Chapter Two
AN: I wasn't planning on writing chapter two but after reading your reviews I decided to continue it, thank you for the support and lovely messages.
It has been months since Sasuke is with Hinata.
They're not exactly lovers but they are just friends.
Just friends.
Laying down on the grass at Konoha Park Sasuke inwardly sighed in contentment as he can feel her soft and gentle fingers run through his scalp, ever since he lost his sense of sight the sense of touch and hearing become his best friends. His fingers slowly trail around the soft skin of her arms and how sensitive her neck is every time Sasuke trace his fingers near her jawline and collarbone.
'I want to stay this way forever.'
He thinks as the corners of his lips slowly lift in happiness, when he's with Hinata everything just seems perfect. Listening to her humming a melodic tune or rambling about her students in Sarutobi Academy makes Sasuke's day better, listening to the cheerful barking of her dog Luna running off in the distance. It's like his life is focused on her kindness and beauty, the beauty that his imagination cannot be justified. It has been months since he last went to the hospital, he refused to get his eyes checked knowing that his vision won't be returned in the long haul.
Thoughts swirling in his mind, both the good and bad. Worrying that he can't see any more and he will be blind forever, depending on his brother and parents like he's a child again. Worried that one day Hinata will get bored of him and his dull personality and mood swings, worried that he can never see her smile or can never see her eyes twinkle when he tries to blandly crack up a joke-
"Sasuke?"
He can feel a soft touch on his cheeks, her thumb caressing his jaw line and Hinata whispered
"Is there something wrong? Do you want to talk about it?"
Despite on being a shy and meek person, Sasuke knows that Hinata always understand him. Then he replied casually "Nothing, it's just I haven't been visiting the doctor lately." A sudden shift in their comfortable position, he can feel the tension of Hinata's muscles every time he mentions the word doctor it seems like Hinata's mood will suddenly have a 180 degree turn.
"Oh."
Awkward silence, he can hear Luna's barks even louder and the wind whipped on his face then he can hear her continue "I-I think you should go and visit the doctor, it's beneficial for you."
Sasuke cocked his neck slightly with his eyebrows raised; the only thing that runs through his head is how odd Hinata is acting. She never suggested for him to visit the doctor, usually she shrugs it off and avoids the topic. Sasuke can't help but asked
"Why? You never encouraged me to visit the doctor before, why now?"
He can hear her sharply inhale and replied with hesitancy "Because, it's good for you. You need to get your eyes checked maybe you can still see again."
Sasuke placed his hands on the gauze that is wrapped to cover his eyes "I'll go if you will go with me."
He can feel Hinata slowly sitting up and pulling away from him with her dog Luna nuzzling comfortably on his back then she replied carefully "No, Sasuke do this for yourself please."
"But-"
"Hinata,"
Another baritone voice interrupted their conversation, Sasuke grumbled and murmured "Itachi stop interrupting us, can't you see that we're having a serious conversation here." Sasuke sneered angrily, he never felt agitated towards Hinata but right now he needs to know why she's refuse to join him. He wants her to be next to him, she makes him feel comfortable and safe.
He can here Itachi tapping his shoes impatiently and replied "Hinata needs to leave now Sasuke, her cousin is here to pick her up." Sasuke lowered his head and gripped on the damp grass, he can hear Hinata being hoisted up and her dog barking excitedly. Then her soft footsteps drew close to him and whispered
"I'm sorry Sasuke, maybe next time I'll join you." She leaned down and kissed his forehead, she always does this before she bid goodbye. Sasuke nodded tiredly and waved goodbye, he's familiar with her, and he knows almost everything about her.
It's just that he can't understand her.
"So you're telling me that you want to get your eyes checked again?"
Sasuke nodded as his fingers slowly feel the metal ridges of the spoon and fork and carefully sipping on the cup of tomato juice, "Yeah, I just need to know if I actually still have the chance to see again." He can feel Itachi slowly smirking and the scraping of the wood signifies that Itachi is leaning on the chair casually and he replied
"Okay, I'll set an appointment for you."
Sasuke continued eating slowly, chewing on the tender bits of meat and the crunchy texture of the lettuce and the burst of flavours coming from the tomato salad. The Itachi asked "What is wrong with you and Hinata earlier?" Sasuke continued eating and gripping on the metal fork tightly and replied
"I don't know, I guess she's not in the mood earlier."
Itachi his perceptive and highly intelligent, the rational and logical type then Itachi replied quietly "I think there is more than that." Sasuke refused to reply, he knows that Itachi can read people and understand more than what meets the eye.
"Your eyes are in a better condition now Sasuke," Doctor Tsunade pulled away from a brief moment and grabbed the clipboard. Her assistant Shizune stepped towards the younger Uchiha to wrap back the gauze on his eyes, as the doctor continues
"It seems like treatment is doing you well, we found possible donors for your eye surgery-"
"I don't want to do an eye surgery." Sasuke replied tersely, placing his hands comfortably on his lap his eyes are finally covered with gauze.
"What?" Itachi's voice broke out sharply he can feel the penetrating glare of his older brother as Sasuke continues
"It doesn't feel right, I don't want to do something that only gives me a 50 percent chance of survival and possibly cause even more damage in the veins connecting my eyes." Sasuke replied monotonously, his body is begging for him to leave this sterile damned hospital and wrap his arms around Hinata's embrace.
"That's full of bull-"
"Mr. Uchiha that's enough let your brother decide what's best for him. He understands his body more than anyone. But Sasuke you need to know that you have a strong potential to see again, I don't want you to miss that opportunity." Tsunade's strong voice boomed inside the office, he can sense the shift of Itachi's body as the metal plates of the chair screech sharply on the tiled floors.
Sasuke lowered his head and gripped the fabric of his jeans even tighter; he's done with letting people control his decisions.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?"
Itachi uncharacteristically slammed the driver seat door, turning on the engine and shifted the brakes; Sasuke knows that his brother is fuming. He can feel the thick, heavy and tense air inside their car, it used to have more room but with Itachi's anger blasting off it seems to be suffocating.
"I want to decide on my own; can't you just let me decide what's best for me?"
The tires of the car screeched off the highway, no background noise just them inside the car, angry and pissed at each other.
"Sasuke, we know what you need. We've done therapy and everything is perfectly fine the surgery can help-"
"No! Things will get worse if I do the surgery, I don't give a damn if I can't see."
"That's bullshit, you're full of bullshit. Stop saying that you don't care!"
Itachi's voice echoed inside the car, he pulled over the open space near the diner he and Sasuke used to go when they're younger. Itachi placed his head on the steering wheel breathing deeply trying to regain his control; he looked at his younger brother Sasuke whose face remains blank and passive.
"I do care Itachi, it's just I don't see the point anymore."
"Why? One day your happy, alive and freaking fantastic then next thing I know you're some sort of rebellious, depressed ass-"
"So what if I don't know what to feel?!" Sasuke screamed his fists slamming on the side of the car, his veins are throbbing painfully.
"Itachi, I want to make my own damn decisions. I want to do things in my own fucking accord can't you give me a sense of independence?"
A scoff Itachi gave in return and with bitterness laced on his voice he replied
"Last time we gave you the sense of independence you lost your eyesight, so what's next? You're sense of hearing?"
Itachi gapsed and realized how cruel and horrible he sounded, covering his hand on his mouth as he tries to spurt out apologizes but he realise the damage is done. Sasuke's body in hunched and trembling as his fists tighten even more on the fabric of his pants, his raven tresses is obscuring Itachi to see Sasuke's face but he knows, he knows that his brother is silently crying.
"Sasuke I'm so-"
"Don't say it."
Sasuke interrupted him with scorn on his voice, lowering his head even more. He's defeated and even his own brother slapped harsh words on his face.
This time it hurts so much, it's unbearable.
Hinata lay down on her soft white bed sheets, her opalescent eyes are covered with gauze. Her hands placed comfortably on her stomach as her breath in and out calming counting numbers and tracing her fingers on her stomach, as her cousin Neji entered the room he asked
"Are you feeling better now? We can order something to eat-"
"I'm fine Neji, just I want to know what the doctor told you."
Neji slowly sat on the chair next to her bed, placing his hand on top of hers and he replied hesitantly
"There are zero chances that you can see again Hinata."
And after years of controlling her emotions, this time tears broke out and dripped down her cheeks. There is no more chances, no more hope, she's been blind since she's young. What's the point of trusting herself and the doctors that she can see again, even science told her that there is no possibility.
'I'm going to be blind forever.'
Hinata cried freely, everything seems to be numb and dark forever.
AN: I know it's a pretty depressing chapter but I just people to see the internal conflicts Sasuke and Hinata have, people asked me if Sasuke is suffering through depression in the first chapter and he is but he's not clinically diagnosed. I wasn't planning on continuing Blind Date but I'll probably throw in a few more chapters. Just ask stuff in the review box and I'll try my best to answer it on the next chapter.
Thank you for reading! :)