Hello :) wow you are all probably going to beat me, it's been like a week :( I'm sorry lol, but, here is another story, way longer than my other chapters, in anything lol, so hopefully you will like it :)
This is rated M.
For language though. For those wondering lol.
Now this 'story' or throwing punches at ocean waves, which this is under, will be a series of short stories, one shots, whatever you want to call them. So I'll put a lot of my one shots here. I hope you all enjoy :)
Star gazing
Sakura twisted the knob, hot water began spraying out of the shower head above her, showering her skin and hair with hot water. It wet her pink hair, plastering it to her skull, next it ran down her face, over her chest and stomach, finally flowing over her long pale legs and gathering in a small pool on the tub floor. From there, Sakura watched as it swirled, being sucked and eaten by the yawning drain. She stared down at the dirty water, like always, it still looked clear and clean as it fell away into the drain.
After she was done in the shower, she stepped out, drying her body off, steam still sat heavily in the room, warming her skin as she stood with a towel around her thin body. Sakura wiped the mirror in her bathroom, staring at her reflection.
'They're right' She thought it simply, staring at herself. 'My forehead's too big, my eyes are too green, my hair's an obnoxious natural pink. I'm too skinny, I don't have breasts, I don't have an ass. My legs are too long, my skin is too pale, my feet and hands are too big.'
She looked at all these parts of her body as she thought them, thinking of what Karin had said to her that day, again, in school. She frowned at herself. All the things wrong with her added up equaled everything she was. She was all wrong, built wrong, painted by God wrong, she just looked... ugly. She felt like no one liked looking at her, not even her mother.
She looked down at her pale skin, her small breasts, and her hipbones, wishing she could fill herself in with something. Give herself breasts, give herself an ass, make her hair a black or brown, maybe even blonde or red. Anything besides her stupid bubble gum pink.
The girl sighed, thinking of all the things she disliked about herself. It just made her sad. To think of how ugly she was. To think of all the things she did wrong in a day, to think that no one liked her. That no one wanted her.
She just felt useless.
Worthless even.
Sakura walked into her bedroom, pulling on her favorite pair of skinny jeans, the ones that hugged her hips just right, the ones that were red. Along with her red skinnys, she threw on her new t-shirt, white with a dinosaur on the front. She sat down and added black eye liner, ringing her green eyes with it, straitening her hair, teasing her shorter layers so the bottom was straight, and the top layers were puffed up.
She sat, looking at her pink hair and green eyes, her clothes and make up, trying to decide if she looked okay enough to even leave the house. It still didn't look like she had breasts, or an ass, but she felt like the clothes were her, and even though people looked at her oddly when she walked by in the small city, she felt these were the only things that could possibly protect her.
She grabbed a grey hoodie and her purse, and headed down stairs for the doorway, to go meet her best and only friend in the entire world.
"Where the fuck do you think you're going?" Sakura's mother sat at the kitchen table, a cigarette was hanging between two of her fingers, lacing the air with small wisps of smoke.
"S-sasuke and I were going to go out tonight..." The twin pairs of jade eyes stared across from each other. Sakura soon lowered hers however, as her mother glared at her with more menace.
"So you and your bastard are going to go out tonight huh? Spend all of the money that I have to make to pay for your ass to live anywhere huh?" Sakura's mom had a bottle of cheap beer sitting by her too. "You cunt," the mother whispered.
Sakura's green eyes widened. "W-we're not going to spend money..."
"Just get the fuck out." Sakura stood for a moment, to see if that's what her mom really meant, and when the mother didn't even spare a glance at her daughter, Sakura quickly left the house.
She stepped out into the fall air, it was chilly and it wrapped around the thin girl's skin, making her feel something, if only a little, something like freedom. Tears had started to pull at her jade eyes, and she quickened her step when she realized she might be late. She rounded a few corners and walked across the city of Konoha, searching for the small areas of green right outside of the city limits.
Druggies and whores stood on all the corners, men winked at her, and the women glared. "Hey honey, why don't you come over here, I'd love to take you out for a drink tonight." The man standing in front of her had silver greying hair, it looked as though his face were scarred, Sakura's jade eyes widdened.
"O-oh, n-no," She stuttered, trying to walk past him. Her heart picked up a faster beat in her chest.
"You going somewhere? Because whoever you're going to meet, I can promise you that I can show you a more pleasurable night, love, come here." He reached a large hand out, grabbing Sakura's wrist, attempting to pull her closer.
"N-no, p-please let me go..." Sakura struggled in his grasp, he was old but there was still strength in the man. She couldn't break free.
"Just one night, I promise you won't forget it, you won't regret it either," Sakrua continued to struggle, trying to pull her slim wrist free, backing away from the old man, "You little cunt, come here!" He tugged on her wrist unexpectedly, knocking the girl off balance so that she slammed into his chest.
"Now there we are," He leaned down and started kissing along Sakura's neck. He put a hand behind her head, forcing her to stay where she was, his other hand rested on her hip, though he snuck his fingers under her shirt, feeling her soft pale skin. She could smell his foul breath, and his hands felt like dirt on her.
"Stop it," she cried, tears running over her pale cheeks, "Let me go."
There were running footsteps and she heard the man half moan in pain. Sakura turned her head all that the man's hand would allow her. Her jade eyes met Sasuke's onyx ones.
"Leave her go asshole," Sasuke said, the old man looked at him, pain in his old eyes. Sakura looked down and saw that Sasuke had a knife in his large hand. "Let her go." He said it simply. The man complied when he saw the silver glittering of the blade in Sasuke's hand. "And don't ever touch her again." he said, lacing one of his arms around Sakura's waist as the man took his slimy hands off of her.
They walked away, past other streets, other druggies, and past other whores. Sasuke felt the girl shiver against him, he felt her heart racing too. The two only walked farther through the city. Finally the buildings began to disperse. Only the scattering of concrete here and there, they saw trees growing around now, large beautiful trees. Their leaves left their summer coats of bright vibrant healthy green for their more earthy fall coats. Brilliant reds and lush dark crisp browns. The yellows looked luminescent with the oranges, reds, and browns behind them.
The sky canvas was streaked with golds and royal purples, blending with pinks brighter than Sakura's hair, leading into the oncoming violet darkness, with black tainting the edges of the violet.
The pair finally reached their destination. A large tree on a small hill, with perfect view of the sky. Sasuke gently let go of his best friend's waist and he stretched himself out on the ground below her, putting his arms back behind his head. His eyes were closed momentarily like he was napping from a long day. "Come lay next to me Sak," He said, his voice filled her ears and began to calm her still tense nerves.
She complied to his wish and laid down next to him, though leaving her arms by her side, she stared up into the heavens, wishing herself away from this place. The gorgeous colors still stained the sky, although the violet leaked on the other colors, casting a dark shadow over the sky canvas, casting the city below in deep shadows. The buildings and lights were beautiful to the eye, but the city itself was anything but.
They laid in silence for some minutes, the air around them was crisp, but fresh air. Air they could never get in the god forsaken city. It filled their young lungs and seemed to fill them with some sort of peace.
"I'm sorry I couldn't get there faster Sakura," Sasuke said, his dark eyes were still closed. Sakura watched him breath for a minute, staring at his chest as it lifted up and down with his every inhale and exhale. Sasuke always seemed so strong, even his breathing made Sakura feel weak and sickly.
"You saved me." The girl said simply, letting her small words fill the large air around them. The boy grunted in response. The silence ate at them again, leaving its quiet marks as Sakura stared up at the coming stars.
They were beautiful and breath taking. The light from millions upon millions of miles and light years away. They all didn't come out at the same time, some popped out immediately, being stronger than some of the other stars, shinning their silvery light brightest. But the weak stars began to show too. After the violet over took all of the sky, with the silver dotting the darkness. It was a wonder, awe inspiring.
The moon peeked out too, it was large and almost full, a small black crescent was the only thing missing from the giant ball in the sky. There were barely any clouds hanging around in the sky, the ones that were were small and fragile, thin smokey wisps, just floating around up above all of the people's heads.
"I like you laying with me Sak," Sasuke said. He finally opened his onyx eyes, staring at the stars. "I wish we could lay together all the time."
Sakura didn't say anything to that. Simply watching the twinkling silvery lights in the sky. It made her startled heart skip a beat, starting its racing again.
Sasuke sighed. He turned his head, ever so slightly, so he could look at the girl's pretty face. He saw the sadness swimming below the jade in her eyes. "Sak, what's wrong?" he asked.
"W-what? O-oh, n-nothing Sasuke, I'm fine, nothing is wrong." She pasted a small smile on her face. A well known sign that she would be fine.
But Sasuke knew she was lying. "Tell me Sakura," he said it simply, sitting up and looking down at her so she couldn't look away from him. She tried to tell him no again, but he continued to stare at her, telling her with his eyes that he knew her better than for her thin lies to work on him.
So she opened her small mouth, telling him of Karin and how the red haired girl looked at Sakura as if she were merely a bug on the bottom of her shoe. She told Sasuke how her mother thought she was nothing. How she sometimes felt like nothing. And how it was like no one in the world, except for him, was there for her. Tears stepped down along her cheeks, down into her hair as she continued to lay back in the grass.
As she spoke, she felt like her heart were breaking, shattering in her chest. Leaving her breathless and without any strength.
"I just wonder what it would be like if I just wasn't here anymore." Her jade eyes took in the stars. "If I just died... or something. Mom would only have to worry about herself. Karin would be happy the pink blob wasn't in her sight anymore. You could find a girl worth talking to. It would probably just be better for everyone." Sasuke reached his hand down, wiping the tears from Sakura's cheek, waiting for her to be finished.
"I-i... I mean look at me Sasuke..." she looked down at herself and a confused expression over took the teenage boy's beautiful face. "I'm ugly and worthless... I shouldn't even be here..." her throat was thick and she choked some. "I shouldn't even be here." she whispered, closing her eyes.
"Are you done now?" Sasuke asked her quietly, Sakura nodded her head. Tears leaked from her closed eyes.
Sakura felt something soft pressed against her lips. Something so so soft, delicate, and very very gentle. As if too much pressure would break her.
She slowly opened her jade eyes when the softness left her lips, and she saw Sasuke watching her. "What was that?" Sakura asked.
The boy held his breath for a second, "You know what that was." he said simply, looking away from her, as if he were embarrassed.
"But why?" Sakura asked him, confusion raced through her mind and it passed across Sasuke's face.
His black brows furrowed, "Because I like you..." He said it as if it were obvious.
Sakura shook her pink head. "No." she said simply. Sasuke repeated the word as a question. "We can't do that." She said it easily. "We can't do that. I can't lose you."
"Sakura you're not going to lose me." Sasuke said still looking down on her, leaning over her.
"Sasuke all relationships end like that. Someone gets hurt. They never work. I can't lose you. You're the only thing I have." The girl sat up, pulling her legs close to her chest. "I can't lose you."
"Sakura I'm not going to hurt y-"
"Stop it!" Tears ran from her eyes. She hugged her knees, feeling the shards of her shattered heart break more. "We can't." She said, she looked at him, begging him to understand. "Sasuke we can't..."
Sakura thought she saw something like anger pass behind his black eyes, but he hid it by looking at the ground, shadowing his eyes from her with his black fringe of bangs. When he looked back up at her he had a small smile on his face. "Which stars are your favorite Sakura?" Sasuke asked her randomly.
"Th-the weak ones," the girl said looking up at the stars, "they're so small but I think they are the most beautiful of all."
Sasuke sat for a minute, thinking this through. "I sure wish I could leave this damn town." Sasuke said, laying back down, but moving a foot or two away from the girl.
"I'd leave and never come back if I could." He said, staring up into the heavens, putting his hands behind his head once more. "I'd never come back." he half whispered to himself.
The well known silence came back again, nudging its way between the two. It was more tense than any of the others they had ever had. "I'm sorry." Sakura said after some minutes of being swallowed by the quiet.
"Let's go." the boy said, ignoring that Sakura had said anything. "We don't want your mom freaking out anymore than she normally does."
He stood and shoved his hands into his hoodie pockets, waiting for Sakura to get up to before he started walking away from the hill, the girl followed him, quietly, until they made it back to her home. Sakura turned to tell him thank you for walking her home, but when she looked behind her, he was already walking away from her.
Sakura walked into school the next day. Some sort of sadness clung to her insides, pulling her mood down. She had tried to talk to Sasuke, but he refused to come with her to talk. He just stayed with his friends, telling her that they could talk later.
Naruto, Sasuke's best guy friend, watched as the pink haired girl walked away from them, looking, if possible, sadder than she did when she had walked up to them. "Teme," Naruto started, changing his gaze and settling it on his black haired, skinny jean wearing friend. "Isn't that the Sakura girl you, like, love?"
"Yes it is dobe." he said gathering all of his books out of his red locker, "Why?" he asked.
"Why does she look so sad?" Naruto asked. "She's so shy, she doesn't talk to anyone but you and you just refused to talk to her, and you, like, love her teme."
Sasuke nodded, "I do Naruto, I love her." Naruto's blue eyes took Sasuke in, waiting for him to expand upon his answer. "I saved her from that one old idiot. You know, the one that watches all those women bathe and tries to have sex with whoever accidentally steps too close to him. And she was talking to me, telling me how I'm the only person she really has, and she basically said the world would be better without her. And then I kissed her. Because I want her to know that I can't live without her. And she told me she couldn't do it Naruto." Sasuke's black eyes hung on the floor.
"That's deep teme," Naruto said, looking down from his friend. "I didn't know." He said, staring at his black chucks and the dirty hallway floor. "Maybe you should talk to her?" Naruto said. "That's the only thing I would try and do."
Sasuke nodded as he slammed his locker shut. "I'm going to English now." He stepped away from his friend, walking down the hallway slowly, accidentally knocking into people, and letting out a small quiet "sorry" every time he did.
Sasuke pulled in front of the girl's house around 8 the next night. He walked up to the door, knocking quietly.
An older looking woman opened the door, "What the hell do you want?" She spit at him, the jade eyes she had were so similar to Sakura's that Sasuke took a minute to answer.
"Is Sakura here?" he asked the woman easily,unfazed by her angry greeting. The woman grumbled a yes and backed up into her house, screaming for her daughter to 'get down here'. Sasuke waited by the doorway quietly. Sakura ran down the stairs, wondering why her mom was calling for her, she saw Sasuke and slowed to a stop at the base of the stairs.
"Put your shoes on, and come out with me." He said before turning and leaving the house himself. He walked around his black car, opening the driver's door and sitting down in the seat. He let the motor idle for a moment, as the pink haired teenager ran out of her house to see what he wanted.
She opened up the passenger door, leaned over and asked him what he wanted. "Get in." he commanded, she obeyed him again, and sat down in the seat. Her hair was damp and curling from her shower, she had on normal blue jean skinnies and a black skull hoodie.
After the girl shut the door, Sasuke pushed the gas pedal to the floor and took the break off, sliding out of the parking space in front of Sakura's house. He sped down the road, past all of the corners and past the bars and dirt of the small city.
"I want to leave this place." The black haired boy said. He changed gears as he hit the highway, zooming away from the city. "I hate it here Sakura. I hate the people, the streets, the buildings, everything."
Sakura didn't know what to say, so she simply sat, waiting to see if that was the only reason he picked her up, to tell her he was leaving.
"You said two days ago that you wished you didn't have to be here so I could talk to a real girl. You told me you believed everything Karin ever said to you. And every time your own mother calls you a cunt you just bow your head and believe all the shit she tells you. You think you're so worthless Sakura. You think that you're nothing. And you think that no one cares about you."
They drove in silence for some moments. Sakura turned her face away from the teenager beside her. He heard as she sobbed quietly, he knew she was crying, he knew she would start crying. He knew it would happen, and he hardened himself before he had even come to pick her up. He let his black eyes glance over at her quickly, saw her long fingers furiously wiping at her face, saw how her shoulders fell, still believing everything the people told her.
He snapped his eyes back to the road, the sky canvas was darkening again, bleeding black through the puffy clouds in the sky. He slammed the gas down again. The tires of his black car screeched, trying to give him the speed he was pushing it to reach.
Sakura jumped a little when she saw how fast he was going, "S-sasuke," She stuttered out, "s-slow down, we're going to wreck."
He ignored her, the road began to twist and turn around corners, getting tighter and tighter, "Sasuke," the pink haired girl said again.
"You don't even want to be here anymore do you? It doesn't matter, just sit and trust me." He said it simply, the engine roared beneath them, no other cars passed them as they flew over the asphalt road.
After about another half hour of the reckless driving, Sasuke slammed his breaks on, again causing the tires to squeal in indignation. He parked the black beast under a weeping willow. The teenager unbuckled his seat belt, opening his door, "Get out," he said. Sakura followed him out of the car, tears still tracked down over her cheeks.
The boy sighed, casting his eyes up to the new stars. "Sak," he started, "Tell me again which stars are your favorite."
"That's all you want?" She said, her pink brows furrowing. "You know that already Sasuke. Why did you bring me here?" Sakura cried, looking at the ground. "I don't know where we are, what are we doing here?"
"Just tell me once more Sakura," Sasuke said. "Which ones are your favorite?"
"I like all of them," she said simply, the boy dropped his onyx eyes on her, raising an eyebrow of his own. "Th-the small ones," she said weakly, "The small ones are my favorite."
"And why is that?" the black haired boy asked her, looking back up at the stars, somewhat pleased that she said her favorite stars.
"Because they're small and weak, but they're still beautiful." Sakura said, she was still confused though, "Sasuke what does that have to do with anything."
The boy sighed, "Who makes fun of those small stars and means it?"
"The big stars? I don't know Sasuke just talk normal and not ask questions as answers to my questions." Sakura half glared at him.
Sasuke looked back up at the stars. "Little stars are so beautiful, Sakura," he turned his black eyes onto her jade ones. "You're an idiot for believing that Karin bitch and your mom." The teenage boy said it easily. "You're like the small stars Sakura," he looked down at the ground and in the growing darkness, Sakura couldn't tell for sure, but she thought she saw some pink lace into his pale cheeks. He put his hands in his pockets.
He still let his onyx eyes watch the dark ground. "You don't understand how beautiful you are, Sakura. Your stupid, but cute pink hair, your jade eyes, your pale skin. You're so thin, you look delicate, a-as if your breakable. Innocent and amazing, I just want to protect you, and I want to take you away from this place."
He let his eyes slowly meet hers, "I want you to come with me after we graduate. I'm going to buy a house, and you can live in it with me, we can both go to college together, I want you to come with me Sakura... I want to keep you in my arms so I can protect you from all the shit these assholes throw at you. Y-you deserve so much more. I-i know your scared, but please believe me..." He choked, taking a shaking breath.
"I-i'll never leave you Sak," he held her gaze, and she saw how scared he was. "I-i... I love you Sakura, and I want you to be mine."
His whole being seemed to hold in every breath, even down to his molecular level, it was like even his cells stopped moving. Like he simply froze after he let the long lingering words out of his mouth. His heart beat crazily in his chest, it had never beat like that before. His hands were shaking, and he was so scared. Scared she would reject him for her fear again.
Sasuke saw tears in the girl's jade eyes, his brows furrowed, she walked up to him and wrapped her thin arms around his waist. "Why are you crying?" Sasuke asked alarmed, she wasn't supposed to be sad, his heart fell. She felt bad for him. This was her saying no, and she was crying from hurting him. He was about to push her away from him when she suddenly lifted her head to look at him, and then Sasuke felt her soft lips pushed against his.
His heart leaped in his chest, he felt the girl tighten her arms around him. He also felt her tears running down her cheeks. Sasuke lifted a hand and ran it through the girl's soft pink hair, his other hand sat on her hip, gently holding her in place.
He waited until he felt her start to pull away from him before he opened his eyes and looked at her face. His raven brows were furrowed, and he searched her face as she searched his. He brushed her pink hair from her face again. "What does that mean Sak?" the boy asked her, she offered him a small smile.
"What do you think it means?" she laughed a little as he looked at her as if saying 'really?' with his face. "It means y-yes Sasuke," she showed him another small smile. "it means I want to leave this place with you..."
Sasuke laced his strong arms around the girl's tiny waist, pulling her tightly into his arms. Sakura wrapped her own thin arms around the boy's neck. He kissed her cheeks and her eyelids, her forehead, her lips. He smiled at her, "I'll protect you Sakura," he buried his face into the side of her neck, "I promise I'll always be here with you."
Okay that was the end of that one, thank you for reading, and please please tell me what you think, I would totally love to hear what you have to say :)
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