I could feel him getting turned on so I kept going and going and going. But then Mark stood up and ran out of his room, muttering "I'm sorry I cant do this" on the way out the door. "Where are you going Mark? THIS IS YOUR ROOM!" The front door slammed and I fell to the floor in tears. I cried more than I probably should of.
It was that moment that I realised, I was in love with Mark Hoppus.