Carly laid a hand on Jason's bear shoulder. He was real. He felt real. Ok so this wasn't a fantasy. It was reality. Jason moved under her touch and he turned towards her. "Good Morning" He said. "I didn't mean to wake you." Carly replied. Jason took a finger and traced her jaw line. "You didn't wake me. " There was a long silence and then Jason finally said, "I owe you an apology." Carly went ridged. She knew what was coming next. Everything that had happened would be chalked up to a mistake and something that could never happen again. "I should have never…"
Carly didn't let him finish. She jumped out the bed and put on her robe. "It's okay. You don't have to apologize. I know last night was just two hurt friends comforting each other. You don't have to worry about me. I get it. We both needed to feel needed. You don't have to worry about me getting all emotional attached. I understand it for what it was."
Jason watched as Carly rambled on as she got dress. Was that all last night had meant to her. Did she not see that last night meant so much more to him? He wanted her. He really wanted her and she was acting like they were best buds with French benefits. "That's not what I was going to say." He told her. But Carly was still going on about how their relationship would not change because of this one night. How could it not, he thought. Everything had changed. Everything was different.
Carly had no idea what she was saying all she knew was Jason was about to apologize for making love to her and she needed to be the first to make it seem like it was no big deal. He was about to tell her he had made a mistake and she would not be able to stomach those words out his mouth so she kept rambling on trying to get dress as fast as she could so she could leave. Morning had come and with it was the realization that Jason regretted their night together. Well she wasn't going to let one amazing night ruin ten plus years of friendship. She was going to make it ok for both her and Jason. "So you don't have to apologize because there is nothing to apologize for. What happened, happened and we both know it won't be happening again." She finished putting on her shoes. "I have to pick up the kids from Jax. Lock up when you leave." And just like that she was gone.
Jason was flabbergasted. Carly had taken what happened between them last night and trivialized it. He had wanted to apologize to her for not telling her his feelings first before making love to her. He had wanted to tell her that he loved her, was in love with her and had always been so. He wanted her to know that he wanted them to work. Wanted there to be a them. But she didn't want any of it. She wanted to go on like last night never happened. She wanted to pretend that he had not bared his soul to her last night in their love making. Jason got up and quickly got dressed. What was he to do now? He could not be just her friend.
Carly found herself crying all the way to Metro Court. She had finally gotten the man she dreamed of and he regretted ever second of it. How dirty she felt. She had given him her body and soul and he…well he was just needing her comfort. She couldn't believe how stupid she had been. While Jason had laid there sleep she had watched him and dreamed of a life with him. She had dreamed of coming home to him every day and waking to him every morning. She had pictured children. She saw them growing old together. "Stupid, stupid, stupid" she said to herself. How was she going to now pull this off? See Jason and not want more. Not need more. Being just friends was going to hard.