Misery Loves The Company Of A Blade – alternative ending
Now, I know the second chapter had really good reviews (I thank you) and this is a special part for Akira Nishikawa, because she mentioned that she was surprised that Sasuke survived. So, here is the alternate ending, just for her! Also, thank you to Iysu Uchiha for the constructive criticism for the first chapter!
I'm starting from a little bit into the story, so you know what's going on. Yes, I'm starting with the hardcore suicide shit.
I don't own Naruto. If I did, instead of fighting at the Valley of the End, they would have made sweet, beautiful love by the waterfall (cheesy, I know XD)
With Sasuke
Taking a brand new razor blade, he drunkenly slashed his wrists, much deeper than he had before. That one cut was enough for him. He didn't want anything to do with this world any longer. He sat in the shower, letting the blood run down his arm and stain his clothes and the shower floor.
His eyes drooped. Darkness took him.
With Naruto and Gaara
Naruto laid back on the bed, spent after his orgasm. Gaara laid down next to him.
'You should try again with Sasuke,' Gaara said. Naruto nodded. He really needed to apologise to his best friend.
'You're right. I feel so bad.' Naruto nodded, wincing at the pain of bottoming for the first time ever.
'How do you do it?' Gaara asked him. Naruto faced him.
'Do what?'
'Care so much? I mean, I had such a bad childhood, and I've only ever really cared about you. You care for everyone, even if they don't mean well. So...how?'
'I dunno. I guess they're worth it, and I can see that.' Gaara wrapped his arms around Naruto, and brought him closer. Naruto winced, as the movement hurt his back a little.
'Go and see Sasuke. I'm genuinely worried about him, and you. He hasn't been right for a while.'
'The dust needs to settle before we talk. It happens all the time. I'll see him in the morning.' Gaara gave him a questioning look, but it was true. Whenever Naruto and Sasuke argued over something major, they would both sulk and sleep it off. In the morning, they would come to realise how silly they were, and they would forgive each other over breakfast. It was the usual ritual for them, and it's been that way since they started living together.
'Whatever, I hope it works out. I don't want you losing your best friend. Let's get some sleep, okay?' Gaara kissed the top of Naruto's head, before laying his head on the pillow. Naruto's head soon followed.
Next morning
Sasuke didn't turn up to breakfast. This worried Naruto.
'Sasuke? Breakfast's ready!' he shouted this as he sat at Sasuke's door, continually knocking.
'Sasuke? If you don't answer the door, I'll come in anyway! This isn't like you!'
Naruto was getting worried now. Sasuke always showed up at some point. Standing up, he turned the door handle, thinking it would be locked. However, the door opened, and Naruto walked in.
Sasuke wasn't in the bedroom. However, the stench of booze lingered from the night before. Bottles were littered everywhere.
Naruto's gaze focused on some light, coming from the bathroom. Following the light source, he looked towards the bathroom, where the sight that greeted him wasn't pleasant.
'GAARA! CALL AN AMBULANCE!' Naruto shouted, before running into the bathroom, and focusing entirely on Sasuke.
After examining him, Naruto couldn't find a pulse, or a heartbeat, or anything that signalled that there was some life in the Uchiha.
'Please, don't leave me. I'm so sorry.'
The paramedics came quickly – much quicker than expected. Naruto sat on the bed while the paramedics examined Sasuke. Dread filled Naruto with every second that passed. Every second that felt like an hour. Even Gaara's soothing touch did nothing to help.
'I'm so sorry,' one of the paramedic's voices rang out, 'we did everything we could.'
Naruto felt his heart shatter instantly. His best friend...his Sasuke...gone.
Naruto would never look into his onyx eyes again.
Naruto would never hear his voice again.
Naruto would never see him smile again (not that he did much).
Naruto would never see him live again.
Three days later
Naruto sat in the armchair. He kept hoping that this was some sick April Fool's joke. The police interrogation was horrendous. Both Naruto and Gaara were in the police station for hours, going over and over the details as to how Sasuke died. In the end, the cause of death was known as 'suicide'.
The school was to hold a memorial service, but Naruto couldn't face it. Naruto had already ended things with Gaara. It happened after the police interrogation in the afternoon of Sasuke's death.
Flashback
'Naruto, how did the interrogation go?' Gaara asked.
'I'm innocent. That's pretty obvious.' Naruto started to walk away, and out of the station. It had begun to rain.
'Naruto! I know you probably don't wanna be alone right now...'
'Please...SHUT UP!' Naruto shouted. Gaara flinched.
'Naruto...'
'I can't do this right now. None of this is your fault, but...I can't do this anymore...I mean, us. I'm sorry.'
Naruto completely broke down at this moment. Gaara, still obviously caring for Naruto, wrapped his arms around Naruto.
'Even if I can't be here for you as a boyfriend, let me be here as a friend?'
End flashback
Naruto cried at the memory. He held the quilt closer to him. The apartment felt so empty without Sasuke. The photo album lay on Naruto's lap, closed. A note was placed on top of it. It was dated from, strangely enough, the day that he and Gaara got together.
Naruto
If you're reading this, it means two things: either I'm dead, or you're being a loser and snooping round my things.
I doubt I can live much longer, with this pain I'm going through. For years, I've felt it. I doubted that it was right for me to have these feelings. I mean, how many people in the world frown upon homosexuals? That's not the point. I began to realise that it was normal, and people were just people. I began to feel more comfortable with myself when more and more people were 'coming out'.
The reaction I got from being gay was nothing compared to how I felt when I saw the man I love with someone else.
You see, I guess this is a good time to tell you that I love you, Naruto. More than a best friend should, really. But it hurt when I saw you kissing Gaara.
So if you're reading this, then that means I couldn't take it anymore.
Goodbye, my love,
Sasuke
Tears splodged some of the writing, but it was still eligible. This was Naruto's answer to the questions building up in his head. But it was still not enough.
Naruto looked through the photo album that he had recently dug up from the depths of his messy room. Most of the pictures featured him with Sasuke – he hadn't even seen the photo album since before he started dating Gaara.
"So pictures are the only way I'm going to get to see Sasuke again? This sucks. I need him. I love him.
Wait. I love him? Did I just think that?"
One week later
Sasuke's funeral took place on a rainy day, naturally enough. Nobody had realised until now how depressed he was. Even his brother, Itachi, had come for the service.
Naruto carried Sasuke's note with him at all times now. It reminded him of his stupidity. Even though he now knew why it had happened, his mind refused to process it. If anything, he was now confused about his own feelings.
Every night, he would sleep in Sasuke's room, cuddling the pillow. Naruto felt that if he believed hard enough, it would be Sasuke in his arms. Disappointment came every single morning when he judged the pillow to be too soft and squishy to be Sasuke. The only plus-side was that the pillow smelled of Sasuke.
School wasn't the same. Naruto's friends were always cautious around him. Gaara had somehow moved on with Rock Lee. For some reason, he didn't feel angry at his ex-boyfriend's suddenly moving on, or at Lee himself. Naruto just felt lonely.
Naruto had accepted his feelings for Sasuke, however begrudgingly. It was too late for him to do anything now.
And he cursed his own stupidity. He cursed himself for letting himself fall half-heartedly for Gaara instead of Sasuke.
All he needed right now was Sasuke.
It was a shame Sasuke was now six feet under.
One month later
The setting was so fitting for this moment. The Saturday morning was cold, and it had just started to rain. Like the broken man he was, Naruto wandered into the street with only a t-shirt and a pair of jeans on. His eyes were downcast, and he walked slowly. He didn't know why he did this earlier, but a lot had been on his mind today, and he felt that it was about time.
When he reached his destination, he collapsed on his knees. His shoulders shake as he starts crying.
'Sasuke...why? I would give anything just to hear you call me an idiot, or a loser, or anything! I just really want you back. I found your note that you left me, but it still hurts. It hurts that I realised too late...that I love you. Why did it have to be like this? I know I should have realised it sooner. All I want now is to touch you and be touched by you. I miss your eyes, your hair...everything about you. I know I'm too late. How do I live, knowing I couldn't even save one friend? I'm sorry for everything.'
Naruto placed a hand on the gravestone in front of him. He stayed like this for hours. The rain was soaking his clothes, making them stick to his skin. Naruto's tears and the rain mingled together.
Naruto, his energy draining, wrapped his arms around Sasuke's tombstone.
'I love you so much, Sasuke. I need you in my arms, not this fucking tombstone!'
This was when Naruto stood up. The rain receeded, and the sun started breaking through the clouds. Naruto looked up at the break in the clouds, and whispered:
'I'll be with you someday, Sasuke. I love you. I'm sorry.'
I had a similar sort of thing planned with a NaruGaa setting, but because I wrote this, I think I'll disregard the old story. That's because the endings were too similar, in my opinion. Also, I found some fanfics that took lines from other books. I didn't want to use lines from books unless they meant something, and even then, they would be quotes and will be quoted as such, and authors would be credited for the quote.
I CRIED WHILE WRITING THIS! DAMN!
Oh, and the note – of course you didn't see Sasuke write it. He'd written it when he started self-harming, so yeah.
This is finally IT for Misery Loves The Company Of A Blade. However, I might write a sequel. Who would like to see that? I like this pairing almost as much as Naruto and Gaara, so it was great that I could write both pairings into the story (as well as Gaara and Lee, they're another adorable couple).
NOTE: This is only an alternate ending. In the story, it doesn't happen this way at all. This was only a thank you to Akira Nishikawa and Iysu Uchiha for their great and helpful reviews!
Also, I mentioned a show in this story, where there are lie detectors and DNA test results and chavs? Well, I'm using the show format with Naruto and Sasuke for a different story. Watch this space for Naruto on The Jeremy Kyle Show, currently