It was one thirty in the morning and the team finally left the Police Station of this hicktown to catch some sleep in their hotel in the next town. Alex was damn tired she always was the first night away from him. She could sleep without fearing that he would attack her in the middle of the night in every way possible, so in these first nights she would always step out of her shoes set her alarm and fall asleep.

When Morgan drove on the yard of the house behind Hotch, Alex narrowed her eyes 'Oh please hopefully he got lost and needs to ask for directions' she thought. It wasn't like she couldn't sleep in any bed right now or demand a three to five star hotel like the mostly had but…a bed in a four star hotel clearly would be more comfortable tonight. "You're sure we are right?" asked Reid.

"You must be kidding me, is that even a hotel?" asked Alex as he stopped and they got out.

"It's a little rustically if you ask me" Morgan said to Hotch and JJ snorted.

"That's the understatement of the year" she said.

"Well there is something else, we need to team up for the rooms, but it was the only one left with free rooms" Hotch said Alex sighed.

"I really don't care with whom I get to share with, as long as the one isn't snoring! Seriously I'm pretty good in throwing shoes in the dark and I never miss my target" she said.

"Ouch, I'm out then" said Rossi and Morgan nodded.

"Me two, then let us share we won't disturb anyone with our snoring" he said.

"So you finally admit that you are snoring" JJ mocked grinning.

"No, I only wanted to be friendly" he answered but JJ only rolled her eyes.

"I'm going to share with Alex…don't need to hear your talking in your sleep Spence" JJ said, Reid blinked at her surprised and then just shrugged his shoulders in acceptance that he had to share with Hotch.

"Good let's go I'm damn tired" said Alex and they all got their bags, went inside and up to their rooms. Before JJ could ask which bed Alex wanted while she locked the door she heard how her friend already opened the door to the bathroom. Alex's bag was on the second bed, open and she heard Alex brush her teeth, JJ blinked a couple of times.

"Okay…then I'll take this" she mumbled to herself, changed into a wide, old Shirt and shorts before she followed Alex's lead and brushed her teeth.

Before she could start any conversation Alex already made appearance to leave, JJ asked herself if she did anything wrong but the answer already came from the older woman.

"I'm sorry JJ but I'm really tired I haven't sleep much the last days and it has nothing to do with you…thanks that you saved Spence from being kicked out by me" she said and JJ saw that now they were alone she really looked awfully tired.

"It's okay, now go to bed before I have to drag you there because you fell asleep on the floor" JJ said smiling and Alex didn't need to be told twice.

She wasn't even in the condition to be cautious around JJ with her wounds, she just wiggled out of her pants and took them and her socks and shoes off in one motion and didn't even care to put them aside but instead threw her blouse on the pile of clothes too and slipped under the covers. Alex had fallen asleep before her head hit the pillow.

When JJ walked back into the bedroom she saw that Alex was already sound asleep, she also saw the pile of cloth and grinned, she never expected Alex to be so careless and just throwing her clothes on the floor.

She shrugged it off and got to bed herself and set her alarm. She did wonder though what was going on with her friend who slept in the bed beside her, they had spent a lot time together since she and Will had some trouble and she really had helped her.

But there was something going on with Alex, she was quieter then usually and sometimes she would wince when she turned around too quickly. Maybe she would ask Alex in the morning or on the flight back home, JJ yawned and turned around falling in a peaceful sleep her friend hadn't had in over a decade.

She finally had the courage to leave him. She couldn't stand it any longer the beating and shouting, the humiliation she had to go through day after day after day. She couldn't take it any longer, but who would believe her? She was staying the night with one of the last friends she had left.

She hadn't told her friend what was going on though, she hadn't received a severe beating in a while; there were no marks to show.

It wasn't like he didn't know where to hit her so he would leave nearly no marks, better said he knew where to hit her so no one could see them, he was a Doctor after all. What was she going to do now? She couldn't stay with them here much longer he would search for her and sooner or later he would find her if she was going to stay.

Alex woke up because someone stroked over her cheek, she opened her eyes and turned her head only to look in to the face of her husband. She tried to scream but his hand quickly covert her mouth.

"Oh No, no you won't say anything right know, do you really think I would let you walk out like that? Do you think I'm stupid? You really though you had someone left out there didn't you, then guess who called me the minute he saw you in his house?" he said threatening and she swallowed.

No, no, no they wouldn't have done that! Why would he call him and sent her back? She looked away, but he forced her to look at him. "Look at me, I already packed your things and we will go home now okay? And you won't say one word you understood, or I swear you'll regret it!" he hissed.

She didn't answer so he hit her across the face.

"Did. You. Under. Stand. Me!" he underlined every word with a hard slap in her face, she then nodded, he smiled a smile she had never seen on his face before and it scared her like hell.

He pulled her out of the bed and dragged her down the stairs never taking his hand off of her mouth, when they reached the front door she saw Elena standing in the door way to the living room, tears streamed down her face she understood now, she went through the same she did.

"Thanks for the call Jimmy" James said and the last thing she heard of the man she though had been a friend was:

"No Problem, I'd punish her for that! See you Monday".

He drove home and whistled along the song on the radio, Alex on the other hand got more frightened with every second, what would he do to her now? He would beat her senseless that was clear but she had this feeling that it would be worse tonight.

She didn't even notice the tears on her face…she wished she had never met him, had never fallen for him and never married him she didn't only wish it, she begged every God in every religion this world knew, to take her out of her misery. To not make her pay for one mistake she did when she was young and naïve.

When he pulled into their driveway she swallowed in fear of what would happen. He took her hand as they walked to the front door probably to make it look like everything was perfect for the neighbors.

She stood there in the middle of the hallway and didn't dare to look at him. She sensed his fist before it even hit her, slamming her into the wall he grabbed her by the neck and chocked her while he hit her head against the wall.

"You'll never do this again! Did you understand me you stupid slut? I'm not dump I will find you anywhere you can't hide from me and if you ever try this again you will curse the day you were born" James yelled and beat her until Alex lay motionless on the floor trying to breathe through the pain.

"Come on" he said as he watched her and then dragged her up the stairs and into the bed room where he threw her on the bed, for a moment she thought he would just leave her there.

But then he ripped her shirt and bra off, in this second she realized that it wasn't over and knew what would happen, she tried to struggle fight his hands off but another blow to the head nearly knocked her out giving him time to tear her pants apart.

"No! No Please James don't! Please don't do this please…No, no, no! I beg you please don't do this!" she cried desperately but he only laughed at her.

"It's too late now, your mine, I owe you, your my wife and I can do to you whatever I want and you know what? There is nothing you can do to change that" she closed her eyes when he forced her legs apart, he seemed to know what she was thinking and placed her hands behind her head so she couldn't fight back what was about to come and chocked her again.

Alex cried out in pain as he forcefully entered her, which made him hit her, she wanted to die, she wanted to die right now she didn't want to see him, hear him or feel him as he ripped her apart. She really only wanted to die. Alex turned her head away and tears streamed down her face but he turned her head, "Look at me..." he grunted, but she couldn't, she couldn't look at him whilst he raped her, so he slapped her again and she opened her eyes, the pleading in her eyes to stop made him grin at her.

"Alex!" she short up and pushed the hands of the person beside her away, before she realized who it was.

"Whoa! Alex, Calm down it's only me! I wanted to wake you because you sleep through the alarm going off" JJ said when she saw how her friend flinched away from her. Alex then recognized where she was and who was standing next to her bed.

"Sorry JJ! Bad Dream…" she sighed and run her fingers through her hair, she then turned and slipped into her pants still sitting on the bed so JJ couldn't see the bruises.

"You're sure that you're okay?" JJ asked as Alex got up and took some fresh cloth before she made it to the bathroom she needed to leave the room, she couldn't let JJ see what was going on with her.

"Yeah I'm fine" she said and she knew she didn't sound very persuasive.

"Alex-"

"Listen JJ! I'm alright okay now let me take a shower and leave me alone okay? I'm fine" she said and closed the door behind her. JJ stood in front of the door slightly confused and shook her head. 'Had there been bruises on Alex's thighs?' she asked herself.

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