Author's note: This takes place during season 2 post "Never Been Kissed." Finn and Rachel broke up a couple of weeks before, but are still good friends. Quinn and Sam have also decided to be just friends. Finn and Quinn aren't back together but it seems to be heading in that direction.
"Mom," Finn says, a few hours later when he wakes up and sees his Mom sitting in a chair beside his bed reading a book.
"Hey, sweetheart," Carole says sitting her book down on the little table beside Finn's bed. "Did you have a nice nap?"
"Yeah, I guess so," Finn says still not quite completely awake. "How long was I asleep?"
"Well, you were asleep when I came back in the room right after Burt left almost two hours ago."
"Sorry," Finn says.
"What are you sorry for?"
"I'm sorry for sleeping so long. I'm sure it's probably pretty boring just sitting there watching me sleep."
"Finn, you don't have to apologize for that. We both know it's the pain medicine that's making you so tired."
"I know, but it really sucks. I mean, since I woke up and became alert yesterday morning, I feel like all I do is eat and sleep. And am constantly being poked and prodded by doctors and nurses asking me "can you feel that?" or being woken up by nurses, even in the middle of the night, so they can take my temperature, check my blood pressure, change my diaper, and help me roll from one side to the other every so often so I don't get bed sores, Finn silently thinks to himself.
"Finn, that was two days ago. Your accident was Friday night and you gained consciousness early Saturday morning, it's now almost 4:00 Monday afternoon."
"My point exactly." Gosh, I'm so out of it I can't even keep track of what day it is.
"Yeah, but the good news is since they took your IV line out this morning and you're now on Tylenol with codeine instead of morphine you'll start feeling more alert; it isn't as powerful of a drug as morphine so you won't feel quite as drowsy."
"Then why did I just wake up from a two hour nap?"
"Because Tylenol with codeine is still a strong pain killer."
"Oh," Finn says, not knowing what else to say. The two sit in silence for several minutes, which just makes Finn feel even more awkward. "Mom," Finn says, finally breaking the awkward silence. "I'm sorry about earlier, I shouldn't have yelled at you like that."
"It's okay, that was a lot to have take in," Carole says.
"I made you cry though," Finn says as he remembers seeing his Mom walk out of his room hoping he wouldn't see her cry.
"Sweetheart, in some ways you getting angry about everything is a good thing because it means you're starting to realize and accept that this is really happening; that you're starting to accept that you're paralyzed. Hearing you say that you'll probably never walk again forced me to have accept that too, and that was really hard for me to have hear," Carole says as a few tears fall from her eyes.
"This whole thing just really sucks," Finn says.
"I know, but it's going to be okay. I know it won't be long before you're rolling around in your wheelchair having no problem keeping up with the rest of your friends."
"You think so?"
"I know so," Carole says trying to reassure him.
There's then a knock on the door. "Is somebody up for a visitor?" Burt asks as he walks into the room.
"I think so," Carole says, answering for Finn, which he knows means something's up.
"Yeah, it's fine," Finn says. Burt opens the rest of the way and Artie wheels himself into Finn's room.
"Look who I ran into," Burt says.
"Hey Finn," Artie says.
"Hey," Finn says with absolutely no enthusiasm. It's not that he doesn't like Artie, because he does consider him to be a great friend, it's just he knows that this whole visit was either his Mom or Burt's idea.
"Hey, Carole, why don't we go for a walk and get some coffee and let these guys catch up," Burt's says. Oh my gosh, could he be any more obvious?
"Sounds great," Carole says as she gets up from her chair. "Finn, we'll be back in a little bit, okay?"
"Okay," he answers as his Mom and Burt walk out the door. "So who put you up to this, my Mom or Burt?" Finn asks right away.
"Finn, what are you talking about?" Artie asks.
"Come on, I know Burt didn't just run into you."
"Fine, he called my Dad while I was at school and my Dad texted me and asked if I would mind dropping by to see you after Glee," Artie admits.
"So what, they wanted you to come and try to cheer me up?"
"You can think that of it that way if you want," Artie says. "But honestly, I was hoping to be able to come and visit you soon. I heard Puck, Mike and Sam came to see you last night, so I figure it's about time for me to visit you too, right?"
"Yeah," Finn says, realizing he should probably be grateful that Artie's here to see him. Besides, so far Artie has been treating him a lot more normal than the guys had last night. Last night with the guys had just been…awkward because it was obvious that they really didn't know how to act around him. "This whole thing just really sucks," Finn says feeling like he can be completely honest with Artie. "Just a few days I go was running around, throwing touchdown passes, now I can't even pick up my feet or wiggle my toes."
"I know, believe me, I've been there," Artie says.
"I know. It's just when is it going feel to normal? How long will it take for me to get used to living like this?"
"It'll take some time, but once you learn how to get yourself in and out of your wheelchair, how to get dressed and sort of establish a routine it gets a lot easier. But I'm going to be honest with you, Finn, there are still times when it's hard, when I feel left out and all alone because I'm in a wheelchair."
"Like when?"
"Like when you first tried to get me on the football team and Coach Beiste wouldn't let me. Or anytime in Glee when you guys have to choreograph a number around me or I have to alter the dance moves for myself since I'm in my wheelchair."
"Yeah, well, you won't be the only the one in a wheelchair in Glee anymore. Besides, I've always been horrible at dancing, so who knows maybe now since I'll be in my wheelchair my dancing will actually look better," Finn says laughing. He realizes this is the first time he's laughed since the accident and it feels really good to be able to joke about something.
"Very true," Artie laughs.
"Can I ask you a personal question?" Finn says, getting serious again.
"Uh, sure," Artie says hesitantly.
"Do you have to wear diapers? 'Cause right now, I do," Finn says looking down at the floor because he's so embarrassed to be admitting this.
"Only at night, during the day I self-catheterize about every three and a half hours."
"So, during the day you can wear regular boxers?"
"Yeah, but usually I wear a small pad in them so if I end up having to cath a little late I don't have to worry about wetting my pants."
"Do you think I'll have to do this cath thing too?"
"I don't know it all depends on the full extent of your injuries."
"I'm past the point where there's much hope of me gaining anything else back."
"Then, yeah, you probably will. What not the answer you wanted to hear?" Arties asks seeing the disappointed look on Finn's face.
"Not really." He has several other questions he wants to ask Artie. The biggest question he has though is if he can have sex. He doesn't even want to think about the possibility of never having sex again considering the only time he did was the night he lost his virginity to Santana; a decision he had instantly regretted. He decides not to ask these questions right now though, because he doesn't know if he really wants to know the answers.
"Finn, it's not like you have to tell anyone. I mean, you didn't know that I have to cath."
"I know, it's just I feel so helpless; I feel like I can't do anything anymore."
"That's not true. You can do most of the things you could do before, you just might have to do some things a little differently. The key is to focus on all the things you can still do."
"Like what?"
"Like the fact that you still have complete use of your arms. I mean, you can still feed yourself and everything."
"Yeah, tru-" Finn starts to say but is cut off by a knock on the door.
"Hey, guys sorry to cut this visit short, but Artie's dad's here to pick him up," Burt says as he stands in the doorway of the room.
"Hey, thanks for coming, man," Finn says. "You keep those Titans in line for me, all right?"
"No problem." Artie says as he wheels himself out the door.
"Finn , your mom and I will be back in a few minutes, okay?" Burt says as he walks out the door, leaving Finn to wonder why he left so quickly.
Almost immediately Finn gets his answer as Amy, the cute blond nurse walks into his room along with the blood pressure machine and closes the door behind her. Of course it has to be the hot nurse that caused me to…react this morning, Finn thinks, hoping he doesn't embarrass himself again.
"Okay, Finn, you know the drill," Amy says as he opens his mouth for her to put the thermometer in under his tongue. She then proceeds to check his blood pressure while she waits for the thermometer to go off. Like always she's done checking his blood pressure just as the thermometer goes off. "Okay, everything looks good," Amy says.
"Why do you have to take my temperature if I was never even sick in the first place?"
"It's just procedure," she says as she grabs a pair of latex gloves, a fresh diaper, and blue pad from the table by his bed. "Okay, you remember how we did this morning?"
"Yeah," he answers.
"I'm going to need you to move your arms and the rest of your upper body towards the center of the bed so you're lying flat on your back and I'll move your legs for you."
"Okay."
"One, two, three," they both say and on three he tries to roll over as much he can to the center of the bed while she picks up his legs for him.
"All right," she says, now that he's lying in the center of the bed. "I'm going to lift your legs up and if you can hold them up with your hands while I change you here quick that would be great because that seemed to work well this morning," Amy says she gently picks up his legs and guides them up towards his chest until he takes a hold of them while she puts the blue pad down underneath which he knows is for in case if he ends up peeing during the few seconds he doesn't have a diaper on he won't wet the bed. He realizes she didn't emphasize the fact that what she's changing his wet and possibly dirty diaper, which somehow seems to make it a little less embarrassing.
Then again as he lies there holding his legs he wonders if there could be anything more embarrassing than this: He's lying flat on his back literally naked from the waist down while a cute nurse changes his diaper. No, he's pretty sure this is about as bad as it gets.
"Okay," Amy says after she's done changing him and throws his wet diaper away. "Now I just need you to roll over the rest of the way onto your right side, okay? You, ready?"
"Yeah."
"One-two-three," they both say as Finn rolls over as much as he can while Amy once again picks up his legs for him.
"Okay, are you comfortable for now?"
"Yeah," Finn answers
"Okay," Amy says as she takes the blood pressure machine with her as she walks out the door.
Almost immediately his Mom and Burt walk back into his room.
"Hey, did you have nice time with Artie?" Carole asks.
"Yeah, even though Burt set up the whole thing," Finn says laughing.
"I have no idea what you're talking about," Burt says trying to deny he had anything to do with Artie visiting.
"Yeah, right," Finn says. "Thanks, though"
"No problem," Burt says.
Finn turns on the TV and flips through several channels, after a few minutes though he realizes there's nothing really on so he might as well lay down and close his eyes for a few minutes since there's nothing really else for him to do. "I think I'm going to close my eyes for a few minutes."
"Okay, sweetheart," Carole says.
"We'll be here when you get up," Burt adds.
And he knows they will be, because they've been with him the entire time since this whole hellish ordeal started.
